I sit down, looking at the sky. It is a weird feeling....
It is certainly not something that hasn't happened before.
His shows have come to an end. I know he is going to be back sometime soon. I know it was a fictional show, the story had gone haywire, it's probably for the best that it is coming to an end. They had nothing to show.
I know, I know, I know all of it.
Still why can't I help but feel the way I am feeling?
What is different this time? Why does it seem to be hurting more?
I try to gather myself, deny the feelings but clearly, fail.
A broke voice inside me says -
"You know what's different this time. Yes, he'll be back and she'll be back but it's never going to be the same again because together, they won't.
You have always been about him. It was always Angad or Anshuman or Ishan for you. But for the first time as much as it was Dev equally was ViDev.
Those delirious giggles of hers you thought were a bit exaggerated initially, complimented his silent laughter perfectly.
Those never ending stories of hers always had his mindful ears to listen to them.
Those anxious movements of hers always had his steady and calm gaze over them saying 'Darna mat Vidhi, Main kuch galat nahi hone dunga.'
When her chaotic energy met his peaceful maturity, you felt comfort, you felt at home.
When they cared for each other, you felt the warm affection in your heart.
And when they loved each other, butterflies fluttered in your stomach.
So, tell me now, still just a fictional couple?
Something that made you laugh when they laughed and cry when they cried, moving on from that shouldn't be this difficult?
Something that made people from all over the world bond, was just another show of his?
Tell me, what was ViDev? Just another ITV couple?
They come and go, no need to be so emotional about it?"
" No, No, They weren't.", I feel my eyes getting moist but a smile appear as I say -
"They were the feelings of all these people, all these people who smiled with them, cried with them, loved and lived with them.... and maybe add a bit more to that... ViDev was pure, raw emotion."
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