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------------------------- Tum Kaisi Mohabbat Karte Ho?
They saw once wounded, you will never heal, maybe the pain will go away but that scar 'would never, reminding you everyday of those moments. The moments that you lament over wishing they never happened! But the reality is'they did! And all you can do now is to starting living your life over again, but really can you ever start living again? Would those moments ever leave your shadow? Can you just wake up from the nightmare and say its gone now? Do humans ever truly forget even though we say so?
Nupur Bhushan once wounded realized all this just as soon as she step forth her new life'with her true love, mayank. The realization that she had gone through such a torture, would always find a way to overshadow everything.
Was her pain invisible to mayank? She just had to know, it all seemed as if nothing had happened and now they could just go back to where they left off, but that's not true. She could not go back' no matter how much she wanted too..
"Mayank" she managed to utter between her small bites of food, which truly seemed to have lost its taste. Everything seemed so bland, so lifeless as if she was just a lifeless body sitting here, "hmm'?" mayank hummed walking over, and taking a seat he placed his hand on her hand and smiled.
"woh'uhmm" she started out but all that confidence she had moments go, slipped right through with that one look of mayanks. How was she going to ever talk to him? Would he understand her?
Mayank looked up and smiled, "look when you're ready we will talk" he said squeezing her hand comfortingly. She had enough, it had been two weeks and everyone was acting like nothing had happened to her. Why couldn't they understand? Or was she just misunderstanding their words?
"BASS" she yelled furiously tossing everything off the table and venting out her anger, Mayank looked up shocked but it seemed as if he was more so pretending to be 'then was actually.
"Par..Nupur" he started out only to be stopped by nupur, "Nahi '.Nahi Nahi Nahi'..mar gayi hai tumhari nupur'.woh bas ab ek zinda si lash hai joh sirf jeene ke naam se jee rahi hai!....Mayank mein toot chuki hoon'.mere mein ab himmat nahi hai'mein nahi keh sakti mein theek hoon jab andar se mein ghoot rahi hoon. Main nahi wohi chulbhuli se nupur ban sakti'.mein kahbi nahi tumhari nupur ban sakti...tum kyun nahi smajhte....ab main tumhara liak nahi hoon''Tumhe toh mujhe ussi din'mar dena chahiye tha jisse tumhe pata chala main nupur hoon'.." she heaved loudly into the silent room as her voice echoed off and on the walls''while mayank stood there 'astonished by her words! But was he really? Wasn't that the truth, they were all running away from?
"dehko nupur '" mayank walked forward to place his hands on her shoulder but she shrugged him, " haath na lagana muhje..smajhe tum. Mayank tum kyun itne acche banne ki koshish kar rahe ho? Kyun nahi mujhe phenk dete apni zindagi se? kyun nahi kehte chali jao?...Kyun muhje har pal ehsaas delate ho ke main tumhari nupur nahi rahi hoon. Mein tumhare samne haath johrti hoon'.Mujhe nikal do apni zindagi se. Mein sirf aur sirf ek kalank hoon'joh tumhe zindagi bar yeh yaad delata rahe ga'ke tumhari Patni'teen salon tak kisi aur mardard ke saath reh rahi thi'." Silence filled the room..as those words left nupurs mouth'mayank back away slowly coming upon the realization of her words. Nupur collapsed to the ground, letting her tears'fall in hopes of letting all the pain swift away in the moment. But she knew as long as the scars were there, the pain would be alongside to them.
Mar Jawan, Mar Jaawan
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan
Ghele Ghele Sapnon ka Jaise khat hai,
Hai Gheli Gheli Chahat ki Jaise lat hai.
Mar Jaawan, Mar Jaanwan'
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan'.
She was right, her words were right but there was something missing'she forgot the most important thing in world. His love for'why didn't she understand he loved her? She meant everything to him and he was not selfish to throw away such a precious gift because of something that was completely out her hands. Did she not trust him? Was he not worthy of her? Does she really think like that? Why was she not realizing'.she was the beat within his heart! And he could never let go of her, "Nupur" he turned around furiously to see the room empty. Everything was still scattered everywhere just like there relationship'.would they ever go back to what they were? Could she ever realize what she meant to him? They say sometimes its better to leave something broken then fixing it'because it only seems to bring pain. But mayank knew he was ready to go any pain just to see nupur smile again. And he would do that'he would bring the smile back to her face.
The rain slithered everywhere'.and among those tiny droplets of wonders, sat nupur reminiscing over her life and what it had come to. She had never imagined in her wildest dreams of such 'but they say life is a like a wrapped present'never knowing what your going to get. You open it either it brings smiles or sometimes'it brings nothing but pain.
How she wished the rain could wash away the pain of her life'like it washed away the dirt. But sometimes'even rain was helpless those tough stains never budge just like her pain from within refusing to ever leave her alone.
Sochein Dil Aisa kah ho, Tujhko Ek Nazar Meri Talash Ho
Jaise khawb Hain Ankhon Mein Base Meri, Waise Needon Pe Silwatein Parien Teri
Ghile Ghile Armano ki Na Had Hai, Hai Ghile Ghile Khwaish Ki Toh Be Had
Mar Jaawan'Mar Jaawan'
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan,
She didn't even have to look up to feel his presence, and when his hand went on her shoulder, all shivers ran through her body indicating her of his presence., " Nupur" his voice was furious yet settle and calming. She didn't have the courage to look up, into those eyes .
But she had to do this for herself and for Mayank. He deserved, much better, " mayank please mujhe akela chor do'tumhara aaj aur kal 'mere begair hi accha hai" she stated coldly not meeting his gaze.
"toh tum chahti ho ke mein tume apni zindagi se nikal doon?" Nupur nodded not looking about, "accha toh PHIRR NIKAL JAO'.Tum toh kuch bhi nahi ho mere liye ab haina? Then get out of my life'But before you do..." Pulling her towards himself, tell me what should I do with this heart'who knows nothing but this so called "Nupur"'who beats only for this name'who lives to see her everyday.. and this Mayank 'Who died when Nupur left him! TELL WHAT SHOULD I DO? Should I find someone else to love?" Nupurs hand instantly grabbed his hands and looked up'
"Mera aaj aur ane wala kal tumhara saath jura hai. Nupur tum kyun nahi smajh pa rahi ke, mein tumse pyar karta hoon, karta tha, aur karta rahoon '..aur koi dhruv is ehsaas ko kahbi bhi nahi badal sakta. Jab mere jeene ki wajah hi tum ho toh phir'tum kyun mujhe se door jana chahti ho?...Kyun mere pyar se mooh mor rahi ho? Kyun 'hamare kal ko '.ane se phele hi jala rahi ho?" Nupur pulled herself away as her tears poured away in the rain'." Mayank'.sach nahi badal sakta '.mein woh nupur nahi rahi jisse tum pyar karte the'..mein bass ek daag banke reh gayi hoon. aur Jaise'kapron pe aye daag ko mitaya jata hai , waise hi zindagi mein se usse nikal diya jata hai!" she screamed wildly letting out all the angst from within.
"Par Mere pyar kahbi bhi daag nahi hosakta." mayank said desperately trying to make her understand.
" ..Mayank'kyun kar rahe ho yeh? Tum ''" holding the bench, she pushed away her wet hair and looked up to meet his love filled eyes'." Kyun ke main tumse mobahhat karta hoon sacchi mohabbat..." he sighed'with a tearful smile.
"Tum Kaisi Mohabbat karte ho" she couldn't believe her eyes'.here she was filth and he was still ready to accept her. Did he really love her that much? Could anyone love someone that much? Was love enough to survive In this world?
" Itni ke agar poori duniya bhi tumhara upar ungli uthaye toh, main samne ake gara hojaunga. Itni ke tumhare har dard ko '.khushi mein badal na chahta hoon.. Itna ke tumhari ek ansoon se muhjhe duniya bar ka dard mehsoos hota hai.! Nupur I love you" pulling her towards himself, he grasped her into a tight hug.
Both stood their in each others hold 'living the moment and the warmth it brought to them. Never let the one you love go because you never know'they might just leave.
They saw once wounded, you will never heal, maybe the pain will go away but that scar 'would never, reminding you everyday of those moments. The moments that you lament over wishing they never happened! But the reality is'they did! And all you can do now is to starting living your life over again, but really can you ever start living again? Would those moments ever leave your shadow? Can you just wake up from the nightmare and say its gone now? Do humans ever truly forget even though we say so?
Nupur Bhushan once wounded realized all this just as soon as she step forth her new life'with her true love, mayank. The realization that she had gone through such a torture, would always find a way to overshadow everything.
Was her pain invisible to mayank? She just had to know, it all seemed as if nothing had happened and now they could just go back to where they left off, but that's not true. She could not go back' no matter how much she wanted too..
"Mayank" she managed to utter between her small bites of food, which truly seemed to have lost its taste. Everything seemed so bland, so lifeless as if she was just a lifeless body sitting here, "hmm'?" mayank hummed walking over, and taking a seat he placed his hand on her hand and smiled.
"woh'uhmm" she started out but all that confidence she had moments go, slipped right through with that one look of mayanks. How was she going to ever talk to him? Would he understand her?
Mayank looked up and smiled, "look when you're ready we will talk" he said squeezing her hand comfortingly. She had enough, it had been two weeks and everyone was acting like nothing had happened to her. Why couldn't they understand? Or was she just misunderstanding their words?
"BASS" she yelled furiously tossing everything off the table and venting out her anger, Mayank looked up shocked but it seemed as if he was more so pretending to be 'then was actually.
"Par..Nupur" he started out only to be stopped by nupur, "Nahi '.Nahi Nahi Nahi'..mar gayi hai tumhari nupur'.woh bas ab ek zinda si lash hai joh sirf jeene ke naam se jee rahi hai!....Mayank mein toot chuki hoon'.mere mein ab himmat nahi hai'mein nahi keh sakti mein theek hoon jab andar se mein ghoot rahi hoon. Main nahi wohi chulbhuli se nupur ban sakti'.mein kahbi nahi tumhari nupur ban sakti...tum kyun nahi smajhte....ab main tumhara liak nahi hoon''Tumhe toh mujhe ussi din'mar dena chahiye tha jisse tumhe pata chala main nupur hoon'.." she heaved loudly into the silent room as her voice echoed off and on the walls''while mayank stood there 'astonished by her words! But was he really? Wasn't that the truth, they were all running away from?
"dehko nupur '" mayank walked forward to place his hands on her shoulder but she shrugged him, " haath na lagana muhje..smajhe tum. Mayank tum kyun itne acche banne ki koshish kar rahe ho? Kyun nahi mujhe phenk dete apni zindagi se? kyun nahi kehte chali jao?...Kyun muhje har pal ehsaas delate ho ke main tumhari nupur nahi rahi hoon. Mein tumhare samne haath johrti hoon'.Mujhe nikal do apni zindagi se. Mein sirf aur sirf ek kalank hoon'joh tumhe zindagi bar yeh yaad delata rahe ga'ke tumhari Patni'teen salon tak kisi aur mardard ke saath reh rahi thi'." Silence filled the room..as those words left nupurs mouth'mayank back away slowly coming upon the realization of her words. Nupur collapsed to the ground, letting her tears'fall in hopes of letting all the pain swift away in the moment. But she knew as long as the scars were there, the pain would be alongside to them.
Mar Jawan, Mar Jaawan
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan
Ghele Ghele Sapnon ka Jaise khat hai,
Hai Gheli Gheli Chahat ki Jaise lat hai.
Mar Jaawan, Mar Jaanwan'
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan'.
She was right, her words were right but there was something missing'she forgot the most important thing in world. His love for'why didn't she understand he loved her? She meant everything to him and he was not selfish to throw away such a precious gift because of something that was completely out her hands. Did she not trust him? Was he not worthy of her? Does she really think like that? Why was she not realizing'.she was the beat within his heart! And he could never let go of her, "Nupur" he turned around furiously to see the room empty. Everything was still scattered everywhere just like there relationship'.would they ever go back to what they were? Could she ever realize what she meant to him? They say sometimes its better to leave something broken then fixing it'because it only seems to bring pain. But mayank knew he was ready to go any pain just to see nupur smile again. And he would do that'he would bring the smile back to her face.
The rain slithered everywhere'.and among those tiny droplets of wonders, sat nupur reminiscing over her life and what it had come to. She had never imagined in her wildest dreams of such 'but they say life is a like a wrapped present'never knowing what your going to get. You open it either it brings smiles or sometimes'it brings nothing but pain.
How she wished the rain could wash away the pain of her life'like it washed away the dirt. But sometimes'even rain was helpless those tough stains never budge just like her pain from within refusing to ever leave her alone.
Sochein Dil Aisa kah ho, Tujhko Ek Nazar Meri Talash Ho
Jaise khawb Hain Ankhon Mein Base Meri, Waise Needon Pe Silwatein Parien Teri
Ghile Ghile Armano ki Na Had Hai, Hai Ghile Ghile Khwaish Ki Toh Be Had
Mar Jaawan'Mar Jaawan'
Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan, Tere Ishq Pe Mar Jaawan,
She didn't even have to look up to feel his presence, and when his hand went on her shoulder, all shivers ran through her body indicating her of his presence., " Nupur" his voice was furious yet settle and calming. She didn't have the courage to look up, into those eyes .
But she had to do this for herself and for Mayank. He deserved, much better, " mayank please mujhe akela chor do'tumhara aaj aur kal 'mere begair hi accha hai" she stated coldly not meeting his gaze.
"toh tum chahti ho ke mein tume apni zindagi se nikal doon?" Nupur nodded not looking about, "accha toh PHIRR NIKAL JAO'.Tum toh kuch bhi nahi ho mere liye ab haina? Then get out of my life'But before you do..." Pulling her towards himself, tell me what should I do with this heart'who knows nothing but this so called "Nupur"'who beats only for this name'who lives to see her everyday.. and this Mayank 'Who died when Nupur left him! TELL WHAT SHOULD I DO? Should I find someone else to love?" Nupurs hand instantly grabbed his hands and looked up'
"Mera aaj aur ane wala kal tumhara saath jura hai. Nupur tum kyun nahi smajh pa rahi ke, mein tumse pyar karta hoon, karta tha, aur karta rahoon '..aur koi dhruv is ehsaas ko kahbi bhi nahi badal sakta. Jab mere jeene ki wajah hi tum ho toh phir'tum kyun mujhe se door jana chahti ho?...Kyun mere pyar se mooh mor rahi ho? Kyun 'hamare kal ko '.ane se phele hi jala rahi ho?" Nupur pulled herself away as her tears poured away in the rain'." Mayank'.sach nahi badal sakta '.mein woh nupur nahi rahi jisse tum pyar karte the'..mein bass ek daag banke reh gayi hoon. aur Jaise'kapron pe aye daag ko mitaya jata hai , waise hi zindagi mein se usse nikal diya jata hai!" she screamed wildly letting out all the angst from within.
"Par Mere pyar kahbi bhi daag nahi hosakta." mayank said desperately trying to make her understand.
" ..Mayank'kyun kar rahe ho yeh? Tum ''" holding the bench, she pushed away her wet hair and looked up to meet his love filled eyes'." Kyun ke main tumse mobahhat karta hoon sacchi mohabbat..." he sighed'with a tearful smile.
"Tum Kaisi Mohabbat karte ho" she couldn't believe her eyes'.here she was filth and he was still ready to accept her. Did he really love her that much? Could anyone love someone that much? Was love enough to survive In this world?
" Itni ke agar poori duniya bhi tumhara upar ungli uthaye toh, main samne ake gara hojaunga. Itni ke tumhare har dard ko '.khushi mein badal na chahta hoon.. Itna ke tumhari ek ansoon se muhjhe duniya bar ka dard mehsoos hota hai.! Nupur I love you" pulling her towards himself, he grasped her into a tight hug.
Both stood their in each others hold 'living the moment and the warmth it brought to them. Never let the one you love go because you never know'they might just leave.
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How long has it been man? I really don't know but sacchi guys i wrote this OS after so long that now i think i lost my writing touch!š
Anyway joh bhi hai...you all have to read it.
This OS is dedicated to Rabi...since i had written it for her birthday but because it was too sad..that i had . decided not to post it on such a happy day!
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