|| Make Me Fall In LOVE || 2# - Page 96

We walked through the airport holding hands and all I could think of was - the first time, when we had walked in Victoria Memorial, and how my hands had itched to hold hers. How my arms wished they could just brush against hers. My heart was beating loudly and I could barely listen to her answers with the loud noise my heart was making. I laughed as I remembered how I was trying to calm myself by saying that 'This girl, is NEVER going to say yes! Samrat Shergill, your just not good enough for her. So just relax, you don't need to be nervous. I am just doing this for Mamiji..' I had told myself. "Samrat, why are you laughing?" Gunjan asked me as we proceeded for immigration. "Nothing Gunjan.. Just thought of something." I replied shaking my head. 'I was sooo stupid then. I didnt even care.. I just went to see Gunjan for mamiji.. I never thought I would be so attached to her.. I never thought I would love her soo much.. And as usual, the unthinkable happened.' As we proceeded towards the flight, I felt so much more confident about myself.. I felt happier about me.. Unlike the first night, I was so confused. I didnt know what to say or do. I didnt know her that well either. But when I lay in bed beside her.. My hands went out of control.. And then she stopped me.. I was so embarassed that day. I had promised that I would never go close to her again.. I never intended to make her feel uncomfortable, but I had lost control over myself and I always despised my self for behaving the way I did. She hadn't said much, but I knew how ashamed she would be feeling.. She had barely known me for 4 days then! But my heart, it just wanted to see her smile. It still does and now I actually see that smile on her face. She held my arm as we got on the flight and I saw that sweet smile on her face. The one I always wanted to see.

"Things have changed so much." I commented, reflecting my thoughts. "Hmm, but why are you saying this all of a sudden?" she asked. "Was just thinking about our past.." I said smiling. "Oh. No wonder you were laughing.. Were you making fun of me ?" she asked as she scowled. "Haha. No. I wasn't. I was laughing at myself. I was so nervous the day I had come to meet you!" "(in awe) really? YOU were nervous? Before I thought you were a calm and composed person, but you know what? Now I am starting to think that you get nervous in small things!" she said shaking her head. "Is that a bad thing? I am actually never confident enough.." "No not at all, that is one of the things that makes you so cutee!" she said pulling my cheeks. "Dont pull my cheeks!" I said. She purposely pulled them again.. She rested her head on my shoulders as the flight took off. It was just the two of us in the flight. So peaceful. So Quiet. Just the way I liked it. I let my thoughts flood my mind again. 'Things have changed so much, first we had to make so much of an effort to talk or even look at each other. Especially, After I saw her.. her.. with Neil..' It was painful even to remember that day. My eyes became moist everytime I thought about it and once again I had those tears in my eyes. 'My heart had sunk totally, when I saw them.. so close.. so lost in each other. They hadn't even realised I was there. That day was outrageous. I was so furious. I still remember how I had yelled at my employees and I hadn't even spoken to Gunjan. My eyes were red that day. I wasn't in the state to say a word. Emotions failed to express how I felt that time. The girl I loved so much, more than I had ever loved anyone, was cheating on me? That night tons of questions were flooded in my mind..Why did she marry me? Why didn't she tell me before marriage that she loved someone else.. Why? But when I came to know the answers.. I was shocked and refrained from asking any more questions. Gunjan was crying and I needed to be there to calm her. My pain could wait.. she was more important.' I shut my eyes and rested my head against the airplane seat. Thinking about that incident made my heart heavy..My hold on Gunjan grew firm and her head jerked up. "What happened?" she asked. "Samrat? Tell me? You look so tensed." Gunjan said, her expressions changing vigorously from a smile to a look of astonishment and worry. 'How can I tell her what I was thinking about? That would make her sad and just ruin the mood. Think of something fast. A joke. Or anything!' "Gunjan, nothing! Was just thinking.. umm.. about something!" "Samrat! You aren't telling me about this something na.. You were laughing then and now your almost in tears.. What happened? Can't you tell me?" she asked, making an innocent face. "Nothing Gunjan, just thought about my parents. Thats why.. I am a little emotional. Its okay. I am fine!" I made up. I would need sometime to forget all of this. This phase in life hasn't been very easy. I think just a little time and I will learn to adjust with it. "No .. you're not. And why are you sad thinking about your parents? God has given you such a loving mother.. could you get anyone better than mamiji? A person who loves you so much?" she said. I shook my head. I knew that. Mamiji was an angel, God had pitied me and sent her to help me. Gunjan hugged me again. 'I had to help her, didn't I? I had promised to keep her happy, always. How could I do this to her? She loved someone so dearly, I had to get them back together. Maybe she was never meant for me.. Anyway she is just too good for me. Look at me? I cant even talk to her continuously for 15 mins. And Neil, he is such a charming man..' Those were my thoughts that night.. I was in deep misery and I could find no way out of it except to shut myself up and let Gunjan go.. Let her go away.. And let my heart yell at me for doing so.. Life was unfair. Whoever I loved, had to go away one day.. That's what i used to think.. But now I am a changed man. Life is fair to all and so is God. When you need him he is always there and he will never let anything bad happen.

Those nights were difficult, but they passed away, and a new sun shone in the sky and smiled upon us. But even that ended badly, I was forced to show Gunjan the truth in Neil.. I was forced to break her heart again.. I didnt want her to know. But.. I couldn't marry Gunjan off with a person whom I know is just hungry for money! Obviously then I was wrong, After knowing the truth about Neil, I could sincerely understand his situation. He was not wrong, just his way of expressing his love was. Well, I am not to comment on that. But I was there near her as she cried. I saw her tears roll down her cheeks, and I promised myself, that I would never let her cry this way again. Her tears were way too precious for her to waste it like that. I wanted to hug her, kiss her, and tell her how much I loved her, but my heart refused. My mind refused. And I was stuck between my feelings. I couldn't tell her. 'I will never be able to tell her how I feel..' I hadn't known that time that things would change so much. Gunjan moved in my arms. "Samrat, how long will it take?" she said in a moaning tone. "Just another 5 hours." I said surprised myself. I had been thinking about all this for almost two hours now.. She looked up at me. "Are you feeling bad that you couldnt supervise the tender work.?" She asked me. She was really so considerate. I had never given her quality time but she still cared if I was sad about the tender. "No Gunjan, I am happy to be here, with you.. And I am glad we are going on this trip.." I said. Her face lightened up and a smile spread on her face and she looked perfect again. I always thank god for giving me such a perfect wife. I am so lucky.. Sometimes I actually feel, do I deserve her? Do I really deserve her? She is so loving, extravagant.. and look at me.. Boring, as Gunjan calls me, and I dont even give her time.. I am such a pathetic husband...

"Samrat! Thank you." She said. I was surprised at the suddenness of the 'thank you'. "Umm.. For?" I asked. "I know you came just for me. You really wanted to work on the tender.. But because I had become so angry youu" "Oh please Gunjan" I said immediately. I could feel it too. I didnt have the hitch to talk to her anymore. "I am more than happy to be on this flight. And as for my work. I think I very well deserve a break." I said looking at her. Gunjan smiled at me. I felt like talking to her. Telling her more about me. I wanted her to know me.. I was never very good at expressing myself. I was always silent, whatever happened. But today I feel that I need to express that I am happy being here. "Gunjan, all these years, I have stayed alone, I never thought of taking a break.." I began slowly. She listened. "Well, what break would I take? Where would I go? I never had many friends, and the few I had made in college.. huh.. I have no idea where they are now. What break would I take.. so now, when I am finally going somewhere, on a proper holiday, Why wont I be happy?" I said looking the other side. "I know Samrat, and I really dint blame you for that! By the way, Who were your college friends?" she asked. "Umm, I never had many friends. Just 2. One was my best friend, Radhika Sehgal, and the other Aditya Modi. Thats all, we were always together, but now.. Now I have no idea where they are!" I said sighing.. Floods of thoughts flowed into my mind again.. I remembered them, we were always together in college especially me and Radhika.. no Rads. I really dont know where she is. Wish we could all meet up. Rads will be very shocked to see how much I have changed. The guy who slept in commerce class has become a business man.. I laughed to myself. But.. alas.. There is no chance of meeting her now. "Hmm, any girlfriends?" she asked interrupting my flow of thoughts and making me smile. "Gunjan" I laughed, "You really think girls would want to be with a guy like me?" I asked. "I do." She said smiling. "That's because you bui forced you to marry me, you had no other option but to be with me!" I said.. "Excuse me?" she said completely shocked. "So Mr.Shergill thinks that I am with him only because Bui told me to?" she said giving me a sly look. "Umm.. no .. I .. I was.. just.. " I shook my head. "Bunk, lets talk about something else." "NO. Now we are going to talk about this first!" she said. "Gunjan, I was just saying generally. Lets not talk about this." I said trying to change the topic. "NO. Why do you think I wouldnt be with you if bui hadn't forced me to marry you?" I sighed. "Well, ok, truthfully tell me, would you have married me if you weren't forced?" I asked. I knew the answer. This debate was just useless, Gunjan would have never chosen me as her life partner. "Umm.. maybe.. If I would have got to know you! And any girl who knows the real you, will madly fall in love with you!" she said. "But now its too late. Your already taken." She said hugging me. I laughed. She was so sweet. She knew how to twist and turn things so well. "Samrat? You are soo loving and caring.. I am actually glad bui forced me.. I dont know what I would do without you? Its scary even to think about it!" she said. I couldnt think of my life without her either. I loved her soo much. "I was wondering, Did you love me when.. I mean.. when you came to know about me and.. Neil?" she asked. I looked into her eyes. I nodded. "Seriously? That's why you didnt kick me out of your house!" She said. "So?" "No, nothing. I always wondered why you didnt divorce me when you came to know that I was in love with someone else.." she said. Quietness filled the atmosphere. But then she quickly said something again, "You must have felt so bad.. I am really sorry. I have given you so much trouble!" "Gunjan.. now please stop this.. We are going for a holiday.. so just cheer up and smile. Everything is fine now. That time has gone. Now there is no Neil between us. SO be happy!" I said. 'So much had happened between us. But yet, at the end she is with me. How can I ever thank god for this..? In these 6 months we spent together, atleast I must have thought a hundred times that gosh. This time I have lost her! But no. She is still here. and now I am never going to lose her.. NEVER..' She nodded and lightened the mood. "By the way, Did you ever feel like killing Neil?" she asked with a slight smile. Was this a Joke? "WHAAAT? Kill?" l exclaimed. This girl has LOST it! "Why are you getting so hyper? I am not asking you to kill someone..! Just asking if you thought of it? Like Robin thought of killing Nora when Barney was in love with her.." Oh God! Not again..! Gunjan is crazy about this stupid show which I hate! Whenever I see it I feel sleepy and grossed out in sometime. Anyway, ill be bearing that the rest of my life now.. "Umm.. Did you want me to kill him?" I asked being sarcastic ofcourse. "Oh please. I know you didnt even feel like doing that for a second." She said confidently. "Actually, at a point I did. I felt like blasting into your room and strangling him. I really did." I said looking away. Gunjan burst out laughing! I frowned but joined in the laughter.

As the flight was landing she shut her eyes. I noticed her fist tighten and she clutched her dupatta. I placed my hand gently around her shoulders. She relaxed a little but was still scared. The temperature was low and it was windy. The chauffeur drove us to the hotel and the receptionist walked us to our room. Outside the room I told her to leave. I had something special planned for Gunjan. Now lets see if she can say, "Your not romantic!" . "Gunjan.. I.. I have.. a surprise for you!" I said. "Surprise! Wow. What?" she replied excited. Her half shut eyes sprang open. "Wait!" I tied a piece of cloth around her eyes and then opened the door. I held her hand and we walked in. I wanted to know if she would like the surprise. The room was lit up with candles. Lights were dim and the bed was covered with rose petals. There were red heart shaped balloons on the floor and a bottle of champagne. I checked everything once again and then hurried back by her side. "Samraaat. What is it?" she said impatiently. "You always said I was unromantic.. right?" I whispered into her ears. "I slid open the cloth around her eyes. Her eyes widened as she saw the decor. She likes it.. Then her expressions changed.. She doesn't? It was difficult to understand. She likes it..?!? I couldnt wait so I asked, "Do you like it?" "Did.. did. You.. actually.. get this.. all of this.. done?" she asked in astonishment. I nodded and she leapt into my arms. I held her tight against me. "I am not that unromantic ok!" I said. "No.. your not unromantic at all.. Thats if you keep giving me these surprises.!" She exclaimed. "I love youu" I said kissing her on her cheek. "Love youu too.." she said blushing. I pulled her closer. I was in the mood today. All day I have been waiting for this moment. Her breathing fastened and my heart thudded in my chest. I dug my face in her neck and she groaned. Her soft skin was warm against my lips and my breathe tickled her. I was losing control again.. My hands ran wildly over her back and I finally lifted her in my arms, when I could wait no more and carried her too the bed. We were too tired to say anything. There was no giving in today. My hands were around her waist and hers were clutched to my shirt. I shut the lights near me and gave myself in. Our lips met. Our souls met. She blushed as I undressed her and the kiss became more passionate after every passing second.. Life seemed so much easier when we were close. There were no troubles, no problems, just this blissful atmosphere and my love, lying so close to me. I needed nothing more. That moment, every thing was forgotten, all boundaries were crossed and after all this time we had finally accepted each other and would love each other for eternity...

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