FF : Till forever falls apart (chap. 7 updated on page 4)

AN : Hey! This will be a fanfiction that takes place after the leap in the show, it will be my take on what I would have liked to seen after the leap. I will be trying to give some character growth and their will be some Nandini background story which is just purely based on my imagination.

Sorry for any grammar mistakes, english is not my first language😳 Happy reading!

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Chapter 1: Right where you left me

“Ram betha,are you ready to meet your little sister?” Virendra asked as he stood outside the hospital room

“Yes, dad but would Shubhum get angry if I meet her first since he is asleep” he said pointing at his little brother fast asleep in the nannies’ arms.

“Maybe for a second, but the moment he sees his little sister he will forget about it” his father said chuckling, a twinkle in his eyes as he thought about his little girl

Ram smiled at his dad, before fixing his shirt nervously he wanted to look like the perfect big brother

Virendra chuckled seeing his antics “Ram, you are already a good brother don’t worry” he said before opening the door revealing an exhausted Nandini who was holding her daughter wrapped in a light pink blanket.

The nervousness disappeared slightly as Ram watched Nandini smiling at him beamingly, he had missed his mom terribly the last days. Nandini was his stepmom for the world, but for him she was his second mom. Ram would never stop thanking the stars for not blessing him with not just one good mother, but two.

“How are you feeling mom?” he asked as he walked towards the bed

“I’m good munchkin, ready to meet your sister?” she asked him

Ram nodded smiling, Nandini gently handled baby Shivina in his arms. Ram smiled as he looked at his sister, who was fast asleep with a small frown on her face. He kissed her cheek gently and held her closer to his heart wanting to protect her from any harm.

“She is beautiful just like you mom” he said but his gaze did not tear away from the little adorable baby in his arms

“Virendra,will you hold her for a minute so I can speak to Ram?”

Ram turned his attention from his little sister to his mom, he looked at her with curiosity wondering what his mom would want to talk about. Virendra grabbed the baby from his arms and left the room to give his wife and eldest son privacy.

“What’s wrong mom?” Ram asked tensely while holding her hand

“Nothing is wrong munchkin” she said kissing his forehead, calming him down instantly with her motherly affection

“Your dad and I was talking about what to name your little sister, there is one name I suggested to your father but he wanted me to ask you first if it was okey. Ram,I wanted to name her Shivina” she said softly

“After my mom” Ram whispered emotionally his lips trembling, flashes of memory of his mom running after him, cooking food for him hit him

“Only if you are okey with it?” Nandini asked nervously biting her bottom lip, worried she had reopened a wound

“I would like that very much” he said slowly smiling before hugging his mom gently

Nandini smiled emotionally, wondering how she got so blessed to have three beautiful and healthy kids. She just prayed that they would be protected from any evil eye.

“I love you munchkin” she said softly

“I love you too mom, forever” Ram said wiping her tears away before wiping his own

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Loss and grief were two things Ram were quite familiar with from a young age. First, he lost his maa the first person he loved, then his dad who was his hero and then his shivi bacha. His little sister, his little princess who he was supposed to protect.

Ram clenches his glass of vodka, closing his eyes as he remembers his baby sister taking her last breath in his arms. His heart aches to listen to her laugh again, to hear her gossip about celebrities and asking him to get ice cream at the most random time. He would buy every ice cream in the world, if he could get her back.

“Ram, you should go home” he hears Adi say

“Home?” Ram answered bitterly before letting out a dark chuckle

“Come on buddy, lets get you home” Adi said taking the glass from Ram

“There is no home anymore Adi, without dad and shivi. It’s just a house, an empty house whose walls will always call out their names. Three people in the house who will always seek out the two remaining members of their family who both brutally and cowardly was taken by my ex- in laws.”

“Ram, Shivi dying is not on you” Adi says sternly

Ram shook his head, getting teary eyed. Adi sighed sadly seeing the pain and grief in his eyes, his dear friend who once always had a smile on his face. He could not recognize the man in front of him, it was all the warmth and love had been sucked out of him. There were only broken pieces remaining of the man he once knew.

“I was her big brother Adi; I was supposed to be the one who dies first. I was never supposed to learn how to live without her. Adi…..I miss her, the pain it’s everending. I’m so tired” he whispered broken, tears falling from his eyes. Adi hugged his bestfriend, his brother in arm. Adi was determined to help him get out of this, no matter what it takes. Ram hugged his friend back, but he felt no affection or love just numbness and he sighed as he remembers Shivina telling him she loves him one last time.

A/N : Would love to know your thoughts, constructive criticism is more than welcome❤️

Continue soon. Waiting for Pihu's entry and some cute ram-Pihu scenes. The show messed it up pretty bad. There was so much potential but alas!

Originally posted by: Jaren93.

Continue soon. Waiting for Pihu's entry and some cute ram-Pihu scenes. The show messed it up pretty bad. There was so much potential but alas!

Thank you for reading and taking time to comment❤️ No but the show had so much potential, but they messed it up badly. It will take time before ram - Pihu scenes but they will be adorable 😁

It seems to be interesting, waiting for Raya and Pihu meet.
Please update soon.....

is nandini good in this story?

cause if she is, I am about ready to read a different story.

Goosebumps all over me... Interesting, can't wait to read more😆

Beautiful dear! Loved it and eager to read more. I liked how you have given a dimension to Nandini's character. She is not all evil as shown in the show. At least from what I could make out by reading the first chapter. I want to know how Ram will overcome his grief and come to love life again.

Originally posted by: Shruti_0505

is nandini good in this story?

cause if she is, I am about ready to read a different story.

She was good in the past, before her husband died. But I'm trying to write a redemption ark for her😃

Originally posted by: BeyondHorizon

Beautiful dear! Loved it and eager to read more. I liked how you have given a dimension to Nandini's character. She is not all evil as shown in the show. At least from what I could make out by reading the first chapter. I want to know how Ram will overcome his grief and come to love life again.

Thank you dear❤️ Yes, there is more layers to Nandini's charcter here. Wanted to give her a backstory, and show she was not evil before her husband passed away.

Thank you for reading and commenting😊

Chapter 2: This is me trying

"Hi, this is the fabulous Shivina Kapoor, I’m currently busy but leave a voice message and I will call you back. Okey bye for now”

“Happy birthday shi…shivi bacha. I …I wish we were together. I hope it’s better where you are, that you are together with dad. I hope you both are dancing and laughing. This is the fifth birthday without you, but we will continue to celebrate every year.I believe that’s what you would have wanted. Save me a dance,okey?”

I.. I love you to my very last breath” he said before the line died

Ram wiped the tears from his eyes, taking deep breathes like his therapist have instructed him to. Before he can call out for Tarun, he already was by his side giving him his stress ball. Ram walked around his room, squezzing the stress ball to get rid of the anxiety he could feel sneaking up on him.

“I’m Ram Kapoor. My dad was Virendra Kapoor, who fell in love with my mom Shivina and they got married. We were a small happy family, not the richest but the happiest. Mom died of blood cancer. Dad took care of me, told me stories about mom so I would never forget. Dad fell in love again, with the daughter of one of the richest men in the country at that time. Dad started to smile again, because of Nandini maa. I stopped having nightmares because Nandini maa would sing for me and make me hot chocolate whenever it was stormy nights. We became a happy family again, and our family grew bigger when Shubhum and Shivi got born. Then Dad died, no actually Dad was murdered”he said closing his eyes, his breath hitching all he wanted was to lay down and never wake up again.

“You have to keep going sir” Tarun reminded him

“Dad was murdered, but everyone believed it to be a car accident. I promised Dad before he died , I will take care of our family. I became successful and had the privilege to take care of my family, but I was lonely even surrounded by my family and friends. I longed for love, commitment and a successful marriage but thought that was never destined for me. Then I married Priya, for the sake of my sister. I fell in love with her, but she ruined me and along with her family she wrecked mine. Shivina died, too young to bright to leave this world at such a young age, the way she died was cruel and unfair. I miss her. I can’t sleep, whenever I close my eyes all I see is the two woman I lost that night. I go to therapy, went to grief counseling and met this girl named Zoah.”

Tarun smiled as realization dawned on Ram the moment, he uttered his friend’s name. His grief buddy. Ram threw his stress ball away, drinking a glass of water that Tarun offered him before he quickly sent a text to Zoah.

I manage to stop the panick attack like you helped me too do, thank you Zoah

How are you feeling?

Terrible, I miss her Zo. I will talk to you later, need to arrange things for Shivi’s birthday. If she had been here, she would have pulled my ear for being late

I’m there in 10

Why?

Because I will help you get the cake, flowers and the gifts to the shelter. I know I can't take the pain away, but atleast I can walk beside you. I ju...just don't want you to have to deal with all this alone, today.

Okey, I will see you soon then. Thank you Zo :)

Ram smiled a small smile, his heart filled with gratitude for Zoah. Letting other people care for him, scares him a little because he is afraid to get used to that feeling. Like how his Nandini mom used to take care of him, but it all changed when his dad passed away. Ram lost his faith in people five years ago, making him build walls around his heart not allowing any new person into his space or his heart. Save him the heartache when the inevitable leave or betray him. Ram was certain he doesn’t have any more room in his heart to care for another person, but he was wrong.

“Priya Sood, I refuse to die miserably in the trenches you left me in. I won’t let you kill the man I once was. The one who loved you, adored you and trusted you. Because that part of me was also loved by shivi” Ram said tracing the tattoo of dove on his wrist .

A/N : Sorry for any typos. Let me know what you think :)