Prologue
Glancing over the bathroom mirror, she observed a girl staring with a grim expression, no sign of happiness reflected her face. She moved her hand forward and traced the outline of her features, a bride's face was supposed to glow then why not her. She sighed as she ran her fingers through her hair, "tomorrow the D-day." All she could fathom was whatever she was doing was the right thing for her parents and' herself. Herself'well yes, was there any reason not to be happy with the marriage. She was not like waiting for her knight in shining amour to come and take her away and metamorphose the whole situation, there was not anything likely to happen anyway. Putting her hand on her mouth, she peered at her reflection again, "then why do I feel be in a deplorable state" it's not like she has been forced or something, she has willingly given her consent for this alliance yet it felt like being forced into it. Yea definitely forced into it'if she had not been deceived by him all throughout, she would have never given her assent for this union'if he had not taken her just as an object of entertainment'she would have already said a NO to her parents but no'.it was just an act of pretense all the time'it was always the one-sided feelings.
Controlling her emotions, she walked out of the bathroom drying her hair with the towel. Downstairs, the sounds of the rustle of the wedding preparation could be heard, the jingle and jangle of enthusiastic family members, relatives and friends all celebrating vivaciously. None of these jubilation and joviality matched her present state of mood unfortunately.
"Nearly midnight'" taking a glimpse at the clock'she decided to call it for a today because tomorrow is going to be a new dawn in her life'A new beginning.
She slipped into her bed, turning off the light as she recapitulated today's events. He did not come in today's function as well; everyone from Sanjeevani's staff was here but him. Why? Mostly everyone was asking about him? Why was he making his absence so obvious in front of everyone's eyes? As her thoughts dwelt more in the past moments spent with him, she started missing him a lot keeping aside her hurt feelings he had caused her. She lay on the bed, her eyes fixed on the ceiling staring into space. She still remembered the day they met'
She joined Sanjeevani after completing her Med Studies at the Duke University in Durham to do her internship. As though it may sound a clich ridden style to fall for someone on the very first meeting, she was attracted to this new stranger who had seem to have a very enticing personality himself. She was aware of the fact that he was always tagged with the "ladies' man" personality. He had that multiple magnetism that would have any girls swooning over him and which he took great pride of. Not that she did not find any gorgeous guy ever in her life, there were a lot like that in Durham but despite all of that, her infatuation for him grew profound unable to stop herself from loving him more and more. She would always cherish the momentum they shared together, because the sentiments and feelings she was experiencing had been real for her. They would hang out together often, and then 'date' discreetly, she really thought that maybe he liked her too. But however perfect life seemed at that juncture of life'you had to face some certain facts which will somehow shatter your inside out and make you face the harsh reality of life. And that moment came into her life, he broke her heart. Not even saying anything, neither erasing the fact that she was just a pastime. Suddenly, it etched in her mind that whatever she heard Rahul said to him that night was true.
~~~Flashback~~~
"So what now?" Rahul began.
Busy packing his stuffs in his bag, he looked at him questioningly, "I don't understand what you are saying."
"You know perfectly well, what am talking about. I'm talking about Shilpa."
Sighing desperately, he said "Not again Rahul, I don't want to have that discussion again especially not with you."
"Did you tell her'?" he insisted.
"Tell her what?" the anger was emanating from him with the constant questions by Rahul.
"For God sake, at least now you can speak the truth. You and I perfectly know that whatever is going on between you and her, it isn't something which is going to last anyway because all of this was just another sort of diversion for you."
"STOP'I don't want to hear any of that."
"Am not stopping today'Armaan tell her the truth, she needs to know, that girl is falling for you." Sighing, he ran his hands through his hair and looked at him again' "I can't believe I've let you drag Shilpa into all of this knowing what kind of guy you are, if Anjali come to know how you toyed with her sister, she will hate you and not to forget what will Dr Shashank do if he finds out about that, he is definitely kicking you out of Sanjeevani'You are doomed in anyway Armaan."
"Oh c'mon, nothing of that will happen; whatever happened between me and her is likely a close chapter now and it ends here, am anyway going to join Delhi's hospital temporarily, so it means am clear out from Sanjeevani for the next one year, and maybe if you are able to keep your mouth shut, then probably neither Anjali or Dr Shashank will come to know about it'" he said with sarcasm.
"And what if Shilpa tell them'?"
He suddenly stopped and stared at him for a several seconds "she will not say anything'"
"How certain are you?"
"I just know'she will not tell anybody." He busied himself again re-packing his stuff.
Observing his stance for a few minutes, he questioned him in a tender tone. "Armaan"
"What now?" this time he was getting fed up.
"Do you love her?"
He again stopped, but he did not dare look up at him, instead he fixed his gaze on his luggage.
"Do you Armaan?"
"I don't'" he glanced over at him indifferently with a stern look on his face. "I told you this was nothing serious for me, am not the kind of guy getting in any stupid relationship and bounding myself into a so called love affair with a girl, and Shilpa was not my type anyway, she will get over me, it's not as if she is really head over heels in love with me, it's just her infatuation, she will get over me in a few days."
"You are wrong Armaan'Shilpa is different and you are just going to break her down with what you've done to her'"
"Stop interfering into my life Rahul'I don't care what will happen to her, she is going to live her life as she did earlier and so am I and please I don't feel like pursuing this conversations anymore with you, please leave me alone now."
Seeing him fully irritated, he decided to leave when he stopped suddenly in his tracks finding Shilpa at the door with a frozen expression on her face.
"Shilpa'"Rahul muttered which made Armaan become aware of her presence in the room. The sight of her in front of him left him shocked and numbed as well.
~~~Flashback ends~~~
She jerked out of the bed wanting that heart wrenching reminiscence to skitter behind her like a closed door. These memories came back to her again and again, how much she tried'It never left her. She walked towards the window'and opened it fully as she let the cool wind of the night hit her face as she closed her eyes and inhaled deeply. It somehow helped re-composed her agitated and distressful mind. However, it was only for a short period, as the words come flooding back into her mind' "'a close chapter now'I don't'stupid relationship'Shilpa was not my type anyway'she will get over me'infatuation'she will get over me'"
Her eyes shot open as the words boomed in her mind provoking her to break down as the ceaseless tears traced down her face. She leaned her back against the wall for support as she bent her face to her knees and wrapped her arms over her head. She wanted to sink into the tiles, to ooze onto the floor letting the pain go out of her. He said it had been fun and entertainment for him but not for her'it was genuine love she had felt for him'she thought that it was a going to be an everlasting bond between him and her, but no'it wasn't so'she was already a closed chapter the moment he had uttered the words himself. She was even wrong to think that maybe he had loved her for even a moment but he had been distinct and plain about his answer when Rahul asked him'whether he loved her 'I don't''
She hit her hand on the floor'how such a fool she had been, believing everything he said to her, all the moments of romance, care and concern had been a sham'all just a bloody pretense'and being the nave type one'she had let herself being led by him never going against him. Idiotic and feeble-minded were what she was'how could she fall for a Casanova? Yet, he was wrong'she hasn't been able to get over him even after all these months after she encountered that dreadful truth.
He didn't tell her anything that day when he found her at the door'she remained rooted to the spot while he kept looking at her with a blank expression on the face'and then he just carried off his bags with him'and left the place'he did not speak, he did not deny anything he said'he just left from there as she looked at his retreating back, not once did he looked back to look at her.
The days and weeks haven't been any easy to tackle with thereafter. Life was not the same as it used to be'the blissful days seemed to be dark and shady for her, the nights felt mysterious. But being the practical girl she was'she tried to move on. 10 months later, her parents fixed her alliance to an acquainted family friend of them. Always the compliant girl she was, she accepted without complaining the alliance her parents were looking forward to her to accept. She had nothing to gain or to lose'and neither was she expecting him to come back to her.
Armaan was back to Sanjeevani after his temporary assistance as a Senior Doctor in Delhi...at the very first glance at him after most probably 1 year'something had stirred inside of her. The emotions, the concern and love were once again spreading like a plague in her heart. He was earnestly irresistible'the way his whole personality was overpowering in such a masterly way shocked her. She didn't reproach him for anything nor did they engage into any conversations unless it was on professional basis. She would abstain herself and bypass him on any area he was. But avoidance did not last for long when he learned she was getting married'
~~~Flashback~~~
"Congratulations'" The rigid and cold voice resonated within the recreational room.
Her fingers froze on the switch before flicking it on. She turned around to see his dark figure leaning against the door, with his hands in his pockets and legs crossed. He slowly approached her till he become face to face with her'Even in the dark room'the icy and aloof expression on his face could be clearly visible.
"So Miss Shilpa Malhotra finally found her soul mate'"
She looked away seeing the smug on his face. However, her heart skipped a beat when she felt his hand right upon hers which was still intact on the switch. A deep warmth travelled the length of her arm at his instant contact and she swiftly withdrew it fearing that she might lose herself again in his touch.
"You never flinched when I used to touch you before'" he remarked as he switched on the light.
She did not respond.
"Heard that you are getting married!"
She could sense the fact of not responding at him, was turning on his temper on but she did not care.
"You heard it right'" she finally spoke forcing a fake smile on the face.
"You love him then?" snapping her head up, she found his eyes bored into her. She was unable to decipher what was it beyond that question, he wanted to know. Cutting through the few moments of silence she answered,
"What do you want Armaan?" she was stern and firm. This guy was impossible'with what right could he asked such a question. Now it was her turn to be furious.
"You didn't answer me'"
"I don't deem it right'telling you anything'" With that she walked away to door. She didn't know whether it was her trembling hands that were making it impossible to open the door or was it that the damn door playing like a jerk right now. She tried to jostle it'pushing it violently'yet it didn't opened.
"No use'the door is locked'" she looked back at him quizzically as she witnessed a smirk on his face and flipping the keys in his hand victoriously.
"Open the door'" she ordered. At no cost'was she going to stand in a close room with him. "I said open the god damn door'" the shrill in her voice made his grin grew wider.
"Easy Shilpa! Why are you flinching out?"
"Am not flinching out'"
Now he was standing just inches away from her'making her heart pound at thousand rates. He bore his eyes in hers making her nervous and unknown to her she was cornered at the door. He was making her stomach doing a hundred cartwheels in a row with the proximity they were sharing at the moment. She knew he was trying to intimidate, he was a pro at it.
'So do you love him?' he asked again. He moved his finger to her earlobe, thumbing it softly.
Her mouth went dry; she was a hopeless case when it comes to Armaan. She closed her eyes and tried steadying her breaths. She opened to see him gazing intently at her with his nose touching hers.
'Yes, I do!' she replied, trying to break the trance.
'No you don't!' he retorted back fiercely.
She frowned and moved herself from him. 'What make you think like that? And that is none of your concern whether I love him or not!'
He yanked her back with the elbow, 'So you mean are over me?' he frowned.
'Are you serious?' she said biting off the words. 'I thought you were the one who said that there was nothing serious going on between us.'
He clenched his jaw not knowing what to reply.
'You ARE a close chapter Armaan.' She said bitterly and coldly at him.
~~~Flashback ends~~~
She stood up realizing that digging on the past memories was just worsening her state of mind, Armaan was definitely not going to weak her anymore. Her wedding was due tomorrow and all that should be occupying her mind at the moment was the beautiful day awaiting her 'The New Beginning.
She walked to her bed, deciding to plough in a deep slumber as there were few hours left for the next morning, she was supposed to have a long and deep sleep, but damn it was impossible now. She nearly slumped into the bed when she felt someone's palms pressing firmly upon her mouth and holding her body tight. Panic grew through her and she tried jostling herself out of those strong arms but it was difficult. She threw her hands upon her mouth trying to wriggle out the fingers pressed on her, but they wouldn't budge, so next she tried making sounds which was also in vain, and then she threw her hands backwards sending wild slaps on the intruder.
'Ssshhh.' He whispered softly into her ears. 'Calm down! Alright'' his face was against her head and Shilpa did not take long to register who was the supposed intruder in her bedroom. ARMAAN. 'Am gonna free yourself only if you don't throw your tantrums at me?' he spoke again in an audible voice with his breath touching her ears. Seeing her body going still under him he carefully and slowly removed his hands from her mouth and waited for her reactions while they faced each other!
She frantically looked around the bedroom wildly and looked at him again. 'From where did you get in?' she asked as she started getting paranoid.
'The door, it was unlocked'
'What!!! What if someone saw you here?? Are you crazy?'
'Relax nobody saw me! There are all so busy with preps going on' he sighed.
'You better go from here then before anyone catches you.' She started dragging him to the door when he pulled himself back.
'NO, am not going'I need to talk to you.' He said firmly.
'I don't want to have any talk, GO AWAY!'
'You are not getting married tomorrow.' He said, his eyes totally fixed on hers and indicating how staid he was.
She let out a small scornful laugh. 'Are you requesting or are you ordering me?'
'Whatever you would want to interpret it as!'
'Do you have any idea of what you are actually rambling out? Am getting married tomorrow, do you hear me!'
'I heard, but am saying again, you are not getting married.'
He was completely insane, he was commanding on her again and she was stunned at his audacity. 'And what makes you think that am going to listen to any crap you throw at me Armaan.' Her voice started going from a whisper to nearly high pitched tone.
He knew this was going to be difficult but he will not back down now, she will have to listen. He closed the distance between them and bore his eyes on hers. 'The crappy thing happening is this wedding.'
'My marriage is not a crappy stuff going on.' She burst at him. He was making her hackles rise, and she wanted to vent her spleen at him right away. He had absolutely no business telling her if she has to get married or not. Plus, with what right had he come over and telling her that?
'C'mon you don't love that guy and you don't want this wedding as well.'
'Who told you am not interested in it, am very much happy and excited about it, I Just CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW.' She added with a bit of cynicism. Lies lies, but hell she wasn't going to him the truth either.
He knew she was upset with him but hence said a soft voice 'I Know you are upset with me'whatever I have done isn't forgivable''' but she cut him off'
'Is that how you classify it 'Am Upset'? Armaan, I want to skin you Alive.' She could sense herself steaming up, all these months she had been bottling her feelings down herself and seeing him right in front of him, she couldn't stop herself.
He could see red through her; he wouldn't be surprised seeing her projecting him down the wall because this lady wasn't the calm and serene girl he once had known. Cold blood murder was sparkling through her eyes and her body was heating up. 'Alright, I have acted like a complete jerk with you, there is no excuse about it, all that happened between us at that time were just a one-living moment for me, Am sorry, am terribly sorry. I betrayed your feelings and took you for granted and I know I have no right saying this but I don't want you to get married, please.'
She listened to him with a plea and melancholy under toning his words. This guy confused her to wits. She was wounded with whatever he had done to her and his words right now tears sting her eyes. 'I don't understand why you are telling this to me right now.' She had to suppress her emotions; she could sense herself choking on her own words.
'Shilpa...' He holder her shoulder and brought her body near him. 'Am not your perfect guy, but you don't love that guy also.'
'Am again asking why? You don't even have feelings for me, why is it bothering you so much' She pierced her gaze into her; she wanted to find the answer to it.
'I Have, I do have'I've always had feelings for you. Shilpa'I Love you.' He couldn't decipher the peaceful feeling he had right now by telling her that. He had been trying to figure out for days why he was agonizing about the fact she was going to get married and somehow realized her importance of her in her life.
'Another lie?' Those words made her stomach flutter restlessly. He said he Love her, could this be possibly true but then he used to say he loved her before also when all of it were complete lies.
'No this isn't a lie, it's a plain truth, I really do love you.' This was true; he would anything to prove her how much he was craving for her if she could just give him a chance.
'And you actually came to realize it today of course, when am a just a day to get wedded with someone else, now it's not even a day, just hours left. C'mon Armaan, quit playing with me, we are done anyway.' She shrugged his hands off her shoulders but he brought her back fiercely.
'This looks insane, I agree but I don't want you to belong to someone else. This is completely out of me. What do you want me to do to prove it to you?'
'Right now I want you to get away from here or am gonna shout till someone doesn't hear me and just imagine the consequences of all of them finding you in my room at this hour.'
'You really don't believe me?'
'No, I don't.' She spat out.
'Go ahead then. Shout.'
She stood numb because she knew she wouldn't be able to do that and that beast knew that as well. She felt defenseless.
He smiled seeing her disorientated. He then cupped her face ever so gently and smooths her thumbs down her cheeks, while she closed her eyes. 'You look beautiful' he was admiring her features and she was the ever growing beauty for him. His eyes darted to her lips and he felt like capturing those lush lips with his, he then breathed down her petals like lips causing some stirring feelings inside of them. 'I know you don't want this wedding, just tell me once, I will take you away.'
Her eyes snapped open and stared at him in bewilderment. 'WHAT?'
'Let's run away.' He said.
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