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KHUSHIS DIARY ABOUT ARNAV
Every time I see him my heart skips a beat, the closer he comes to me the faster my heart races, why do you do this to me arnav singh raizada. I never thought I would fall in love with a man like you, but now you means everything to me. When he is around me I get butterflies in my stomach and when he is away from me his memories drive me insane. He told me that he wants to tell me something and I wish its those three magical words that I have waited forever for him to say.
Time goes so fast that now the man that I loved and wanted to confess his love for me has married me for the sake of his sister. Today, I am your wife, I should hate you for all the torture you have put me through but when I see your face it's like my heart lights up. Just seeing you completes me and makes all my anger disappear. What magic is it that you have over me arnav that when looking into your eyes I lose sense of everything around me. Its like you paralyze me into another world, where there is just me and you. Arnav it hurts me so much that you don't see the love I have for you in my eyes, yet when I look into your eyes at times I see such hatred for me but at times I see love that I feel confused. You don't realise that when you hold me close and tell me you hate me it hurts me more than you can imagine. Your every touch sends a shiver down my spine yet when your close to me I feel safe like never before. I wish I could express to you what I feel for you but when you look at me my heart goes numb and I forget everything I wish to say, I guess that's the effect you have on me. I wish you could understand my affection for you and love me the way I love you.
ARNAVS DIARY
Under all the pain, anger and stubbornness for the first time in my life I fell in love with khushi. At first I failed to understand my feelings, but all I knew was that when she was around me I was happy like never before. She touched my heart in a way that I never imagined possible and brought all those feelings in me that I thought I killed a long time ago. Her innocence brought a smile to my face, when I had forgotten how to smile. Khushi taught me how to live, love and be happy, she showed me a world outside money, a world that I wanted to be a part of but just with her. When di used to say that a girl will come into my life and change it forever I used to laugh but now it seems so true, khushi is that girl. Seeing her in pain hurts me and makes me realise the love and affection I have for her but due to my stubbornness I was never able to express it. When I finally got the courage to share my feelings with her and tell her that she is the one girl who has changed my life. Her love, tears, affection everything affects my life to the extent that when she isn't around me I feel lost.
Little did I know that my happiness would be short lived and she would be in love with my brother in law. When I saw them together it was like someone stabbed a knife through my heart . For the first time in my life someone genuinely hurt me and my tears were causing me agony. To protect my sister I married her, promising to make her life hell because she ruined my sisters life and broke my heart. Even though I want to cause her so much pain one tear in her eyes causes me so much agony, can she really be the girl that broke my heart although I love her? If she loves my brother in law why does my heart say she is the one for me? Why does my heart love her although she doesn't love me?
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