Its my real life story.........
love is precious.....I hv lost once in my life...it hd almost killed me....but....i hvnt stop living...still i am a craze of keeanu reeves....dream to hv sm 1 like him......i m going on to be sm1 established like others........i was not fall in love....but it was a marriage proposal....just like old films...2 family...agreed secretly...and the girl knowing this... start dreaming........but i was in dream of tht guy...may be its fall in love.... with the guy....but he betrayed....his parents...my parents...me......he married sm1 else...ya it was not his fault...cause...he afraided his mother much.....
.....the hardest part is ...he married sm 1 tht time whom he loved for 5-6 yrs....but the way.... the attitudes he showed to me...was all a drama...?....i hv never talked to him...i hvnt gone in his house...i missed the opportunity...once there was a opportunity....but i tht time hd got fracture on my toes.....
...i was a full tht time....falling in love one sidely....was sooo stupid.....but i hv forgotten him....but i hv learned smthing from my past....and i will love sm1 whom i will marry.....in future...and i wont hide this from him........
....sorry i hv become soooo emotional.....i am feeling good now after writing....
.....tht time i stopped talking stopped eating...for 3 months i talked to no one...and i stopped eating also....only my mother forcely let me eat....sm.....i usuallu tht time cry loudly...by going inside the bathroom and open the water tap...and start cry......All these moments were sooo...hard....i shouldnt say i hv done more things...so i better understand while sm get hurted how tht person feel loosing love.....no one supported me...at first....my mother told tht we hdnt said anything to u...how u start this thinking....but my mother felt bad..saying she actually thought...tht its a light effect...if she said tht i will be ok....when she find worse...she started to support me....she said u hv to show him u hv to stand up...for her i hv stand up.......
........every time when he was gazing at me...looking stuntly,...at me...was.....tht time...so good ....but now i think i was so stupid...i at first say to myself....no its not true he hvnt said ..may be he like sm 1...once when my mother was praising about him...tht he is the good boy...i was saying...how u know...he is studying in university....he may love sm1....but after tht .....i dont know wht happened to me....more days were going i was like addicted...i started too feel bad when i cant see him.....but i hdnt tht time understand wht was tht...and he continously....showing....the same look the look a person show....when....he is in love with sm...1....i was only.....19yr....my dream was going for...2-3 yrs inside...me....and it suddenly shaked me.....when one day his mother came in our house...i felt sm thing strange smthing is wrong...i tried to listen behind the window.....bt i hdnt heard any..thn when she left my mother said tht she came to invite us in her son.s..(his name not maintained...) wedding reception....i got stunt...reception i said when he got married.....my mother said...he married....may be 1 month ago...his mother said...he left home and thy do court marriages and start staying 2 gether....thn his paents decided nothing to do..its better to accept....thm.....it affects me later...tht day i was just lying on bed ...and from the nxt day it was so hard for me to go on.......his marriage not reception it was a marriage too under church.....time was coming near ....1 week was horrible....thn i hdnt said anything to any one not to my parents......i was...tollerating alone....
.....on marriage day...i was..praying....sm thing stop the marriage....so funny hah......
.....my parents went to the church but i hvnt....i was at home.....just walking.....sitting praying...time was near.....at the time when was marriage going to place.....i was still praying i continue praying...my parents after church went to the reception....for 2 hours i was praying...when my parents came....hearing the foot step i stooped praing i go run to hear thm saying....the marriage hvnt take place..it is broken...but it was not true...the marriage happened.....and....i wht to do...still was upset....walking.....and at night i went to the balcony....there tht time for the first time i discovered...tht his windows can be seen from our balcony...i didnt knoe=w b4..it was how i discovered?...one of our village relatives....tht time was with us for a while...she sid...th hvnt decorate the window....i said which window...she said his window....i said.....his window cant be seen frm here....he lives near...but....she said....look its his window...i discovered its his window....well wht could i do...i dont hv a habbit...of attracting sm 1 by peeping sm1 window....u all r laughing....huh....
i stell hv the diary where i used to write the date when i saw him...the date....i sm time saw the dates i count...i laugh and again feel little sad...but i dont feel anytihng about him...tht day of his marriage..at night i prayed sm thing wrong..i prayed give him the punishment he hv given me...if he hv given me...ya may be it becomes true...he still hvnt got any children his marriage is going on for 5 yrs...but i now pray plz is it my curse plz give him a child.......i hope god will listen to me....
will u believe when...he .....saw my father he used to ask at first about me...thn about others...he knew his mother like me...so he could call me sis...if he was in a affair tht time...so why wouldnt i call him...betrayal.....
or my eyes where wrong.....no it cant be.....
NOW after tht within few month ...i was having a tutorial in my teachers house...i notice a boy their trying to show sm interest he didnt talk...but he behaved quite strange...i m sittng beside him on the side row....when sir ask me sm thing i give answer.....and he ask his friend wht qutie loudly...wht sir is asking her....i didnt noticed...cause....i hv hurt b4 i didnt want to do another mistake......i concentrate on my study...and i got 1st class on my 2nd yr honours exa,....i stop noticing him......1 yr later....b4 my honours final....thy started to behave b4 thy means he and his friend...he look at thn laugh and wishper..... i felt awkward.....i didnt know wht to do....thn my friend she told me...why thy r behaving with u strangely hv u noticed smthing thn i believe this time i was not wrong thy were doing smthing my friend hv seen it...we decided either he likes me or he is playing with me...i thn heard frm a source he played b4 wtih a girl at first attracting her and thn when the girl approaches he said....i hv nt show anything i dont like u...wht a freak thy r.....
......i decided i will call his mother but i hvnt got his number...thn i found he like sm 1 sm 1 from his friend circle...onle he afraid her...i thought i will say to her but thinking may be she wont believe and i was not sure tht she is his girl friend.......
so..i in a simple card write...tht i like him..and in a letter i write tht i like him why...i write sm poem coatedone together me and my friend hv fullfilled plan number 1.......
......now plan two...i decided my friend will hand it to him...thn we decided we will hand it over to his friend any friend..thn thought if thy make fun of us...thn decided...i will drop it in sirs place but hought sir wll be angry cause he was the most brilliant and loving student of sir...so....wht to do...thn we decided he thinks he is so special....he.....hv a high prestige concern...so the way he humiliates me and the irl b4...she hvnt take any revenge....but i will...i will humiliate infront of him.....he make him safe frm girl infrnt of other boys....he is good infront of thm...so one day.....whn the class ended i got out first...he was coming behind me...i got freeze...i thought of i wont give...but i thn thought the way he make fun of me....i wont make him fun of others...girl...soooo i turned i call his name...and....i hand over the envelope on his hand...my heart was not there....i thn look bck and hv a fast walk i hvnt look bck...i go and straight go inside my friends house which was at the end of the road...and go inside her room...my friend came....sm moments later she said thy were reading it...and why u were walking so fast u were walking on the middle of the road...a car driver was whistelling...u could met an accident...i said i dont know nothing i hvnt heard any sound i just walk to get out frm tht position....
...now thinking wht will happen on the nxt day.....nxt day thy said nothing everything was calm...but his friend were pushing hi....and no result...so.....nxt plan...
.....plan 3....thy wont say and if he say yes wht will i do my answer is no....and if he say know wht will happen it will be i who will be humilliated i got afraid...i call his girlfriend she was also on the same class....i told her wht he doing e likes me or thy r making fun of me...she said....he is a goo boy u should think at first b4 doing....and say she will ask ......i prayed all night tht he will say no....
.....nxt day...i call her she said his answer is no......and after few days she told me...he played a game...with u he played it b4 with sm 1 else....i said nothing....i thanked her fo rwht she hv done ...and said if i knew u like him i wont do this i want say it to u.....she said no problem.....
.....she still like him....but i hv heard...their a gap came btween their relations......after tht day...he never looked at....me he said to his girl friend...tht...he hvnt thoiught anything about me...the thing the truth she knew its from his another friend she knew...
.......i pardon him..i think he wont do it again.....with any one else ..i hv heard he hv changed........Now i hv passed my M.S.C on physics i hv scored the top marks 1st class 5th.......my life hvnt stopped i m going on.....i wanted to study more i wanted to do my M.PHIL ....thn ....if i hv chance i will study forever...........
......but sm time i cant believe MENS.....thy r still mistery to me...i sm time think......any he will do the same or...he is exceptional.....i m confused ...?
SO WHT U R THINKING ITS A MOVIE STORY....???whm....real.......
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