LOVE was being questioned by LOVE,
Arnav's love was put to sham by his own wife, his love for lifetym
this is wat didn't let him sleep in peace, d fact dat " is dis wat i call love? how can i even consider my heart was broken, when i never loved her coz if i did, den why she had to fake it to her mother,why cant i be wat she wants me to be, after all i am in love wid her"
,looks here n dere,for answers, why , why not,why cant, why dis...arrgghh too many "whys", gets up n moves away to a separated place, n thinks-
words haunting him, conscience totally insulted here-
"Arnav ji duniya ke sabse acche pati hai"
Arnav- kaash mein ho pata, i wish i cud be ur pefect husband , u must have wished for it too,i just screwd ur wish,
"humare ankhon mein ansun nahi dekh saktey"
Arnav- i am sorry i had to see those tears,for i was sole reason for dere appearance,but dere was a tym when ur tears used to make me feel dizzy ,disgusted and now its a sham im d reason for ur misery.
"apni har zaroorat se pehle woh humari khwahish poori kartey hain"
Arnav- kabh ki meine?? n when did u make me do anything for u , but i think i cud have done something for u dat u wished for, sirf chooriyan lana hi sabh kuch toh nahi hota...,
have i stooped low in her eyes?? is dere nothing dat i cud give her now??? how can i found an excuse to be her man d way she ever dreamt of widout dropping my pledge to screw a few lives??? and he thinks for a while..."can dere be something i can say to her,do for her , make her feel wanted in my life?? maybe i shud hurt her less, maybe i shud speak less, which wud lead to me speaking less shit n more sense , silence is sense too"..:P
"yea...dats a gud idea, just speak less, be nice by not being asr , observe her, dont let her go off my view, il watch her all day long, il feel satisfied dat she is around,,yeaa..dat sounds gud, at least before dose 3 months end , can i give her a little of wat her "perfect man" suppose to be?"
and he comes back to d bed, looks at her, wat???? she is shivering of cold??? oh so d perfect husband shud help her, i will help her, dere goes off d AC ..."when u have already taken so much of pain by lying to ur mon , cant i spend a night widout d Ac on? after all my comfort is of little importance in front of ur sufferings, if i am d reason, den i shall be d curer too, if im d injury den il be d medicine too" :)
and he lay next to her quietly admiring her unfulfilled wishes n feeling nice to have her around...and he comes closer, hold her hand , in his mind apologizing for every lie dat she had to speak, for every tear dat forced its way frm her eyes, if circumstances were not so repugnant, ur each "so called lie" wud have been put to life by me, says arnav...and he clutches on to her hand,tightens d grip n flatter his heart- she is near, im not letting her go, il try to make up to those bad days, of course she'l get punished, my revulsion is intact, but i cant be cruel anymore, for i knw i have something for her in my heart dat i cant tell her,at least i can hold her hand n sleep , n say my sorries , heart to heart, n he sleeps like a baby, holding on to his "miss dependable"..:D
dat was a cute moment, firstly, snap out of Arnav's self convo, ...to d count of 3..here we go..1 2 3...SNAP...:p
r we back...hammm..:D so yea... a very cute scene wid a primitive insight into Arnav's persona, he is totally besotted by her, so mcuh so dat he can even forget wat he is doing, why n where for whom...before clutching on to her hand,why didn't he think twice,wat if she sees me doing dis? wat if i forget leaving her hand in d morning?? of damn il screw my plan n she'l be respective of me...naaahhh..all dose thoughts put to rest , he did wat was required of d moment, he wanted to tell his heart.."sabh theek hai chachu,yeh bhi yanhi , mein bhi yanhi, kam se kam kuch din takk koi kahin nahi ja raha.." almost like saying a perfect sorry
he held her hand , lookes at her n says..SORRY, and goes to sleep.
morning- leave my hand, wat d ??? im not running bhai...chhodo kya natak hai..rofl..>:P
biwi ji has no clue , biwa..err..sorry i mean...pati needs her, dats why he is holding on to her wid d fear of losing his wife, ...but she wont get anything...:P
and she pulls her hand back...chhodo yaar...nahana hai...aisa karo aise hi baithatey hain, buaji pani le ayengi..dono ek sath naha lete hain...kya bakwas hai...n she tries again...uff..asr really really wants her...:P
1 strong pull and
KHUSHI...HE YELPS, he thought she is going away frm him, oh god after considering he is not her perfect "sapno ka saudar" types, can she leave him anytym???forget d contract,how wud he survive a day>?a life wid out her???
wid dese tensed expressions came a sigh of relief..ahhh..she still dere
wife- paseena kyukn hai??
arnav- kya yaar tumo paseene ki padi hai, yahan ganga jal se nahane ka tym agaya hai...rofl..:P
frankly Arnav is one of dose characters who is passionate to such an extent dat...kya garmi kya paseena, kya discomfort, she sleeps n peace n her hand in my hand, life is perfect !!!!..raat kat jayegi jabh life hi aise kaatni hai,fir kya chinta,...just dat, u must stay near me, i can sleep widout a bed, an Ac or anything...dats my Arnav...anyone differs...well den god bless u ..haha,...:P
now why he was staring at her d whole day???
he is trying to soak into her existence...jabh tak aas paas hai, make d best of her appearance, look at her for eternity, be nice to her, forgive her for her riotous attitude,and just make it easy for her
and den questioning his conscience- kal kya maang rahi thi yeh apni amma se?
so she is dat sort of a woman who wants me to be her angel,den how can she be so bad in any sense,look at d way she is eating ,while watching tv, innocent ain t'she? den?? who is worng here, hammm...life needs some tym n rest, lets move away frm her for a while, let her enjoy her peace,i wont say a thing to her now,at least itna toh kar hi sakta hun..:)
"tumahra kaam hogaya ho toh diary wapas rakh do"
why didn't he show her , her place now?
dont touch my things my wallet my clothes..AND ME...:p
becoz, its okay now..simply, he cant think of anything wrong in being nice to her or an excuse to bash her after all, she considered him worthy of her last nights lies...:)
mannn...1' night can surely change a hell lot things...:P
its a pleasure writing abt dis man, he is not a one personality man, he has colors to his persona, he is not d same in different situations, in bad tyms he wud be impulsive, but when he feels lyk to drop it,he will, in gud tyms he wud rejoice in silence, but when he feels dis is not being Asr..HE WUD DROP IT !!!! shades to him make it fun to go deep into his heart n search his brain n play wid it..he is being very deferential here to khushi, d very next day he wud be back, den again he wud be a saint n den even more polite ..till he feels she is taking d wrong cue frm her , n den comes back MY ASR...:P
how much he love sher, even he is unknown to its magnitude, all he knows is, she is hurt n i am d reason, i will cure d injuries in my style but i cant let her know why i gave dem in d 1st place.
tv reporter- make up karo yaar..close ups mein banda scary lagey..suit nahi karta by god..:P
wat was d background news btw???
"car se name plate hataya gaya, speaker ne saansad se vagera vagera kaha???"hello??
faking news bhi itni fake ??
khushi u have stiff competition ..rofl..:P
abh neechey scrowler mein chala dete, chikni chameli pe JDU ke MLA nachey, UPA ne siikkey pheke...W*F...:P
wat i loved abt dis scene was d habbit of watching tv 1st thing in d morning..hehee..:P and den ...ARNAV staring to glory ...soaking in verey move of her, and making his injured heart feel a little better dat she is still my wife and oo so innocent ..:)
precape- ek phool ho phool ko samajh sakta hai..by dat i mean arnav n flowers..:P
abh phoolon ko dekhein ya arnav ko...whoz more worth it?? lemme think lemme think...la la la laaa..ARNAV,.,..HANDS DOWN...GAME OVER !!!!
HAHA..:p so he gardens her place wid gorgeous flowers only to give her dat axe to do d "katai n chhatai",,abh itna bhi bholla nahi hai..haan thoda pyaar araha hai, but he wud never be dose romantic card n flowers gifting man, he loves asr style n i love every bit of it...n dat smirk..kal if my update comes on sunday den bare wid me...:P
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