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As Ahem requested her to massage his back, though hesitant because that would mean being close to him, Gopi agreed to relieve him of the pain. As Ahem was trying to remove his kurta, Gopi did not feel very comfortable...each & every passing moment she spent with him reminded her of those special moments she spent with him during Holi. But today after knowing he does not remember anything, she felt she had no right on him !!!
As he was undergoing terrible pain due to a muscle pull, Ahem reached out to his wife Gopi to help him relieve of the pain. As Gopi was unable to identify the exact positon of his pain even after guiding her, he held her hand to guide her to the exact position. But as he held her hand, he felt her struggle to withdraw her hand. As he turned back to see why she was pulling her hand away, he saw a troubled & worried expression on her face similar to the 1st time he was teaching her to write. As he was teaching her & could not see her bad writing, he held her hand to make her write words neatly. In the process he forgot he had held her hand & asked her to write. Gopi was scared as that was the 1st time he held her close to him physically & she could not write. As Ahem questioned why she was not writing, she in a scared & worried tone told him about her hand & Ahem then realised & released her hand.
Today as Ahem saw her scared & trying to pull her hand away, it troubled him. After spending time with each other & knowing each other's feelings & understanding one another, as he saw her feeling uncomfortable by him holding her , it broke him. He continued to hold her hand expecting that she would share her feelings with him & feel comfortable with him. But as he heard her scared voice & saw a worried expression, he felt overwhelming feelings to hold her & share with her how much he loves her & how much he craves for her love. He wanted to hug her mid-way & tell her what she means to him & that he could never ever live without her & all he ever wants from her was her love. But as he saw how uncomfortable she was feeling, he realised that it was his own behaviour in the past which had resulted her being scared around him. Even after him reassuring her to not get scared around him did not put her at ease !!! He realised at that point that instead of telling her in words, he had to make her feel special in their relationship to get her to be comfortable around him !!!
As Gopi saw her husband in pain & unable to express it, her heart was not at peace. She slowly started to massage him so that he could feel better & be relieved of his pain. As she was setting things for him to relax, her heart was troubled at the distance in her relationship with her husband, her saathiya. All she ever wanted was her husband's love & longs to feel his uninhibited love. The only time she felt his deep love for her was on that special day of Holi where he expressed what he felt for her & claimed her to be his forever. But as he forgot those moments, she is now living just with that special memory hoping that someday he will love her !!!
Ahem realised that Gopi did not move from the place she was standing & he asked her immeditely what happened, he was not suprised with her answer that it was nothing. He knows her well enough that she still lacked the confidence of sharing her feelings with him. He realised that their relationship needs more love from him to make her feel at ease to share everything with him !!!
As baa requested Ahem for a great grand child, he was suprised by her request & was embarressed. Ahem so far never thought beyond building his relationship with his wife expressing his love for her & claiming her love as his forever. Baa's request has for the 1st time opened up his outlook at the future of their relationship as parents together !!! And as baa insisted to know his answer, Ahem did not know what to answer & slowly looked expectantly at his wife for her reaction. Looking at her shly smiling, he knew that she was also hoping to take their relationship to the next level of being parents & he was overwheled by these special feelings. It relaxed him a bit that she also shared the same feelings as of his looking into the future together, but then he also realised that they need to work on their relationship together , to get her to be at ease & comfortable with him & share each others love before they could bring their child, out of love for each other into the world !!!
