Part22: feelings of Desire and hatred
The same evening Aarti was transferred to her new room, in front of Yash still shaken by what happened between Aarti's accident and heart attack of his father. After visiting his father who was better, Yash walked into the room trembling he turned the handle of the door sweaty hand and heart pounding. He knew that Aarti was in a coma and this idea made him anxious. He was afraid that she decided not to wake up or even worse that she can die. He walked up to her with the help of Prashant, that Yash clung with all his strength so he was afraid. Prashant sat him beside her and went leaving him a little time alone with Aarti. Yash looked Aarti eyes filled with tears for several minutes without saying anything yet he had so much to tell her. But to see her in this condition that she had a lot of pain and bandage around the head scared him. He looked just crying, he wept with all his heart in mind also his baby. He directed his trembling hand to her stomach and laid. Yash felt a shudder through the body, it can be had knowing that his child had survived or just the fact that he would become a father ... the fruit of their passionate love, short happy moment they had together. Yash began to think of all the times when Aarti was trying to explain him stubborn and would not listen. Suddenly he felt this horrible feeling bitter regret ... He said if only he had listened once all this would never have happened. He stopped crying and looked Aarti and finally decided to speak in a voice stammering pretty sad.
Yash: Aar ... Aarti ... I feel like you hear me ... my love .. forgive me, I ... I am very sorry ... it's all my fault ... but do not punish me this way ... Wake up ... hit me ... insult me ??... give me all the punishment that you want
but not this ... I know you're angry against me ... I'm sorry but I beg you wake ...
Suddenly he felt a hand touch his shoulder he jumped and saw his mother Gayatri sad eyes filled with tears. Yash got the beating heart believing that something had happened to his father. He took the hand of Gayatri trembling and looked at her quizzically.
Yash: Ma.. Ma ... what happens? B.. Bauji ..
Gayatri: Do not worry Bauji is better now ... I'm very worry about you ... and Aarti.
I know it is very hard ... we were all wrong for her. But now she needs us ... We must be strong and help to wake beta. The doctor told me she could hear and feel. So before we need it to be strong and not show our grief ...
Yash nodded, glancing about Aarti before the nurse comes and asks them to leave.
Prashant who saw Yash still dressed with ceremonial dress and face thoroughly tired approached him and sat beside him.
Prashant: I think you have to go you refresh and rest.
Yash: No! I am ... I can not leave Aarti alone.
Prashant: She is not alone her doctors are there. Do not be stubborn yet
anyway, you must be shaped to help Aarti is not it? It may take several days before she wakes ... and I hope not but may be months ... then we all need to be in shape. More your father is sick listen to me and then go home. Tomorrow the first time we return. please go to take some rest.
Yash knew that Prashant was right, now he had to be strong for Aarti covers her health with their baby and his father also needs him. He got up and they went.
After learning that Aarti was in the hospital Maya almost had a heart attack. It is true that since the death of her brother she had never truly appreciate Aarti. But the fact of knowing that she is in the hospital made ??her realize that this girl basically she loved her.
She always took care of her despite her bad temper. Maya arrived at the hospital the next day after a horrible night and feelings of regret that prevented her from sleep. When she entered the room and saw Aarti in this state she could not stop crying cursing and saying that this was all her fault. If she would not have thrown aarti from the house she would never have had this horrible accident.
Maya: Aarti, beta beta ... forgive me ... I was a surly and cantankerous old aunt
Can you forgive me one day beta.
Then Gayatri who had pity on the old woman tried to console.
She took a drink of water and asked Maya to come and live among them in order to visit Aarti easily.
For several weeks, Yash alternated between his father at home and Aarti in the hospital with the help of Prashant. During these weeks Yash did his best not to cry and stay strong. Then came Aman and Deepika who were shocked to learn this terrible tragedy. But knowing that the Bauji had returned home take rest and Yash spent the greater part of his days in the hospital, they were back in India to help in the work which had been neglected for several weeks .
That day they came directly to the hospital to see Aarti. Deepika left the room in tears and glared at Yash. She was so angry, she began to scold him and yell. Aman was also very angry against Yash who obviously had not listened to the advice he had given before his wedding with Deepika.
Aman: I told you! If there is no trust in a couple ... it can not work ... and you do not trust Aarti. Now ... here is the result ..
Deepika (crying): I'll never imagined that you would have believed this tall tale!! If I had been there I would not have believed and came immediately on Aarti's side! who supposedly you love! You just drop her like...and worse than you almost marry this dirty witch Nandika?!? ... I hope she will rot in prison!
You threw out of the house Aarti pregnant! Fortunately Prashant was there for her! Oh my god ... Oh my poor Aarti... Aman.
Deepika fell into Aman's arms crying with all her heart. Yash lowered his head, who he had not cried since many weeks for the sake of Aarti felt an urge to cry at this moment ... When Prashant suddenly arrived.
Prashant: I understand your pain ... and I know you're partially right but as you say this witch was gifted even Aarti thought she had lost her memory. This is not the time to shout Yash. His pain is much worse than ours .. I think he regrets and suffering enough to see Aarti in this state. On the contrary for the sake of Aarti we need to be solidary hai naa?
Aman and Deepika nodded , Prashant was right. Aman went to Yash and took him in his arms. Yash collapsed in tears.
Aman: Sorry Bhai is hard I know ... be strong! We're all here with you.
Yash: This is a horrible punishment the worse of my life... Aman ... I do not know if I would have the strength to go on ... it's been many weeks and she is not yet out of the coma ..
I was afraid for her ... and for the baby.
Aman: Everything will be alright ... Aarti loves life and she will not let her child die. Everything will be alright ... pray.
A month later
Yash as every morning before going to the office, prepared to visit Aarti hoping that this day is good and she finally wakes up. since one month Yash did all his best not to cry and feel sad when he was in front of Aarti. He took care of her, brushing her hair teased as he did before.
Then he enjoyed talking with his ??baby touching Aarti's belly which was already beginning to swell. But in the evening once in his room Yash leaving aside his smile and began to cry. Aarti her voice, her look, all of she missed him terribly
Yash suffered from her absence. Whenever he remembered, Yash regretted this horrible story and feelings of regret is the worst he has ever known.
The pain in the heart,the lump in the throat and these words "if only" "I should have" "If I could go back" poisoned his existance.
One day when he arrived at the hospital, he heard a beep sounded in the room Aarti. Yash felt his heart beat and was beginning to be anxious. He ran into her room and saw a nurse. Yash went to her and asked with a trembling voice and scared.
Yash: Wha...What happens??? wh.. why it keeps ringing??
Nurse: It's nothing, it's when I made her toileting I had unintentionally move the oximeter ... sorry sir
Yash glared at her and went toward her almost out of breath so he was afraid.
Yash: Be careful ... I really ... really ... thought that..she ..
Nurse: Calm down sir, I'm sorry ... I would be careful next time.
Once the nurse left, Yash came sit and looked Aarti. Even in the coma she was more beautiful. When looked at she seemed she was just asleep and she will wake up soon. Yash kissed her on the head and stroked her hair. Then he put his hand on her belly rounded. Whenever Yash touched her belly, he felt a thrill it was may be because he knew that it was her child who was there. Yash began to talk to him as usual.
Yash: Beta, How are you today? Me? not going well ... I miss your mom
well you want to help papa hai na? and tell her I need to see her smile, her eyes .. take her in my arms ...
I know you'll help papa beta ... tell her I love her and I'm sorry.
Yash was about to leave when he felt Aarti's hand move ... more than a month after she had finally moved her hand. Yash kissed her hand and pressed it against his cheek and began to cry.
Yash: Aar ... Aarti ... my love I say the same thing every day and it is only now that you make me a sign? Please my love open your eyes look at me
I miss you terribly ... this punishment is too long ... forgive me I will not do it again ... just open your eyes ..
Yash felt Aarti move a second time, he was so happy but their joy was short-lived because after that day Aarti did not move once. Only her belly rounded every day. Another month had passed and Aarti was still in a coma. Everyone in turn came to see her and take care of her. Yash as always visit her every morning before going to office. Aman told her his famous jokes that always made her laugh before. Deepika amused to put on her some makeup and pass moisturizing cream all over the body by telling her gossip girls. Prashant came to see her and pray almost every day. Maya and Gayatri articulated her members with oil and massaged her hair. Suraj,him had remained silent looked at Aarti thoughts filled with regret and bitterness. He stroked her hair whenever he left. All looked after her, hoping that one day she wakes up.
Three weeks later, Yash, Deepika, Aman and Prashant were at the hospital to visit Aarti together. The doctor called Yash to give him an ultrasound and the latest pregnancy report of Aarti. Deepika touched the belly of Aarti to talk to the baby when she felt to move inside.
Tears in her eyes she told Aman and Prashant who were affected. When suddenly they saw Aarti begin to fidget in all directions. Prashant went out and ran to call the doctor who was still with Yash. All rushed to see Aarti. The doctor approached Aarti was going to move. Yash who dared not look turned and closed his eyes and began to pray. All trembled lest it be another false alarm. The doctor examined Aarti and he saw that she put her hand to her belly, she began to touch. Then gradually she opened her eyes, she stared around her and began to panic. Yash was happy and scared at the same time he still dared not look. Aarti difficulty rose up under the eyes of everyone who was both happy and scared. She stared at everyone
Aarti: What am I doing here ... ..
Doctor: How are you feeling?
Then she began to touch her belly panicking
Aarti: Something moving in my belly ... Doctor ...
They were surprised by hearing this, Yash felt his heart drop so he was afraid.
Doctor: Calm down Mrs. Scindia, you remember what happened? What day is it?
Aarti closed her eyes and tried to remember and then opened them and said, almost smiling.
Aarti: Yes, I arrived in Delhi yesterday! But I think you are mistaken my name is Khurana!
Yash almost fell when he heard this, he who had so wished Aarti woke up. Now as it was then, she seems to have lost memory. Yash put his hands on the small table in front of him and bowed his head. The tears began to flow. Prashant who saw Yash in shock approached him and held him in his arms. Deepika who felt sad and began to cry approached Aarti.
Deepika: No, what are you talking about? For a long time you have come to Delhi! Remember you
Doctor: calm down, she is still weak and in a state of shock.
Aarti: Who are you? Who are these people? Where is my aunt
Yash felt his heart drop heard this, he dared not yet watched Aarti face and left the room followed by Aman and Prashant.
Doctor: Listen you had a very serious car accident, it is normal that you do not remember. Calm down, relax I go back to see you in a few seconds with a specialist doctor.
Aarti: WHAT??? I don't remember...i'm afraid...Why I want to see my aunt! Call her...
Doctor calm down... ok i'll call her.
A few hours later, Yash and his family awaited the three doctors and Buaji out of the room. Yash was stressed and any questions came to his mind. Aarti has she lost her memory?Whether she will recover her memory quickly? And if she never found her? Will she still love him? Yash took his head in his hands. Aman patted his back and tried to comfort him.
Aman: Bhai, she just woke up after several months ... be Patient
Yash: I'm afraid ... she said she had just arrived in Delhi ... how is it possible?
During this time in the room , the doctors who had examined Aarti tried to explain the situation with the help of her aunt.
Aarti: Buaji...I do not remember being married ...anything!
Maya: Aarti, you had an accident, as just the doctors tell you you've lost a bit of memory ... it was a serious accident ... calm down.
Aarti closed her eyes and tried to think, and then it came a little mixture of pics of a man. She immediately became frightened, she did not know why, but this man scared her.
Doctor: For several months you were in a coma. We will consider some time ... can be only passenger. We leave you some time with your aunt and your family. We'll be back soon to see you.
Aarti: What a family! Buaji I want to leave here and return with you at home. All these doctors are crazy it scares me ... I want to go.
When the doctors left the room Yash and his family rushed toward them. Yash waiting for several hours already could not stand more.
Yash: Doctor, what is it? She lost her memory?
Doctor: Mr. Yash Scindia come into my office we will discuss.
Yash followed him trembling. Arrived at the doctor's office. Yash sat scared.
Doctor: Your wife has lost her memory ... I'm sorry
Yash's eyes widened and could no longer say anything so shocking as he was. The doctor continued his diagnostic reassuringly.
Doctor: Mr Scindia, Your wife has suffered shocking before and after the accident.
According to the story that you told me. It may refuse to think and hides this part of her life buried in a corner of her mind. This will probably take a few days.
Yash able to pronounce by stammering
Yash: A..fe.. few days ... that's it?
Doctor looked down, and after a few minutes of silence which worsened the condition of Yash he finally decided to pursue.
Doctor: I do not guarantee anything ... it may also take months ... see one year. But you must be strong and help Mme Scindia regain her memory.
Yash began to cry, one year?? how will he bear it? After all this time...Aarti lost her memory. The doctor who was sorry for him added for comfort him.
Doctor: She is in perfect health and the baby too. We await the outcome of the scanner and analyzes made today. Then your wife will go with you, of course after rehabilitation but with a medical follow each week. You must be strong and help her with all your family. May be she will find her memory soon. Don't worry.
Yash thanked him with a disappointed tone and rejoined his family waiting outside Aarti's room.
Gayatri: So?
Suraj: What did say the doctor? Yash?
Prashant approached him and made him sit, the looked disappointed and eyes filled with tears and Yash said
Yash: She lost her memory ... the doctor said that it can also take a few days but even months or more.
Deepika wept in the arms of Aman which was also very upset by the news. Suraj let out a few tears and Gayatri wept her heart out.
All were shocked to learn that Aarti had lost her memory. All of them who wanted to see Aarti as before were disappointed to learn that it will take a little more time.
During this time, Maya was trying to explain to Aarti to understand that she did not believe.
Maya: Aarti beta, calm down you live in Delhi with your husband and his family. More you are pregnant then calm down ... this is not good for the baby.
Aarti stared buaji shocked then she finally noticed her belly rounded. Basically she was happy with that, but at the same time afraid of no longer recall anything.
Aarti: Pregnant? ... Okay, as you say I lost my memory ... but how will I find it? it scares me buaji!
Maya: Your friends and your family will be there to guide you beta.
Aarti: I want to see them! Now ... maybe this will help me ... I can not stay like this ... it troubles me.
Maya went to get the others. All rushed except Yash who dared not still see Aarti. They came inside and looked Aarti with tears of joy but also disappointment. Aarti stared at them alternately.
Aarti: It seems that you are my family ...
Yash outside listening to the heart filled with sorrow.
Deepika slowly approached her and made the presentation.
Deepika: I am your best friend Deepika .. and here Bauji and your Mamiji your Sasural
Aarti looked at her in-laws and made them a smile nonetheless face Bauji made her a little scared. Then she turned her gaze to Deepika and looked with a smile in her heart she felt that she loved this girl. Suraj approached her with a trembling hand and stroked her face and took a sudden urge to cry he went followed by Gayatri who was also moved. Aarti felt at that moment a twinge of regret.
Yash always outside felt unable to turn. Gayatri went to see him and tell him to go in vain and she went to see Suraj upset.
Then she looked Aman with a smile as if he had been best friends.
Aman: I am your brother in law and friends Aman! and Deepika's husband.
Aarti gave him a smile and then turned her gaze on Prashant, Aarti felt within her a good man and admirable. She felt as if it had always been there for her.
Prashant was about to say something when Aarti interrupted.
Aarti: You ... you're probably my husband ... I feel you unique with big heart ...
Yash widened his eyes and felt a horrible pang heard this. Aarti had not even seen it yet and already she thought that Prashant was her husband.
Yash who had a possessive temperament, in his heart was jealous. Aarti was his wife ... and the fact that she recognizes her husband to another man broke him.
Everyone was shocked, Prashant approached her slowly and sat down beside her. Yash turned at this point to see over the glass Aarti for the first time since she woke up and saw the look of Aarti full of admiration for Prashant. Yash at bottom said Prashant deserved, he had always been there for her. while her own husband quite simply dropped her ... she was surely wanting to erase him of her memory. Yash burst into tears.
Prashant: Aarti, I'm not your husband ...
The Aarti looked disappointed that was even harder to Yash.
Aarti: Oh? ... Then who are you.? I feel you as someone close to me ...
Prashant: I am a good friend to you and Yash.
Aarti felt her head heavy on hearing that name "Yash" any kind of images paraded in her mind. Any images rather sad and painful. Everyone looked surprised, Yash wondered what she had entered at the room so he was worried. Aman who saw Yash came to Aarti who was still with closed eyes to hunt these images of head.
Aman: This is Yash your husband
Aarti opened her eyes and stared at him and her head began to be more heavy. Yash approached her and instinctively touched Aarti.
Yash: Aarti are you ok?
Hearing his voice and looking his face made her hurt.
She glared at him and pushed him violently. Yash froze and looked stunned and at bottom hurt. And she screamed holding her head paraded yet these images painful.
Maya: Aarti...calm down
Aarti: His face scares me ... he can not be my husband ... it's impossible!
Prashant: Aarti calm down ...
Aarti: Your face, your voice makes me think you're not good ... you are not my husband i feel like i hate you...get out!
Yash shocked out of the room running and collapsed to the ground broken heart and painful. Aarti who had missed him so much during these months and now she does not want even see him. Aman sad for Yash raised him up and made him sit down.
Yash: I do not know what is this great test of love god gives me ... but I am tired
from the beginning we have had all kind of test...and now again.. I so dreamed of this day when she will wakes up...and now. WHY?
Meanwhile, Deepika and Prashant trying to resonate Aarti.
Prashant: You just said that you feel that I am a good man hai na? ... Yash also and he loves you ..
Deepika: Aarti you are pregnant with Yash ... This is proof that you both love each other is not it?
Aarti: If I can not see his face is that something probably happened between the us ... I'm not a doctor but I feel like that ... then tell me what it is!
Deepika and Prashant exchanged glances but remained silent.
Aarti: I feel that it is something serious happened between us ... and I see that you try to hide ... It's okay but ... I do not want to see him here
Prashant: i know that you are still in shock you had just wake..but Aarti, you can not say that ... he remained several months at your bedside worried now that you're finally awake ... you can not refuse to see Yash.
Aarti felt a twinge heard this, yet she feels she hated him but that Prashant told he remained several months bedside her... made her something.
Deepika: Aarti, relax ... and try to calm down. Hope that tomorrow things are better.
Maya: Yes he is right ... beta. Calm down may be after few days you will remember everything...
Deepika kissed Aarti and hugged very hard, which was nice to Aarti that she felt Deepika like a sister. Prashant threw a last glance soften and went. Maya stayed with Aarti to look after her.
At the same time outside, Yash looked Prashant with envy, he wanted so that Aarti looks him this way. Prashant who noticed, sat near him and tried to console him.
Prashant: Do not worry ... it is only the first day ... she is confused
Yash: No it is not confused, she told the truth ... I was bad with Aarti ... I almost got married .. I have a lot of hurt her ... it is normal she hate me as much ..
Prashant: She do not hate you ... before she fainted after accident
she told me to tell you that if anything happened to her ... I must tell you that she loves you ... she loves you with all her heart ...
Yash was felt relieved to hear that and gave him a smile and he went to see the doctor.
When he told the doctor what happened, the doctor told him that all this was normal after that had passed between them before the accident.
Doctor: You remind her sad memory, she does not know that the truth was revealed ... she thinks you went to get married ... So I think she pushes you not to relive her painful days away from you.
Yash: What should I do? She refuses to see me ...
Doctor: Leave her a little time ... may be she should return to her aunt some time.
Yash: NO WAY! I can handle she hates me, she refuses to see me
but she comes home with me. We have been separated for so long and you still want her away from me. No, she goes with me!
Doctor: It was just a suggestion. But she can go with you when we receive the result scaner ok? Calme down... be patient.
Yash nodded and walked once more to the room to see Aarti. Aarti was alone lying down touching her belly rounded. After all this time asleep she was so beautiful, he looked a long time before that she notices and stares at him. Yash continued to look the beating heart until she stops him.
Aarti: Why you look at me that way?
Yash hesitated to come, but he finally decided. He approached her trembling and afraid that she asks him out. Aarti continued to blast the eyes but deep down she felt a touch of joy to see him coming toward her. Suddenly an image flashed through her mind an image of them in kissing. Aarti shook her head.
Aarti: I told you I did not want to see you!
Yash took his courage in both hands and said,
Yash: I ... I know ... but ... I wanted to see you ..
Aarti felt a shudder through the body hearing the sound of his voice. Although his face frightened her the sound of his voice made her feel pleasantly well. She looked at him and said, blushing.
Aarti: I do not want see you ...
Yash: Ok .. so I leave you
When Yash left, Aarti felt a pain in the heart, As if the fact to see him upset hurt her at bottom. She began to think and ask any kind of question.
Aarti: I do not know why ... but there is a side to him that makes me feel good
and another that scares me ... if he is my husband why I feel it is a part of me that hate him ... and another .. No! Between me and this man something happened ... something that makes me hate him ... but what?
She lay touching her belly, at least this new pleased her, she who had always loved children. She fell asleep at the thought.
Yash had a flashback Aarti and him since the beginning of their story ... all those good times they had spent together.
Yash: I must at all costs remind her how happy we were and how much we love each! Aarti I'll bring you back to me and I will not let you ever escape from my arms.
Aman: ... we will help you not worry everything will be fine ... let her a little time lets go home bhai!
A few days later Aarti, who did not want return with her in-law home, and was convinced by Maya and Gayatri. After several hours of debate, she agreed to return against heart live in Scindia's home. Gayatri helped Aarti to get ready. At the bottom Aarti felt she loved this woman. Yash waiting in the car anxious and stressed. After long months Aarti will finally return home. She had lost her memory and that it frightened Yash that she never covers her memory. Gayatri and Maya helped Aarti to walk to the car. Seeing Aarti arrived Yash went toward them and took the bag from Gayatri's hand Aarti withering look. Yash looked stealthily beating heart before returning to his car. During the way Aarti was sitting in the back with overprotective Gayatri who held her in her arms. When Yash started the car Aarti began to panic so she hated car's noise. Gayatri who understood pressed deeper into her arms. Yash driving slowly and did not look in the mirror by fear of eye contact with Aarti. Aarti also felt the same and did everything to avoid looking Yash opposite.
Once arrived at the house, Suraj who was eager to see his bahu back home waiting at the door with Aman Deepika and Prashant. Aarti was relieved to see them here because she was a little scared go home.
Gayatri and Maya helped Aarti to climb the stairs and once before the door Deepika held aarti taal at Gayatri to welcome her bahu at home.
Gayatri who wept with joy began to welcome Aarti under the eyes filled with tears of everyone.
Yash was behind Aarti and a light wind swept her sublime hair over his face.
He could smell her hair which made him feel a shiver through his body to the idea that she will finally back after all this time.
After sometime, Aarti was taken to her room by Deepika for her to rest. When she came to her room she felt a shiver go on all her body. Then she was surprised to see pictures of she and Yash together. She approached one of them and saw that it was in the Eiffel Tower. She asked Deepika thinking she was still behind her.
Aarti: I visited Paris? ... Oh God
Yash behind her walked slowly closer to her and answered.
Yash: Yes ... this is where we confess our love ... and our first
Aarti felt chills through her body and a whole mix of feelings she did not understand she turned glared at Yash and get away from him.
Aarti: Enough ... and first what are you doing here?
Yash: This is our room ... we are married ..
Aarti: Maybe, but I do not want you here!
Yash approached slowly, Aarti recoiled simultaneously whenever he moved toward her until he gently pinned her against the wall, he looked at her passionately then approached her more closely. Aarti felt her heart begin to beat faster and shivers of pleasure throughout her body. Yash put one hand on the wall and one on her belly and added.
Yash: Maybe you do not want me here ... but mera beta...my baby he wants
Aarti, still felt the thrill that the sound's Yash increased, she did not know why but it made her happy to hear that.
Aarti who did not know what to say looked a long time before Yash approaches her even more and looked intensely. Her look, the smell that emanated from her reminded him how it put him out of control and before he totally lose his control, Yash withdrew and went with shivering all his body, feelings of desire and heart beating wildly. Aarti remained pinned against the wall for a moment and tried to regain her mind. She did not know what was happening to her, but at that moment this man she thought hated
she wanted him. This idea frightened her and she went to sit on the bed heart beating fast.
Aarti:This blend of feelings hatred and desire at a time ...driving me crazy
What happened between us ...
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