Part 28
She touched the maroon golden album.. their name engraved together.. fresh layer of tears poured. The first pic was of the most beautiful bride.. & next to her was the most handsome him!!! Maan himself.. the crisp beard.. the red teeka that adored his forehead.. she shied for the first time in years.. it was him.. those eyes!! her eyes flooded!!!!
As the tear dried her pain surfaced. The pain of his betrayal... she tore the album..one by one very patiently .. pain of his ignorance, arrogance .. his believe... his disbelieve.. her entire life seemed meaningless. She couldn't even rejoiced his life.. his presence anymore. He was not hers.. he didn't care abt anyone, not abt Dev, not for Daadi.. then how was she even expecting him to think abt her. Her un seen dream shattered. It felt her life was much easier as his widow.. even the death as his Sati would have been a blessing but to lead life as a wife to a person who doesn't even care abt u!!! care abt anyone else other than himself. The storm subsides momentarily the silence settles down again. That only speaks of him making her scream in anguish... the pain she buried deep with in. Her heart was again hollow.. void.. empty.
A new fight began within her ..her as a women.. to her as sati .. her believes & her understanding. Nothing seemed to give her peace.. not her meditation.. nor her patience. She thrashed everything on the floor.. bursting out like a volcano.. all the suppressed anger, raged broke up.. she broke his frame.. he was not wat she thought him to be. Not worth to be respected.. & she worshiped him!!! she hated herself now, her existence..everything abt self!! First time in her life hated her parents to have chosen a person like him for her. She didn't dislike them when they numbly led her to be sati.. but today she was shattered. She believed that if she has to be his sati then he should have been nun less that Sri Ram himself!! & he was not even humane to respect her integrity. The maturity she showed then just vanished.. she hated his advances towards her now.. she hated .. she let him touch her.. to think abt it.. she never did!! he always forced himself on her!! she could clearly imagine her hopeless life with him had thinks been different. That loneliness seemed more desirable than this meaningless life.
It was more than 24hrs since Geet had locked herself in the room. Everyone was getting worried outside. Maanav & Dev were eager to meet her but she didn't open the door. The whole night had passed & then next day evening.. Daadi told Dev to break open the door. The sight that awaited them was so scary. Geet sat in one corner of the sabotaged room. She had not slept a wink.. her eyes were blood red.. like her hands & legs that were hurt ..bleeding hitting the glass pieces. She was exhausted.. with the fire that consumed her inside. Daadi ran to her, tried to clean up the wound.. Geet snapped at once in annoyance. Daadi & Dev were taken a back. Before Daadi could say anything.. Dev noticed the blood stained mang of her
he fell on his knees..indicating Daadi to leave
he put his all wit together ' Geet aap bhai se
Daadi sunk down next to her, Geet looked lifelessly at Dev & then at Daadi
Daadi gasped covering her mouth in disbelieve.
The look of the room ..& the album told them the state of her mind & heart
Dev took her hand in his ' bhai aise nahi hain jaisen aap soch rahi hain
she shot an angered glare at him that was scaring & terrifying.
Dev tried to calm her ' Geet plz.. u calm down & tell me.. plz
she was raged & snapped his hand back. Not wanting to talk abt that person.
Daadi asked Dev to leave her alone. Daadi took all her anger pain in her.
That night was filled with mixed emotions for everyone at home. Daadi & Dev had so many questions, but didn't know how to confront Geet.
The following day Geet told nakul to shift her belongings to the guest room. She didn't want to stay in his room.. she hated it or was it her pain within.. that she never meant nothing to him.
Daadi was pained to see this poor soul going through so much in this tender age. Geet seemed little at ease when Maanav cling on to her the whole day. He held her pallu all the while. He refused to get off her lap. In the afternoon Geet was putting Maanav to sleep when Daadi came & sat beside her.. stream of tears began to flow from her eyes.. wo iss rishte ko nahi mante
unhe yah koi bandesih lagthi hain
unhe lagta hain ki main shaadi ke baad wanha se chali gayee thi
woh aisen kaisen soch sakten hain merin baren main daadi?
kyun Daadi.. ye sab mera saat hi kyun?
Kyun Daadi? she shook daadi holding her arm crying like a small kid
Kyun Daadi main ek normal ladkiyon jaisen jee nahi sakti
kyun main sab ladkiyo jaisen khwab nahi dehk sakti
main tho unki sati banki jeena ka haaq bhi kho diya
he wants to marry Sam
issen aacha tho main uss din .. Daadi immediately closed her mouth.. nahi beta aisen nahi kaho..
Dev heard their conversation from outside, he came in not able to take all this suspense.
Dev ' aap sameera di baat karen hain?
Geet looked at him at lost
Dev ' sam di to bhai ki best friend hain
Geet choked ' aur unki mangetar bhi
Dev smiled in hope ' nahi Geet kuch confusion hain, Azaan bhaiya sam di ko pasand karten hain
Geet looked at him in shock.. - how do u know all that
Dev ' di Azaan bhiaya, bhai aur Sam tho bachpan se saat hain. They have been with us all the while. & I have seen how Azaan bhiaya looks at her, waisen bhi bhai doesn't look at Sam di like that. Wo tho unhe apna sabse pyari frd manthe hain
Geet spoke dishearten ' he is not the same person any more
Dev tried to explain to her ' Geet plz give bhai a chance.. manta hoon bhai se bahut badi bhool hui hain lekin
Geet shot an agitated glare at him... his small mistake has ruined her everything. Had it not been Daadi she would have been dead now.. she even now felt dieing then would have been much better than learning this unbearable cruel, reality.
By now all of them were aware of Maan being alive & the confusion that happened when the car in which he was supposed to be traveling back from the other village met with an accident which led to all this confusion. .. hell dammit some ones life. Also understood Maans current relation with Sam.. from geets POV. But Dev was not ready to accept that. He knew his brother better.
Daadi didn't want to force Geet into a relation especially after learning Maan wanted to move on. But Dev was not ready to give up. Still there was lot unanswered questions why Maan didn't peruse looking for Dev. & not coming back to Daadi was very obvious to Daadi.
Daadi dejectedly agreed they didn't share a typical Daadi -pota relation & to add to his dislike she forced him to marry someone of her choice. Probably he didn't want Daadi to force again into something.
But for Geet family mattered the most. She still couldn't think of a person as her husband who cared a dam abt his Daadi & brother & portraying like he has nothing left in his life. Dammit she felt his tears were all crocodile tears now. His helplessness was his selfishness, his self - centeredness. she had seen daadi suffer.. bed - redden after they all believed he was dead. Even dev was not their for them. they had nothing in their life. the business was at the verge of closing.. daadi's medical needs were demanding.. everything was his responsibility. he didn't care!! that was not an enough excuse for her.
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muskan
Edited by muskanp - 12 years ago
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