Reliving IPK 113

Episode 111-113

It Doesn't Mean A Thing

Please Let Me Know Dear God

Engaged

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Why the poolside is lit with lamps all about and the warm glow is soft like a candlelit room? It is the perfect place for romance; a place for me to get lost in emotion. Why is the poolside, a safe haven to let down my guard and allow all that I am feeling to burst just like the crackers outside on the streets. The little boy guilt for having her payal is no more, I will take the precious payal and clasps it around her ankle. This precious payal was her mother's and was returned to its rightful place on Kushi's ankle and I feel content.

She brings her sari down passed her ankle and he stands up; she does too but there are many unspoken questions lingering in the air.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Why did I walk away? She watches me almost disappointed that I am leaving but I turned around, I was compelled to as she nervously wrings her hands and looks away. Seconds pass but it seems like an eternity and then her eyes slowly shift upward gazing into mine. She has just given me permission that was all I needed.

He starts walking towards her intently looking into her eyes, her lips quivering and for every step forward he takes, she takes one step back. She too can feel it, the strong attraction and mesmerizing pull. Thud'.there is no where else for her to go she is up against the wall, cornered.

He is coming closer...closer...closer...

she can feel his breath upon her skin.

He reaches and caresses her face, she closes her eyes in bliss, his touch so appealing. Her breath starts as a shallow pant, high in her chest, but then deepens and comes hard and fast; he moves her so much. Her hand clenches her sari. Her pink luscious lips are calling him and ever so slowly he is answering their call. He wants her with all his being; he can't fight it anymore.

Just when his lips are about to touch hers,

RRRINNNGGG ...

RRRINNNGGG...

RRRINNNGGG...

reality hits...

eyes open...

STUNNED!

His hands release her as if he has been burned.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

I close my eyes and think why did I do that? Why was I carried away?

I look at her she too looks embarrassed and I walk away.

Oh, Devi Maiyya,

How has this happened, what does it mean and why does did he have my payal?

I must find out, help me.

He is alone, eyes closed. He pictures in his mind how his lips nearly touched hers.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

How can I do this? How could this happen? Why? Why was I so weak?

She comes to him. He leaves.

Back at the party ASR is assisting Di and Kushi is on the phone telling her sister she will be home soon. La asks Kushi where has she been; she has been looking for her. Kushi says I have been right here. She sees him talking with guests and then he is gone and she tells La she will be right back. He is avoiding her averting his eyes everytime she looks at him.

Something is definitely wrong.

Anjali asks Kushi what is the matter, oh, she knows it is getting late. Anjali says don't worry she will send her home in her car. Kushi sees Arnav and walks away from Di leaving her hanging. "Kushi'Kushi?''

He is at poolside again and she goes there.

Please let me know my dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Why did I fake being on the phone and she knew it. She says to me that she needed to talk to me and my reply was I didn't want to talk to her but she says I must. Why must I? Why must I admit my feelings for her?

Back at the party neighbors have come and they have met Lavanya. They have heard that she is Arnav's live in girlfriend. How can Nani allow this in her home?

Oh Devi Maiyya

Give me strength.

Where did you find my payal? Since when have you had it and why didn't you return it earlier? Why today? Tell me, answer me.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Don't let her see I am lying.

Don't you learn when you're told once? Leave me alone, in fact I don't want to see you. Don't you understand?

Oh, Devi Maiyya,

Give me courage!

No I don't understand, you explain it to me.

He tells her, Go away from here!!!

He tries to leave but she blocks his way.

Explain it to me! Why was my payal with you? What does this mean and all that happened'..

Angrily and frustrated he tells her,

I said just leave me alone!!!!

She starts to talk to him again. He can't take it; he grabs her, "don't you dare say another word!" He is hurting her, gripping her like a vice, like the pain he is feeling in his heart. He finally realizes the pain he is causing her when he sees tears in her eyes and it stops him; he can't stand to see her in pain, even if he hates her right now for revealing his true feelings to her. He closes his eyes, he has done it again, hurt her. He releases his hands from her arms.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Give me strength!

I don't need to answer anything you ask.

He walks away.

The neighbors are still carrying on about the live in relationship, when Arnav walks up grabs Lavanya's and and says that his intentions are to marry Lavanya. All are surprised including Kushi across the room. Everyone is happy while Kushi is in tears and all he can do is watch her reaction. ASR and La take Nani's blessing and everyones hugs and congratulations. La is ecstatic!

Kushi runs to leave. She is in tears and La catches her from going out the door. She asks her why is she crying, is everything okay? Isn't she happy for her? Kushi lies and tells her they are tears of joy. La thanks her for everything since it was Kushi who has enabled this to happen.

Absolutely, La, because if nothing had happened at poolside you would still be just a live in and not a soon to be engaged girlfriend.

Please let me know, My Dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Why am I glad I hurt her? Who does she think she is?

And who am I kidding?

And I certainly wouldn't be praying to you!

Kushi is dragged back by Lavanya and she is the one who has to give the sweets. My Dear God, such a punishment. This girl is just realizing her feelings for this man, has experienced a very intimate exchange only to be slapped in the face and he engages himself to someone else! She must leave and Anjali is insisting he take her home. She says No! She will be all right and she leaves.

Kushi is devastated. As she is walking, she relives what just occurred between them. It is too late.

The family is so excited making plans for a quick engagement and marriage. Arnav becomes angry he only agreed to get married he didn't say when he would do anything! He leaves. He can't stand the idea she is out there alone, he goes to find her.

He reaches her and gets out of the car and tells her to shut up and go sit in the car. Way to go arnav, take control of your woman, jerk!

The car ride is awkward with Kushi babbling to hide her pain and he is asking her don't you want to know about your payal? He has come up with some crazy excuse for having it I am sure. She is congratulating him on his engagement and she is happy for them.

Oh, really?

He stops the car soon after. I said get out!

They are outside her house, she didn't realize. She thought he was throwing her out of the car again. She tries to unbuckle her seat belt, has difficulty, as always and when leaving her dear dupatta doesn't want to leave him she is holding on. Kushi struggles aqnd as she does her wallet falls into the car. Ah yes, that is why our lovely little dupatta held on; he must return to her again and say all those nasty little lies.

The family is just so totally frustrated and confused. First Arnav agrees for the engagement and then says no for the wedding. They have to meet Lavanya's parents so why was he like this. Anjali mentions that they didn't know if he would marry and now atleast he has agreed, and Shyam says he must feel like he is being rushed. They all agree to let Arnav take his time.

As he comes to a halt the wallet falls below his feet. He sees it. It is HERS. Hmm, was that a frustrated sigh I saw? He throws the wallet on the dashboard.

She is at home, her life will never be the same. The whole family is in the living room and Buaji is pressuring Kushi for an answer to her marriage with Shyam. Garima asks Kushi if she wants some tea. A true mother she is to Kushi, she notices her tension and wants to calm her.

She has to have a good reason why she shouldn't marry him. And her reason knocks on the door.

She goes to answer the door and it is Arnav with her wallet. Buaji invites him in admonishing Kushi for her bad manners. He enters the home and Garima says she will get some sweets. Kushi answers like a good wife would," Nahi, Mom he is not suppose to have sweets". Arnav is very polite. He asks how Babuji is and tells the family if they ever need anything to inform him, just like a good husband would say. He wishes them Happy Diwali and leaves to go, both glancing at each other knowing the events of the evening. Garima tells Kushi to go and walk him out.

Please let me know, My Dear God and Devi Maiyya
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Why is it that the spider is still spinning his web? He is trying to leave the house with an excuse of going to receive his allergy injection. Anjali is worried, Dear God. She wants to go and support her husband but he is weaving and weaving an excuse and again she falls for it, falling into his web, so he can devour her.

He leaves and we know where he's going!

He calls his goons he has something planned.

Back at the GH, Kushi runs out after him thanking him. He tells her "she has a habit of leaving her things with him just like the payal at the pool. I had your payal don't thionk otherwise. Don't think that I held on to the payal as a mememto to this rich man. It doesn't matter to me.

It doesn't mean a thing."

She pictures what happened at poolside questioning,"it doesn't mean a thing?" She saw his face as he placed her payal so reverently on her ankle, she saw the intensity of emotion when he tried to kiss her, "Doesn't mean a thing?" That's not true and she knows it deep in her heart. He does too but he must stop the thoughts. "Maybe you do and you thought you would change your life forever." He walks forward, here it comes, "All that happened, doesn't meant anything at all to me. It doesn't mean a thing." The final slap in the face and kick her when she is down, she deserved it for making him reveal himself and his feelings. Now he shouldn't feel anything for her, now it will be over.

He leaves. The slamming car door makes her jump. He speeds off and she slowly sits on the steps crying. She is devastated. Payal comes out noting that Kushi has found her payal and asks her about it. Kushi pictures the scene at poolside and says to her sister it doesn't matter and runs to her room, locking the door behind her. Here, alone, in the quiet of her room she slides down the door and collapses on the floor crying hysterically.

He is in his car. She is in his head. The psychiatrist couch of his car is not going to help him out of this mess he has gotten himself into.

Please let me know my dear God
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

faasle meelon ke hain, dono hai alag disha,

There's miles between them, both are going different directions,

kabhi ye mil payenge, nahin kisiko hai pata,

Will they ever meet, no one knows,

nahin kisiko hai pata

No one knows,

tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

ik baat usme bhi hai, to ik baat usme bhi hai,

there is something special in him, there is something special about her too,

hai dhoop saa woh agar, wo chaandi raat si hai,

If one is like the shade from the sun, the other is like full moonlight,

mil paaye kabhi dono, kya teri isme hai razaa...?

Will the two ever meet, do they have your permission

tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba
tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

na paas aa sake, na door ja sake

They cannot come close nor can they go far from each other,

gar pyar inko kheenche, takrar inko roke

If love draws them close, their tiffs stops them,

gar pyar inko kheenche, takrar inko roke

yun to badhe hain inke kadam, inhe raasta tu hi dikha

They have moved on , so please show them the path,

inhe raasta tu hi dikha

Show them the path

tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba-

Tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

Tu hi bata mere maula, tu hi bata mere rabba

ISS PYAAR KO KYA NAAM DOON?

They are broken.

Buaji says Kushi is going crazy she has locked herself in her room. When will she realize what a catch Shyam is? On and on and on she tyrates, enough Buaji! Payal says Kushi is very worried she will speak to her. Shyam enters bearing a gift of sweets. He says to Buaji a light is out she should check it and when Buaji goes out there she finds the graffiti written on her house in the shape of a heart with Kushi and Shyam's name. She is so upset, making a scene, they all run out and the web is so big they have all been caught. The spider has succeeded in catching his prey. Shyam makes such a scene it is disgusting and Shyam has hurt Babuji in all ways and I can't even type what he has done to this man in the episode forcing him to aspirate the sweet. UGH!

Kushi is blamed and now she is forced to accept his proposal for her family's sake and dignity. So disgusting and so sad for our Kushi especially after the night she has had.

Both Arnav and Kushi are fixed to be

ENGAGED...

But not to each other.

My Index

Diwali.Part 5

[Tu hi Bata mere Maula -4^th time]

What a night where darkness is prevailing inside and outside the door.Inside she is facing the wrath to say yes for a deceit who is waiting for her with open

arms . Outside her heart is awaiting with his eyes who are not ready to leave her tonight at any state..at any cost

na paas aa sakain hain.na door ja sakain,Raba..

Love the gif below ... Really depicts what a night ...

Arnav with debility"tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha,"[you left it in the car]. He came back with her wallet but why..Khushi with bafflementwith questions .why is he here again ?

Pause here:This is the wallet which she is going to clutch tightly later as she is clutching on him...

He hands her the wallet, eyes dark ,cold but still with a flicker of firmness "tumne gadi mein chhor diya tha... "

Khushi like a statue,no words.while Buaji intervenes and calls him in vehemently like her own son"babuaandar aao na "[come in son]He will be loving and caring her later like her own son...

Here he is first time meeting her father,the most important person in her life.His concerns for her family leaving another "nahin understand " moment in her mind .He bids good bye after saying "happy Diwali". He gets another convulsion "Nahin amma inhain meetha mana hai"[he can't have sweets] from Khushi's concerns for him.[hubby and wifey talk]What a night where in this dark Diwali the light of their love is still flickering .They share their moment quietly.Another ritual is done ,groom in his in laws for the first Diwali.

Lovely point ... He had done all those things for her ... She had said to him hum aap ka ghar Kay sadsaya nahin hai ... Yet he did it ..

His gazes are still refusing her sight..."shukriya..." [thank you ]she said... in tension. , she's perturbed and disarrayed within as you can feel this discomfort in each of her move here...[it felt she was thankful for him to come back]
"humara batwa lautane keh liye..." [for returning my purse]

He stops, clenches his jaws as he had enough of her resilience against his wrath and every move of her tonight is bubbling his lava to erupt and this is the last straw in it.He wants to break her to keep his shell on even its shattered one.My heart goes down when he turned with his stone exterior behind of which a king , a young man wants to embrace her queen in his arms for eternity but he is on a mission to hate her as much as he can to get his control back and he got another reason to distend here[just want to hug these both]

Beautifully said ...ArshiH ... He said all these thing ... Yet my heart broke for him as much as it wanted to shake him ... Who cares about control ASA ... Just go hug her and be done ... Not really ... Best track coming up ...😛

"apni cheezain yahan wahan chorne ki aadat hai tumhain. jaise apni payal mere pool par chori thi... tumhari payal mere paas thi iss baat ka koi galat mattlab mat nikal laina... yeh mat sochna eik amir adami tumhari payal ko apne seene se laga kar baitha tha...Mujhe in sab se koi fadak nahin padta"

Translation:stop leaving your things her and there like you left your payal by my poolside, don't take any wrong meaning of it that some rich was holding it near to his heart ,it has no meaning for me and that is the last nail in the coffin.[My heart breaks in million pieces with her as her first love who made her feel which she never did before is telling her all this that she is nothing ...]

Khushi in abhorrence and revulsion with baffling around his concerns,care , and delicacy while not letting her out of his sight the whole night ,putting her payal on her and above all luring his electable lips near hers..."Koi Matlab Nahin Hai"[has no meaning] by emulating ASR...

Could really feel her hollowness with those words ... Both Barun and Santa were pitch perfect ...

Arnav like an ankle biter going in for ruthless and intimidating way to kill her innocent spirit,""shayad tumhare liye hoga..." ..."tumhain toh laga hoga keh tumhari zindagi ban gayey." ...."mere liye uss baat ki, ya tumhari... koi ahmiyat nahin hai."

Translation: maybe for you it is.. you must have thought your life is set now. But For me neither you nor that thing has any importance.Here is proving her "haan nahin hai Dil ASR keh seene mein"[ASR does not have any heart]

Sad Raba Ve slides in to increase the pain..to intensify her sudden reaction in her rejection "meant nothing" by the very first man who meant everything to her.

Pause here:He still did not give any answer of her questions or that is his Shatir Diamg came up with in her questions so he can tell her you and your payal has no meaning even if I did all of what my heart compelled to do at that momet.

Raba Ve changes to Tu hi bata mere Maula[fourth time as this is the new beginning of new phase of their life].

Khushi in tears jerks up by his slamming door.Her tears makes him "kamzore" but he is the reason of these scattered pearls all the time.

PONDERING CONNECTING DOTS: He will make this whole world pay for her tears Shyam,Dadi,Garima and more and will do what ever will it take to bring her smile back..."bas yehi tou mein chahta tha keh eik bar tumhare chehre peh smile aajaye"[I just wanted a smile on your face] ...all the way "humara eik aansoo aap keh dil ko hazar bar chot pohnchahta hai"..Har bar[my each tear hurt your heart.Arnav...every time]

Thanks ArshiH for reminding us of the future ... Humara ek ek ansoo ...

Har bar ... Love it ...

Her clutching her wallet shows how strongly she is still clutching on Arnav...
Her ambling ,holding and sitting every move tells stance of her broken and shattered state even which turned into completely break down when Payal reminds her about lost anklet...

Khushi in mortifying state"uss baat ka koi matlab nahin tha, jiji."[It means nothing jiji]

She ran into her room ,locked Tu hi bata BG scores high notes in her convulsion state.Khushi with excruciating pain by hugging herself with endless tears, which are rolling down without control monotonously...[ I feel like hugging her badly]

Gar pyar in ko kheeche takrar in ko rokeRaba

Arnav roaming around aimlessly like a stone figure pretending without heart but her pearly face is roaming over and over in front of his eyes pulling him in the vortex of love and hate as pyar and takrar...tu hi bata mere maula in the BG intensifies to bring these two who neither can live with each other nor stay away from each other .Her sniveling is unbearable as it always make him "kamzore"...as he halts the SUV by closing his eyes leaning his head backward in his turbulent state as there is no way to run for Arnav Singh Raizada this time as he can't hide anymore from the pain he caused her[I want to hug him too so he can let it got

Have always loved his anguished head throw backs ... Like he can't breath ... Really these two make watching them so emotional ...

Raba Ve...Iss pyar ko kya naam doon

He just refused to enter this paradise which Khushi created for him with arousing yet beautiful feelings like roses to enter which he crushed today with his own thorns .

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS: He will be cherishing the rose of Khushi and will learn to just crush Thorn [Dadi and Shyam]not Rose in the garden of love by his mother's guidance.He will come to her to keep her for eternity.

But tight now he is doing the phoolon ko saza ...

He remembered how her pearly tears were shedding and falling from her eyes during the announcement of his engagement' intention to marry la then her embracing la and her teary and questioning look at him, eyes were moist,only her tears just tears which are making Mighty ASR "kamzore" [weak] yet "Arnav Singh Raizada ko kissi larki se koi Fadak nahi padta"[Not a single girl matters to him]

One side A man who just broke her in million pieces but can do anything for her life her father and her family and other side the other man who is playing deceitful games with her Sita like wife and is ready with his slouchy games tonight to sting this middle class family's honor and above all can manhandle and use a poor father as a weakest link to get what he wants "to play with the honor of a young girl "if she will not accept his marriage proposal .

She is hurt and can't see the truth behind father's hurting eyes or may be it's written that way ...as Buaji's pressure is increasing with her blackmailing on an orphan regardless of Garima and Payal's intervention once in a while but the Lava which was building up this night flows up with the sense of responsibility towards its family especially towards Babuji...

She remembered the payal and his reverberating words ""mujhe iss sab se koi farq nahi padta, [doesn't mean a thing"] she finally retreats and gives in.

theek hai" ...hum tayar hain"[ok I'm ready]

Pause here:Love this girl and her "himmat"[courage] she is full of flaccidity and resiliency as her heart is broken but not determination and strength.She is Khushi not for name's sake only.In my POV if he did not announce his engagement with La ,she would never said yes either no matter what .For her he is another woman's man now...

Agree one hundred percent ... There was no way ... No matter how hard Buaji would have tried ... She wouldn't have agreed had he not announced his Engagement ... Even if there had not been a Payal or a near kiss scene ...

Here we can close those six circles "chakravyuh " [which I discussed in 109] as Khushi put herself in it and all those relations will shape up according to that.One man's complexity is pushing everyone's life up side down but may be this is "Bhagiya" Fate which will bring a lot of devastation in their lives and that day Arnav Singh Raizada will realize he can't write Fate by himself...but before it Khushi will give her reminder as a warning during her bandagement "aap ka haath pakad keh likhwaya hai.."but he will not listen to it regardless he will be in the Mandir...BUT HE IS THE ONE who will bring Khushi out of it and will place each relation to its place but together having her hand in his ...

What a night?Two young people flushed with their immense love and care for each other but ended up in tears for each other ..

Arnav said yes to run away from love to keep his beliefs "not a single girl matters to me.means nothing to me"

Khushi said yes to run away from that belief which means nothing to her now for which she was going against her family and saying No to Shyam...The reason of Her Dhak Dhak which means nothing now as she got the answer of "nahin understand" in her version...

A deceit has won just because truth was not faced and embraced by one man but in between these two a PURE pearl has been muddled and scared..

Today's Epi

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