OK guys...here is coming my OS#10 which is a continuation of OS#9 basically but you can treat it as a separate one too...
After her break-up with Sid, I was having my friend back to myself and I tried my best to not to arise any questions about that jerk infront of her...she was down for some days, though she will try to look as normal as she was, but sometimes I really saw her pulling herself from everyone.
During a conversation, she would get quiet after sometime or would excuse herself from others...In home, she would prefer to stay as much as in her room...making an excuse of her studies as she could...No one noticed that changed behavior of her as much as I did but I knew that she is a strong girl...and she will cop up with that with time.
Leaving a relation behind is not easy seriously and we shouldn't expect her to be all chirpy and jumpy the next day...but it felt bad that my best friend was going through this phase...bearing the pain of a broken relationship when she had not played a part to its end...Relationships are not a JOKE for her...
Time was passing by and it was almost a year now...It was last day of my final exam when we all students came out and throw the plain sheet up in the air as an indication of celebration but later our eyes get moist too realizing that this was the last day of our student life. After this there will be no more roaming around in the college...no more fun in bunking the class or fights with the rivals...no more games to play in which we would feel proud in representing our college...a new team will form replacing ours...but all that's is a part of life I guess.
We all final year friends made a plan to go out tonight just to celebrate this day and get back to our home. Nidhi was all quiet during the ride but thinking that its just one of her mood swings, I didn't bother her much...
Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho
Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho
Kaho, Na Kaho Mujhko Sabh Kuch Pata Hai
Haan, Karoon Kya Mujhe Tum Bataati Nahin Ho
Chupati Ho Mujhse Ye Tumhari Khataa Hai
Haan, Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho...
After freshen up, we both get into the lounge and took seats on the couch and started watching TV when after a while, my phone buzzed. My heart-beat faster as i know its the time and pick up the call.
"Congrats Ashutosh" My mother's chirpy voice ring in my ears.
"Thanks Mom" I said half-heartedly...
"I can't wait to see you beta...Its been four years that you shifted to Delhi to complete your education in your desired institute...But now its enough, I want you back home as soon as possible" My mom said with a warning and I felt my heart feeling low...
"Yeah mom...I will be back home after two weeks" I replied and then my gaze turned to Nidhi who was looking at me with wide open eyes...surly thats an expected reaction as I have not told her about this before...as I was too busy with the studies...
"Two weeks Ashutosh??? Why don't you come back in 2 days?" Now she was giving me an anxious attack.
"I can't Mom...I have to fulfill some of the formalities in the college...and also have to found a house-mate for Nidhi as she still has a year before she will be done with her studies...and here i can't leave her alone just like this" I was explaining my condition to Mom and Nidhi at the same time...and Both were tongue-tide with this
"Oh...yeah you should find someone realiable that can stay with Nidhi...anyways, as soon as you are done with all this...I want you back home the very next day...Ok??" Mom asked for a promise and I have to give her
"OK mom...you take care...Say hi to Dad, Romit and Rashi..." My young siblings...
"Yeah...You too take care and say Hi to Nidhi and tell her that she should also visit us with you...Its been ages She came over to stay with us..." And i really like this idea...Nidhi and Rashi are of same age and were friends right from the start...but I barely used to talk to her at that time...I used to feel awkward...Nidhi is the daughter of my father's best friend and Nidhi and Rashi went to the same schools and college till she too decided to do her bachelors and masters here from Delhi...and her father asked me if she could stay with me as she don't know anyone here and its not safe for a girl to be in a different city on her own. I used to stay in a single bedroom apartment at that time, but for her, I got this two-bed apartment and from then...This was our apartment...and she became my house-mate before she become my friend.
As i lean back on the sofa with a sigh...Nidhi's soft whisper reach my ears...
"You are leaving in two weeks???" sadness was evident from her tone as her gaze were still fixed on the TV infront and her fingers popped a popcorn in her mouth. I felt a lump in my throat. Being with her, staying with her, liking her...then loving her...I am so full of her now that I never give this idea a thought that i would eventually have to leave before her.
"Haan..." I replied with a heavy heart.
Her hands stopped there moment. Her lashes lifts up and she turn her face to look at me. Her gaze was piercing my heart, making me feel bleeding inside. OH this is gonna be hard...more hard than i can take.
She keep looking at me for sometimes and then turn her face and started looking away...In a way so that she could hide her silent tears from me...but she should know...That I am as close to her heart, as anything else...I don't need to look at her face to say that she was crying...That's how much I love her...
We stayed that way for sometime before she left to the kitchen making an excuse that she need a coffee...holding my head in one hand, I was feeling crushed. I know she is getting hurt but I couldn't make out anything from her actions. She is just sad that she is gonna miss her friend...that's all i can thought of...but what about my heart...that heart which from the last one and a half years was just beating while seeing her innocent face, hearing her lively voice, touching her soft skin, even feeling her fragrance and aroma in the air around me was enough to put my heart at peace...But now, as i have to go back to my world...I don't know how am i ever gonna manage that.
Till evening, She keep avoiding me, staying and talking to me as less as possible and then rushed in to get ready.
I too took a shower and wore my black jeans with a black coat above and a blue shirt underneath. Slightly giving a shape to my hairs, I applied a little perfume...CH...that was gifted by the last on recent friendship day...Till the time, I came out in the living room, she was too standing there totally dresses in a beautiful wrap around sleeveless turquoise knee length dress that left her smooth legs bare. The minimum amount of make-up was as always making her more beautiful and matching accessories were gracefully dangling in her hands and ears leaving her neck bare. She is an epitome of beauty.
But the thing that surprised me the most was that she was ready in a record time as like typical girls, she too had a habit to say 5 MIN MORE Ashutosh from behind the door while I would beat it so hard that it would literally shook. But seeing her face i know what's going on here. A smile was placed on her lips but her eyes truly show the reality of her condition. Sad, depressed, alone.
"Acchi lag rahi hoo..." I said tucking my hands in the pockets of my jeans with a small smile just to lighten up the mood...And as expected, she gave me a side-looped smile and grin.
"Ashutosh Mathur, Kissi larki ki tareef kare...now how does this happen? Its surly a news" And chuckling, I moved forward and took her in a side bear hug.
"Ashutosh Mathur kabhi apne dostoon ki tareef karne se peeche nahin hat-ta...because they are my friends, and they are priceless" She looked up at me with s smile.
"Aur best friend ke bare main kia?" She asked being cheeky again
"Hmmm" I started looking around with a thoughtful expression and seeing me taking too much time with the answer, her mouth wide opened and next instant, she hit my chest and pushed me away...
"Ashutosh Mathur...You are a looser" She said and rushed to the door in quick steps and laughing, I followed her behind.
Meri Beqarari Ko Had Se Badhana
Tumhe Khoob Aata Hai Baatein Bana Na
Nigahein Mila Ke Yoon Mera Chain Lena
Sataa Ke Mohabbat MEin Yoon Dard Dena
Mujhe Dekh Ke Aise Palkein Jhukana
Shararat Nahin Hai To Phir Aur Kya Hai
Haan, Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho...
The whole party was fun...It was nicely arranged in a bar but me and Nidhi avoided the drinks. Hard Drinks are just not for us...but someone had put a prank and added a lil alcohol in Nidhi's cola. She was OK till sometime but later started feeling dizzy.
Her hand gripped my arm for support that caught my attention and seeing her uneven body, I was shocked...
"Nidhi" Quickly getting hold of her, I provided some support with my one arm around her waist...while other came up to pat her now sweaty face.
"Tum theek hoo...Nidhi..." I again pat her face as she hold her head in her hands
"Ashutosh...Mujhe...Mujhe chakar se aa rahay hain" feeling sweaty out from my wits, I helped her get to a corner and made her sit on a couch. My gang was there in few moments and later they got that it was Sid who planned all this
"Aik kali ankh kafi nahin thi kia k jo abh apna chehra bigarwana chahta hai..." Anger took a toll on me but right now, the most important thing for me was to take Nidhi back home...
With the help of my friends I made her sit in the car and took her home...
After carefully helping her lay on her bed, I put covers on her still dizzy body...she was mummbling and blabbering something and everything the whole way and now too...She is a hand full... sighing, i rushed my fingers through my hairs and turned around to go when a hand grab mine and pulled me in...It was the greatest shock of my life...
I barely got time to react when I felt Nidhi snuggling up to me while putting her head on my chest...
"Ashutosh" She took my name in her slurred voice...my hands were still in the air as my brain was still deciding how to make them react at this moment when my heart beat them all and pushed me to put my hands around her...
May be I will never get a chance to hold her that close ever...was a statement that my heart thought off but right then, my slow brain jerked me up saying...Don't take advantage of her situation...
But was that Me who started all this Cozy Cozy moment...
Feeling her presence beside me fill my heart with contentment...If that's the only moment , i will ever cherish of me with her then i want that to be stretched out as much as it could.
Her fingers were drawing circles on my shirt. Her eyes were closed. Her breath was ragged.
"Ashutosh" she again took my name and I should admit that now...I love the way she take my name...
"Ashutosh" this time she actually shook me with her hands, taking my name a lil loudly
"Hmmm..." I made a sound of acknowledgment
"Tum ja rahay hoo..." the pain behind those words were hearable
"Jana hoga Nidhi..." I said after a moment...
"Par tum mujhe aise akele chor k kaise ja chahte hoo...Am I that bad to live with?" Her voice was teary. Her eyes look up at my face with a pout on her lips...She is adorable...
"You are not bad Nidhi...Not at all" I softly moved my fingers to cup her face... Of i could...just if i could be that blessed man you wanna live with...I would never have left you for a single day...I thought and shook my head feeling her gaze still fixed on mine...
"Mom Dad mera intezar kar rahay hain Nidhi...Mujhe abh Dad k business main unh ki help karni hogi" I explained but that pout was still there...
"Will you miss me??" Tears were now visible in her eyes
"Too much...mujhe apni best friend k saath rehne ki adaat jo ho gaye hai...abh jab koi mujhe subah jaganay wala nahin hoga...mujhse larne wala nahin hoga...mujhe sunanane wala nahin hoga...tau main kaise rahoon ga? haan???" I said trying to hide my smile...she looked at me with a sad face and then frown as i think, my words got registered in her mind in a slow pace
"kia...main bus tumhain dant-ti or tumse larti hoon...iss liye tum mujhe miss karo gay" I giggled as she tried to push me away..."Go away Mathur" but i kept my grip tight around her and pulled her more closer...
"Nidhi...us daant or laraiye k peeche chupi care ko miss karoon ga na main yaar..." And she just hold my shirt tightly, again putting her head on my chest
"I will miss you Ashutosh..." She said once in a slow voice...and then again and again...My heart was feeling jumpy just thinking that she will miss me...and soon I heard a small snoring voice and God...she was sleeping on my chest...
I didn't have the heart to push her away right now...but I have to do that
"In sometime" I told myself and my eyes fixed on her angelic face which was just few inches away from mine and i caressed her hairs with my fingers...Not remembering exactly when I went to sleep
My eyes flutter and I tried to adjust them to the beams of the sun peeping in the room through the window.
Rubbing my eyes, I tried to move up still droopy only to felt a little weight on my chest that stopped me to move. I look down quite observant now and saw her sleeping on my chest, just like the way just went to sleep hugging me last night...A small smile played on my lips
Well If I have to leave, I will surly gonna cherish this night...I keep looking at her for sometime, absorbing her serene beauty, imprinting that into my mind...when a thought stroke my brain
"What will she think if she wake up just now...Wo hoosh main nahin thi likin main tau tha na...kia wo iss ka kuch galat matlab nikalay gi??? Or kia iss baat se hamari dosti pe farak par sakta hain..." These thoughts make me feel vomited...I don't wanna bring any other awkward moment in our friendship...so carefully, I lift her face up and moved my body away from under her and making her lay...I got up from the bed, and giving her a last look...left her room...
Thankfully she didn't ask about that when she came out from the room after freshnen up and saying me good morning, went to kitchen to make breakfast...Seriously, I was seated with a batted heart flipping through the channels till she was in the room...but feeling no change in her tone, I felt relaxed...But my mind was now working in another direction...
The way she break-down last night...was that NORMAL...like a friend reaction who is about to loose her friend...but then she isn't...its just the matter of a year and then would be back to Dehradun, Our hometown. I will be there and we will be friends once again.
But If it was a reaction that was for someone other than a friend...and IF, she is confused, I am gonna give it a try...I am gonna push her for once...For once to think about me in the way I think about her...and even if she is not confused...I have to do that just in a way that I willn't loose my friendship or her...And I had a plan...
She found me with a grin face when she came out to call me for breakfast...I looked up at her...and thought...
Surly, Loosing her isn't even a option here...
Tumhe Neend Aayegi Abh Na Mere Bin
Mujhe Hai Yakeen Aisa Aayega Ek Din
Khuli Teri Zulfoon Mein Soya Rahoonga
Tere Hi Khayaloon Mein Khoya Rahoonga
Kabhi Gaur Se Meri Aankhon Mein Dekho
Meri Jaan Tumhara Hi Chehra Chupa Hai
Haan, Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho
Kaho, Na Kaho Mujhko Sabh Kuch Pata Hai
Two days later...we all friends went to college to get some of our documents...Sid was now having two black eyes instead of one and all thanx to my superb mates...I didn't even have to touch a finger to him...God!!! Life is gonna be boring without my friends...We planned to go out to beach for the last time as a group...And this was the chance for me to give it a last chance...
I pulled Pooja out from the group and tell her my plan...after a few bribes, she finally agreed but we both barely got a chance to implement it when we get to beach...But seems like, luck was on my side...
On our way back, we all stopped on a fast food resturant to have some snacks...We guys placed the orders while girls went inside the ladies room to fresh up there ruined faces from the beach. I placed my order and just got to a side when my phone buzzed...Seeing Pooja's name...I quickly excused myself from my group and get out to a quiet corner taking fast steps without saying a word...
"Its so sad na Nidhi...hamara group abh khatam ho jaye ga" Pooja was saying to Nidhi on the otherside of the line...I think she had hide her mobile somewhere
"Yup...I am gonna miss this fun" Nidhi replied...
"Me too" Pooja answered... "Patah nahin sub kahan kahan chalay jayein gay...apnay careers k chakar main...But tum or Ashutosh tau saath hogay na agay bhi...tum donon best friends tau agay bhi best friends he raho gay na"
My heart was beating furiously hearing this conversation...
"Patah nahin Pooja...We were hardly friends before I came to delhi..." Nidhi replied. My heart melted with her tone...If only i had known how blissful this friendship was back then...we would have been friends from the start...
"Really...That's a news...tum donon ko saath dekh k tau lagta hai k patah nahin kab se aik doosre k saath hoo" Pooja said in a wondering voice...
Nidhi kept quiet in answer...well Pooja again started
"Waise Nidhi...aik baat poochon...mind tau nahi karo ge na??"
"Nahi..."
"Ummm...Kia tumne kabhi Ashutosh k bare main romantically feel kia hai??..." Pooja stopped...I think, must be Nidhi's shocked face stopped her...
"Matlab kia hai iska??" Nidhi's uncertain voice boomed in my ears
"I meant k Ashutosh good looking hai, college ka sab se famous larka hai, sincere or helpful hai...or tau aur tumhara best friend hai...You both know eachother much better than anyone else...Tau kia tumhain kabhi ye nahin laga k you both can get together...I mean as a couple" Oh someone need to pump my heart as it was refusing to beat naturally...tooo anxious, tooo excited...
"Mujhe...I mean hum sab ko lagta tha k one day you would be the star couple of our group...Tum dono aik doosre ko compliment karte hoo...Acche lagte hoo...and if I am right, I think Ashutosh bhi tumhain pasand karta hai" Oh my God!!! this girl...I am gonna kill her...
I just asked her to plant a nagging thought in Nidhi's mind but here, she is opening my secrets...
"He just like me as a friend Pooja...You are seeing more into the things..." Nidhi replied confidently...
"May be...May be it was just my eyes who saw and witnessed his puppy dog face whenever you will go out with Sid...may be it was just my imagination when I see his hurt eyes whenever you will turn around from him and went up to greet Sid..." Pooja said that in a strong voice...
"I am too in love Nidhi or mujhe yeh feeling pehchanany main dhoka nahin howa..." that was the last line I heard before the call was cut...
Back home, she was seemed to be in deep thoughts...She gave me a look that get me goosebumps on my body that day...Something seriously was going on in her mind...and I was getting crazy day by day thinking of it...hopefully Pooja words had left a mark...instead of leaving a doubt in her mind regarding our friendship
I asked Smita to put an ad on college notice board for a female paying guest who could accompany Nidhi but next day, Smita told me that that ad was torn into pieces by Nidhi
When I asked her, she replied in a stern tone
"No, I don't wanna share this apartment with anyone...Yeh hamara apartment hai and I willn't let anyone take your place till I am here" and she rushed into her room...and that give me a lil hope...of me and her...and our future...
One week passed and only 4 more days were left for me to be in the same city as her...We were having good time...She was taking her classes in the morning and in home, to look normal, she would spend either cooking, or watching movies with me...We would stay up till late night and play cards or a board game while sharing some snacks...it was fun... but still she didn't made a move...
Disappointingly, I put the thought and my feelings aside and enjoyed this flavour of my friendship...
Finally, the day came when I had to go...Half-heartedly, I packed my bag, putting all my essentials with me...there are many things that i couldn't take with me right now...but will come later and collect that...It was still early in the morning as i have a train to catch at 8 and I still have a little packing left to do...Mom asked me last night to be prepared and put alarm so i don't miss that train...but it was so much fun when my friends surprised me last night and stay till late...
"Nidhi...meri tickets rakh di hain na?" I asked as i put few of my books and packed my laptop in the bag...
"Ha,,,haan...wo tumahre ...bag ki front pocket main hai" her stammering voice came from my beind...My face fell hearing her and I turned around to look at her...she was standing in her yellow night suit...playing with her fingers
"Nidhi..." I took her name and went ahead to hug her
"Kia howa??" I asked still hugging her...her arms too come around me as her nose dig into my shoulder
"How will I stay alone Ashutosh...I will miss you" She said in a teary tone
"Owww...I will miss you too...or maine kaha tha k paying guest rakh letay hain" I rubbed her back to comfort her...
"Hum paying huest rakh tau letay but wo meri best friend tau na hoti na..." She replied...and she sounded too cute...
"Don't worry best friend" I break the hug but still kept her in my arms and looked at her face...
"Main beech veech main ata rahoon ga tumhain satanay..." I tried to crack a joke when a tear roll down her eyes and I again have to hug her...
"Tum mujhe station choorne nahin aa rahi" I asked but her head shook...
"Kyun??" I wanted to see her there...waving me good bye...
"Main tumhain jatay howay nahi dekh sakoon gi" She replied and my heart was swell with her words...
I bid her bye half-heartedly and left for Station with Amit...We took my luggage to the entrace when a guard ask me for my ticket and to my surprise, it was missing
"Nidhi nay bola tha k us nay rakhi hai" I said checking the pockets while Amit checked in the other bag but no use...Confused we went to ticket counter to get another, but the whole train was already full...No chance today...
We come back home...The train was gone...But i need some answers now...Nidhi must be in college so I thought to get in the apartment to wait for her...We use to hide the key under the welcome matt but it didn't work...
I turn the knob and found that open...
"Nidhi is so careless...pagal..." I mumbled and get inside only to found her curled up in the corner of a sofa, hiding her face in between her legs, sniffing...Scared I reached to her with quick steps and got down on my knees while putting my hands on her...
"Nidhi...Kia howa" hearing my voice, her head jerked up and tears were rolling down...This scene seems to familiar...just like the time I found her when Sid broke her heart...But this time...
"Ashutosh" She looked at my face and next instant hugged me tightly...
I was taken back by her reaction but hold her as she started crying badly...
"Ashutosh...Please...do.o..n...don't...le...a ...ve me" She said crying...
"Nidhi...Howa kia hai..." I was super confused...
"Please mujhe kabhi choor k na jana...I can't live without you" And the way she said that, I quickly withdraw her from me and cupped her face
"Kyun..." she looked at me with hollow eyes..."kyun tum mere bina nahin reh sakti??" I asked, hoping to get the reply, I so wanna wish...
"Kyun ke...Kyunki" she started looking away from my face but this was it...Either this moment or never...My grip around her face tightened and i made her look at me...
"Kyunki kia???" I said in a soft lovable whisper
"I love you Ashutosh" and that was IT...the moment i was waiting from so long...
"I love you Ashutosh...i love you so much" she repeated again and again... And i smiled and moved forward to kiss her cheek...keeping my lips lingered a lil more than needed and nuzzled her...
"I love you too Nidhi..." I replied with all the love that was stored in my heart for her...She literally trembled feeling my breath striking her neck and pulled away...putting a facade of anger
"Then how could you do that...how could you plan to leave me all alone here...kia yehi tumhara pyar hai...agar maine gusse main tumhari ticket phar na deen hoti tau..."
"Kia?" my shocked expression tell her than she said more than necessary as she bit her lower lip...
"Tumne meri ticket phar di??" And after a moment, she nod...
"But phir mujhe laga...k ticket pharne se kia hota hai...tum nayee ticket ley lo gay..."
"Lucky for you madam..." I replied with a naughty expression... "Poori train already fill thi"
"Lucky for me kyun...It was your good luck...Pooja told me how you use to roam around with a puppy look before" she avoided taking Sid name...her hands grabbed my shirt
"I really need to get Pooja for that..." I replied...unaware of the fact that how close we were...her whole body was brushing against mine...her face just a few inches away...her eyes fixed on my jaw or cheek, I can't say but her trembling lips, surly give an indication that she was as much aware of this situation as me...A desire burned up in my body to feel her...to taste her...I have been practicing control from a long time, but after her confession, Resistance is a word hard to think
The hand which was cupping her face first, softly moved around her neck and I pulled her a lil forward...Not knowing how she will feel about my action, I called her name in a way of a question...
Her eyes look up in mine momentarily before she moved forward and placed a light peck on my lips and move back with blushed face...and that was all the indication I needed to crush my mouth against her...I sucked her lower lips, and Oh sweet!!! How sweet and honey coated that tasted...My innerself was shook with a pool of emotions as we taste each other...her lips were as aggressive running on mine, as mine were working on her...We tasted, nibbled and explored eachother to the extent our breath allowed and was about to draw apart when my cell phone buzzed...
Without caring to see, who is the caller, i picked it up...allowing Nidhi to get sometime to compose herself...
"Ashutosh...Tum train main beth gaye?" My mom asked in a worried tone...NOW WHAT SHOULD I SAY...
"Nahin mom...I missed the train" I said, passing a look to Nidhi who turn her face away blushing...
"I knew it...mujhe patah tha k aise he hoga...raat ko late soye hogay aur..."
Ok let my mom talk and take out her anger...I missed the train but how can I tell her that now, My life's train is back on the track of a happy journey...
Haan, Karoon Kya Mujhe Tum Bataati Nahin Ho
Chupati Ho Mujhse Ye Tumhari Khataa Hai
Haan, Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho
Haan, Mujhe Raat Din Bas Mujhe Chahati Ho
Mmm Hmm Hmm
Hey Hey La La La...
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