PART 26:
" Shalini please stop you will fall and look you are spoiling your pretty dress and if that happens you will not go to Ruksana's party,I'll take Angad only and you will stay here by yourself." " Nooo Kajal aunty you cannot take Angad cause he is noughty and mean and is always hiding my dolly." she said in her child voice " Listen Shalini you do not say that about your elder brother and if you want to go to the party then drink your milk ." " Ok aunty"
" Kajal" " Yes bhabi" " You take the kids to the party and I will stay back and besides your brother is coming home early so both of us will handle the matter here and do not worry. Also when you return your brother and I would like to talk to you in private and please stop dodging us." She nodded her head and went to her room to get ready but as soon as she entered and locked her door, she leaned against it and started crying. " I've fought myself so much even with bhai and bhabi and I do not even know how he feels about me now. He might have decided to stay with his wife but how do I convenience this poor heart of mine that has fallen so deeply in love with him and for five years I have tried hard to forget him but faith would allow me to. Why Jigar why, why have you come into my life?" She cried her heart out as she could not face her brother and tell him she is in love with Jigarji as Bhai now despise the name Modi so much and did not want to have anything to do with them.
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After the burial Bhai was driving everyone to the wall, he was in a hurry to leave Rajkot and therefore was selling all our assets there except the house which he left to care takers as papa instructed in his will that the house is a family heritage. The only person who could handle bhai was Saraben and with her help by broke all links to with the Modis as both hated Ahem Modi and anyone or thing connected to him. We left a week after the burial to Mumbai and then to Australia as bhai wanted us to be far away from Rajkot as possible. The months that follow in Australia were difficult for us all as the burden of our secret was taking it's toll on us. Bhai and Sara married in a registrar office but their relationship were strained due to the fact that bhai was so busy with shifting his head office there and too many formalities needed to be done whilst bhabi's life was engrossed between the hospital and her shop.
It was not easy for me to find a university of my course as we went there mid term and therefore I spent most of my time at the old people's home where I found a job, bhabi's shop and the hospital. Our evenings were quiet as each was in their own world.
The night's had been my most fear and nightmare. From the moment I laid my head on the pillow my taught would drift to him and the last time I saw him. How I wished I would tell him the truth and but bhai was always right these Modis... but then how come my heart seeks for him...how warm and secure it felt to be in his arms.
Things got better and calmer until one night bhai and bhabi attended a business party and came home looking like they have seen a ghost on their way and as much as I enquire from them they just stirred at me.
" Sanjay what have we done and how are we to face the truth now. I still can't believe it how is that possible." Bhabi was just muttering and hot tears rolling down her checks and as for bhai he sank into the sofa and blamed himself. " Bhai, bhabi you both are scaring me and what are you two talking about please you two stop hiding things from me, am not a kid anymore so please tell me what happened."
"Well Kajal the thing is that the party we went to was celebrate Indian success in business around the world and and... Modi Industries was mention..." It's that why you two are looking like painted cheese, now come on you two we had it tough and when our life is much better you are looking back, what's wrong..." no Kajal it's not that, at the party they were paying a tribute to... to... the la..te...AH ...EM...MO...DI" " What bhabi!! what do you mean late Ahem Modi." Kajal what your bhabi mean is that THE GREAT AHEM MODI OF RAJKOT HAS PASSED AWAY THE WEEK AFTER WE LEFT THERE."
"Nooo!" all looked up shocked and rushed to her before she fell down the stairs. " Gopi! Gopi"!!! "You are lying Sanjay bhai please tell me it's a lie, Ahemji cannot leave meee, you promised that he will come for me...didn't you...please tell me it's not true."
"Gopi please hold yourself together... you are not fully recovered." " Sanjay bhai what is my life now without Ahemji.. he was my life and has taken it with himself...so tell me why am I still here... I should have been with him bhai... now his soul won't rest in peace as he promised to never leave me again.." She was saying all these crying her heart out and very uncontrollable and unconsoleable.
" Gopi listen to me your heart is still weak and you have to do this for your little one at least. You have to be strong for both of you Gopi...you have to live for it...you owe yourself that much at least for Ahem's sake." " You hated him bhai and now we all will never see him... you should not have done that to my family. Saraben at least you should not have lent him a hand with his decision and because of your actions I can never face my family nor give them this good news which would have at least fill the void in the hearts especially maaji."
Months later didi gave birth to Angad and became everyone's centre of attention until bhabi also brought us Shalini. Didi, Angad and myself always go to Rajkot on Ahemji's death anniversary but stayed far away from the family. Di was very adamant to go and bhai refused at first but agreed when bhahi explained to him how important it was for Di. The days we spent in Rajkot were very difficult for me as well. My heart yarned for him so badly and can only see him at a distance...he looked thinner and frail and was trying hard to pull his family together. On one of such occasion Di nearly went to them but I stopped her and would go into depression whenever we went home and then Sanjay bhai took the decision to stop us going by setting up a shrine at home in Ahemji's memory and that's where Di spent 90% of her time, cursing her destiny and questioning Ahemji photo for reasons of leaving her. FB ends
Seeing Di like this for the past three years made me realised that what happened at the hospital and after should not have been and that I should have told Jigarji the whole truth that day when we were alone in the store room. " But how could I when my senses were flying high in the sky being so near him, inhaling his manly scent and locked in his warm arms." This is not the time to be sulking as I have a party to enjoy and who knows he might have already got junior Jigars with his wife, so I should get on with my life.
At the party Both Angad and Shalini went to their friends and she knew that Angad will protect his sister from anyone who comes near her so she left and went to help with organising. " Hey gorgeous are you avoiding me, here I have been waiting to see the most beautiful girl my eyes wishes to see and you are not even bordered." Standing by the kitchen door is a tall broad should kind of a guy, rich to the core, girls fell on his feet and all Karan Singh wants and dreams of is Kajal. For the past two years they have been dating but he always felt her not fully committed and was ready to wait. " Can't you wait outside like all other men" came Kajal's voice "Well I always want to be by your side and that's why am here, anyway when since you don't want to see me ..." " It's not that Karan am just busy" " you've been saying that for the past two years now Kajal, no worries I'll wait outside" and left in anger.
After the party, Karan pulled her to his car for a chat or more to surprise her. He gave her with roses and on the note was sorry and a smiley face. She smell their fragrance and smile back at him with an apologetic face. " Well that my girl" " Karan I have to go now" " you see that's the part I do not understand you at all Kajal ... we hardly spend time together when we have a chance cause you have tonnes of excuses to give... sometimes it's baby sitting your niece and nephew, you Di or some other... you do not give our relationship a place to grow." He grab her left hand in his and made her to face him and to know what he was talking about was the truth." I love you Kajal with all my heart and intend us taking our relationship further." As he was telling her he was coming closer to her and when he was about to kiss her on the lips, she abrutly pulled away which angered him and he demanded her to be honest with him.
As soon as she reach home with the kids, she busied herself with them..bathing... tucking them and reading them their favourite book all in the hope of avoiding her bhai and bhabi and to forget her confrontation with Karan. As they slept she quietly left and went to check on her Di in her room and when she was not there,Kajal knew that she is with her Ahemji as today is another of his anniversaries which Di dedicate to him and no one dare disturb her.Lucky for her she heard her bhai and bhabi in the study and she quickly rushed to her room and the bathroom crying her heart out.
Their voices echo in her ears, one saying " it's not over Kajal, it's not" and the other " marry me Kajal, marry me." She is completely lost and does not know what to do. Karan has being so caring, lovely and waited for her to open up but what she felt for Jigar cannot be ignored as her heart beats for him. Her dilema is that she does not know whether he is now single or not and the fact that her bhai and bhabi wants to see her settled and they know about Karan as his father and bhai are business associates and that's how she met Karan, even Karan's family approves of their relationship. " Please tell me Kajal why do you not like me to touch be near you. You always seemed tense ...is there someone else...I've been so patient and thought maybe it's all due to your family problems but I now feel there is more to this than you are saying... Marry me Kajal, marry me." Tears were gathering in her eyes now as she know she has to be honest with him. " Karan I need time to think over this." " Just how much time do you need, we've been together for two years and not once have you said you love me, not once have you let me kiss you and whenever I touch or come close to you, you run a marathon away from me. So tell me what is stopping you cause I know for a fact your bhai and bhabi approves of us and so do my family, the only obstacle is you so please be honest with me, at least I deserve that much."
" Karan am sorry but I do not do these intentionally but I need to sort myself out and only then can I honestly answer your questions." "What do you need to sort out" Karan pressured "Please Karan I just need to understand my feelings..." " wow kajal understand your feelings for how long and for who...me or someone else" She snapped "yes for someone else... I did not mean to fall in love with him but it happened and I don't even know whether he is still married or..." "Kajal! what! you fell for a married man and all these years of being together you did not tell me, did you sleep with him and that's why you would not let me touch you". She slapped him and added how dare you Karan, am not a slot and he is a gentleman and you know what it's over." " It was never there to be over Kajal and I will always love you but when you do figure out your feelings know that am there.
Her tears would not stop pouring down and then the loud knock on her door brought her to her senses... wash her face and went and met her bhai bhabi in the living room. She was shaky and was not ready to hear them but was not going to give in yet. "The thing is" her brother started " we know it might not be the best idea but it has to be done." She waited impatiently " Mrs Kurana, our Rajkot house care taker has a funeral to attend to in her village and will go away for three month so you bhabi and I have agreed that you will go there for that period and look after the place and also take over our main office there which we did not close due to our loyal staff there and that was papa's first office. I have spoken to the manager there and all arrangements have been handled and you need not worry about the kids here as we have hired a nanny to cater for them and also Gopi too will be well looked after. We have arranged a nurse to be station here and care for needs. You will need to leave in two days time."
"Bhai could you not have hired another care taker temporarily." " No kajal, Mrs kurana has been with us since we were kids and was very fond and loyal to papa so she needs these period. " Ok bhai as you see right." She was about to leave when he added " Karan is a good man and I hope when you come back you two will think of getting..." " bhai please not again, for now let me concentrate on the job in hand and we will worry about that when I come back" and quickly left before either one of them said anything further.
" Rajkot, after so many years...I think this is what I needed to sort myself out and my feelings... I hope we do not cross path as I would not know how to act or react seeing him" She was in deep thought not realising her bhabi's presence and only looked up guiltily when she called her and immediately lowered her gaze. " Look Kajal am going straight to the point. Your brother told me about you and Jigar...I do not know whether he is still married but just remember to stay away from the Modis as far as possible...your meeting him can be helped if you stick to work and home and it's only for three months and like your bhai said Karan is a wonderful guy and this has nothing to do with our association with them. Also remember they know nothing about your Di or Angad so bear these in mind when the inevitable happens."
Well the inevitable which her bhabi warned her happened upon landing at the airport and she basically hid herself behind a pillar and wore her glasses. She could not believe that in all the years they have been apart he has not aged much but grown more handsome,leaner and a lot paler. She was feeling that she should have put a closer with him before starting a relationship of convenience with Karan. She hid herself until she saw he leave the gates before proceeding to the exit herself only to bump into a ragged beggar with his family. She hailed a taxi and gave changes to the family and gave the taxi driver her address and only felt relieve when the car moved and headed out of the airport but her luck was not with her today as an hour into the drive the taxi punctured. She came out of the car and waited for him to change tires. She was enjoying the traffic and scenes of her motherland after a long time and watching all the interactions around and then her jaw drop stirring blankly at the tall figure in front of her towering over her.
That's all for now saathiyans. not much of your favourite characters but I needed to show the other side of the coin and could only do so through Kajal's eyes but do not be disheartened as you will get more of them soon so enjoy and please tell me opinions as an encouragement.
Edited by kamjal - 13 years ago
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