Hi Aisha,
But that's exactly it. It was a supposed betrayal. Now here is the issue of whether to save Naku from Anna. Anna, the type who kills and has no qualms of fighting unfairly. Even Dutta did not kill Sups for her betrayal, but he's willing to even for a few minutes entertain the idea of not saving her?
I made the point yesterday about the 10 years of hurt and yes, it is absolutely true. But, with Naku, and all that she has done that is right and good, it should have been an easy decision to go after her. Whether he love her or not does not matter. She was kidnapped because she was Dutta's wife, and I wish he had walked away from Kala after listening to her bakhwas.
I totally was ok with the doubts in his mind when Kala made her presentation. God, I want something very, very bad to happen to her, but that's for a different conversation. 😡
But at some point, it got through...leaving Naku to fend for herself. He will undoubtedly go after her, but just the very delay, and Babi, Kishore witnessing it, is going to change things. I hope Naku does not get hurt, or maybe I do...to show Dutta what his doubts caused someone that was innocent.
But the thing is we don't know WHAT he's thinking. And even if he IS thinking "Maybe I won't save her" that's that part of him that has been battered and hurt so much that he closed himself of for ten years. It's a human reaction to want to protect himself. He has been broken so many times that he may be thiking "To hell with it. I don't want to do this anymore." That's the part of him that wants to run from everyone and life, wherever he wants, however far he wants. And yes, Naku's Love is the Best thing for him and somewhere deep down he knows that but sometimes we run from the things that ARE the Best things for us because to take that blind leap of faith is so daunting and so terrifying that it's just easier to live in denial and ignore it.
I mean Dutta CAN live without Naku. He'll never be happy, he will live a colourless life and he will never be complete but he's done that for the last ten years. He's scared to put his heart and life into Naku's hands because even though he can see how much she loves him, even though he has no doubt about the depth of her love for him, there is still "evidence" against her saying she's a betrayer. He's been betrayed twice already. Three times in his mind because he includes Naku in that. For him to fully love Naku and give in to that Dream of Love he has to put his trust in a Betrayer. He himself said he can't forgive ghunegaroh. He can't take it anymore. He's exhausted and he's just done. This is a huge deal for him.
This is asking that he do again what his experience tells him is a big mistake!
He's having a slight breakdown I think.
Aisha xxx
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