It all started with 300 Rupees 24 (Part A)
She forwarded her steps towards him, one by one. She grabbed his collar and screamed "WHY? WHY DID YOU KISS ME THAT NIGHT? WHY? You know how much that one night cost me? DO YOU? What were you thinking kissing me? WHAT?"
Tears started rolling out again. She was still holding on to his collar when she continued asking "WHY? Why did you have to………."
She didn't complete her sentence, she released his collar with disgust, and she looked at him for the last time, stepped back, turned around and ran upstairs to their room……..
He stood exactly where he was, glued to that very square foot of the floor, frozen, until his body shook by a LOUD slam on the door………
He was sitting in his car for the last fifteen minutes. He picked up his phone and checked for her call or her message. Nothing. He dialed her number again. It was ringing but she didn't answer. Yet again. He called back, knowing very well that she won't answer but he had to try it at least. He called, she didn't answer. He texted her again – I gave you fifteen minutes, I didn't hear back from you. I am coming over to see you, now. I need to know if you are fine.
He shifted gear, reversed and started driving. Thankfully he knew where she lived. He continued driving, heading towards her home.
He got there, parked his car with a screech. Got out and started walking towards the building. He walked towards the elevator, pressed the right floor, waited, the elevator opened, he quickly got out and walked towards her flat. He rang the doorbell and waited. No answer. He rang it again, ditto. No answer.
He waited there for few minutes then rang the doorbell again. He continued ringing the doorbell like a maniac but still no answer. He took out his phone and called her again. The phone was on, it was ringing but she didn't answer. He was frustrated now. He turned around to leave when he saw Rohan walk passed him, with a lady, maybe his mother. He said "excuse me? Do you know where Khushi is?" The lady replied "I saw her leave for work this morning but I haven't seen her since then, sorry." Saying that she continued walking up the stairs holding Rohan's hand.
Disappointed, he walked back to his car and started driving. Not knowing where exactly he was going. He was just driving. Aimlessly, not knowing where to find her, where would she be. She wasn't at work, she wasn't home. Maybe a friend's place, or the mall, or some restaurant. He called her again, still no answer. Where could she go? What is she doing? Why can't she at least answer my call? Why is she ignoring me? Why can't she text me back? At least I would know she is fine. I just need to know she is fine. I…….
His phone rang, he quickly picked it up blurted "where are you damn it? You have any idea for how long I have been trying to reach you, what is wrong with you? Why didn't you answer my call?" He heard the reply "I didn't get any call from you sir." He checked his phone, it was Roshni. A perfect add on to his frustration, he inhaled, exhaled and answered "what do you want Ms. Saxena?" She replied "Sir, you didn't give us the file for the meeting tomorrow, we have to work on it before the end of the day, the meeting is first thing in the morning. The office called and asked me for it, but I don't have it and you are not even here at the Singhania's meeting. We need that file urgently."
He replied "you couldn't have reminded me while I was there, now I have to, never mind, send the driver to my house in about half hour, I will give it to him." Click!
He ended the unwanted the call and called Khushi back. Still no answer. This time he slammed the phone on the passenger seat and started driving, fast. His frustration had turned to irritation now, especially after Roshni's call, his irritation had turned to rage. He just wanted to find her, NOW. To see how she was. To see why she was avoiding him? To just find out……..
He continued driving, towards his home while his mind flashed that temple, the one he had gotten built for her, his wife Khushi.
Flashback………..
He stood there processing what all happened within last ten minutes. Repeating every single sentence she said. He was trying to understand every single meaning behind her frustration, her anger, and her pain.
Especially the unspoken words.
No matter how much he thought, he still couldn't figure out all of it.
But one thing was clear, there WAS a reason, a solid one for to have those two conditions before agreeing on giving him another chance.
She had made it clear on the very day she agreed to give their relationship a second chance – and now he understood – SHE MEANT EVERY SINGLE WORD OF IT!
Not acknowledging their relationship in public and not asking her anything about her life after she left RM.
She wasn't bullshitting. It was something big, matter of fact, something HUGE. Something she still wasn't comfortable sharing. Something that still bothered her. Something that was a big deal for her. Something that changed her so much. Something that made her the way she is now.
SOMETHING. Something BIG.
What was it? Why did she say all that she did? He just stood there across the beautiful temple thinking what could have gone so wrong for her to feel like that? What could have gone wrong? He asked himself again. What happened all of sudden?
All of sudden? I am sure it's not all of sudden. She must have had all this bottled up for long enough to burst out like this.
I am not worried about what all she said today. Whatever she said was true. I am glad she did finally let it out. I do deserve to hear all that and much more. I have wronged her all the way. I have treated her like crap. I have misused her. I have done so many wrong things to her and everything she said was justified. Whatever she said today, I KNOW ALL THAT.
That's not what's bothering me.
I am worried about what she didn't say tonight. What is it that she is not telling me?
I need to know what happened after than night.
Should I ask her? No, I have already given her my word on not asking her anything. To hell with my words, if she is not going to tell me anything on her own, I will have to get it out of her. Come what may. I will have to talk to her. Today. Now. Yes.
He stood there little longer, not knowing what to do next?
What should I do now? How should I talk to her? What should I say to her?
After what just happened, he still needed to know how to go about it. How to proceed with this delicate situation?
I have to be very careful, on what I say, what I do. She is not in the right mind frame right now. She is very upset. I have to make sure I don't upset her further. I have to talk to her though. I can't just let her go through all this alone. Even though she is not willing to share anything with me, I will still have to ask her.
He just stood there by the temple for LONG time.
Or should I wait until tomorrow? Maybe it's a good idea to wait. She is really mad right now, I don't want it to get any worse. I should give her some time. Maybe then she would be willing to talk.
Or should I just call him back and get her file? That should tell me what happened after that night. NO. I can't do that. I can't break her trust like that. NO. Not after I have promised her. I should just ask her. But how, I have also promised her that I won't ask her anything. Khushi, why would you ask me for such promise? WHY?
Why did I agree to that? I had to. That was the only way she was willing to give me another chance. She was very clear about it. I was in no position to bargain on that offer. Either I had to take it or leave it. Now I wonder how desperate I was to bring her back in my life? Pretty desperate I guess. I should have thought about what she was asking and why. But I was too busy being happy that she was willing to give me another chance. Not once I wondered what could be her reason behind such condition.
That's not true, I did think about it. I still think about it. I just can't do anything about it. It was either her way or the highway. What have you done Khushi? How could you just play around with something so big? If it's something that's really big, I am supposed to know. You should tell me. When are you going to tell me? What is it that keeps you from coming clean about things? What are you so hesitant about?
I wish I could explain you that I am okay with everything. I will understand everything that you may want to tell me. Anything and everything. What could be so bad that you are not even willing to talk about it? What is it that you are so reluctant on disclosing to me? What is it that you had your condition before giving me another chance? What is it that makes you so vulnerable at times? I need to know Khushi, I need to know.
After enough contemplation – he finally decided to talk to her, that too now. He didn't want to wait until tomorrow, she was upset now and he needed to know why. Tomorrow would be too late.
Then finally he dragged his exhausted body upstairs. Slowly. Not knowing how to face her? What to say to her? What to talk to her about? How to talk to her? How to ask her?
He got their room, the door was closed. He slowly twisted the knob to see if it was locked. It was not. He opened the door. It was dark inside the room. Only the night light was on by the end table on his side. He couldn't see properly inside the room. He walked to the end table, and turned the lamp on.
He looked around to find her. He found her laying on the bed. She was quiet. She wasn't moving. She wasn't making any sound. He didn't hear her cry. No sound at all. Her face was hidden under her dark hair. She was flat on her belly while her face was resting on her pillow. Laying silently, still in his clothes.
He carefully sat on the bed and said "Khushi?" She didn't answer. He moved towards her, gradually, without making any sound. He spoke again "Khushi?" She still didn't answer. Nor did she move. He was worried now.
He wasn't sure if she was ignoring him on purpose or she was sleeping in real or something else.
He got to her quickly, he moved her hair to see her face. Her eyes were closed, her cheeks had dry spots from her tears. But her face looked calm, very calm. She looked peaceful. Very peaceful. She had really fallen asleep. How? After all that yelling and screaming? She was so mad at him, how was she able to sleep after what just happened about an hour ago?
He wasn't sure if she was pretending to sleep or was it that she had taken her pain medicine earlier. Maybe that had helped. If she really was sleeping then he was glad in a way that she took her medicine before her emotional outburst.
Part B Continues……….
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