This is an os on raavis POV. It may not exactly be a happy one.i don't know if I will continue it.just a thought came I wanted to pen it down.
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She stood at a distance watching shiva and disha take blessings from suman kaki who had a proud smile on her face.they had won the best couples competition.it was a fun and games event.anita di took part with gombi and nobody took that seriously but only she knew what was going on in her sister's mind.anita di touched suman kakis feet and she blessed her with her whole heart unaware of her intentions.
Suman kaki was crying and shiva sat down on his knees and wiped her tears.gombi,dev and Krish joined in.then the family hugged.she remembered seeing this scene multiple times in her childhood, and how badly she wanted to be included in that scenario.how badly she wanted to be enveloped in that warmth.
She saw kaki forwarding her hand to disha who held it and smiled.raavi knew it was only a matter of time before she would take her place.be a part of her family.yes, this family was hers.even before marriage, she had a haq on them but now even being a part of the family she felt like a stranger.
" Kabhi kabhi insaan ko samajhne ke liye puri zindagi kam pad jaati hai, aur kabhi kabhi ek lamha kaafi hota hai "
Disha's words rang in her mind. Was it true? She took pride in the fact that they had a childhood connection.but what if there was no connection? What if she was just a girl whom shiva hated and had to bear because of his family?
" Shiva naa nahi kar raha hai iska matlab to use disha pasand hai "
Dhara di's words rang in her mind.was it true? Did he actually like her? If he did then doesn't he deserve to move on and build a life for himself rather than being stuck with his brother's leftover bride?
For the first time she was seeing things from Shiva's POV and it wasn't a pleasant sight.
Her breath got stuck in her throat.she had to leave from here.
One person's eyes followed her.
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Raavi cried her heart out in her room.she was home alone and that helped her to vent out her feelings.she was not someone who cried in front of others.her pillow had soaked her tears on countless nights and she would wake up in the morning with a bright smile.
Her tears dried up.she changed her blue gown and wore a simple salwar.she began packing her belongings.
Dhara had followed her and sneaked out of the function.she entered to see raavi packing her belongings.
" Raavi! Yeh kya kar rahi hai? " She asked
" Wapas jaa rahi hu dhara di.main lawyer se baat karke divorce jaldi karane ki koshish karungi.disha ko saara kaam samjha dungi.woh ek acchi ladki hai, iss ghar ko sambhal legi.kaki to use pehle se hi pasand karti hai, kuch din aapke saath bitayegi to aapko bhi woh acchi lagne lagegi " raavi said.
Dhara was shocked.the jealousy, the fire she had seen in her eyes was missing.now she looked like someone who has lost all hope.no.she can't let this happen.
" Yeh kaisi baat kar rahi hai raavi? Acchi lagegi matlab? Mujhe koi bhi ladki acchi lagne lagegi to kya woh shiva ki biwi banne layak ho jayegi? Tu uski biwi hai." Dhara said firmly.
"Kaun kiske layak hai iss baat ka faisla karne wali mai kaun hoti hu dhara di?aur rahi baat shiva ki biwi banne ki to mai kabhi sahi mayne mai uski biwi thi hi nahi.hamara Rishta waisa hi raha jaise pehle tha,wohi nafrat, wohi jhagde.hann, bass jhagde aur kadwe hote gaye " raavi said with a sad face.
" Meri baat dhyan se sunn raavi.tu mere shiva ki gauri hai. Maine uske ankhon mai tere liye pyar dekha hai raavi " dhara tried to explain holding her arms.
" Aap kehti hai na ki aapne mujhme aur Dev, shiva, Krish mai koi farq nahi kiya.isliye aap aisa bol rahi hai. Aapko shiva ki ankhon mai mere liye pyar dikhta hai kyuki aap woh dekhna chahti hai dhara di." Raavi reasoned.
" Ek baar mere baare mai bhulkar sirf shiva ki bhabi ke naate sochiye.kya aapko shiva aur disha ke beech kuch nahi dikhta? " She asked
" Nahii raavi. Mujhe dikhta hai to bas yeh ki shiva baar baar usse dur jaane ke bahane dhundta rehta hai.aur tu iss competition ko seriously le rahi hai? Isme to koi bhi kisi ke saath bhi part le sakta hai.anita ne bhi gombi ke saath ramp walk kiya.do chaar games jeet jaane se koi perfect couple nahi ban jaata raavi " dhara tried to stop her.
"Disha ne shiva ko kiss kiya dhara di " raavi said with her head down.
Dhara slowly withdrew her hands from her.there was a moment of silence.
" Hann to disha ne kiya na.woh ladki mujhe kuch thik nahi lagti .mere shiva ne aisa kuch nahi kiya hoga jo iss shaadi ki maryada ko tode " dhara said
" Hann dhara di.shiva ne kuch bhi to nahi kiya. Kuch bhi nahi " she said with tears in her eyes.
Dhara held her face and wipes her tears.
" Tu to jaanti hai na shiva kitna bhola hai.use samajh nahi aya hoga ki woh kya kare " dhara explained to her.
" Mai shiva pe koi ilzaam nahi laga rahi hu.chaar mahine ho gaye hai hamari shaadi ko.mai uske dil mai jagah nahi bana payi, uske kareeb nahi jaa payi.par chaar din mai disha uske itne paas aa gayi. Ya to mujhme koi kami hai ya phir shiva aur mai ek dusre ke liye bane hi nahi hai " she said swallowing the lump in her throat.
"Shiva yeh deserve nahi karta.ek khokla nafrat se bhara hua rishta deserve nahi karta woh, aur na hi mai karti hu." She said firmly.
"Maine hamesha fairytales aur kismat mai believe kiya hai.par ab waqt aa gaya hai ki mai badi ho jau.har kahaani ki ending happy nahi hoti.har kisiko majburi ki shaadi mai pyar nahi milta.har koi aapke aur gombi ki tarah lucky nahi hota " she said
Dhara had no answer.she was left speechless.
" Aap sahi kehti hai, shiva iss shaadi ki maryada ko kabhi nahi todega. isliye mai use har bandhan se azaad karna chahti hu taki woh sirf apne dil ki sune." She said
Dhara hugged her and they both cried.raavi let out her sobs.dhara tried to calm her down and gave her a glass of water.
They both sat on the bed silently while raavi finished her packing.
"Tu aage badh payegi raavi? Kisi aur ke saath apni zindagi soch paa rahi hai ?" Dhara softly asked her.
" Mujhme aur himmat nahi hai. Pehle dev se shaadi tooti, phir shiva se talaak.phirse dil toota to mai khudko sambhal nahi paungi" she shook her vigorously.
Dhara caressed her head.
" Kaash mai tujhe rok paati."
" Mai aapke delivery tak ruk bhi jaati dhara di. Par bahut takleef hoti hai.apni ankhon ke saamne shiva ko kisi aur ka hota hua nahi dekh Sakti Mai." She said
"Jaa.mai tujhe nahi rokungi " dhara said
" Aur aap shiva se bhi kuch nahi kahegi. Yeh faisla use khud lene dijiye.agar woh disha se shaadi karna chahega to aap use nahi rokegi " raavi said
Dhara reluctantly nodded and watched her go.she still believed that shiva loved her.she can't be so wrong when it comes to him.he has to take a firm decision today or else he will lose her forever.
With this raavi left.she glanced at the house one last time.she didn't say anything to shiva.she will leave him a message later.she wondered if he will even notice that she is missing.
Chakravarti Samrat Prithviraj Chauhan
Mangal Lakshmi
