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Chapter#9

Khushi's Dairy

3:03 am

I can't even sleep. My nights are so restless. They are worse than the time my parents died! Today was the worst one so I couldn't resist but write my dairy. Today morning I woke up and got ready as I had to go with Payal to the mall to get the bridal dress ready. We didn't have time so we had to buy ready made ones and Amma said she would alter any faults by the wedding day. Just two days and I'll be in hell.

Payal got magenta and violet coloured bridal dress and mine was red and bottle green. I didn't even look at it, my eye lids seemed... just too heavy. I looked at Payal she was so happy and the thing which was eating me inside was I couldn't even tell my sister, my best friend. But it was for her sake, if I told her Arnav jee will ruin her happiness and how could I let that happen?

It had been hours we had been roaming around the mall for decorations for the evening and everything else for other events. Oh! How I wished I could just die.

After hours of shopping I dragged my feet to my room. I was extremely tired and had a head ache. No actually this head ache was happening from past 2 days now. I was on pain killers. But they weren't helping at all. Payal was so excited that she pushed me inside the wash-room with the bridal dress forcing me to wear it so that if any alterations were needed Amma could fix it as soon as possible. I lazily slipped out of clothes and wore it. The dress was beautiful, simple but yet so gorgeous. I stepped out of the wash-room and Payal opened her mouth wide.

'You look beautiful!' -She whispered in daze. I smiled slightly. "Arnav jee will fall in love with you."- Payal said examining me from head to toe.

'Ughh... I doubt that!' I said to myself. I was falling for him minute by minute. I tried to stop myself from thinking about him but I couldn't. All I did was thought about him and our marriage life...umm no...Our married 'six months'. Everyone is in high spirits that they didn't even bothered looking at me and asking me if Arnav jee is the one.

Later today, everybody got ready to go and attend the Haldi and engagement ceremony. Payal wore a nice pink and yellow sari with golden beaded work and I wore a white and orange sari. We had our separate clothes for the engagement ceremony which we had to change later that awful evening.

When we went to the Raizada Mansion, it was decorated beautifully. Flowers, silk curtains and fairy lights everywhere!

I looked around to see everybody but him. I was kind of glad but then my heart denying this fact. I pushed my thoughts aside as the Raizada family came to welcome us. I forced a smile on my face. We were welcomed inside and seated in the living room and the Haldi preparations were almost done. I was seated on the floor after a while with Payal on my side and a net duppatta was in the center and the grooms were supposed to sit on the opposite side. My heart beat quickened suddenly and I looked up and saw him. He was looking at me. I, not wanting to face him looked away as my eyes were going to fill up with tears. He was seated opposite to me with Akash Jeeja ji on his left side. I looked at Akash Jeeja and he smiled, having no choice I smiled back at him.

I glanced at Arnav jee who was looking but rolled his eyes the moment he saw me. With this I kept my head bowed down. I just couldn't face anybody now. Everybody came turn by turn to apply Haldi and soon it was finished. I wanted it to be over soon and rush into my bed and read a book, listen to songs so that I would forget this world.

After a few minutes Anjali jee took us, me and Payal, to a room where we supposed to wash the Haldi off and change our clothes. I, being faster than Payal changed quickly and was headed outside when I bumped into Arnav jee. I looked up with frightened eyes knowing what was about to come. He could kill me if he could. But then he suddenly looked behind me and his face turned into a weird expression.

"Are you okay?" I heard him say.

"Huh?" I was confused. How could he ask me that? He has been yelling at me since the very first day I met him. I was shocked and frozen in his arms.

"Are you alright? Did I hurt you?" –he whispered, startling me out of my thought and I saw his face with a wide smirk on it.

"Huh? Umm... I..."- I said. What could I even say? I was speechless. It was like my tongue had never existed.

"What happened? Why are you so scared of me?" -He said coming closer to my face.

"I... umm... woh…" I started to back up but his hold on my waist became tighter.

Somewhere in my heart, I was glad that he hadn't shouted at me and hadn't blamed me for bumping into him. That hope, that I had lost was back. Maybe he did have some teeny weensy feelings for me. I saw his face coming closer and he pecked me on my cheek. My eyes widened, as round as they could get.

Just then when I was happy, his facial expression changed like that of a demon and he pushed with all his force. I was shocked by this. His sudden change in the mood made me wonder, what was wrong with him? That question rang in my mind.

"Payal and Di were watching so I had to pretend otherwise..." I heard him say. The feeling was terrible. I was broken...Once again.

He stopped has he heard Anjali jee calling my name from downstairs. He stormed out of the corridor leaving me. I couldn't take it anymore. My tears blurred my vision but I had to wipe them away. If Payal saw them a problem would stand out and Arnav jee might hurt her. Not might, he really would.

I went downstairs with Payal. I heard everybody talking and smiling at us. We were taken to the stage; it was Payal and Akash's turn. With bright smiles on their faces they put rings on each other. I was so happy for them. At least one of us was. Now it was our turn, me and Arnav jee. He took my hand with a harsh pull which went unnoticed by everybody. I looked at him and he looked at me with hatred, I could see clearly in his deep dark brown eyes. Then he put his hand ahead and I slipped the ring down his finger without touching him. A roar of claps was heard.

When the food was served, I didn't want to eat anything. I was sitting with the Raizada family but everybody was talking to each other making me feel invisible. I knew they weren't doing it intentionally. I went up to find a waiter to get me some water but they even seemed so busy that I decided to go to the kitchen my self. On my way to the kitchen I heard Arnav jee's voice. He was talking to somebody. I knew listening to someone secretly was a bad manner but my heart was telling me to go and see who it was. I walked up silently with out even letting my anklets jingle, I saw him on the phone.

"Yes we got engaged." He said curtly.

He was talking about me that was definite. He paused for the other person, obviously.

"I hate this so much." He said gritting his teeth.

"Yes, I know. But it's only for you Lavanya. I'm doing this just because of you, just because you asked me to. Just six months and this nightmare will be over." He said.

Lavanya, of-course...I could have guessed. Bloody hell! She asked him to marry me? But why would she let that happen? Why did she want my life destroyed?

She is such a ... Questions popped in my mind. I was so angry. I wanted to bang my head in the wall. He would have said no and I wouldn't have been in this mess in the first place.

"Bye. You too." He said and brought me back to the situation. I ran from there but I knew he heard my anklets.

It was time for me to go to Lavanya and ask her why she did this to me!

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