Blast from the past thread#2! Episode 31- page 128 - Page 116

@Indi

Originally posted by: indi52

in the silence, something seeped into him and all he could do was be its captive. his hands moved without volition, almost as though pulled by a magnet toward her face. he had no idea what he was doing, just that he had to do this. for she had touched him already. with her tear.

episode 28

"touch has memory."
~~~ john keats ~~~

a sense was awakened today. touch. physical, emotional, in the gut, in the heart. he thrust her back against a huge drum of some sort, wanting to calm her, and himself perhaps too. the searing storm had entered both, and swirled dangerously. he had no idea things were in such a state, he said. as he watched, her face spoke fire, anger, transiting to pain and surprisingly almost a plea for mercy; he hadn't realised how hard he was holding her wrist. a tear formed and fell.

all through played rabba vey in the layer beyond, speaking of connection beyond words beyond logic beyond the limits of our reality, even when there was anger, when everything hurt, there was no looking back. sight had made the crack in the fortress wall, sound of her name revealed how hard it had hit, now touch smashed a rampart. beautiful direction and feel for the moment. tremulous, strains of rabba vey played on.

a glistening pearl on his hand. then another. like his first, then second call: khushi.

as though first drops of rain on parched earth. and they flooded his heart. stronger than an ocean, swifter than the rain. he freed her wrist and grappled with unknown feelings. those tears, what were they doing to him. his eyes wouldn't, couldn't leave her face.


before he could pull himself together, she passed out. limp, and trusting in his arms. concern and bafflement...
and so it was that his gaze fell on a stray strand of hair and a desire he couldn't understand or overcome took over.

to touch.

to feel that hair and tuck it behind that ear, to stroke a cheek, and then another? why, asr, why? he had no answer. he wasn't even thinking. she had let go on him, and he just wanted to be there with her. tender, loving, gentle, sweet, just feeling her innocent skin against his. something beyond him pulled him and kept him there.

"see how she leans her cheek upon her hand!
o that i were a glove upon that hand,
that i might touch that cheek!"
~~~ romeo's soliloquy, william shakespeare

he lifted his hand and did as he felt compelled to. i felt my breath stay still as this most intoxicating sequence unfolded.

later he would pick her up in his arms, cradle her like a child, something precious, and take her to his suv, then her home. there, he'd be greeted by a sister's wrath, and an aunt's curses; insulted, shown the door. yet all he'd know is that she held on to his shirt, that he had to be gentle with her, that he couldn't just leave without knowing she was alright. he'd notice his finger marks on her wrist, and the cut on the other, her blood, red, deep, alive in that ugly gash.

he'd been responsible for that too.

someone called shyam would make him wonder. was he thinking this is a man important to her? did he not like it? in the car, a broken bangle, she'd left behind a memory for him, and then he'd see the wound on his palm. his blood, red, deep, alive. had their blood touched?

a dupatta once had billowed with abandon and caressed his face, now it streamed out and marked memories, catching the tale in its folds. i listened, captivated. the makers of this story had a strange passion to tell it well, take it deeper than the idiot box's measurements and reach. their simple devices to cross into another dimension, one beyond the senses five: a churi, a dupatta, a jalebi, a couch.. among them the dupatta so elegant, so eloquent. romantic, unheeding of good sense, going to forbidden places and touching eternity whenever it wished.


the episode was ballet like, musical, and a song just kept coming to me. listen to it while you read, might be more fun.

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This is sheer poetry, Indi! 👏 Loved the blue! Thank you for sharing! 🤗 I'm so appreciative of your beautiful writing and insights!

Originally posted by: indi52

a feeling he had never known before. that he had said had no place in his life. how much anguish in it, for a man who had to be in control, never lose himself in anything. certainly not love. and yet that scratch on his hand, that blood, the memories. unbearable.

episode 29



lyrical portrayal of a man falling in love. that's what those unspeakably beautiful 3 odd minutes seemed to me. entrancing music, not a single word, graceful camera movement. a room in blues, greys, beiges, and a deep wound in red. a man feeling the touch of one he craves in it; immersed, hypnotised, lost in an emotion he'd never thought he'd meet.

when he came home after leaving her, there was nani with many questions, and di trying to make everything calm again. but he was in no mood to answer. please, i want to be left alone. alone? will you ever be alone again?
di fussed over his cut, he was disengaged, walked away, his fist balled.
in his room he paused looking almost trapped, restless.

and then like a little boy who'd found the first marvelous "treasure" in a pile of mud or sand, he opened his palm, to look at his wound. jo tum mehsoos karti ho woh main mehsoos karta hoon... if you've been cut, so have i, yes so have i. he lifted his hand and gently touched his cut. almost cradling it the way he'd cradled her before.



arnav's namesake, the ocean, swirled in him. crashing, ebbing, peaks, troughs, anger, hate, love. what. he knew not. all he could do was let it pull him in. for what is asr to know of love? there was no place for it in his life. he said so, he believed it even more. yet, she was there. left her mark and it throbbed in more than physical pain.

never seemed out of place this soulful asr and his tanhaai. because by now, we'd come to understand this brash young man had a sensitive core. that felt, often more than others. that acted with conscience and empathy, when those that mattered to him were involved. most striking till now for me, his pampering of mamiji with that gaudy necklace, just because he got her and her feelings.

just like barun got asr. like no one else did. and so in that interview, a treasure really for all those who love asr, he said what he really liked about his character.

sensitivity.

that's why i could never think of harsh things like retribution, even when he dragged her to the temple that fateful night. i knew that too was love, just like the one he felt at this moment. a kind of love rarely seen, and if you can take its fury, its beauty would drown you even more. she knew it as she went along too.

but at this moment, he had no idea it was that feeling. her thoughts just plagued him. he wanted to forget. frustrated, he slammed his wardrobe door, and awaited composure.


di walked in. again questions. she could sense he was very upset, his elder sibling who perhaps understood him better than most others. what's bothering you, i know who you're thinking of. "di, main khushi ke baare mein nahin soch raha hoon." khushi?

just before that in the sitting room, there had been a most emotionally difficult exchange with nani. her love, versus his need to lead his own life. nani was not pleased with his choice of girl, lavanya. she wanted to have a say in his decision for she cared. "main jaanta hoon, nani, par kuch faisle, achhe ya burey, insaan ko khud lene chahie... aur jaldbaazi mein kiye gaye faisle, kabhi theek nahin hote..." di tried to say something. and he spat out, "di, please, mujhe abi khushi ke baare mein koi baat nahin karni."

twice she came to him unbidden, slip of the tongue. or yearning of the heart?




how would he know? for he'd said, "mere liye pyaar koi maine nahin rakhta." for him and nani, pyaar only seemed to suggest terrible tings. he didn't say so explicitly, but nani did, "pyaar naam ka shabd hai na, oo ka ek hi matlab hai... barbadi." it was clear this had a lot to do with asr's parents and their life, their hasty decisions, their story.



but in our story, pyaar had made a strike and escape seemed impossible. what troubles you, di persisted, and finally she offered to feed him. the boy who lost his mother at 14, who became father, brother, man of the house, protector overnight, who never ever asked anything for himself, today he was feeling the need for someone. for this unfamiliar feeling troubled him no end. how sweetly he turned and handed her the plate. yes, i need a little cuddling tonight, a lullaby maybe?

but he kept quiet. what's the matter, don't you trust me she asked. trust? the word broken to smithereens by his father. yes a part of him couldn't trust anyone perhaps. but di? oh he so desperately wanted to trust.
trust. love. elemental issues of life faced him tonight.

i wanted to play a song for asr here.

"wise men say only fools rush in
but i can't help falling in love with you
shall i stay
would it be a sin
if i can't help falling in love with you

like a river flows surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for i can't help falling in love with you

like a river flows surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for i can't help falling in love with you
for i can't help falling in love with you"

~~~ geroge weiss, hugo peretti, luigi creatore ~~~

it indeed was meant to be.

she was as wrapped up in him too. feeling his hands, his touch, stroking her cheek. touch indeed has memory. and her subconscious didn't reject it. his fingers lingered as she slept.


perhaps its call was so urgent, it woke her up. and in the transition to reality, the clearly felt and the understood came into focus. "nahiiin," he was rakshas. she remembered nothing. till her trusted elder sister said,"woh laya tha." then came recollection, she saw the scar, and her expression grew more and more troubled at what she remembered.


she could feel him jerk her around, his hand on her wrist letting go but the churi had already done damage, she was confused, still trying to focus. in the middle of that everyone's anger at the man. was there anything galat that happened? in a middle class home, especially with girls, this is a big concern. no no, she said, not that. leave him, leave his job, she was advised. she had no answer, just the facts of the day. and a strange feeling.


a brilliant episode, adroitly stitched together. barun tremendous in his search for asr in this state. sanaya lovely in her confusion laced with anger. nani, di, just perfectly delivered, and mami's and buaji's spike plus shyam's sliminess, what a mix.

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Beautiful review! Loved the purple! I really enjoyed it! In this episode, we see that ASR has a very vulnerable and sensitive side! He is not someone who could easily share his hurt and pain with anyone! "I Cant Help Falling In Love With You" is a great song for ASR! Thanks Indi!

EPISODE 33

Confliction is a part of every game indeed and today's epi was evident of that.The confliction in between ASR and Khushi which started in Lakhnow fashion show took a new turn today.Khushi was under his wrath without guilt that day and today he was but under guilt.That day when he crossed his limit by breaking her Dori and scattered pearls,Today she accused him and misunderstood him by breaking the Dori of his Egoistic necklace his CONTRACT.That day he misjudged and suspected her through his past's shadow and pre assumed actions and today she did the same through her suffered encounters with him. That day they both were baffled and froze in the midst of that moment without knowing each other and today by knowing each other but in denial "mode".Mujhe Farak nahi Parta" (I don't care.)

That day she entered Sheesh Mahal in his den without Name without permission by mistake and caught up in an unknown game but today she entered in his den RM with Name (Her name is Khushi Kumari Gupta Hai) with His permission in this game of confliction and the resolution of which turned into an undeniable "mode"Mujhe Farak parta hai."( I care) Which turned into undeniable emotion that grew into undeniable "Love". Magnificent but loop is not closed yet------👏👏👏

Epi starts with Brother's promise as per yesterday."You are my family".He is successful for bring a Smile on his Di's face by hiding his tears as he means a "father figure" to her and she is as a "mother figure" to her but her mother is and will be at highest "pedestal"in his life no matter what and SHE is the one whose tender and wise words will give him strength to rise up again as she is the strongest Bishop among the two in this game.

My fav scene.This picture speaks volume.It displays the current situation of the game which is going to change nothing but the position of these two which in turn is going to change the meaning of their surroundings and people around them.Game is so getting interesting.😉

He gave permission to let her come in.Love the way he calls her name "Khushi" like he owns it now.She walks in with chin up,he comes down the stairs with concerns written all over till they face each other.Her nervousness and panting make her clutch her "Dupatta" to fix.(Love this scene) and her eyes fell on her "Sacred Scar" along with him.😊

Flashbacks

"Tum----- Theek ho?" (Are you ok) After fb of the incident reeling in front of them,That's what the man of few words could come up with but other side she is up to no good today . It seems his soft concerned voice increases her courage to heat up.Pause here: Doesn't everytime when he goes softer she gets the opportunity to not to miss .mmm... 😆

That day ASR was heartless King who threw the daggers into her heart with his merciless brain today Khushi is returning the favor without being selfless and forgiving at that moment as she knows she can't win this game without being one."as she told Payal, "Agar uss Rakshus nein larna hai to' hum bhi tayar hain'"(If he wants to fight she is going for it) But he was not fighting dear...and that is going to make her restless too.mmm..😆

With her striking stroke Khushi"Kia Kaha aap nein'..,Hum Theek hain.Aisa Sawal to sirf aap hi kar sakte hain'.Sirf Arnav Singh Raizada hi itna Kuch hone ke baad yeh pooch sake hain'. keh hum theek hain."(What did you say,I am ok.Oh yeah only ASR can ask this kind of question after all of this.)Pause here: Was she expecting something different outcome after all of THIS...???

He opens his mouth to explain--- but she stopped him.

"nahin!(No) aaj Hum bolenge...
toh jahan tak aapka sawal ka jawab hai... toh haan, Mr Arnav Singh Raizada, Hum abhi theek hain...aur agle kuch hi minton mein hum aur bhi theek hone waale hain... kyonki humne yeh faisla kar liya hai... ke hum yeh naukri chordenge.Yeh raha Hamara Istifa."

(No.today I will speak.the answer of your question is yes I am fine and in next few min I will be better because I've decided that I'll leave this job.Here is my resignation.)He gives her a staggering painful look without blinking a muscle after her disclosure.She does not stop.She counts every given task by him through which she suffered but she put her heart and soul in it because she knew the meaning of the contract.

"khushi kumari gupta ka naam aapke keemat se zyada maine rakhta hai'."(KKG's name is more than the price you put on contract)

Pause here:I wish she knew HE stood up for Her name and his whole kingdom knows about it.Sigh

That day in Sheesh Mahal he was speaking about her "aukat" (status) and how the gals like her think and act,today she was raging about his "Kind" and how the person like him act without thinking.ASR she got you there didn't she.hmmm👏

"Iss se phele aap hamari "aukat" par puhach jaein ',Hum aap ko bata dein'. Hum yeh naukri dar kar nahin chor rahe''par Hum kissi ke naukar nahin ban sakte'"

(Before u reach to my status I want to tell u ,I am not leaving becoz I am afraid but b/c I can't become servant of someone)

Khushi,"I was trapped in the guest house yesterday for hours which gave her time to think and she reached to only one conclusion, "ki bhad mein gaye aap aur bhad mein gaye aap ki naukri'."She throws her anger by giving him lecture on rights and responsibilities (Just remembering Spiderman's uncle words "Great powers comes with great responsibilities") and then turns the table on him and gets even with him that "by abandoning responsibilities, he lost all the allegations towards the contract "Yes I am fine', not because of you ,despite you and don't think I lost because its you who lost this time badly."

"Jo Inssan kisi ki zindagi.. jan bhooj kar khatre mein daal sakta hai 'uss insaan ke saath hum koi rishta nahin rakhna chahate'. Aur yeh mat samjihiyea ga keh hum nai Har man li hai'kyunke yeh har hamari nahin aap ki hai'.aur aap harte bohot bura hain Mr Raizada'.. kyunke aap yeh nahin manein gei keh galati aap ki thi'" ( She accuses him sending him over guest house puts her life in danger and not admitting his fault as he is egoistic).

Asr got the taste of his own medicine today.She uses the word "Rishta".What was she thinking?Is she thinking he wants some relationship with her and on what basis?hmm.. Interesting.😊

"Hamari Zindagi ki keemat hum se pyar karne waloon ko maloom hai" Very touchy indeed. Pause here: I think she thought at this point he will say something but uhhh'nothing.He is Rakhshus..not anything else.She brushes out all of her thoughts'but was she successful ..hmmm...Nahhh...????😲

My life is important to those who love me and can't imagine to do such a thing to me.Pause here: Khushi you are telling him who always risks his life to save yours.rain hug,guest house and from now on ---------every time🥱

He is the one who really knows the value of her life at the end"Khushi mujhe khabi chore kar maat jana..mein tumhare baghair nahin ji paoonga" ( Khushi neverever leave me..I won't live without you)

During all of this ,he stood still with range of emotions over each and every accusation she made but with hurt and pain, his eyes fills with anger over this that she might think he had sent her there purposely to "die". Pause here:You are right ASR but try to put yourself in her shoes,you won't find her wrong either'...

He stepped forward in his powerful way gazing her still and she steps bacward as usual in assertive way . "Bol Diya" ( said it all) and sticks out his hand for resignation letter. Khushi with anger still,"Bol Diya" and smacks the letter in the palm of his hand.His hand is still sticking out as he is not ready to let her go.Pause here:He went against his nature today and did not say a bit to her. His concerns and budding love for her today made him to control his anger all along.He does not want to hurt her any more because she did suffer a lot because of his anger which in return hurted him and all he did just stared at her helplessly and lifelessly afterwards.awww'😭

Naniji,Anjali, and Mamiji witnessed the unimaginable scene of their life.I felt Anjali sensed something as she knows her "Chote" very well.(AS in the beginning her character was way too mature and sensible){After this I think Mamiji should never call her Phatti Saree but ...)

After saying goodbye to Naniji she turns and there is this uncertainty all over her face as she did something wrong.In this Brain Vs Heart game,selfless and forgiving Heart is on now.As she is walking away ,he stood there without looking away. His heart was being wrenched out with every step she walks away from him. In between his heart vs Brain ,Controlling brain is on.Right at the door she stops and turns to look at him.Her pain and his longing on her is so visible as someone is snatching his world from him and her side she is expecting him to say something,do something to stop her' Pause here: During Nanital trip "Hum se aap ki yeh chup sahi nahin jati..kuch to boliye 'chaliye What the hi keh dijiye'He can't see her quiet and she can't see him either even he throws anger does not matter to her as during kidnapping.She loves both Shaitan and Rajkumar.

Sheeh Mahal ,That day She left with heavy heart because someone took something precious from her "Her Respect".Today she walked out again with heavy heart because she is leaving there something precious "Her Heart".That day she did not look back because of "fear" that he might do something to disrespect her but today she turned back because of "hope" that he might do something to stop her.

Both gaze each other and their eyes speak without uttering a word.He crumbles the paper in his hand without breaking his gaze.

It seems to me as he crumbles the paper by glaring ok then go and he crumbles her hope that he might say something to stop her and she is like ok then good bye.Both are arrogant and egoistic at this point...

On the other side love Mamiji's instinct nature about Shyam that he might has another woman and that's why he is not paying attention to Anajli even in this condition as she is fastening and he did not even call once.I like her in this sense because in IPK with her 007 James Bond nature she always brings the negative but true nature of others on the surface.

Shyam is stuck by another calm and sharp cookie Payal as she asks him to fix Buaji's pension problem and get a job for Khushi in his office.He was about to get punched by his non verbal cues as Buaji his savior enters.He really did play along with Buaji's emotions very well.What can I say...

Khushi is walking out with baffling heart as she stopped by Rahim chacha .I noticed Khushi's longiness as she might still hopes for something. Anjali seems have understanding of Arnav and khushi equation I think comes to her;"Hamare Chote itne bure bhi nahin hain." Chote is not so bad may be you both misunderstood each other.But she is way proud of her for standing up against his brother.

Kushi is walking home with her lost look as Payal calls and asks everything is fine.Payal asks"Khuch Bola whoh"'(Did he say something..) and that's exactly is bothering her'.She mumbles in her head."Humein itna Bura kyuon lag raha hai"(Why am I feeling bad) and tell her she will talk to her when she will be home."Tum Theek Ho"as ASR asks her,and she answered yes "I am fine."But Is she.?...No and she knows it and he knows it'.

."Tum Theek Ho" Payal asks her and she has no answer.Baffled Khushi and why not,anyone in her shoes could be ''Its not easy to let go of something which is pulling you like this towards itself''the feeling and longing towards that "Rakhshus"who is her savior also.Who she supposed to believe and who she shouldn't.Her anxiety is increasing with her increasing steps out of RM,going away from him...awww...

ASR is in his room.He is staring at the resignation in his hand, he crumbles it and throws it on the floor as he is done with her,,,,,,,,,but isn't he???

He conceptualizes her in the red saree with loose hair. Kushi envisions the rain hug.. ASR ,himself pinning her up against the wall. Kushi ,herelf pushing him. He has the same vision. ASR ,himself carrying her out of the guesthouse. Both of them, fb reeling the resignation scene. ASR fb her leaving the RM.Pause here:Just like hers"Bhar mein gaye aap" he threw the paper"Bhar mein Gaye tum" no rotten tomatoes plz its my opinion'

Pause here:He remembers all the attractive moments while she remembers all of his concerns and caring moments mmm...Beautiful

Both of them are lost in pain and baffled about what just happened'..There is more than a human eye can meet sometimes and that's exactly we had here'.Even they both are forcing out of their life now but they both are not so done.Its written by fate no matter what...👏

MOMENT OF THE DAY:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAK8D3P9pjs

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I apologize my friends and fellow readers for any spelling errors or anything today.Lost two times in tech world and really IPad sucks...I have no time for collages and my creativity which is making me restless.Way too bust in my work.I still welcome chappals ,rotten eggs or whatever but with love...

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Loved epi 33, my heArt sank when khushi was going away from asr, brilliant acting barun and sanaya

Originally posted by: indi52

cynthia, 🤗

you are too kind. thank you and thank you. just saw 34, heart is feeling heavy for the two idiots. i am nuts, they don't exist. i can't find your 33. plls help?

I pm to the wrong address
Here is the link to my review of episode 33
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=3343739&PID=74060166&#74060166
It is called The Boxing Match
Love you guys enjoy! Look forward to your critiques!

Originally posted by: Katelyn

Beautiful review! Loved the purple! I really enjoyed it! In this episode, we see that ASR has a very vulnerable and sensitive side! He is not someone who could easily share his hurt and pain with anyone! "I Cant Help Falling In Love With You" is a great song for ASR! Thanks Indi!

hi katelyn, haven't seen you these past couple of days, good to see you 😳. thanks so much for those words up there. and for reading the other one too. he is a very special kind of guy, really. on second viewing you feel it even more. and it's so enjoyable. i still have to see the last vm you posted. looking forward. and thansk for passing cynthia's 33 link. 🤗

This was the best episode ever! Such brilliant acting and dialogues, and such intensity of emotions from both sides, both subtle and bold at the same time 👏

Originally posted by: RebeccaDaphne

This was the best episode ever! Such brilliant acting and dialogues, and such intensity of emotions from both sides, both subtle and bold at the same time 👏

Love has started to blossom, why else would she take one last glance back at him, and why was it looking as though his heart was being wrenched out with every step she walks away from him.

Why didn't he just run up and stop her...his eyes show the battle between his heart and mind.

When she mentions those people who love her...he looks at her wanting to be part of them.

He looks at her while she bellows out her pain and anger, but instead of trying to interrupt and have his say, his guilt and the bubbling love that's growing in his heart for her just makes him helpless and all he can do is stare at her...softly.

Beautiful, beautiful episode.

hi rebeccadaphne,
in bold, you felt it too? that's exactly how it felt to me. so much in her eyes as she walked away and turned for one last look. and that feeling of losing his universe as she went further and further away.

the exploration continues beautifully in 34. that "softly" is what it was. interesting, that in one of the most loud and audible episodes, softly did the hearts express.