IPKKND:SS: A New Hope ~~Chp 18 Uptd on pg 35 - Page 6

Somwhere arnd midnight a faint knock, some knocked at Khushi & Arnav's room door, khushi jumped from the bed as if her whole life depended on this, opening the door she found Anjali panting obviously in pain, "Arnav ji" she shouted, Arnav too woke up looking at his di he understood a lot of things, Khushi came running with a hospital bag and bent on di's side, murmuring soothing words, wiping her face with a cloth which had been dipped in cold water, she told Arnav, she had already called hospital and he needs to take di as sooon as possible to hospital. Arnav thought of informing Nani, Khushi told him not to disturb anyone, as she was accompanying him to hospital.

As soon as they reached, they had a doctor with them, the doctor looked at Anjali and rushed her to maternity room, the whole time Khushi had been by Anjali's side and when the doctor told she cant go with them anymore, Khushi waited she kept continously pacing up & down. She was quite nervous Arnav could feel it. after 3 hrs the nurse came agn & called Khushi saying that Anjali wanted her to be in the maternity room.

Khushi ran towards di, soon after Anjali & Khushi heard the babies, yes Anjali had been blessed with twins but she was critical and needed blood agn Khushi gv her blood.

The Morning bought the Happy news for RM, Arnav informed evryone at RM

Soon evryone was at hospital. Arnav described evrything to evryone and all were thankful to Khushi for her presence of mind.

Khushi again declined the credit but Arnav couldnt stop feeling indebted to her, evrything precious to him was with him today bcz of his Khushi, Di and her kids.

Soon Di came home, he now hardly saw khushi she was always bzy with Di helping her. she has become surrogate mother for Di children, she hugged, pampered & cudddled them, cleaned bathe them evrything, & evry time he saw Khushi with the babies, his heart skipped more than 4months since she had returned RM and they hadnt had a decent converstaion untilnow, evrytime he went near her she shrugged back. gone was the Khushi who had a undying spirit, everytime he tried to talk her she replied with only the necessties, the question in her eyes evrytime held, had disappeared, instead now it was replaced witha listless glass sheen. every night he had heard her sobbing until sleep came to her tired body.

He wanted to do evrything in his power to repair the damage he had done to her. he had crushed her spirit bcz now everything he said she agreed meeklessly

Arnav burned, burned in regret and each day he cried but he couldnt do anything, it felt as if she had burned all the bridges which led him to her. yet every moment he saw her with the kids,, she had a peace her face. he felt she had started healing ...

Di had let Khushi decide the name for the kids and what wonderful names had she picked for them...

She had named the baby gal ...Tamanna & the baby boy ...Tanmay

The kids turned 3 months and Di had taken them to doctors visit for their first shot, again he observed Khushi nervous.

but when the kids retuned she had got her peaceful expression back.

That night when he returned to his room, he found her bags packed and ready, he got a shock as he turned to look for her, he found her standing by the pool, looking at the stars agn, she had tears in hers, as if she sensed his presence she turned to him, she said its time for me to go.

"Khushi" he cried, his throat had choaked with constraint. she told him please dunt even try you would be wasting your time, you had given me your word that you wont force me to anything which I dont want.

"The only reason I came back her was Di, she was in a delicate condition that time so I came, but now she has healed and she is more strong and with you by her side di doesnt need me anymore."

He mumbled "what abt me Khushi?????" "Wont you gv me a chance to explain myself"

She told him "you never needed me. you had yourself always and its gonna be same. "

Bcz for U Arnavji, It is always abt U and never abt WE. The day you blamed me fiascco in Di life, I felt hurt, felt as if someone had stabbed me but the moment u uttered those words where u said you believed shyam over my actions. you killed the US. I had always loved you even with all your faults bcz somewhere in you I found a reflection of me, which was scared to face the world. we both wore facades, I wore the happiness and you wore your ruthlessness as urs.

Each time you were cruel to me in actions words I understood it as you felt to disguise urself behind them. I loved you, you what the, you smile, you eyes, your affection towards your di, your commitment to your Values, the one you had chose, the relentness in you I loved evrything. evrytime you did something wrong towards me I stopped, took the thought in myself and tried to find a reason within me to justify your actions. what u did the first oppurtunity you got u thought the worst abt me. Even before you went to shyam with your questions you had made me culprit in your mind. A man like you who claims to be in love with me, with all the resources at your disposal didnt take a second or a miniscule of effort to find the truth, you could have come to me asked me if not atleast before deciding me a culprit you could have chckd the facts, the time i worked for you, your family when did I hurt anyone. I spoke lies as u say but those were those harmless lies which would bring smile to anyone lips. I had selected my each thought at the wellbeing of others in prefrence. I was always fighting you bcz like you I had been hurt with cruelities of life, I missed my dear ones, I have my dignity and I do not accept charity but at the same time I am careful I do not hurt anyone. My views on marriage were mine my personal yet I never forced them on you. You broke everydream I had bcz you were in pain, so you filled my life with pain. thats so unfair, had you asked I would have readily accepted all you pain, but forcing me with it I cant accept that.

everytime you let your anger ruin evrything beautiful between us. your anger rules your logical mind, not all things can be decided with anger sometimes u need to use your heart too.

I guess I have explained myself, i need to go now, Arnav was dumbstruck. he wanted explain her his pain, he anguish but this time she had closed her doors for him. As he moved to pick her bag she told him I dunt need you help I will go myself, you dunt need to drop me, I will survive on my own, just see to that I havent wished anyone Good bye, & if I do noone let me go so in the morning you explain them. I cannot survive with you & now I have to survive my existence inspite of you". With those words she left.