something pinched :(

Read so many posts on Arnav right to have gf, relationship, virginity and blah blah...

When i watched this episode today online, something cracked when he said "we were seeing each odr"...the way i felt when my bf said "i had kiddo type crush in school with my classmate"...i just couldn't imagine him smiling at anybody else...heart skipping a beat to see sumbody else...warmth, care and attachment to anybody else...it was hard to get over...i never said "he has no right"...it just pinched really badly...

donno why felt the same for Arnav today...since long I saw him as "damn love...what is it"..."first love is khushi"..." i remember when after farmhouse fiasco in begining he brought her home...made her lie down when she had fainted... felt like for first time he handled a girl...first time he even blinked an eye and looked at a girl...i donno that was magical...

may be he didn't have 8-10 gfs but he had his brush with love ..."seeing each odr" doesn't mean buddies...he knows it well...it may not have been important for him...but he had no guy as close friend...with the kind of guy he is...being close to a girl would mean sumthing...sum attachment, care, unknown bonding...with Lavanya he behaved like a robot...expressionless, ruthless...as if just came from his parents demise...nothing else ever happened in his life...felt as if Khushi made him smile...

its very very normal to have gfs...but Arnav is one character for which we have some kind of bonding now...as if we knew him forever...today felt like...he never showed ths side before...

i know now he cares just for khushi (going by his character sketch)...but he failed my imaginations...am just hurt...nobody is perfect in this world...not even in fiction...

sorry i had to vent this out :(