I LOVE YOU MADS!!!!!

madooo...I don't say this often enough and today is the perfect perfect day to scream this to u because today u came to me as a blessing in disguise via this beyond lifetime treasure u gave us

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OMG I can't tell you what I am feeling right now M seeing this after AGES and by ages I really REALLY mean AGES...and I just don't know what I am feeling...few minutes back only I wrote to naps and kavs in CC that we NEED the Remix touch again coz m feeling as if m loosing my essence my vision I don;t know exactly what I m loosing but I know m loosing something...constantly every time every moment of the day there is this slight train chooting feeling in me...except perhaps when I am working and living my dream...its been so long so damned long since I truly truly TRULY felt the magic the power of bhaggu's love...hell its been so damned long since I actually felt GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS...all the things I believed in universe, love, dreams, hope EVERYTHING they were so freaking distant and its not that I didn't try to reach them I swear I did sometimes I used to chatpataofy in sheer frustration coz I knew all of this was right there right freaking there but I couldn't feel it... i just couldn't feel them...I had forgotten what love is I still don't know what it actually is but today just by seeing this mix i felt it ACTUALLY felt it all around me...I cried for no rhyme no reason cried like a freaking MANIAC after AGES FREAKING AGES...am not saying I didn't cry in these past months i did but they were always tears that came out due to some reason tears I cried because i was sad or hurt or missing someone or felt something missing in my life and all but those tears never NEVER make u strong...but today's tears OMG OMG after ages AGES I m truly truly feeling light and just feeling blessed and feeling life is beautiful and I m beautiful blessed loved...after so many months so many many months months that were freaking longer than eternity m feeling actually feeling my bhaggu all around me near me inside me everywhere OMG after months m feeling this inexplicable force energy which is over and above all of us...its magic its just OMG...I can't tell u...can't tell u how much I have craved for this ONE moment how damned much...coz this ONE moment of communing with him and his universe is all u need is to get over all the damned crap to truly know who u r where u belong where u want to go what ur dreams r just this ONE moment and this moment can be fleeting I KNOW IT it can be fleeting and tomorrow I might be back to my ordinary self far away from the invisible and buried in everyday life and all its failings and blah blah but just the fact that it happened to me today gives me hope for me ki somewhere out there there still exists a me..a loony

Can't tell u what I am feeling mads...its like coming back home after years and years of wondering without any purpose its JUST like homecoming

and I don't know what to say to my AY my salvame my bridge to the invisible just want to tell them to somehow anyhow save me always no matter what...and the only way I can be saved is to constantly constantly feel my bhaggu's unconditional love for me...to constantly scream I love u to him...and the only way that can happen is if I believe feel live breathe love and all my dreams if I weave new dreams daily and make wishes and blow candles just feel blessed no matter where life is going...OMG AY they make me purer they make me sacreder they make me a better stronger person they make me special...THEY ARE SPECIAL...omg can't tell u how m feeling after MONTHS I got this moment where the entire day's blahedness tiredness was completely completely wiped out by JUST one moment of feeling love...OMG its magic AY magicofy my life...I LOVE YOU for this mads and for everything else too for just being there AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE AY...