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uhhh again mystery. he held my hand the whole time and when we entered and the log led me to the table that was far from my parents. I looked at him with a question in my eyes and he said. tonight is our evening. that was all I needed at that moment. tonight is our evening. whatever that meant. at that moment I decided that this night would be mine alone and that was probably the biggest wish in my life so far. tonight I have to feel his lips and his body. that's what I promised myself. the evening was beautiful with lots of tears, music, dance and what was most important to me was that I was with the man I loved with all my heart. I couldn't wait for it all to end because I saw in him the desire to be alone.

my parents were happy and they danced all night, but no one bothered me and Marko. we were separated and we held hands all night I was happy. and when it was all over I got into Marko's jeep and he took us to his house. I could hardly refrain from throwing myself at him, but he was an experienced man and everything he did he did with enjoyment. his hanging bed was the most beautiful thing I've ever felt. I was an incredibly fulfilled woman. in the morning I woke up before Marko and managed to sneak out of the house. I took his jeep and I went to the restaurant to leave the jeep and I called a taxi and I drove not to my parents but to my apartment. I paid a very big bill for the taxi, but it was worth it. I laid down in bed and dressed as I was, I knelt next to the bed and I thanked God for the night I spent with Marko.

Thank you, God, for this night, you fulfilled my dream to be with Mark once more. Thank you.

And then I lay down to sleep. I wasn't even aware of how long I slept, but my phone woke me up. Marko called. I saw 100 calls but when I answered I heard him yelling at me how could I leave without saying goodbye to him first.

And what does it mean that I left. I told him.

Marko, thank you for an unforgettable night but that's all from us. Thank you because I am a fulfilled woman again. And now it's time for you and me to go our separate ways. Marko, don't be angry with me, this simply had to happen. I will always love you and you will always be in my heart but I can't imagine the two of us together.

Marko, while I was talking he wanted to join in the conversation but I didn't let him.

Marko, understand me. What happened tonight is the most beautiful thing in my life and thank you for that but that's it. I don't want to be hurt again.

I thought... he started to say something but I interrupted him. Marko, please don't call me again, let this beautiful memory of us remain. I'm telling you again. I loved you, I love you, and I will always love you, but there's something I can't forgive myself or you for, and that's why we can't be together. I know you might have wanted more, but that's how it is. Please, Draga, let's talk. Please don't reject us again. Please, Draga, let's think about it. No, Marko, I've decided that way and I think you feel that way too. I don't feel that way. I think we should try again. No, Marko, we can't try because there's no point. Believe me, when I see you, wounds open that I'm now aware will never heal. Goodbye Marko. A

And I hung up the phone. I didn't cry. I was happy because I got something that was only mine. A night spent with Marko. That was the fulfillment of me as a woman and the fulfillment of my dreams. I went to take a shower with a smile on my face. I would like this feeling to last my whole life. and Marko adhered to my agreement. He didn't call me anymore and I didn't call him either. And two months have passed since that day. I started to feel bad again. Vomiting, anxiety, but this one full of unconsciousness. I said to myself well, let's try to resist all this now without drugs. but my sudden weight loss was not easy to hide. everyone was worried and when my mom came to visit me during that period, she was very worried about me. she said that she is taking me to the doctor tomorrow so they can take my blood and see what's wrong with me.

I was very sick that night. I was vomiting and I was weak. They took me to the hospital because I couldn't walk. Mom called dad to come because she was very scared. I couldn't eat. I was weak. When my father left, he met Marko and told him to hurry to my place because I wasn't feeling well again. So Marko was in the hospital because he was worried about me too. I didn't see him but later everyone told me. He was walking around the hospital like a wounded animal, as they say. and he was just clutching his head. What's wrong with me again? I waited for all the tests to be done and when all the tests they could do were finished, the doctor came into the room where I was alone and said. This time you scared me the most so far and you're basically fine.

How is it that I'm fine? Well, you're fine and that little creature you're carrying is fine too. What a little creature, what's he saying. I kept my mouth open. You're pregnant, Draga. I, I'm pregnant, how is that possible? I mean, I only spent one night with Marko. Aww, what am I going to do now.

what should I do now? how should I tell Mark. I asked the doctor to send my parents home and to tell them that I am not accepting visitors now. that I need to rest and that he will be able to visit me in a few days. during that time, Marko, who was listening to this, forced my doctor to let him see me. the doctor told him that I just need rest and that I am now in a state of shock. in a few days when I recover a little I will be able to receive visits. the parents are too, but the trust in the doctor and they left. they came every day in the following days just to bring me a vest and something to eat

I was sorry that I didn't tell them the truth, but I thought that first Marko should know what was happening and then they. I was gathering strength to meet the brand. After three days I was released because I really felt better. I went by car to Markova's house. I didn't tell anyone where I was and I went to the terrace - I sat down in the armchairs and knew that I would be waiting for him for a long time because I came early. He came home late from work and when he saw me he slowly approached.

What are you doing here? he asked

We need to talk I said

. As you asked I'm fine now I was a little sick as you know but now I'm great. I still have nausea but that will pass.

Marko walked past me and entered the house. Do you want something to drink. A glass of water. Please. I've been waiting for you for a long time and I forgot to bring water.

Okay, come on tell me what happened-

Marko, what you said on the phone that you wanted a second chance with me, did you mean it?.

I don't understand why you're asking me that now? I need to know.

Tell me if you meant it. Yes, of course I meant it.

Do you think I'm so bad that I want to play with you. with the person I love more than myself.

Do you think I would play with you. What do you think I am. Uh I got annoyed again.