Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder Updated 23/06

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Flashbacks will be in blue.

Here is Chapter 2:

That picture. How she wished she could rip it of the walls. How she wished she could pull the garland off it and rip that to shreds. It was not true. He was not dead. Screw what the records said. Screw what the medics said. Screw what the world said. There was only one voice that she would listen to. And that was the voice of her heart. And her heart had not yet told her that he was dead. So she would not believe it.

As her father-in-law picked up Roshan he realised that Khushi was staring with daggers at the picture of Arnav so he knew he had to do something to make her lose focus from that picture. 'Oh Khushi look at how hungry our Roshan is. Come on betiya rani lets go and feed Roshan' said her father-in-law as he guided her to the breakfast table.

The Raizada's all sat eating their breakfast. They were all sitting and eating while Khushi tended to Roshan. Once Roshan was feed he sat with his badhee chachu Aryan as the rest of the family ate. Well they all ate apart from one. Khushi sat playing with her food taking nibbles here and there when someone looked her way. Truth be told Khushi did not like having to do mundane tasks anymore such as eat and sleep. They had all become chores for her now. It was something she had to do to survive. Not for herself but for her son. She needed to be strong for that little boy.

Once breakfast was over Aryan handed Roshan to his mother after giving him big kiss on the forehead followed by Ayan. Khushi also had to leave for work. She gave Roshan a big kiss on his forehead and then said bye to her in-laws before leaving for work.

Khushi drove to her office on auto pilot. She walked up to her office on auto pilot. She sat down amidst all the files and documents on her desk. Whilst any average person would have run a mile seeing so much work pending on their desk Khushi embraced it. She embraced the work because it meant that she was occupied. Her mmind was occupied. So that the pain she felt every day since she heard the news of Arnav's so called dead would go away temporarily just for a little while.

She looked on her desk and saw the picture she had on there of her and Roshan. Roshan was the light of her life. He was the very reason of her existence. And to think that she had come close to not giving birth to him. She had very nearly aborted Roshan. She shuddered at that memory.

'Your son was the biggest liar in the world Ma! He lied to me. On the day he boarded the plane do you know what he told me?' Khushi had screamed out to everyone in the Raizada family through the mix of tears and the anger that she felt. 'Hours before he boarded that plane he told me that he wanted a second chance! He told me that after what happened with our first baby he wanted a second chance to be a father to our children once more. He was the one that wanted a child!' said Khushi through the tears and the hysteric sobs. 'So where is he now? His planted his seed in me and he is nowhere to be seen. He is the biggest liar in the world. He told me that he would hold my hand this time around. So where is he now? He's left me alone all over again. I don't want this baby. I don't want it. He lied to me. He has left me to give birth to his child once more all alone. I don't want this child I do not want it! He is a liar!' said Khushi as she dropped to the floor in a fit of tears. 'How many times is he going to lie to me? He has been lying to me since we were teenagers. I thought things had changed now but I guess I was wrong. How many times is he going to leave me Ma? I want him back I want him back.' Said Khushi through the tears. The family had tears in their eyes because her pain was so raw and so visible to them. But at the same time they were glad. They were glad because that was the first time in four months she had reacted since they had found out about Arnav's death.

Avni watched her sister like bhabi sobbing hysterically on the floor. She gently approached her bhabhi and crouched down next to her. 'Didi, please. Please get a hold of yourself' said Avni. 'You always say nah that Bareh Bhaiya is not dead. Well in that case do you want Bareh Bhaiya to come and see you in this state? Didi please be strong for your baby. You know in your heart of hearts that is what Bareh Bhaiya would have said to you if he were hear right now. So if not for our sakes then for the sake of Bareh Bhaiya please don't kill your baby. It's the symbol of your love for each other' said Avni.

Khushi said nothing for a few seconds. But after he few seconds she turned around and threw her arms around Avni. 'I want him back Avni. I want him back. My heart hurts Avni. He's the only one that can take the pain away. I want him back, I want him back' sobbed Khushi into Avni's hair. 'I know you want him back Di. We all do. I promise he will be back soon. He will' said Avni as she rubbed soothing circles around Khushi's back whilst she cried into Avni's hair.

No one from the Raizada family said anything about the outburst. In a strange way they were happy. Happy that she was finally reacting. This was her first reaction in four months. The doctor's had said she had gone into shock. She had been too traumatised by the news of the death of her husband that she had chosen to block it out of her brain and go into denial...

That night, just like every other night since the news of Arnav's death Khushi went to sleep in her Ma's(Mother-in-law's) lap. It was the closest place she had to Arnav. And her Ma rubbed her hair in a soothing manner and it was the only thing that gave her some temporary solace until the next morning came.

Since Arnav's death she had not set a foot in her own home. The house in which she and Arnav had made a happy home in. She was lucky that her in-laws lived just down the road from her. It meant that she could live there with them. Living in the house which Arnav had gown up in made her feel closer to him. And on some nights when she did manage to get to sleep without the help of her Ma she would choose to sleep in Arnav's old room. She would sleep in his old single bed and wear his clothes to sleep. His clothes use to smell like him still. And sometimes she would wrap her arms around herself whilst in his clothes and if she closed her eyes really hard she could manipulate her mind into believe that Arnav was holding her whilst she slept...

I have such high hopes for this FF. I have got a lot planned for this so please do let me know your thoughts, because if no one likes it then there is no point in continuing it.

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