Chapter 55
Arnav slid into the bed next to Khushi and drew the covers over them both. It was only about 5:30am and the morning light was just beginning to peep through the cloud cover and through the curtains into their room.
Arnav pulled back and stared at Khushi for a moment, he had been so busy being impressed by her intrinsic characteristics that he had never taken the time to admire her properly and without restriction. Khushi couldn't quite tell which was hotter; his intense gaze or his hand as he traced her forehead, then her eyes, cheeks, nose, jaw bone and lips.
'Khushi... as cheesy as this sounds... Have I ever told how beautiful you are?' he said softly before kissing her cheekbones, her nose, her forehead, then her jaw. Beautiful? Her? She had seen her reflection a million times. Granted that sometimes she thought she might be pretty, but most of the time she knew she was just an average girl like everyone else. But today, the way Arnav was staring at her made her feel beautiful...like she was the only woman that he had eyes for. '...and you smell delicious Khushi,' he murmured as he nibbled his way down her jaw to her neck as his had slide down to her waist pulling her closer. His stubble tickled and his lips aroused, so Khushi stayed very still, wanting him to continue forever.
The question was would he carry on, or would he stop?
His gaze was intense, as was his touch when he held her by her upper arms as he pulled back and stared at her. Sparks flickered between them. She could practically see them as they burned her skin. Need grew until it devoured every part of her. She didn't understand what it was about this man that made her react the way she did; Love? Chemistry? Hormones? Lust? A combination of all of the above maybe? Right now Khushi didn't know and she wasn't sure she cared. All she was knew was that when she was close to Arnav, touching him or being touched by him - she felt more alive than she ever had in her life.
They were both silent as they lay in bed, words weren't required; the silence was not uncomfortable. Arnav turned his body to the side so that Khushi leaned into him, her curves flattening against his hard chest. 'Khushi...' he whispered as he moved down towards her lips as she wrapped her arms around his neck and gave herself to his kiss and met him stroke for stroke. As he explored, she tightened her lips around his tongue and sucked. He stiffened. Pleasure filled Khushi, along with the confidence of knowing she wasn't the only one in danger of getting lost in the moment. Arnav slid his hands down to her hips then around to her rear squeezing her curves, causing her to surge against him. Her belly nestled against him, proof of what she did to him very evident. Feeling it made her insides melt. She felt herself swelling in anticipation as she bit his bottom lip slightly more aggressively than she had intended to.
Arnav smiled slowly against her mouth, it was clear that his tigress was testing her dominance as she teased and then retreated, 'Khushi, are you teasing me or are you trying to scare me?' he whispered. It was her turn to smile, 'are you scared Arnav...of what I could do to you?' she murmured softly. Arnav pulled back, the glint in his eyes very evident as he countered her challenge, 'you don't intimidate me in any way Khushi... I think we both know just how easily I could take you...' he said softly. Khushi wasn't sure if he was referring to his superior strength or the way her body responded every time he touched her; it didn't matter because he was right 'he could take her without breaking a sweat.
The only news in this statement this time was how much more than ever before she wanted him to and for the first time... she was at serious risk of giving in.
Khushi realised in that instant just how difficult it had been for Arnav to contain himself and not take the next step. Prior to today Khushi had always had the safety net of saying that she couldn't take the next step without marriage but now that she had that promise from him, Khushi was sorely tempted to give in... and go all the way.
She pulled back and lay on her back as she closed her eyes and tried to steady her breathing and reign in her uncontrollable craving for something she had never done yet she felt an unbelievable desire to do. Her hands clenched the bed sheet in frustration as she bit her bottom lip. She had never felt like this before.
As Arnav watched Khushi he understood her need to withdraw. The ache of wanting and not having was enormous. But even though he respected her decision and agreed with it, for Arnav, nothing had changed; he still ached when he saw her. He still dreamed about her. He still craved her; maybe now more than ever before if that was even possible he thought as he lay down on his side beside her.
'Khushi... are you ok?' he asked huskily.
Tempted to lie, she told him the truth.
'No.'
Arnav turned his head to face her. She was still breathing heavily; her face was deeply flushed, her eyes closed as she bit her bottom lip. She was really turned on he realised. From the look of things, a cold shower wasn't going to be a useful option for her he thought.
Before she realized what he was doing, Arnav taken her in his arms, and stretched her out on the mattress so that her back was against his front. He reached under the covers and slid one hand under her pyjama top placing his hand against her belly. Khushi jerked at the contact, 'Arnav... please...' She began and stopped. He murmured against her ear, 'Khushi, trust me...' he said. Khushi groaned as his hand splayed against her belly, 'Arnav...I'm...I'm already struggling here...' 'Shhh' he whispered against her ear, 'relax Khushi and let me help...' Arnav said as he began stroking her belly, slowly inching lower and lower until he loosened the drawstring on her .pyjamas and slid his hand lower. Khushi gasped as she placed her hand on his effectively stopping him, 'Arnav... I can't handle you touching me like this' she said though gritted teeth, 'yes you can Khushi...' he murmured against her ear, his breath hot against her cheeks, 'breath baby... you can handle it' he said as his hand slid into her innerwear and made contact with the most intimate part of her anatomy. Khushi jerked at the contact; nervousness, shock, anticipation, excitement and intense arousal all combined and rolled into one big ball of emotion. She didn't know what to do; and her eyes met his over her shoulder. Arnav could see Khushi struggling and he leaned forward, brushing his lips lightly against hers 'I just need you to tell me that you want this and I'll handle the rest... do you want me to stop?' he whispered as his eyes locked with hers. Khushi's entire body stiffened, she didn't want to tell him to stop but she wasn't sure she could handle him touching her like this. 'You and I are going to do a lot more than this Khushi but only when you are ready to. You've given me your heart and now you need to trust me with your body, just as I will with you. This is the first step baby...' he said quietly. Khushi gulped, Arnav was right, this really was the first step in exploring the physicality of their relationship and Khushi nodded quietly, her eyes giving him the permission he wanted as she gave herself up to his ministrations.
Her muscles quivered as he began touching her, slowly and tentatively at first and then gradually building the pressure. Khushi wanted to sag against him, to sigh, to moan, maybe even scream. Instead she bit her lower lip and endured the exquisite torture as touched her. She closed her eyes as the sensations overloaded all her senses and began tipping her over the edge.
Khushi didn't know how long it went on until the pressure exploded inside her. She hadn't known that her body could respond or experience feelings like this. Khushi felt like she had been catapulted into the heavens then caught in strong and gentle arms. Shudders rippled through her, breaking her and re-assembling her but leaving her forever changed. Khushi could only gasp for breath and she spiralled back down until a soft voice called her name and she found herself cradled in Arnav's arms.
Arnav could still feel little aftershocks racking her body as he gently pulled his hand back and tied the drawstring. He slowly turned her so that she was now facing him. Her eyes were downcast and the red flush was back. He held her close and brushed his lips against her gently, first to the left and then to the right and then slowly raised her chin, 'Khushi... look at me...' he said as he watched the red blush staining her cheeks deepen, he was perplexed, 'Khushi... was this the first time that you've... experienced this?', the redness instantly deepened even more as she hid her face in the crook of his neck. Arnav instantly felt awful; the last thing he wanted was Khushi to feel uncomfortable or embarrassed by her reactions when he touched her intimately. To be absolutely honest, he had thoroughly enjoyed watching her as he guided her to pleasure and then seen her losing it in his arms. He smiled 'hey...it's ok Khushi' he whispered into her hair in an effort to reassure her.
Khushi's heart was still pounding furiously in her chest, 'I know Arnav...I mean I've read about this and girls talk about it...but was it supposed to be... I mean...is it supposed to feel this good?' she whispered into his neck. Arnav threw his head back and laughed, delighted that she was actually talking about the experience and not shying away from it. 'Khushi, it is supposed to be this good, and possibly even better when two people are very lucky to be compatible and like I've said to you before we are a good match... on every front,' he said. 'Khushi I know that we are moving into a different space, both in terms of our relationship and physically as well and it will take a little while for both of us to get used to the change. Khushi I want to make one thing clear; the reason our relationship works so well is because we talk. About everything. I want this to carry into our bedroom as well; we have to talk about likes, dislikes, fears...whatever, in this space as well. Do you understand what I mean Khushi - you are going to have to talk to me and teach me, and I will do the same ok?' he said.
Khushi nodded as she sighed and her arms tightened around him even more, 'Arnav you know when you talk to me like this, I fall in love with you even more,' she said. Arnav couldn't help but smile 'so do you love me enough to forget about Rakshas Raizada?' he retorted, 'Hey!!' Khushi said as she lightly whacked his shoulder 'I'll never forget Rakshas Raizada; he holds a very special place in my heart' she said as she leaned up and brushed her lips against the rakshas in question as she snuggled against him. 'Arnav...you said we have to talk...I have a question' she said hesitantly. Arnav nodded. Khushi took a deep breath, 'I can feel you...I mean I can tell that you are umm ready...does it hurt you when you're like this and...and... there's no ahh...relief?' she whispered genuinely concerned as she was a contributor to his current state and was afraid that he was in pain. Arnav was stunned for a second; was Khushi really asking about what he thought she was asking?! He cleared his throat 'it's not painful Khushi... just uncomfortable and frustrating I guess' he said somewhat curious about the next question he knew she'd ask. 'So...you're ok after... I mean, after you have a cold shower right?' This time Arnav couldn't contain his laugher; it looked like the future Mrs Raizada was rather concerned about the status of certain parts of his anatomy. 'Khushi, think of it like this, you've always said that I'm impatient so I see this as an exercise in self restraint and patience, at least until we are married; after that this is all going out the window and you are going to be wholly and solely responsible for making sure I'm not uncomfortable at all' he said his voice huskily sexy yet teasing as Khushi's big brown eyes widened even more, 'ok relax Khushi, I said after we get married not right now. Right now I think we really should get some sleep' he said as he chuckled and cuddled her. His hand found hers and he intertwined their fingers as their hands rested on her stomach. They lay quietly side by side, hand in hand until sleep mercifully claimed them both giving them the much needed respite.
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Arnav woke up first, he was momentarily disorientated as he tried to gather his bearings; a quick glance at his watch told him that it was coming to 10am. He turned over to his right slowly, Khushi was still fast asleep and he was careful not to wake her as he moved closer to her under the warm cocoon of blankets as he slowly placed his arm around her waist. Arnav couldn't help but indulge himself as he stared at her sleeping. Her creamy skin was still flushed pink, her long eyelashes resting against her cheeks. Arnav smiled, he had never noticed the little beauty spoke on her neck, and he couldn't help himself as he leaned over and brushed his lips against it.
As Khushi stirred as she felt his breath against her neck and something heavy across her waist and she instantly felt the beginning of desire pangs in her belly. Had she rolled over and curled into his arms in her sleep? Oh no Devi Maiya, she didn't want the reaction to start again she thought as she started to pull away, but the hand on her waist tightened. She looked up and saw that he was awake.
'Good morning,' Arnav said his voice low and husky as he smiled at her. Khushi groaned; this was going to be an ongoing battle wasn't it! It's all your fault Devi Maiya... I wanted to be a good girl and do the right thing by making sure I don't do what I'm not supposed to and then you make me wake up and face this... this luscious man... this is so NOT fair, she thought. Arnav knew instantly what was in her mind and a slow smile curved at the corners of his mouth, 'it's ok Khushi... you'll soon work out that you can resist me and want me in equal measures' he said rather sagely, 'hey...think about it this way...at least you don't have to survive with cold showers in Kashmir...which is what yours truly has been doing...and will be continuing to do' he said with a wink.
Khushi glared at him as Arnav smirked at her and he couldn't help but laugh out loud, 'Ok... ok, come on sleeping beauty, time to get out of bed' he said with a smile.
I'm back!!!! The interview went well. It was really full on - 1 hour and 20 minutes of hardcore interrogation by the CEO. And before you ask... he wasn't as cute as ASR 😆
Given my stress levels over the last few days, I decided to indulge myself hence this rather naughty chapter 😈
Enjoy and dont you dare go without leaving me your comments!
Edited by warriorprincess - 12 years ago
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