SR FF DMG3 Phir Bhi Saath Hai Hum Part 85 Page 133- Page 42

Part 68

She had been holding herself back for so many weeks. She needed to know the answer to that one question which bothered her for the last 10 years. She kept reasoning but none were really affirmed by her heart except one; Sid's hurt his pain his anger should not aggravate.

She felt helpless not knowing the answer though somewhere she knew what could be the answer but desperately hoped that he would not say so.

As he walked away her heart kept screamed 'Now or Never He is leaving Stop Him ''''...... 'Siddhant!!!'

Every time she took his name it had evoked a different emotion but that was another phase of his life. 'Siddhant!!!' hearing that he flinched. The work was done he had already taken her leave. If he would have left earlier this would not have happened. He stopped in his tracks turning slightly towards her.

'Kaise ho?

It was a question not asked out of courtesy. The concern and anxiety in her voice could not missed He wondered what Riddhima wanted to know with this question. However, it seemed in best interests to take it at face value and answer

'Theek hoon' said Sid slowly turning to face Riddhima

Riddhima intently looked at Sid trying to decipher the emotion behind the fake answer. He was anything but fine. He still could not lie even If he wanted to save his skin. In fact he was too honest to lie to save his skin. The quality she liked the most ' His Honesty. Then why was he lying today? Maybe because he did not want to make her feel guilty. He never made her feel guilty That is why even when he walked away from the person whom he loved the most he had confirmed that he would always be fine because she was fine. She should pursue her happiness instead of worrying for his wellbeing. It pained her to him such then and now.

Sid wanted this conversation with Riddhima. That was the reason he wanted to meet her that evening but later had changed the agenda. He felt somewhere he would be intruding in her private life even though his intentions were just to check all was fine with her. Her wellbeing still mattered to him. How much ever he denied, it did?

Fate had given him the chance but he did not know whether to take it or leave without further probing. However, common courtesy insisted that he also check with her for her wellbeing Yes, he could do that after all he was just following normal courtesy norms. Assured that he was not be intruding her life he questioned her

'Aur aap?'

'Aap' Hearing that word Riddhima flinched Those 10 years had taken them so far away that he did not call her by her name still. It was he who had once insisted that they refer to each other as 'tum' cause they were friends. Maybe now they weren't even friends. 'Aap' was correct. Disappointed with herself for having brought them to this stage of life, she just nodded. Tears pricked the corners of her eyes as she stood there with her head bent down in defeat.

It pained Sid to see her so dejected. So much that his resolve came crashing down. Something bothered her and he had to know what. 'Ghar pe sab kaise hai?'

Her heart jumped at the hope that she did matter to him. There was still a ray of hope.

'I mean ''..Dr Shashank kaise hai woh '''. Unhe dekha nahi hospital main itne dino mein'

'Papa heart attack ke baad '''.'

'Heart attack kab '''.. woh theek toh hai na ''' ? He always had high regards for Dr. Shashank and hearing him having a heart attack alarmed Sid greatly

'Woh theek hai .......... bahoot saalo pehle unhe heart attack aya tha ....... par uske baad unhone hospital aana kum kar diya ........... ab toh woh practice bhi nahi karte sirf administrative decision mein involve hote hai ...........isliye aur bhi kum aane lage hai hospital ....

'Hmmm aur Mumma ....... I mean .......'

'Mumma theek hai .......'

'Aur ........... arrr....maan'

Pain pierced her heart thinking of the enormous pain that Sid was going through. The man whom he considered his brother whom he trusted had back stabbed him and today he was standing in front of her trying to understand whether he was fine 'Kis mitti ke banne ho tum Siddhant ....... aaj bhi tum uski chinta kar rahe ho''''..Kya ho tum Sid'

'Usse bhi nahi dekha hai ......... Kaise hai woh ........' finally mustering the courage to ask what had bothered him for so long........... 'kya sab theek hai .........' There were too many reasons which scared him that all was not fine He so desparately wanted an affirmation that all was fine. Riddhima had gone through a lot of pain and the thought of more pain having come her way agonized him.

So much had changed between them yet many things remained the same. It was never difficult for Riddhima to read Sid. She was never oblivious of the unspoken thoughts and feelings which surged through him even if he tried to mask them.

Sid desperately tried to keep his voice calm but Riddhima still caught the anxiety in his voice.

It scared her to think of the pain that he may go through if his fears were to come true

'armaan tour pe hai isliye aur kuch nahi ''''.'

'Aur baaki sab'

'Sab theek hai' She tried hard to smile and hide the tears which were again pricking the corners of her eyes.

He was scared that his worst fears were going to come true He could not muster the courage to see her hurting He kept scanning the room while Riddhima lied about her life with armaan while trying to hide her pain and tears behind her fake smile

Sid felt relieved hearing about Riddhima's peaceful life That's what he always wanted, If not them, at least she was happy

He finally had answers to his questions 'Bahoot der hogayi hai ''..aapko ghar jaana hoga na ''.. Main chalta hoon '..bye'

'Siddhant tumne apne baare mein kuch nahi bataya ''''kaise ho tum'

'Bataya toh sahi ''.. Theek hoon'

'Kya tum khush ho?'

A small laugh escaped while thinking about the irony of his life. What was he going to say to her? Yes he always tried to be happy but life always played it's cruel games. This time round also it was the same story ''. Shilpa ''.. There was no point thinking of that now. It never mattered Riddhima and so why now. He should be content that she is happy.

'Kya aap khush hai?'

Riddhima once again nodded her head trying to hide the tragedy of her life in a bright smile

She was happy was enough for him If he was to tell her about their lives she would only feel guilt and it would upset her to no ends. There was no point in all this. It best left as it is

'Main bhi' ....... Also trying to smile his brightest smile ..... 'Chalta hoon''.bye'

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