Part 4:
Arnav's mouth seemed to go dry...it was like someone had beaten him hard on the face. All of that seemed too much to digest. He read and re-read every word of it. Tears started pouring on his face before he knew it and he seemed like a small child who is crying because he and best friend broke up.
"Arnav Singh Raizada, stop pitying yourself! Do you even realize what she thinks of you? What you made her think of yourself? There is a lot that needs to be done. Be a man and face her!"
He picks up his phone.
"Hello, Khushi! Kahan ho tum?" He paces around the room, anxiously.
"Arnav Jee, aap ne kaisey phone kiya? Sab theek to hai na ghar main?" she asks worried. Arnav Jee always called her when he was anxious.
"Khushi main sab theek kardunga, I promise! bas tum...Where are you, by the way?"
"Kya keh rahain hain aap? Humari tou kuch samaj main nahin aaraha! Hum Shukla Jee k saath un k office main hain. Choti si meeting thi kisi k saath. Bas ataey hain ghar...lekin hua kya hai?" She was still worried.
"Tum udhar hi raho! Im coming to pick you up from his office."
He grabbed his car keys and rushed out of Shantivan. Many things were rushing in his mind.
She definitely does not love Shyam as she said that it is only me who lives in her heart. But then what was between him and her? Why did she...there were just so many times he had misunderstood her, starting from their first meeting. These past three months, he thought that she was faking the care and love that she showered on his family. But wasn't she like that from the beginning? She had always been a warm, loving, happy go lucky person, a good natured, sensitive girl! And look what you have made of her now! You have turned her into an insecure person who can do nothing but wait for her 6 month contract marriage to end, who has been cheated on twice, hurt and tortured most by the person she loves? Yes she loves you, u dumb creature! How have you failed to see the love in her eyes when you two were close all these months? It was you who she hugged unconsciously when Bauji fell sick, it was you who she trusted herself with all these months, it was your family who she cared for as your wife, did you think why she never flinched or ran away from you or stopped you on Diwali, why she does hold on to your shirt when you sleep together, why does her mangulsutra cling on your clothing every now and then? She has recognized you as her protector, her lover, that is why! But what do you do in return, ask her to get lost from your sight all the time, announce your engagement just to see her cry! Blackmail her to stop her sister's wedding and drag her without her consent to marry you? Did she deserve that wrath? Does any girl deserve to be married off forcefully like that? No! And to top it all, you made her sleep in the cold and open on her wedding night? Made her answerable to both families for your marriage, the reason of which she did not know herself? How could you do all this to her?! You call yourself Arnav Singh Raizaada! You think you are the God? NO! You are bloody not! You are a heartless, selfish person who cannot think beyond himself, who doesn't think once before insulting anybody, who judges people according to the amount of money they have, and who thinks his eyes can never deceive him so he never bothered checking with Khushi about Shyam, because his bloody ego would not let him!!
"Enough!" He shouts back to the voice inside him. He was ASR after all...how longer could he bear to listen so much against himself!
"I'll make it up to her, I promise! 'I'll make her understand and she'll forgive me. She'll have to!!!"
He parks the car under Shukla's office and picks up his mobile to call Khushi. Then puts it back without dialing, on the seat. To make amends, the great ASR will have to change. There is no other way. He gets out of the car and walks into the office. Enters Shukla's cabin where a fidgety Khushi was waiting for his call.
Both Shukla and Khushi stand up in surprise!
"Sir aap? Mujhey bula liya hota..."
"Arnav Jee?! Main neechey aajati..."
He ignores Shukla and moves forward to hold Khushi's hand lovingly but with a firm grip and pulls her put of the cabin. Outside, he looks into her questioning eyes with affection and remorse and asks,
"Do you trust me Khushi?"
She looks on, unable to say, even though the answer was so easy she could even respond to it in her sleep, but the shock of him saying something like that dumbfounded her.
Lines of worry begin to appear on Arnav's forehead...she no longer had faith in him, how could she? After all I have done to her...
"Haan Arnav Jee! Lekin aap pareshan kyun hai? Kya hua?"
Her saying it so easily, reassures him...there is still a silver lining...
They are walking down the stairs when he says,
"Hum abhi ghar nahin jaa rahey Khushi...I...have to tell you something!" He bit his lip. Khushi's heart is beating fast sensing his tension but she manages a smile while nodding at him.
"Devi Mayaan, rakshaa karna!" she says in her heart while looking at the sky.
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