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part 74
He wondered how the air around him was calm.. feeling a stillness in the air filled with a radiance of brightness, glow.. peace, acceptence..most of all she would understand every thing.. wat it would be like to be perfectly sane. His fingers continued to play with his curls.. she was getting restless controlling herself. There were lot of things playing in her mind.. wat was happening.. is this right at first place. Why was he looking for her like this?
Mujhe tumse kuch kahna hain ..he very softly whispered close to her ear...she felt tickled with his warm breath fanning her.
All she could manage to say was umm... that too came out as a moan
his breath became restless again.. thinking about the brushing of lips.. he closed his eyes tight.. he felt someone was pricking him with 1000 needles at once all around his lips. Geet he cried holding her close, hating this feeling of guilt. He was hating himself.. wat was he doing.. wat was he turning into.. first from no where he meets a drunken girl.. losses control & hugs her passionately.. that wasn't enough.. he kisses Geet madly.. losing his senses.. feeling the same senses as that girl at night.. & now he has crossed all the limit by kissing prachi.. letting her so close to him..letting her touch him in a way.. only he could let only one person.. & he has already let some one that close to him.. & he just can't thing of anyone else in that space anymore.. though he hates her.. though he gets irritated that she does every thing that irritates him.. but still he can't let go her. Can't let anyone else take her place in his life.
Does she have a place in his life???!!! a million question followed..
but then all diverted to the current incident...
there was no integrity left him oh wat??
wat is he become.. worse than a wh**e. !!!
how can he cross his limits like this with any random person. ??
Why does prachi's touch irritate him.. makes him feel guilty. Why he feels he is impure.. so impure that even Geet won't accept him. Even Geet!!!! or is it just Geet!!
but why does he have to justify anything to her
he hates her
then why it feels so calm to be in her arms... in the mid of wrath he has got tangled himself in.
why he feels not bounded by anything when he is with her. Especially expressing himself. Why is he not able to control himself when it is her.. let it be anger or passion, or guilt.. just the way with mistimia.. but he never felt hatered to her.. how could he hate mistimia.. she was so clear in her heart.. unlike this challo carzy show off... dam why do I have to justify to her.
He pulls out of the hug... why should I justify to u?
he said in anger
She sighed in relief.. this was his typical baseless anger which she seemed to be so used to by now. She felt some eldritch happiness inside feeling him lighter now.. than he was when he was madly looking for her. How could she even feel that he is feeling lighter.. she is not even looking at his face. That was so dam ODD!!!
really odd.. she was not even paying attention on to his words.. she was only feeling happy that he is better.
pulling out her embrace he only felt more pricking & hatered feeling with in. something he was not able to explain. A misery he felt that night .. after getting drunk & hugging someone .. felt timid infront of the feeling he was going through now. Damit prachi is just a frd & how can he give her such ideas.
Geet sat quietly infront him.. not knowing how to react. All she understood is, he probably needed her now, & she couldn't deny it. Though she knew it is not right. It was like stepping into his personal space. She just kept mum looking down, not daring to look at him.
Her silence was only irritating him.. making him feel more guilty.. his mind thinking more angrily abt self. Wat was he doing.. running down like a mad person looking for her. Did she see me screaming her name like that.. dam how will I explain all that now.. yeh tho mujhe pura pagal hi samjhegi.
Wat is she thinking?? why doesn't she say anything?? why doesn't she ask anything? Damit why is she so quiet..?? he gets wild in his thoughts.. & yells.. ek tho apna number nahi dethi mujhen
how do I reach u??
its so difficult.. I don't even know which bus u catch & where u get down?
Wat is this dam place.. & .. dam.. he screamed
How is someone supposed to reach u at the first place..??
u know I have been stopping all that buses looking for u
every passing min since...he couldn't say..that.. his hand reached his lips & he looked here & there restlessly.
wo..wo.. he began to inhale heavily
he pointed away at something.. & his eyes were red.. as those sick feeling again began to engulf him
he felt choked with emotions.. I.. his word caught in his breath..
I..
it hurts.. he managed to shrive..
it pricks..
it burns to feel anything else
he took her hand & brushed it on his lips.. like it was the only cure to his pain.. only relief from those thousand needles that were continuously torturing him. His lips shivered under her touch. He forced her hand to be sealed with them.. caress them.. sooth them..
she curled in, gulping in her saliva..still looking down.. melting in his touch. His lips.. trembling, begging pleading to be touched by her.. soothed by her. She closed her eyes feeling those soft tremors down her spine. She let him sooth himself.. slowly tilting her head side ways, muffling the urge to cup his face.. feel him closer, take in his pain. It was heart wrenching to see him so wrecked.
She felt heat radiating through his soft caresses on her fingers.. how lips went around the back of her finger surrendering to them. Without doing anything... her fingers seem to be in power & the his lips like slaves worshiping them.
precap
Maan angry again.
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