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Chapter 11
"Everything is finished. I am heart broken. My trust, my love, my faith everything has been tarnished forever. What was my fault? All I did was love him and what do I get in return? Humiliation? I never expected him to reciprocate his love for me. Hell he would never do that. Never. Not even when pigs start to fly. Why would he? I mean look at me. What am I? Who am I? Nothing. Today, I realized my true worth. I realized how much I was leaving in my dreamland. I don't blame Sameera at all for this. She just gave me a rude awakening. I needed this. I needed to know what I was doing. How can I ever think I can love a person like him?"
Tear drops on the diary as she remembers what she went through yesterday. She holds the flyer in her hand looking at it as a reminder of her foolishness. She places the flyer in the diary before closing it. Geet goes downstairs to eat before her mom says anything. As usual it was just her and her mom right now since Raaji went away for the weekend with her friends. Geet just looked down trying to hide her tears from her parents as she silently "tried" to eat.
Rano: Geet beta are you okay? I have noticed that you are quiet.
Geet: Am okay mom. (She puts the fork down and gets up.) I am really not hungry. I will eat later. Excuse me.
Rano: Geet beta wait. (Geet stops midway. She pats her head with worry) Tell us what happened. What is bothering you so much?
Geet: Nothing mom. Just finals are coming up soon so I am worried about that. That's all. (She lies without looking straight in the eyes while her father observed the conversation silently)
Rano: Let me know if you need anything. Okay?
Geet: Okay.
She quickly runs upstairs before her tears spilled in front of her parents. As soon as she was in her room she drops on the bed crying her eyes out. It was not fair. All she did was love him. Why did she had to go through this? What was her fault? She walks toward her cupboard with teary eyes looking through her stuff until she found what she was searching for. She sits on the bed looking at the photo album book she created with Maan's pictures. Carefully, she goes through the album remembering each and every incident when she took this picture. She laughs a little remembering the ice cream incident.
"Can I come in?"
Geet comes out of her trance when she heard a voice. She saw her father standing there at the doorway looking at her. Quickly, she places the book under the pillow trying her best to act normal.
"You don't have to ask for permission. This is your house dad"
He sighs and slowly walks in the room. It has been a while since he came here. He would often just stand outside the door to yell at her or show his displeasure toward her weight issue. He sits next to the bed looking at her while Geet turned her head sideways wiping her tears.
He just sat there looking at her not knowing where to start or even how to start. Ever since he was little he was never too fond of speaking or showing any emotions. That is how his father taught him to be. He never got close to Rano nor tried to understand her in anyway. He did what he had to do. He became a husband to his wife and provided for his family. That is what his role was. When his both daughters were born he didn't know how to react or how to get close to them and till this day he doesn't know either of their likes and dislikes.
"umm" (Geet looks at his father as he tried to think about what to say.)
"Is there anything the matter?" (Geet asked. She was confused. Why was he here? Why was he being nice to her all of a sudden)
"Well, the thing is that..." (he gets up and goes toward the window hoping it would help him to say what he wanted to say) "I know."
Geet stands up confused.."he knows" thinking in her head about what. She just waits there waiting for him to continue on.
"I know of" (he sighs) "of what happened yesterday at college" (Geet looks at him shocked. Unknowingly, tears began to spill from her eyes not knowing what to say or how to react. She was embarrassed. Her dad always told her to loose weight, made fun of her. She prepared for the worse to come. Whatever he would say to her wouldn't hurt her anymore.
He walks up to her gently placing his hand on her shoulder
"You see why I told you all the things before? Why I was angry at you? Not because I hated you but because I didn't want anyone to make fun of you. I know we haven't had the closest relationship...ever..but as a father I wanted to protect you. I felt so helpless knowing there was nothing I could do. I was scared of this moment and my worst fear came through yesterday when I heard of what they done to you at college."
"how did..." (She couldn't talk anymore and just hugged him tight)
"Meera told me as I was coming home last night. She is worried about you. If you want you can let go of your studies and finish somewhere else"
"No. I will finish at this college. You were right papa. You were right. I don't know what was wrong with me. I am fat. No one likes me and always makes fun of my weight. I was living in a dream which shattered."
"Prove them wrong. Show them you are tough. Go back and face the situation."
"What was my fault dad?"
"Nothing. Nothing at all. Actually, I have to apologize to you too for being bad and mean with you all this time. I thought that by saying all those things to you maybe you would start loosing weight. Last night, I realized how wrong I was and how much I had hurt you. I am sorry beta. Words can be hurtful."
"No dad. You have nothing to be sorry about"
"Come lets go downstairs and eat."
"I am not hungry" (She looks at him with sadness)
"Okay fine so that means you haven't forgiven me than." (he begins to leave)
"Dad wait." (She smiles) "lets go. I am starving" (he smiles holding her hand)
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Maan punched the boxing bag until the chain broke. He was angry and upset. He couldn't get Geet out of his head. Her tears bothered him. Her sadness made him upset. Why? He had seen what Sameera has done. The humiliation she put her through out of jealousy and revenge. But was she right? Did Geet actually liked him? Had crush on him?
He sits on the floor frustrated not knowing what to think anymore. He lies on the floor trying to forget all the thoughts about everything, about school, Sameera, and about Geet. Ugh why was he even thinking about her like that? He never even noticed her until she became his project partner. He didn't even know her name until than. Why would she like someone whom she doesn't even know? Can that actually happen? He sits up realizing one thing. Does she love him? He shakes his head.
No. No. She can't love me. No. Never. He gets up go to freshen up after making up his mind to talk to her personally, if she shows up to college again.
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