Part 14
Khushi holds Arnavs hand and leads him to the bed.
Khushi tucking him in bed: Sleep tight, and don't worry about anything.
She places a kiss on his forehead, to which he responds by holding her face close, and kissisng back on her lips, and smiles. Khushi struggles to stop the tear from flowing out of the corner of her eye. She quickly straightens herself and tells Arnav to sleep. Arnav knew that Khushi had a habit of talking to the stars before she went to sleep, so he sleeps peacefully while she steps in the poolside.
Khushi keeps thinking, keeps thinking while tears roll out of her eyes. She remembers where Anjali had given Arnav an ultimatum of tonight, and if Khushi didn't leave, then Anjali and shyam would leave by tomorrow morning. Khushi knew that arnav didn't know she knows, and so she hid this from him. She really respected the relationships Anjali-Arnav shared, and she didn't want to break it. Khushi keeps thinking of a way to bring shyam's truth out, but realises that Anjali is pregnant and any more stress will be so bad for her. She remembers the day when arnav said to Anjali "you are my world, no one else matters if you're with me". She glances at Arnav sleeping with his forehead twitching. She knows straight away that even in sleep Arnav is tensed, and he is in this position because of HERSELF. Khushi steps inside, slowly goes to the wardrobe, picks out 2 salwar kameez, and puts them in an organic bag. She takes out a chappal, wears it. Then she takes out her bag from the hanger and puts it around her shoulders. She remembers those memories so vividly when she had set this cupboard up with Anjali, and made Arnav very angry. She still remembered those fresh memories.
Then her eyes catch a book in the corner of her wardrobe side. She takes it out, starts to read and a smile flashes across her face while a tear also drops from her eyes. She quickly wipes it being careful that Arnav is sleeping right there and can sense her. The diary listed with 101 ways to irritate Mr. ASR. She had written 100, including sneezing, taking over cupboard, shoe rack, room, making arnav sleep on sofa when she was unwell, opening up a jalebi corner in the poolside, permission to bring jalebis to her room, taking over bathroom, putting news channel on high volume in morning, bringing Lakshmi in bedroom and allowing her to go on their bed, putting juice in arnav's shoes, putting lights and wind chimes in the room, hanging stars above the bed, putting pink bedhseet on the bed, putting Salman Khan's posters in the room, dancing to films songs, singing in a besuri voice, changing his ringtone to jalebi bai when he was in conference and many more.
She takes out a pen from Arnav's side of the cupboard and writes on the next page: "One-Way to make ASR happy: Leave him!" A tear drops from her eyes to the page, leaving evidence of her tears with the note. She continues to write on the page:
Dear Arnavji,
Please forgive me first of all. You will probably find this tomorrow morning and by then I will have already been gone. I apologise dearly that I left while you were sleeping, but I had no choice. You wouldn't have been able to let go of me if you were awake and personally, it was easier for me too to leave you while you couldn't see me with those eyes that loved me.
I had heard Anjaliji's condition of either her or me staying in this house. I know you love Anjaliji, and so do I. She is pregnant at the moment, so it's not good for her to leave the house, especially not with Shyam. Please make sure Shyam doesn't trouble her. I know you will not let him harm her in any way.
I am sorry for all the mistakes I have done in the past. I am sorry for the atta I threw on your clothes, I am sorry for the jalebi bai ringtone that I set on your phone, I am sorry for putting the juice in your shoes, I am sorry for stopping the water supply when you were in bath, I am very sorry for many things I have done in the past. I can only hope that you forgive me. I know you will, you have a good heart. You try and show the hard side, but I have seen the soft side of yours, The real Arnav, the loving Arnav, the caring Arnav, the Arnav who saved my life, who made me feel loved again, who made me live again. I thank my Arnav for everything.
I know you will be sad after this letter. I am sorry I took your cupboard space etc. Please clear out my stuff afterwards as per your wish. I am taking away a picture of yours, the one kids drew the moustache on, because I don't ever want to think that you're not with me. It scares me, the mere thought. After my parents, you're the first person who I will be communicating through the stars so do keep an eye out at night. I will send my love every single day for you. You will feel it, my dear. And please stop crying, I know its going to be hard for you but I am so sorry. Please don't tell anything to Anjali di. It's not her fault. Let her live her life happily. Once, I am gone, Shyam wont do anything bad to her, and I am sure of it.
Please don't cry Arnav. I can't see you sad, I love you too much. I cant be the reason for your sadness. SO I am leaving this house, leaving you, forever, only for your happiness. Please do accept this decision of mine and don't come looking for me. Accept your new life after this, move on and take care of yourself and our sisters, Payal and Anjali di, for they are our lives. I know you will.
Lastly, I will always love you and one day I hope our destiny makes us meet again. Please take care of yourself.
I love you.
Forever and ever yours,
Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada (strikedthrough)
Khushi Kumari Gupta (strikedthrough)
Khushi
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Edited by pkaur92 - 13 years ago
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