Worth
“Emotionless, this word didn’t make sense to me until a while ago. How can a human not feel any emotions I wondered
But today I got my answer. I was just being stupid and making a fool of myself In front of everyone
She , a girl who he met hardly a few days ago flung into his arms as if her life depended on him, he who was her husband never let her even touch him.
Here there are 2 possible reactions one could get out of me
- Blaming myself and feeling unworthy
- Knowing my worth and walking out of this toxic relationship
It is a matter of habit I realized
He was my habit, staying around him was a habit. Having him with me was a habit
But taking bullshit from anyone was not what I was raised for.”
She continued to write in her diary
When she heard him walk in
“Raavi, can we talk?” He asked expecting her to in a vulnerable state
But to his surprise she looked serene
The kind of look on her face was of pride.
She slowly raised her head as she heard him speak
“We have nothing left to talk about shiva, I have always been known for being forgiving and naive, but some people don’t deserve that side of me” she said with a smile
“Why did you leave the venue“He attempted to ask
“That wasn’t my place to be. Finding one’s self worth is a very big accomplishment and I am proud that I was able to find mine.”
“But I must say , you took me by surprise today. Changing your appearance for her, that’s impressive. But I hope one day you find someone who loves you for the way you are”
“What do you mean?”
“Just know that if you leave someone at least tell them why, because what’s more painful than being abandoned is feeling that you aren’t worth an explanation”
“I thought you broke me, but to be honest you helped me find my true self and I’ll always be grateful for that. We just weren’t meant to be together shiva. I don’t know what you think but I definitely deserve happiness and I will find my own happiness” she said with determination
Gaumbi who stood outside listening to their conversation felt immense pride on Raavi
Irrespective of everything , she was his little bean and he will support her in every way possible