Author's Note-This is my first time writing a fanfic. Sorry for my bad english and poor righting skills.
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Trumphets are blowing, everyone are dancing, everyone is happy including me except vikrant. Maybe he is uncomfortable due to arranged marriage. But still i am very happy. This is the best day of my life. My life will now be different. Everyone are here. I am very happy.
And a tear dropped on the photo album. It's been 15 years but still here i am watching my wedding photo album. Again. It's been so much time but i still cannot forget vikrant. Maybe i still love him. But he doesn't.
I know it always that he didn't love me. But we were trying. I was happy with him. We trusted each other. Always. When vikrant told me that he is going to shift to Mumbai, i didn't say anything. Because it was a part of his profession. That's what it was always. His profession was always more important than my profession and my feelings. But i didn't say anything because i trusted him. 1 month passed he didn't came,2 months passed he didn't came. Both of us wanted a baby but he was not even trying. But still i didn't do anything because it was usual. I was alone, i cried in the bed at night. He even stopped calling me and kept decling my call. But still i didn't do anything because i still trusted him. It was only when i called him at 3 am once. And when it answered it wasn't vikrant's voice. It was of a women. The same women who had previously answered the call once. She said that she was a nurse. But now i knew who it was. It was Deepika. I recognized her voice. But i still convinced myself that maybe it's just that they are working together. 3rd month passed and he still didn't came. I kept convincing myself that everything is ok. But me heart knew that nothing was okay.
To prove it to myself, i reached mumbai at evening. I waited for him. But he didn't came. I called him late at night and told vikrant that i am here. He started stuttering and said that he was at hopital. But i knew that it was a lie. I knew it now that he is with deepika. I cried but maybe he was just being professional. I kept giving myself a false hope. And then he came back and told me everything. He told me that he loved Deepika. At first i thought that ok it's not such a big thing. But then he said that he wants a divorce and doesn't want to love with him. It was that time when i shattered. I was numb. I felt as if everything is empty inside. I did so much for him. Hours profession was always my priority. I managed the house and family for him when he was busy in work. I suffered so much on my body just to get a baby.
And what did i got back? Nothing. I had nothing. I had lost my identity.
And then he left. I waited for him, i waited for the door to open, i waited for vikrant to say that he loved me. Because i did. But he never came back. I cried the entire night. I tried many things, i called suman di, i told him that i want him. I even tried to win by husband back by working in FMS hospital. But he was stuck on his decision. And then i say both of them hugging. At that time he realized that i am not made for him. He loved deepika and deepika loved him too. Deepika was not the second, i was. He never loved me. How foolish i was to think that things will get better. I was so stupid.
So the next day i signed the divorce papers. My hand were shaking, i could not see clearly because i was crying but at last i signed. I had already booked my flight and packed my stuff. And then he hugged me for the last time. I just wanted that moment to be eternity. I didn't wanted to leave him. But I had to.
I boarded the flight. It was not of patna or Delhi. It was of manali. I have always loved nature and i thought maybe i will be close to nature it will be easy to forget Vikrant. But it didn't help. I tried to endulge myself into work 24*7. But still i could not forget him. I loved him. I started going to psychiatrist. The lady was really nice. She understood me because she had gone through the same phase as me. She became my best friend. She tried really hard. But nothing was helping me. I started feeling very sick. I was always dizzy and vomiting too much. I didn't wanted to live. I even tried to suicide. And that was when a ray of sunshine came into my life.
"Mummy, Mummy? I came back where are you?" There was she, my ray of sunshine, my princess. My 5 year old daughter,Sanya. She just came back from school. I hugged her. "Mummy, why are you crying. What happend" she asked. "Nothing beta, go change your clothes now. Ok" i said. "ok mumma" and she ran to the bedroom.
I still remember when i told my psychiatrist about my bad health and she told me to get a routine chekup. And that's when i came to know that i am pregnant. The medicine which Dr gayatri gave to me has worked. Now I got a reason to live. It was quite difficult being a single mother but my freind were always with me. And when i held her in my lap for the first time, i felt magical. Now i was not alone. I took a year's break from my job to take care of her. And when she was old enough, i started doing my job again. My job was the same 9-5 but I now helped the people who were really in need and made the full use of my degree. I love my daughter and she loves me too. I was not alone now. I had her.
And now i have my identity of a successful doctor and a mother.
Mannat Har Khushi Paane Ki
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