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PART : 19
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Hello Girlies… Girls who wanted to kill me last time, you have to wish a long life for me now. Cause I've updated with in 2 days. My 'word' really has some problem. I literally have written it three times.. Again and again… I don't have any more strength to make it long. So I m posting. It was a really small update. And the dialogues are a bit over the line. So read it if u have time. As I mentioned in my note I m doing it acc to u girls… Thanks for ur likes and comments.. Especially to those who commented for the note. U kinda cleared my confusion.. So..
Have a dreamy night dearies..
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"Let's divorce" I said steadily.
From the very beginning it was me who was unworthy of him in this relationship. I came to understand this when my unbelievable selfishness turned into unforgivable guilty. Somehow I was deeply affected by his father. I didn't have a perfect family, but he had. The life in which you have to live alone without your family, it would not going to happen to him. It was my mistake to drag him into my problem. A mistake that has done already cannot be undone. Now the only thing I could do is to end it..
"If you want to make things difficult for me then there are many other ways" he said without giving much attention to my words..
"I m serious Virat. I've decided to let you go now. So…" I said with a determined expression on my face as I stood up from the sofa and started walking slowly to the door . Honestly I was afraid to stay close to Virat.
"Letting me go… Before you let go of anything, you first have to grab a hold of that. In my case you don't have a right to do that" he said. He sounded different but he maintained his cool though.
"You let me go then" I said as if I only wanted him to leave me.
"Letting someone you love go away, is not love" he answered with an increasing intensity. . I knew that I was hurting him. But the minute I thought about his family, the mere thought reassured me that I was doing the right thing. At that moment I could only think of his family.
"You wanted to save my house. So you exchanged me with money. Now I m ready to accept it. Can't you just end it now?" I asked him in a voice I tried to make casual. I wanted to be be natural as I had ever been, but saying these words I looked so unnatural.
"You are precious to me Manvi. You are not someone that can be exchanged with money. I just used your problem to marry you. If you can't understand it, then don't complain" he said angrily as he also stood up from the sofa and instantly came towards me. But luckily I was facing towards the door. So I couldn't see his face.
"You said you will make a miracle to make me fall in love with you. But that will never going to happen. So don't try hard" I said in a low voice. Trust me. Every time I see him I say the opposite of what I think about him. Slowly it became a habit of me I guess.
"Even if I made a miracle where you fall in love with me, you will never confess it to me. Cause deep down you don't trust me" he stated. When I heard his confident words, whatever intentions, whatever courage I had, were almost gone. He guessed it right. It was the hidden fact of my life.
"You will not get anything from this entangled relation!!" I commented. He was really tough to argue. But whatever happens I'd decided to send him back to his family.
"Fate has entangled us together. Then let's stay entangled till the end" he said ever so casually.
"Our marriage is fake. How difficult it is for…." I wanted to argue back but he started speaking before even listening to my version.
"Wait… Our marriage is fake… If it is fake then there is no point in getting divorced. If you want to talk about divorce then admit that our marriage is real and you are my wife. If you are still adamant to call this 'fake' then don't ever talk about divorce" a perceptible change had come over him, and he spoke gravely.
"The more I try to stay within your reach the more you are trying to push me away. But what you are pushing away is, not your 'hate for men'. It's me Manvi" he said. Believe me… At this point, listening to his words I wanted to give up on my task to send him back.
"Virat this is our problem. Don't hurt your family because of me" I continued the argument. Slowly my voice started trembling but I tried to keep it steady though.
"If I say don't hurt me because of your father. Then what will you say?" he re-questioned me.
An unpleasant silence filled the room. I was silent. Because I knew my every word would seem more cruel than the last. After a few seconds he smiled sarcastically and said "No answer… Then don't go making selfish requests". After a pause he continued…
" This is amusing. You met my father only once. Still you understood his pain. Am I the only unlucky one here?" he asked me. For a while I was sorry to make him like that. For another while I was irritated with his stubbornness.
"If I m hurting you then why don't you leave me and go?" I said. I almost reached a point where it was not important whether you feel like doing it or not. You just have to do it. Even though you are quite sure of the outcome which would not be in your favor.
"I would rather hurt by you, than leave you" he stated. His words had a miraculous power in increasing my misery.
"If you don't leave me, then I will …." I didn't know exactly what I was going to say. May be something emotional I guess. But he didn't let me finish it anyway. Suddenly he reached me with a violent, jerky effect, clutched my hand and turned me around to face him.
"Fear of losing someone you love, makes you stronger. I m warning you Manvi. The more you make me feel insecure, the more stronger I will get. So don't try to make a sane person insane" he said in a menacing voice. I knew that he was angry, means he was emotionally depressed. But the only thing I didn't know was what to do in that situation. I actually wanted to console him at the moment when I was hurting him.
"The girl doesn't love you is not worth of your sacrifices Virat" I said as I turned away my eyes from him, afraid of emotions going out of control.
"If I am willing to sacrifice, then what's your problem with that?" he answered recklessly. Few minutes we both stayed silent.
"How cruel it is… The minute I love you the most, you ask me to leave you. The way you hurt me is really interesting" he said which made me look at him. At that moment his eyes melt my heart and his voice raised an unknown sadness within me.
"Please don't make it hard for me. Just go back" I said in a voice which almost sounded like a plea.
"If you want to continue rejecting me, then do it. I will not stop you. You also don't try to stop me with my choices. I can do everything you ask me to do. But if you only want me to leave you then I will do anything to make it impossible. Don't try to test my craziness" he shouted with utmost intensity. He always carried "I m so cool" type attitude in front of me. But this angry Virat, I'd never seen him like that before. So I was a bit scared to witness it.
"Be practical Virat" I said frustrated with his back to back answers. This was something I had started so I should be the one to end it. Doesn't that make sense?
" Okay… If you talk about divorce, then I will announce our marriage officially. I m more practical now" he threatened me there. Actually I wanted to keep it as a secret for his sake only. But Virat using this to threaten me.
"Why are you doing this?" I asked, keeping all the intricate questions aside..
"You have made me start all this" came as an instant reply from him. Before I say anything, he left my hand and went to the window…
"Right now, I m standing in your mother's place and I can see your father in you" he paused there for more than a minute and then added "You absolutely don't have a right to hate your father". He compared me with my father which I hated most in the world. But he wasn't at fault. At the end I m daughter of my father only.
"That's what I m. Unreasonable and selfish. Nothing can move me. You better understand it soon" I confessed reluctantly.
"Same goes for me. Unless I give up myself, no one can manipulate me to leave you. And I m never going to leave you cause where you are is where I belong" he argued back with the same force. This "Aa dekhe zara kismet kitna hai dum" game made me lose my strength. And it was really difficult to fight with this Virat 'C/O add of confidence'. So I finally gave up.
"If you argue like this then I don't have anything to say" I said simply.
"Then stay quiet" he shouted at once. I was officially scared by it and chose to stay silent.
"The only thing I can say is… Be my wife or let me be your husband. Other than that I don't have any other option to give you" he slowly calmed down a bit and continued his one way speech.
"Either you get hurt or you hurt me. Is that how things usually go between us?" he questioned me in a crisp voice. But I didn't say anything. Either I didn't know the answer or I didn't want to say it.
He sighed loudly for not getting any answer and after a minute, he said…
"I will convince my family. Treat that earlier incident was my plan to trap you and forget about it" with this he quickly left the house, leaving me behind.
I wished to go and look at him but I didn't have the courage to do so. Doing all this to Virat I did feel a sense of sin. I wasn't sure I had ever felt as alone as I did at that time. It was the first time in my life I ever felt tired of infinite peace in which he left me. All my senses seemed to slip away from me. People say that "Changing your fate will depend on choices you make".. It was not difficult for me to say that I like him and I wanted to be with him. But if he ever leaves me after my confession, I don't want to be a pathetic girl like my mother. Cause I strongly believe, if my father can leave me then any other man can easily leave me too. May be I sound foolish. But 'trust' is not a small word to begin with…
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