FF Turnaround NOTE on PG150.. - Page 19

Originally posted by: Rarepearl

Hey Dear,

I read your ff today, I had seen it's title before as well but couldn't get the time to go through it but today my lack of sleep made me read it & I can't tell you how much I am in love with the story.

Your narration, description of Asad-Zoya's pain, agony, restlessness & longing for each other, & above all their love for each other & their family is just too perfect. I must tell you that you are a wonderful writer dear who knows how to portray it's story through the characters v well. well done! 👍🏼

Now coming to the parts. I really loved the zest Zoe showed towards life in the starting chapter but the crown charm from her bag & Asad's voice running in her thought had put me in thinking as to why they were separated? her willingness to help & be there for Nikhat at her time of need was so nice. she really knows how to carry herself. now I understood her love for India after reading of Asad's dream about the past where she had asked him to take her to India along with him. She enjoyed everything just as he had told her to be. despite being away & pretending to be not thinking about the other, they always were & are an essential part of the other. I really appreciate her action of saying a yes to Ayaan for his film just because he had been nice with her during her stay & she had found a great friend in him. well what can one say about destiny, it plays tricks that are most unexpected, just like bringing the two lovers face to face after a gap of 4 years.

WOW, AMAZING, POWERFUL are the words that came to my mind after reading Asad's introduction, I mean it was just as powerful & dominating as his presence, I hope you get my point. I felt bad for him as he was deprived of his childhood, despised love because of the ruined relation of his parents yet fell in love irrevocably to be left stranded without a clue. I feel super sad for him. but his reaction to her on the movie launch day had really hurt me. the way he asked her that she was running away again & insulting her, & Zoe was all embarrassed. I understood that Zoe left him but then her misery & pain didn't add up to any conclusions. but you've managed to summarize all the years happenings in the flashbacks just perfectly.

It's clear that if Asad suffered then Zoe suffered a 10 times more than him because she had to leave her love unwillingly.

I really disapprove of such behavior from Dilshad, despite having met Zoe, how could she accuse her of holding back his son, I understand her state of mind but still, she can't ruin others' lives for her sake. all that I can say in Dilshad's favor, as I know she isn't bad the situation made her react that way, is that love can make you do anything.

Now that all is clear to me of the feelings & situations between AsYa, AyRa & their family, I just hope Dilshad is able to tell Asad about what she did or said to Zoe. the mother-son haven't shared anything regarding this topic yet, isn't it?

well plz add me to ur pm list, I've sent in a request. Continue super soon as I want to know what happens after this steamy moment between AsYa which ended abruptly & shook them.

Lots of love,

Nim.

Here is an unadulterated..exclusively..Asad and Zoya chapter..Enjoy!!!

CH10

Words and more than words...

Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you

More than words

(song-More than words..westlife version...)

Zoya, with her hair in disarray, her eyes filled with tears, and her top a little torn, ran to her room, her emotions possesing the best of her. She didn't know what was going on within her; the web of her tangled emotions seemed to be gripping her senses. Asad had kissed her, no his character had kissed her character, but it felt otherwise. What would have transpired if they were not inturrepted, OMG what would the crew be thinking She couldn't believe it, she had let go off herself, forgetting her surrounding, betraying her professionalism and had indulged in what could only be called foreplay.She leaned on the wall of her dressing room, agasht at her actions, her tears nowhere close to their end.

Zoya-Allah miyaan, yeh main kya kar baithi?? How could I have not been aware of where this was headed? How did I not stop it. OMG I kissed Asad, and that too in front of the whole crew' She gasped in disbelief, reliving the moment and acknowledging the magnitude of her action. She couldn't stop herself from crying, she felt betrayed by her own self,the turmoil within her ripping her alive. One part her wanted to rejoice,wake up and live, Asad had kissed her,touched her loved her as his own,while the other part was was sinking in the quicksand of doubt, making her look away from her happiness,making her feel guilty for becoming weak. Asad doesn't love you, and why should he, you left him bare,left him to a broken heart and home. Hell he he had no other choice, he had to, he was doing his job. Get over yourself Zoya and if you want to save the remaining bits of your dignity, get this in your head, ASAD DOESN'T CARE' .She couldn't take it anymore, grabbing her head in her hands and sinking on the floor.

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Asad didn't bother to knock, and pushed the door open, only to find Zoya crying inconsolably on the floor. He rushed to her and engulfed her in his arms, brushing off the hair off her face and gently kissing her forehead.

Asad-Zoya tum jaanti ho na ki mein tumhe rote hue nahi dekh sakta, so please stop crying and look at me'

Zoya didn't move, instead she cried even more, unconsciously grabbing Asad's unbottened shirt and fisting it in her palms.

Asad- Zoya please mat ro, meri jaan mat ro'.

Zoya's head snapped up, at the mention of those 2 words'Meri Jaan' .Asad had always called her that when she was upset, and had a bad day, always making her feel warm and very loved in an instant.Her teary eyed made their way to his eyes, looking into the warmth and love she had craved, like a starved soul, for the past 4 years. She held his gaze allowing her to look in his soul, allowing her to feel finally grabbing him tight and hiding herself in him. She sobbed like a child sneaking in ever so close, as if she were to blend into him. She had missed him, his embrace, his warmth,his smell, Hell she had missed everything about him. She just cried and cried, soaking his bare chest with her tears. He let her be, holding her tight and giving her all the warmth she needed. It made him feel needed, he felt valuable, he felt like he finally was fulfilling his purpose, to take care of Zoya. Slowly he inhaled in her hair and closed his eyes, letting the moment sway them away in its gentle, healing breeze.

After what seemed like an eternity, Zoya finally stirred, feeling her legs cramp up. They were tangled in each other like vine,as if they fit together, no matter how they were connected. Zoya slowly braved herself and looked at Asad, trying to explain herself.

Zoya-Asad...

Asad put his finger on her lips, sushing her...

Asad-Shhh...kuch mat kaho Zoya, I know, and I want to tell you that it was not your fault. I know you were embaressed when you found youself in such a situation, but I am assuring you that everything is fine and its not your fault'.

Slowly he stood up, lifting Zoya along with him. He steadied himself and Zoya and turned around, running his hands in his hair, weighing in his words, deciding how to say what he wanted to say.

Asad- Zoya I want to apologise to you, as it was all my doing'

Zoya- Nahi Asad its not your..

Asad-Zoya please let me complete or else it will eat me up inside'

Zoya nodded, allowing him to speak.

Asad- Zoya after the day of the party and after what I said to you, I was really mad, at you, at the situation,at everything including myself. But slowly I worked my way out of it, seeing no reason in digging up the past. I told myself again that this was for Ayaan and I had made a deal with you to be friends,so I moved past it ready to go turn things around on the sets, like before. I came onto the sets the first day with a clean slate, hoping to work things out, but things didn't go the way I planned ;Huh since when has that happened.'He mocked. You were different, distant and professional;you kept yourself to your work, and I respect that, I told myself it was ok, it was better than us fighting. But then as the days passed I saw you being distant only with me, enjoying, laughing and joking with everyone but me.That started to make me mad, and to add on it, you seemed to be enjoying a lot with the guys, touching them laughing with them and spending all you time with them. I was on my last threads of patience.'

Zoya-Asad were you...

Asad- Zoya let me finish. I know what you were about to ask and the answer is yes, I was jealous. Zoya I have never shared you, you were mine, in every way and that's how I know it to be. I knw I shouldn't be thinking as such, its been 4 years and things are different now. Hell you might have or have had somebody in your life, I lost that right the day I ..

Zoya-Asad..

Asad walked away.

Asad-but I couldn't help it Zoya, mera khoon khaulta hai jab koi ladka tumhare kareeb aata hai. You know what, I had refused to do the scene, its against my set of ethics, but when Ayaan mentioned that you didn't want to be close to me,I lost it, I was mad,How could you enjoy all the closeness with other guys but cant stand to be close with her own...Well that did it for me.. I told Ayaan I'd do it and that you had no other choice. I jst saw red when it came to you and nothing else mattered, I wanted to show you your place, but never did I paln for it to go so out of hand. I came in thinking it would be a small scene, maybe a peck on the lip, but when I read the details I was shocked, and I knew you reflected my emotions.Even then I thought of changing things around, but the douche bag touched you, and that was it. I hid my intentions behind my character, emoting what I felt then. I was mad, and I let that come out, I touched you, to punish you, but ended up losing myself in you. I didn't realize when the lines between reality and fiction blurred, when the surrounding and its people become obsolete, I was just aware of you and your presence, and the moment you started to say Asad I came undone. Nothing else mattered,our act became a reality and we kissed, we teased and if we weren't interrupted I wouldn't have stopped until I laid claim on you, once more making you mine'.

Zoya stood there flummoxed.Asad's confession had her head reeling; She couldn't believe it, her head nodding in disbelief. Slowly her smile took over, happiness spreading through her. She took a step towards Asad, just as he spoke again.

Asad- Zoya I am sorry, I shouldn't have let this happen, I shouldn't have let my emotions take over me, I should have been frim with my decision and not let this situation spiral out of control. I apologise for you feeling the way you did after that. But kambakht dil mera, abhi bhi tumhare aane se bekaabo ho jaata hai. I have to tell him everytime, that you were the reason for his breaking,you were the reason why it stopped beating, stoped feeling and stoped living. You broke me and my heart Zoya, you broke me beyond repair'. He looked heavenwards, trying to contain himself, finally turning towards Zoya and making her look at him.

Asad-Zoya maine kabhi bhi tumse yeh nahi poocha ki tumne aisa kyun kiya, I thought it didn't matter, but today, I beg you to tell me why, why did you leave me?' His eyes started to tear up.

Zoya's heart hurt, her own eyes started to tear up at Asad's plight. She couldn't see him like this, she couldn't see her love broken and battered. She took his face in her hands and met his gaze. She couldn't tell him the truth that would deroot him, his entire being; she had to take the blame.

Zoya-Asad I set you free'.

Asad- Free from what Zoya Love???

Zoya-Asad I was just holding you back, from your career, your family and your dreams, so I set you free'.

Asad- Zoya you meant more to me,then anything else, I loved you more than anything, or anyone.

Zoya-Nahi Asad, tum meri wajah se apna sab kuch bhool gaye the,

Asad was getting angry again, he wasn't liking what he heard, is heart not believeing a single word Zoya said.

Asad- Zoya stop lying to me and beating around the bush and tell me the truth god damn it..I deserve to know the truth'.

Zoya-It is the truth Asad,

Asad- No its not you are lying to me, you are toyying with me, you just didn't have the guts to see your love through and work through the tough times,you just quit, because it was getting too hard, with all the hardships and all my family trouble, you just wanted an easy way out. You gave up on our love Zoya'.

Hearing this made Zoya lose her cool for a second making her say something she didn't want to.

Zoya-Asad don't you dare question my love, and who are you to question my love, did you come to get me? NO, so stop the blame game. Asad please can we move beyond the past? She took his hand and pulled him close. He didn't not resist, slowly leaning his head on hers, processing what she had just said. He also didn't try, this was a revelation, and his anger lost his edge. Slowly he took her hand in his and brought it up to his lips, kissing her knuckles, silently apologizing, a gesture only Zoya could understand. She smiled, her eyes closed, as she felt the last shards of ice melting between them. She finally could see them moving ahead.

Their souls rejoiced, enjoying the warmth that was reappearing, with their heads leaning into each other and their eyes closed breathing in the moment. Asad felt awake, as he finally took Zoya's face in his hands and leaned in for a real kiss, a kiss meant for Asad and Zoya, and not their characters. But as if on cue, with the intention of breaking the beautiful silence, Asad's phone rang, making Zoya open her eyes. Asad took out his phone and looked at Zoya.

Asad- Its Tanveer, give me a minute will you'. With that he went to the other corner of the room.

Tanveer, that name stabbed Zoya out of her lala land, and her inner volcano awoke. She was appaled at what Asad was about to do, Asad who was engaged to another girl, was about to kiss her. She was raging mad, on her and him...how could she have forgotten such an important part of information, and what excuse did he have, she couldn't wait to ask.

Asad returned with a smile on his face slowly approaching to take Zoya's hand, but she yanked it back.

Asad- Ab kya hua?? Abhi to sab theek ho gaya tha, to ab kya??

Zoya- Don't you think you are forgetting a very important detail here?? One that makes it ethically incorrect for you to be so close to another girl??

Asad- Zoya stop with the puzzles,tell what is the problem..

Zoya- You tell me Asad aren't you forgetting a certain someone?? Ur fianc??

Realization dawned on Asad's face and he shook his head and moved closer to Zoya,

Asad- Zoya who actually...

Zoya-Asad stay away from me, tumhe sharam nahi aati engaged hone ke baavajood you are...honestly Asad I never thought of you to be such a guy..OMG don't tell me, were you the same when we were...OMG

Asad laughed, trying to get hold of Zoya but she kept shoving him off...

Zoya- This is not funny Asad, Allah miyaan whats wrong with you Mr Khan..aap has rahe hai...you should be ashamed of yourself'.

Asad- Meri baat to suno Zoya..'

Zoya- Nahi mujhe kuch nahi sun na...aap please is room se chale jaaiye, warna people will start talking,and I don't want to be the other girl in you relationship.Please leave'. With that Zoya pushed Asad out of the door.

Asad protested but in vain, and very soon Zoya's door shut on Asad's face, making him laugh out loud at the situation rather than getting mad.

Asad-Chalo Asad miyaan ab aap bhi is situation ka luftz uthaao..Its time to enjoy the best part of Zoya..Zoya being jealous...' He laughed as he made his way back to his vanity.

BOLO BOLO TELL TELL...how did u like it...peoples..😉..chalo wahi same ol' same ol'...dont forget the comments...same ol' same ol'...next part will be hopefully a fun one so stay tuned...n once again...Dont forget the comments!!!!!

Until laters...m gonna go listen to Westlife..another space in my happy place🥳