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saranya

@Sarah_Jothi

Rocker

+ 5

Posted: 12 years ago

hey guys...

this is purely dedicated to my mom...and its nothing but my own feelings wich i was going thru days back...

just thought of giving a form to my memories...sorry if u are bored reading it...

~*~*~*~*~*~* back to life *~*~*~*~*~*~

this is a peice of memory of a poor grl...who has been rolling on grief and worry but still managed to get thru it...

its been my routine to write my daily events... here is my most precious page of my dairy...!!! a day of mixed emotions...

25-03-2013

hai mr.dairy... (my way to address my dairy...its dear to me)

u knw wht happened today??

sitting in the classroom physically my eyes wer filled with tears...

grief tat engulfing my heart made it beat fast to shrug off tat grief's grip...

my throat feeling all heavy as i was tryng to gulp down all tat wierd fears to feel stong...

i knw...i knw the world is still revolving at its pace... people are just normal as always...

clases going on with its regular kind but still wht my mind sticked on to is HER... only HER...

i closed my eyes tight gripping my fingers together to tat extent tat my nails prick my other hand yet all tat pain felt ironically smal than wht my heart was feeling at tat moment...

i cursed my fate of missing to be with HER...

i cursed it like hell...

i felt like to yell out loud...

i felt like to break dwn my way to run to her...

i felt like to slam dwn the wrld for tat matter...

i knw she needs me...

i knw she needs me...but here am..away frm her...hopelessly struck in...

flashes of her face sailing in my tears on my eyes...

hw lonely my home looked without her...

hw abandoned my soul felt without her warmth...

hw bad i missed her laugh these days...

hw much worry...hw much burden...hw much fear to lose her...

to lose her!!!

i nvr knew mere words cn hurt so much..yes this word LOSE HER... showered me blocks of burning stones fr me to burn in fear... my soul to shiver...

my house frnt looked ugly without her hand drawn patterns... like she used to do..

my room seemed so untidy..like it used to be..but she dint scold me..like she used to do...

my house was so silent...without her bangles and anklets blabber...like it used to be...

my kitchen was untouched... making me hungry fr her hands food...like she used to cook...

my garden roses hung their heads down...missing her care...like she used to do...

my pooja room was dark... without her diya... same like my life...dark...

my ngts werent with sleep... like its used to be...

my gudbye's nvr came out in morng...like i used to wish her evryday...

and the feel to get ths all stay permanent haunted me to my death...i would rather die than enduring all this...

i wish this disease nvr exist...it alrdy took lives frm us...

i wish i could do something...

i wish i could be with her..

but no...i was helpless...potentless ...to do anythng...

i could visualise her...

breathing in ventilator... covered with surgeons...being cut with scalpels...surrounded by blood...

gosh...she is innocent...so tender... i still remember hw much terrified she was to do a blood test...

a single prick seemed himalayan task fr her...but now...

being cut with those instruments... my soul owner lying there...

my frnd shook me hard to open my eyes...and all those tears i covered up spilled on my cheeks...

my frnd hugged me sideways saying ..consoling me softly...least did she knw i was out of my senses to listen her...

my mobile vibrated hard...as if knwing its one beep cn nvr grasp my attention rgt now...

and i tuk it out to see a new msg... opened it... smal smile crept on my lips... stil with brimming tears on my eyes ...my hrt still rejoiced on it...

that msg... wich was most needed to stabilise me...!!

*********** hours later...

i rushed in breaking evry single rule of law in driving...

and wen i stepped in... tat kinda anxiety isnt normal... my heart racing hard nearing her...

my hands cold...my form stiff...my breathe irregular... i pushed open the door...

there she was...

maa... a soft whisper erupted my shivering lips...

as if she heard tat invisible whisper by heart..she turned to me...a weak smile on her face assuring me..she is stil alrgt...

she called out fr me...

i took steps to her...

there was my mom...

still alive...!!

still gud..!!

still breathing..!!

i let out a sharp breath...

its not her...its actually me...who got back to life frm hell...!!

seeing her ...my heart relaxed itself frm a month's torture it went thru...

she is okay...she is okay...

my mind chanted on its own to cool my nerves...

i stood there in frnt of her... reliving my first sight of her...

i dnt remember my first sight of her aftr my birth...but now...i wil nvr frgt ths first sight of her til my death...!!!

plz like and comment if u felt like...

its solely optional... this is a sacred bond and im not begging anything for it...

sorry if u felt me rude... but its hw i feel 😊

buddy me fr pm' s of my other wrks... 😊

MY WRITING INDEX 😊

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/86112562

Edited by -saranya- - 12 years ago

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nimmi

@aksuji

Voyager

Posted: 12 years ago

this was sooo emotional and so nice...I just cant really describe what I felt but I can feel a tide of emotions rising inside me...thanku for the pm

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Snoowfall

@Snoowfall

Dazzler

Posted: 12 years ago

wow nicely put in words, sometimes we forget to express what mothers are to us, thanks for writing this for us, God gave us mom's as he could not be us all the time...

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InkyCupid

@InkyCupid

Inactive

+ 4

Posted: 12 years ago

OMG i love this oneshot, it was so emotional and sad.Great job:)

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vaju

@vaju

Voyager

Posted: 12 years ago

hey

no res

no unress

as i feel it is not a one which is just like the other stories

now

i hate the word os

i hate the word update

as i don't like to call this group of words which were penned down

to say ur emotions & inner turmoil (as a update / OS)

i am not the one to rate a

mother-daughter relationship

so no type of words should be used here

since they were not worth to justify a sacred bond

when i read ur inner turmoil

i dont know my eyes automatically started doing its own action of spilling out emotions

to read the hurt taken by a girl

"AMMA"

no words to describe it

i am relived that ur mother is out of danger

ha nothing happens to her

i wish my comment pray

for a beautifull life of ur mother

Edited by vajram - 12 years ago

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Priya

@ashi.1

Voyager

Posted: 12 years ago

that was truly emotional..

u have amazingly portrayed the feeling of loosing her and then finding that u never lost her, she is with u always... for me i can't even think of expressing my feelings and emotions in few words, but u have efficiently done that and that proves ur capabilities of being a wonderful writer..😃

i dnt remember my first sight of her aftr my birth...but now...i wil nvr frgt ths first sight of her til my death...!!!

that was just awesome...!!!😊

Edited by -Priya.1- - 12 years ago

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ara_000

@ara_000

Sparkler

+ 5

Posted: 12 years ago

wowww dis is beautifully written...!
Sooo emotional...u have put it down sooo nicely...!
I was reading nd my eyes welled up wit tears...
Awsum piece of writing dear...
Truly beautiful...

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Drama.Queen

@Drama.Queen

Rocker

+ 2

Posted: 12 years ago

Aww... You made cry Akka...

I can understand this emotions very much.. I'm happy everything is right now,.

You made me shed tears again... but this time because what u wrote to Mr.diary

:'(

I want you to have the light in your life forever...

I pray to GOD( one GOD every religion in this case is same for me)

that you stay happy...

Bless you Akka...

Take care

I'm guess your sorrow is down and your pain is healed a little if not fully y because you have written your feelings out as your spoken it out nah...

Ok amazing work (I know it's not work but a true reality)

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jisa

@jisa

Rocker

+ 3

Posted: 12 years ago

it was sooo good...
words are not enough to describe it!!

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saranya

@Sarah_Jothi

Rocker

+ 5

Posted: 12 years ago

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Originally posted by: LoveARR
Aww... You made cry Akka...

I can understand this emotions very much.. I'm happy everything is right now,.

You made me shed tears again... but this time because what u wrote to Mr.diary

:'(

I want you to have the light in your life forever...

I pray to GOD( one GOD every religion in this case is same for me)
that you stay happy...

Bless you Akka...

Take care

I'm guess your sorrow is down and your pain is healed a little if not fully y because you have written your feelings out as your spoken it out nah...

Ok amazing work (I know it's not work but a true reality)