MG FF- PARINEETA THREAD 10 - Page 43

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She opened her eyes all of a sudden and pushed him away with all her might. He was caught off guard and stumbled backwards and looked at her in shock.

"am getting late for office...", was all that she said before walking away holding her clothes.

Ohh yeah office...he remembered asking her to join the previous day. He saw her walk away and sighed sadly... still hurt yet pondering over the fact that he might be wrong in behaving like that with her. he took a quick shower and walked down to the breakfast table to deal with yet another scenario of coldness and hurt.

He kept on observing her at the breakfast table. She was far away but she was very close to kids. Probably she never realized what effect her love and over protectiveness is having on the kids. He recalled the previous day when she had asked namra not to apologize. Geet being geet will never approve of that...but then why did she do that? He kept quiet throughout the breakfast pondering over so many questions.

He saw geet wearing her shoes to leave. He smiled recalling the first time she was going to office after coming to km...he had tried so hard to stop himself from getting closer to her.. but failed miserably. She did nothing..no tricks... no silly plans...all she did was to be herself and he took the bait!!! He held her hands when she took to getting the keys, "leave..i will drop all of you.."

She didn't say anything. She just looked down and walked out with the kids. He looked at dadima meaningfully and walked out. The kids were jumping in the back seat seeing their mum joining them after a long time while she sat quietly in the front seat. Maan took to the steering and looked at her...trying to at least get some reaction out of her, "last time you were so nervous geet... remember? You look so calm today..."

She didn't even look towards him...and he actually got addicted to her ignorance...but still he had a long way to go. He dropped the kids in their school and then stopped at geet's office. She took her bag and turned to leave. He was reminded of something and immediately held her hands, "geet...ruko..."

She stopped, turning back to look at him.

"tumhe nahi lagta tum kuch bhool rahi ho?"

[don't you think you are forgetting something?]

She looked a little confused...though she was trying to hide her expressions behind that blank look but he could read those eyes very well...there was darkness..but he saw them questioning him. He smiled, leaned forward and placed a kiss on her cheeks and left her hand. It took her some time to register what he actually meant...but she really couldn't get into it. She just turned back and walked out. He sighed...and watched her walk inside. Things are so complicated!

Geet stepped out only to see some people staring at her... probably saw her with MSK. The morning was bright and it was the peak hour when people arrive. Some girls did give her mean looks meaning what she was doing with msk! Geet's personal life was totally an unknown zone in office. She was very professional and didn't like her personal life to be discussed. She saw some girls look at her dreamily... some in awe..and some in anger. She could care less. She ignored them all and walked in. They had never seen her with any guy... even when maan used to drop her or pick her up, he was careful in keeping themselves away from all this.

He finished with his meeting and finally got some moment of peace. He got back to his cabin, closed the blinds and asked adi to make sure no one disturbed him. He saw quietly, sipping coffee and delved deeper into his thoughts. He had been thinking about her strange behaviour since morning...what could be wrong? She was all fine with the kids but not to anyone else. He recalled the morning... her running away from him, breakfast...and his own thoughts. He looked at his laptop... and then didn't know why he pressed some random keys and pressed enter. He kept on clicking on links after links randomly lost in his thoughts. She was always herself... then what is stopping her from being so? Why did she not allowed namra to apologize? There were so many questions bjt no answer.

There was a pop-up sound on his screen when he realized he had entered some random site. He sighed..and moved the cursor to close it when a quote caught his attention. He looked at it carefully...it was by Bob Marley which read—

"You may not be her first, her last or her only!

She loved before she may love again.

But if she loves you now, what else matters?

She is not perfect—you aren't either!

And the two of you can never be perfect together.

But if she can make you laugh and

Cause you to think twice and admit to being human

and making mistakes, hold on to her

and give her the most you can!

She may not be thinking about you every second of her life

But she will give you a part of hers

that she knows you can break—her heart!

So don't hurt her...don't change her...

Don't analyze her and don't expect more than she can give!"

He was numb reading those lines...it took him some time to come back to reality! Each and every word was so true... he was awed by it. But a line just took his heart away, "...but she will give you a part of hers that she knows you can break—her heart!"

His eyes widened with a sudden realization...and then his own conclusions this morning...he expects her to come back to her old self...but he isn't doing anything in that way! Thats it!!! 'being her old self...' was what making him restless...but for that matter he needs to step up first!!! But something else also caught his attention—her heart! He re-read those lines again and tried to connect it with geet's behaviour--could it be because of him? He had definitely broken her heart... he felt guilty but then there was no time for all that. She was drifting afar...and he needed to bring her back as soon as possible.

It was natural on her part to behave like this...when he had broken her heart so badly. She had confessed her love..but he had pushed her away, in his own dilemma. That was probably the tip of the iceberg...and then another realization! She thinks he had signed those divorce papers but she is still away from the fact that he didn't do it intentionally. Oh god... a small thing can really remind you the biggest things in your life. He so wanted to run to her, take her in his arms and apologize for whatever pain she had undergone just because of him. He looked at the time..he still had time. She'd be in her office. He sighed and dropped the idea of calling her,. he didn't want her to feel conscious.

Day was not going very smooth with geet but she could care less. Some colleagues who disliked her...taunted right at her face as to what she was doing with MSK. Someone commented, "his wife is dead...and she thinks its her time to rope him...how pathetic of her.."

She heard a lot of things...especially with maan being popular amongst girls was the catalyst. But she remained calm...speaking minimal and focusing on her work. She was hurt...she was broken... and she had come to believe that no matter what happens she will get hurt at the end...then why to even care about anything at all. She endured all the silly taunts and gossips but gave a damn.

It was 6:30 and people slowly dispersed. She collected her things and looked around..there was no one. She sighed and walked out...wondering why there was crowd by the parking. She saw most of the girls standing around and murmuring something, discussing something among themselves. She ignored and walked out but was amazed to see girls giving her mean disgusting looks. She didn't know what was wrong... but she didn't even let her feelings waver. She saw him standing by the car, leaning against the door, doing something in his phone. She knew he was there to pick her up. She was about to go when she heard someone speak, "gosh... he doesn't even look like he is married or his wife is dead for that matter... "

She hated it but ignored. she saw him smile at her and come closer. He leaned closer and gave her a light hug, "you enjoyed your day na?"

He held her hand and led her towards the car when the same girl from the morning murmured, "woah...didn't know she could be such a bitch!"

Geet stopped right there, trying to stop herself from getting angry when she heard her speak again, "and what kind of a man he is? Just because his wife is no more doesn't mean he should take to another girl just to satisfy himself..."

And that was the end of all. Geet's temper reached a new level. She could hear anything about herself..that was fine... but how dare she speak something about maan? She pulled her hand away from maan in a jerk. He turned around wondering what was wrong but was shocked to see those anger filled eyes. He didn't even know what they were speaking but seeing geet he knew something was wrong.

"geet...you okay?"

Geet didn't even hear him. She turned back and placed a tight slap on that girl's cheek. She was stunned feeling that stinging sensation over her cheeks and looked at geet in anger, "how dare you..."

Geet cut her in the middle, "shut your damn f***ing mouth you bloody sl*t... you spoke about me thats fine...but mind you...raise a word against him..i will not hesitate to kill you..."

Maan's eyes widened with such beautiful profanities coming from geet. Not that she didn't know them...rather she knew more than what he knew but she hardly used them, she sometimes used in college but that was then!!! And then her words had actually given him hopes...she is just trying to suppress her love...thats it! And he actually realized the real thing that bothered her—getting hurt again and again! She had put up a strong wall around her heart. she was too hurt..to an extent that she was preparing herself to bear that pain for everything that happens. His eyes moistened but he felt proud of her to have answered that girl back.

He saw the girl totally in shock... but before he could even think anything, he felt her hold his hand and drag him towards their car. He smiled seeing her trying hard to hide her love behind that mask of anger and coldness. He didn't speak anything but made her sit comfortably and drove of. The drive was silent and he was lost in his own thoughts. If this was really the case with geet...then why she was reacting differently with dadima and others? She could have been mad at him and only him... and then with the kids... that kind of didn't make any sense. He didn't even realize when they reached km. She got off and quickly walked inside. He parked the car and went in.

He saw her involve herself with the kids... but he was still a little confused and uncertain about her reaction. He kept on observing all through the evening, dinner...and even in their room..but she kept herself busy with something or the other. He breathed in sharply and concentrated on his work.

She woke up again early morning and kept his files and lappy away again. He woke up with the movements only to see her move away from him. He held her hand and pulled her closer in a jerk. She lost her balance due to the sudden pull and fell on his chest. He smiled feeling her curls over his face...smooth and soft. She looked a little apprehensive but the events of last night gave him a little push. He held her closer by her waist while his other hand softly caressed her cheeks, moving away those curls. She looked straight at his face as if waiting for him to let go...but he was firm. He wanted to bring out those feelings that she had suppressed so hard beneath her fake mask. He didn't even move...rather just held her closer while is hand now moved under her chin and cupped her face and looked straight into her eyes, waiting for her to break that invisible barrier.

She waited patiently for him to leave her or go ahead with whatever he had thought of but his stillness made her restless. She softly tired to push herself , fisting her hands that clutched his shirt but he didn't waver. He just looked at him... as if trying to touch her soul. Nobody knew how long it was but he could see her wall breaking. She was getting restless that she might just give away...the pull was still so strong...but she didn't want to. She tried to move away but he just held on. She got even more restless and looked here and there. He was firm on making her lower her barrier and get to know what she really felt..but then they heard the kids knocking the door...they were up early today. He was distracted and she moved away from him, somewhere feeling much relaxed. He realized what had happened and looked at her. she avoided her gaze and ran out.

He pulled the spread over and made a face, "i am seriously missing you geet..."

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He stood in front of her office, waiting for her. this time he didn't come out of the car, knowing very well that geet didn't like it. He smiled to himself...this has become such a regular routine for him to drop her off and then pick her up. It was already around 7 and she wasn't back. He sighed and called home. Dadima received the call.

"dadima...geet waapis aa gayi hain kya?"

[dadima...is geet back home?]

"hmm..she was back around lunch time itself beta..."

He sighed and disconnected the call. It was the 5^th time in these 15 days that she had actually gone home early just to be with the kids. He didn't know why was she doing this. She had even stopped coming to office for a few days but he insisted on going so she went without any fuss...but she never stayed back. She went home early around the time the kids were back...she pampered them like anything but probably didn't realise that she was spoiling them as well. She wasn't wrong in showering all her love to the kids, losing her own baby was one thing but then this was something that irritated him to the core. She sometimes ended up sleeping with the kids..not that he had any problem with it as he was also busy with a new project in hand but her behavior was not giving him good vibes. It was more like she was trying to cover herself with the help of kids. He tried hard to behave as normally as possible...and not making feel like she was the patient or something but nothing seemed to affect her. the cracks in the walls of her heart he had seen was so tactfully covered up. It was like the more he thought he was closer to the kids the more he felt that drift. She even avoided being alone with him in the same room which he absolutely hated.

For geet...it was more of keeping herself firm. She would not be able to take more and she knew it very well. She just wanted the kids to be strong and be able to stand up for themselves...thats it..and thats why she gave them all her time. It soothed her aching soul that felt the emptiness of motherhood. In the process she never realized what she was doing...but she just wanted to be with the kids thats it.

Maan dropped the kids in their school and then geet at her office. Before she left, he placed a soft kiss on her cheeks and whispered, "don't hurry home today..i will be here to pick you up okay..."

She held herself firm and walked away. And indeed she stayed the whole day in office. Why wouldn't she...the kids were out in a small study tour and will be back only in the evening. It was more of a fun trip for them to a science park. She checked the time again and again so that she could rush back to them... but to her dismay time seemed to move slower than usual. She sighed and tried to concentrate on her work. That girl tried to get back at geet but she cared a damn. Her cold shoulder actually made her look like a fool.

She slowly walked back towards the parking where she knew he'd be waiting. It had become more of a regular routine for him to drop her and pick her up. She expected him to be waiting for her with that smile on her face...but luck wasn't favoring her today. He wasn't there! He had send the driver to pick her up. Like her face fell... she did somewhere expect him to be there... she was habituated...addicted...and then a sudden change in her routine actually made her restless. She sat quietly and looked out of the window...why wasn't he there? He never told her that he'd not be coming..was he alright...so many questions swirled her mind even without her knowledge. The strict ritual had been broken which left her dissatisfied and restless.

She saw some other car parked in the driveway. Was he home? Is so then why didn't he pick her up? The driver kind of understood her thoughts and felt the need to give a small explanation, "wo geet baby...aaj maan saab ko kuch zaruri kaam aa gaya isiliye unhone mujhe bhej diya. Wo aane hi wale they ke achanak se kaam aa gaya.."

[geet baby today maan sir got some urgent work thats why he sent me. He was to come himself but it was sudden and urgent...]

"umm...theek hain koi baat nahi..."

[umm...okay not a problem..]

She just walked inside and saw gayathri sitting with the kids and dadima. Did she feel anything? There was no fear...no apprehension... no guilt...nothing. gayathri saw her and stood up surprised. She was still here? After even maan signing the divorce papers she was still here? She had apparently come to know about the events in tits and bits so didn't even know what had actually happened. She had come to see the kids and found geet.

Geet just looked away and tried to walk past her when she heard gayathri speak, "you are still here? Don't you realize you have lost every right to be here?"

Dadima was shocked to hear something like that from gayathri...she didn't really know the foundation reason as to why gayathri disliked geet so much! but it was even more shocking to see geet smile at her meanly and look at her.

"i don't have anything to lose...not this house...or the kids... or even maan... wo tho mera kabhi tha hi nahi...so i really don't care."

She walked way not even sparing her a single look. Gayathri was totally puzzled to see a sudden change in geet...she actually felt intrigued. There was no more a meek girl...rather a very cold person. What was wrong? She saw dadima looking at her angrily and decided to leave. She saw maan standing there with a very puzzled look on his face. She sighed and walked past him...he didn't even realize that. He was more shocked to hear geet's statement--maan...he was never mine in the first place itself..so i really don't care..

Why did she say that? He was hurt...her words actually killed him today! He didn't know what gayathri told geet or why... but he heard geet speak as he entered. Why did she think like that about herself? Why did she see herself different from them...like in a separate light? He looked at dadima who looked equally puzzled with the word-war between the duo and walked into his room.

Geet was in the washroom while he took off his tie and coat, opened a few top buttons of his shirt and sat in the balcony. His realization lacked somewhere... and with geet saying something to gayathri... the reason might lie in those 5 years that had taken geet away from him. Theres always a reason behind everything and he had to know why geet left so suddenly. Then he might just reach or connect to her. he took out the envelop and saw the tickets. He was planning to take geet out for a small trip...he had been keeping in touch with her doctor. She even suggested a change in environment may help her open up to him. But the events in the past few days forced him to observe her. he saw her devote her entire time to the kids... like there was nothing beyond them. After giving a lot of thought to it...he realized he had to take things in his hands and work his own way out.

He took out his cell and called up a few people discussing something. He heard the washroom door open and geet stepped out. She had changed into her night suit and walked out to the kids. He sighed and looked back into the tickets.

The next morning saw roops at the khurana breakfast table and it was the first day of summer vacation for the kids. They were just too happy to see her. geet as usual quietly served them breakfast and sat beside the kids hearing their senseless talks with roops.

"oyee..tum logon ki summer vacations start ho gayi hain na.. then why don't you come with me to my house?"

[your summer vacations have started right.. then why don't you come with me to my house?]

"massi..your house?", dia asked.

"yep... and prem is also going to be there...and your choti nani...we will also go to shimla..and dadima is also accompanying us too..."

Dadima coughed her food, "ahem...beta humne kab kaha tha hum jaa rahe hain?"

[when did we tell you beta that we are going?]

Geet looked at dadima and then back at roops. Roops gave a wide grin, "haan haan dadima.. aapne kal kaha tha yaad nahi aapko... you are also bored staying alone in the house na... tho you wanted to go out..."

[yes yes dadima.. you told me yesterday don't you remember... you are also bored of staying alone in the house na.. thats why you wanted to go out..]

Maan who was a silent observer all the time actually shot a deathly glare to roops for involving dadima in this. Roops gave him a royal ignore and looked at dadima, "dadima.. you told me na..."

Dadima observed maan and roops...umm may be there was something going on in the house. Nonetheless, she decided to go with the flow.

"han..yaad aaya..hum tho kabse chah rahe the ki koi humare saath chale...but geet.."

[yeah we remembered..we wanted someone to accompany us...but geet...]

Roops cut her in the middle, "han geet ki fikr aap mat kijiye..usey doctor ne rest karne bola hain...tho usey yahan rehkar araam karna hain... waise maan tho hai hi uska khayal rakhne ke liye..nahi...", she gave a cheesy smile to maan.

[han you don't worry about geet... doctor had asked her to rest..so let her stay here and take rest.. anyways maan is there to take care of her no...]

Maan rolled his eyes...how much nautanki can this girl do. He just looked into his plate and nodded silently, making sure that geet never suspected. The kids were already jumping to leave...but geet was totally restless. She didn't go to office that day and spent the entire time with the kids. In the meantime roops told dadima about maan wanting to take geet out for a small trip. Knowing that she'd refuse maan asked roops to help her out and she spoke all that so that everything looked genuine.

Dadima wondered, "when was it even 1% genuine?"

Geet paced restlessly in her room...the kids will be gone the next morning but she was totally apprehensive. The kids were so excited but then their going away from her actually frustrated her. maan came in speaking over the phone and saw her restless. He knew she was not liking the whole plan of sending the kids away but he needed to show her that a world also existed beyond the kids. He went closer and hugged her from the back, making her still..but she struggled to let go.

"let them go geet...they haven't gone out for a long time...let them enjoy their vacations.."

She snapped and pushed him away. There was a clear denial in her eyes and anger as well. He knew this was to come... but he had to bear with it. Geet had to come back to im..to everyone.

"sweety please understand...they have to learn to be on their own as well right.. and dadima, mumma, roops and prem are also with them..."

She looked quite irritated and went to sleep. The whole night she was restless..tossing and turning in her sleep. Maan woke up with her movements, pulled her close and held her tight, stilling her and slept off. The next day was going to a long one.

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