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Chapter 42 – Bin tere kya hai Jeena
"Geet, tell me truthfully, how badly are you hurt"
"Ji"
"Do we need to go to hospital immediately?"
"What…no. I mean I am bleeding but so are you. You need to go to the doctor… I told you not to get involved but you never listen to me. Kitni chot lagi hai aapko…lekin aapko kya. When have you cared about yourself. You have time for everything but yourself….kya zaroorat thi itni ladayi karne ki. Kitna dard ho raha hoga."
Maan sighed knowing she was getting into a full blown panick attack
He braked hard and kept a finger on her lips "Chup bilkul chup"
Supporting her by waist he pushed her shoulder to kneel her in front. He inspected her torn kurti and the wound. Though bleeding profusely, it looked like skin gash only. He straightened her and asked her sit tightly pressing her back to the seat.
Taking out his mobile once again, he dialled Adi's number and started the jeep again.
"Adi"
"Maan sir, where are you? Daadima is so worried about you and Geet who is supposed to be with you."
"Adi, listen I am ok. I will talk to daadima but for now i need you to increase security at KM, KC, farmhouse and Krishna hostel immediately. I need a doctor to be sent to the farmhouse along with a car. Now…."
"yes sir but doctor? Are you hurt sir"
"Adi just do as I say…I need to go"
Maan deftly drove the car and raced towards the farmhouse. Brij had not managed to catch up and with no knowledge of who he was, he was untraceable atleast for some time.
They reached the farmhouse under 45 minutes. He glanced at Geet who seemd on the verge of passing out. Beingh hungry for more than a day and then the events in the jungle had finally caught up with her sword wound. Maan picked her up in his arms ignoring her feeble complaints about his wounds and eneterd to find Adi pacing around along with the doctor. He was horrified looking at their condition and rushed towards him supporting Maan and Geet both.
"Maan sir"
"I am fine Adi…it looks worse then it is but Geet is severely hurt"
Saying this he laid her down and asked the doctor to check her showing her back where the sword had struck.
Doctor immediately started examining her and started applying first aid to stop bleeding.
"Wound is deep but it has not reached below the skin tissue. She is very lucky to have survived it. There seems to be a scar tisuue also as it seems she was hit before as well. Scar tissue toughened her skin and that saved her. Bleeding has stopped but she needs to be careful with her dressing."
Giving some more intructions, he cleaned her other small wounds as well and gave her a teatanus injection. Only once he was done with her, Maan let him treat himself dressing his own cuts and bruises.
"Adi take the doctor back and there is a jeep in the garge. Dispose it off properly to leave no trace back to me. I will rest here till Geet gains consciousness and then will take her back to home. I will talk to Daadima."
Adi wanted to ask questions and stay back but he knew from Maan's voice that it was important to follow his instructions. Maan read hesitancy in his eyes and he spoke softly "We had an encounter with her family she is so scared of."
Adi nodded understanding what must have happened and went to do as he was told. Maan instructed the staff to make lunch as he picked the unconcuious Geet and walked to the bedroom laying her gently on bed. He freshened changing into clean clothes and called up daadima who was frantic.
He told her how Geet's family had found her and tried to kill her gaain. He convinced her that they both were safe now and he will get her back as soon as she awoke. The only reason he had chosen farmhouse was because it was closer to their position and that he had increased the security appropriately.
"Aap Meera ko bhi inform kar deejiyega. She will be worried too. I will be back by tonight."
"Haan hum unhein keh denge. Shukar hai Babaji ka ki aap unke saath the Maan. Agar Geet akeli hoti toh pata nahi kya hota."
After talking to daadima, he sunk in the chair next to her keeping a vigil till she got up. He was still trying to come to terms with images of her coming in between the sword and him and her single minded mission of protecting him.
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bin tere kya hai jeena
mere dil ki raani tum
meri khushiyon ka mausam
mere khwaabon ki taaviz
mere sapanon ki tasveer
bin tere kaisi aas
woh jeet ho ya haar
tere sang hai sab kuchh
tu na ho toh bekaar
bin tere kya hai jeena
Few hours later she got up to find herself lying on a soft bed. She got up starled not recognising the room but relaxed immediately seeing Maan dozing off in chair who was now getting up hearing sound of her anklets.
"Geet…uthy gayi tum. How are you feeling now? Doctor has said ki ghabrane ki koi baat nahi hai."
Geet's eyes teared up as she got overwhelmed by emotion of finally being safe. Maan looked at her with a very soft expression on his face and gently wiped her tears.
"Ab sab kuch thik hai. Neelima (Staff) has kept a fresh salwar suit for you in the bathroom. Fresh hokar kuch kha lo then we will go back….hmmm"
She nodded her head like an obedient child and walked into the bathroom.
As she washed her face and cobwebs of sleep lifted, realisation sepeed in. With closed eyes as water dripped from her face, flashes of previous evening and that day hit her forcefully. Bleeding face and body of Maan swam in front of her eyes and as she changed hurriedly, her panic, concern and love translating to anger at unfairness of her destiny. For the first time she fought with her Babaji
"Mere saath jo hona tha thik hai lekin Maan sir ke saath aapne aisa kyon kiya Babaji"
She walked outside to see Maan plating the food. He smiled and gestured her to sit but she glared at him angrily.
Maan was confused with expression. He expected pain, fear or relief but anger?
"Kya hua Geet?"
"Kya hua…Kya hua. How can you ask me this Maan sir. I told you….told you to not get involved. To walk away but you did not listen to me. Kya zaroorat thi….kya zaroorat thi hero banke unse ladne ki. Agar kuch ho jaata aapko toh…why did you do this Maan sir…jawaab dijiye…kyon kiya aapne aisa?"
Maan was taken by surprise at the intensity of her voice and fury in her eyes. But he just calmly asked her "I also told you to go back. Tumhare Baabji ka vasta diya tha na meine tumhein. Phir bhi you came back. Kyon Geet. Aur kya zaroorat thi heroine ki tarah aakar mujhe bachane ki. Sabse zayda lagi hai tumhein. Woh toh thank God ki kuch zayda nahi hua but tumne socha hai ki what went through me when I saw you being hit by that sword. Saansein ruk gayi thi meri. Kyon aayi tum is tarah bhag ke mere paas…hmmm…bolo jawaab do. Kya zaroorat thi kuhd ko is tarah mushkil mein daalne ki…why did you come back?"
Geet was stunned at Maan questions and his voice which had also started raising.Emotional toll of what transpired earlier that day and fear of loosing each other had made them vulnerable, making them loose control on their respective gaurds.
"Bolo Geet….agar tumhein kuch ho jaata toh? Chup kyon ho bolo?"
"Sawaal pehle maine pucha hai Maan sir aur waise bhi woh mujhe maarne aaye the. Woh mera past hain phir aapko is sab mein padne ki kya zarorat thi"
"Yeh mere sawaal ka jawaab nahi hai geet…tum khud ko bacha sakti thi phir kyon mud ke aayi…kyon apni jaan ko daav pe lagaya tumne?"
Charged emotionally, her voice was laced with helplessness as she retorted
"Toh kya karti…aap ko akela chod ke chali jaati. Babaji bhi mujhse kehte toh mein aisa nahi kar sakti….I would have died if anything hapenend to you."
Maan sighed at her indirect confession "Kyon geet…"
Gete looked at him silently as tears came in her eyes…tears which made him angry needling him further with her silence.
"Jawaab nahi dena chahti ho…koi baat nahi. But mere paas jawaab hai Geet. Tumhare bina kahe bhi mere paas jawaab hai. Aur jis tarh tum mar jaati usi tarah mein bhi jee nahi sakta agar tumhein kuch ho jaata toh. And don't worry, I would not have let them do anything to me too. Kaise allow karta Geet. After all, mein bhi ab tumhaari amaant hoon. Pyaar karta hoon tumse Geet…bahut pyaar. Ek pal ko toh aisa laga jaise duniya hi khatam ho gayi hai jab tumhein zameen pe girte hue dekha. Lekin mera pyaar itna kamzor nahi Geet. Haarne nahi dunga mein apne pyaar ko itni asaani se."
Geet gasped at Maan's confession which slipped from his mouth. Maan was also surprised that how easily he said what he he said but then he smiled and took a step towards her. He cupped her face gently and wiped her tears.
"I didn't mean to say it aloud, atleast not yet. But now when I have said it I don't regret it Geet. Yes I love you…I love you lots. Pata nahi kabse par bas bahut pyaar hai tumse."
suni khaali raaten
rukhi feeki baaten
har aahat pe chaaukun
tujhko harsu dekhu
tujhko hardam sochu
tujhko har pal chahu
tere bin toh jeevan mera hai intezaar
bin tere kya hai jeena
Geet looked at him and stepped back. On one side her heart found little solace that her love was not unrequited and onse sided. But on other side it cried seeing his state. He had banadges on both his hands and forhead. He was hurt because of her. Her past had just cast a little shadow and it had darkened his life already.
"How can you? How can you lo….I have told you everything about me…my past. After knowing everything also how can you say this?"
Maan smiled and not letting her go away from his, cupped her face again and gently dropped a kiss on her forehead. She stilled with his proximity as he raised her face and looked into her eyes deeply
"I love you Geet. Love….pyaar kara nahi jaat ho jaata hai. Aur jis se ho jaata hai uski har cheez se pyaar se hota hai. Khushiyaan…gham sab se. Uska present and future hi nahi par uska past bhi manzoor hota hai. Mein tumse pyaar karta hoon aur tumhein tumhare har roop ke saath, astitva ke saath pyaar karta hoon."
Tears came out of her eyes as she heard the words which she had not even dreamt from the mouth of her love. Oh how much she loved this man. She wanted to hug him tight and reciprocate his every word but how could be she so selfish. How could she ruin life of the same person she loved too. He deserved someone better. Someone who was worthy his love. Pure and with status. Educated and of his standard. She jerked his hands off and spoke harshly
"But I don't…I don't feel like this for you. You are forcing yoru feeling on me. I just respect you for what you have done for me…..just"
She froze as she again found his finger on her lips.
"Rehne do Geet…Kyon koshish karti ho….chah kar bhi tum jhut nahi bol sakti. Yeh jo tumhari traitor aankhein hai na…..aaiyine ki tarah saaf hein…tumhare dil ki har baat mujh se keh deti hain."
Maan stepped back putting some distance between them.
"If you think that by using harsh tone and words like "force" you can push me away, think again Geet. I know you a little too well for that.
Lekin koi baat nahi Geet, my love is not conditional. When I had first relaised my feelings for you, I don't think I ever thought of making any place in your heart. I wished but never expected to see same love in your eyes Geet. But still, my love only grew. You know why? Because it is not conditional on your yes or getting you. I will never force you into anything. Even after knowing how you feel for me, I will not pressurise you for anything Geet.
I know how difficult it is for you trust anyone. But you trusted me. You accepted my friendship and I am a happy man Geet. Before you came in my life, I was a loner. My heart had the burden of too many betrayals which had been inflicted by my own. I was alone, angry and sad. But you brught colours back to my life. You taught me to smile again Geet. I love you Geet for this life. It does not matter to me what is the name of our relationship because nothing can change the feelings I have in my heart for you.
I am so happy and content Geet that I can wait a lifetime and beyond….agar is janam mein na sahi toh agle janam mein paa lunga tumhein. Filhaal ke liye tumhaar pyaar hi kafi hai Geet."
tere saath jiye jo pal
kuch unse nahi badhkar
tere khaatir saans main loon
teri khaatir jeeta hoon
marne ki tamanna bhi
tere saath main rakhta hoon
tu hai jeene ki wajah
kar mera aitbaar
bin tere kya hai jeena...
Maan sat down and plated her food and asked her to take it. But Geet stood frozen not knowing what to say or do anymore.
Maan smiled and asked her to sit down.
"Baith jao Geet aur khana kaho. Pareshaan mat ho. I love you but my feeling are my problem just like your feelings are yours. We both will control them and manage them. You don't have to worry about them and we will continue to be friends. Jab tak tum nahi chahogi, yeh baat phir nahi uthegi. Mere liye tumhaara saath…tumhari dosti….tumhari zindagi mein jo jagah hai meri…..woh anmol hai Geet. Chao to bhul jao jo kuch bhi hua…hmmm
Dekho mujhe bahut bhuk lagi hai…ab toh pet mein haathi kud rahe hain hain. Let's have food and then we have to go also. I have spoken to Daadima and she will be waititng for us."
Maan looked as Geet bit her lips trying to control her emotions. But finally he managed to calm her down and they had lunch and left for Krishna hostel.
At the gate of hostel, as Geet stepped out he held her hand gently.
"Remember what I said Geet. My feelings are my problems and nothing changes between us. And yes, please look after yourself. You need to take care and take your medicines on time.
Aur haan darna mat. I have increased security around hostel, your PG and office. Till you are staying with Meera, an office car will pick and drop you. Also, just avoid going to Lajpat Nagar area for some time. Delhi is a big city Geet. It will not be easy for them to find us…hmmm"
Geet nodded slightly as he squeezed her hand giving her support. She got down and Maan walked inside informing Meera and Mrs. Dixit about her medicines etc and then went to KM where Daadima was eagerly waiting for him.
Precap – Madno
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
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