Originally posted by Rubys07
Disclaimer:
I tried to watch today's episode by emotionally distancing myself as much as possible (it's something I do when there's too much drama
) so it's mostly me trying to look at things from the characters' pov. I'm not siding with anyone at this point. This take may or may NOT reflect my personal feelings or opinions so please no tomatoes only samosas
Also, thoda lamba ho gaya, please bear with me
- Whenever Raghav lies by omission, I try not to get mad at him right away because as utterly frustrating as it can be at times, I can see where he is coming from, even though this is not always justified. He has a convoluted sense of right and wrong, and truth and lie, and what's good for people around him and what's not. When he'd exposed Amruta (abortion track, to clear Pallavi's name) and caused Mansi's wedding to be called off, it made sense from his pov even though both Pallavi and his Amma knew why it was wrong. He has been keeping this Esha thing a secret so far from Pallavi because it's very painful for him to even share and relive that experience after she's barged into his life. He resorted to half-truths again at the beginning of the episode because he remembered that Pallavi had stopped him earlier from revisiting those painful memories. However, if Pallavi is constantly and specifically asking him about Esha and trying to understand WHY he would not sign such an important deal because of this one girl, it's obvious she'd get more inquisitive and wonder what's wrong because all his half-assed responses made very little sense to her. When she kept insisting, Raghav should've told her the truth. Maybe not the whole truth, as in the whole dukh bhari daastaan because it triggers him so much. He could've just said "She's the ex who'd betrayed me and I don't want to have anything to do with her" and ended the topic there. I assume Pallavi would've understood. Lying to your partner about important things is wrong period. If Pallavi is in Raghav's shoes will she be allowed to go with all these lies? And why he should even narrate? He can just say what you said, and I'm sure Pallavi will stop the discussion there. When he says half-assed answers, that is where she gets curious and searches for answers. That is even more hurtful to him. Lying is not done. Whatever the reason might be.
- Coming to the business deal: We don't know how Raghav was before he met his SKD but since day one, it's been quite evident he is a very practical businessman, except for when it comes to his personal matters. Previously, he never had a personal life to begin with but now whenever his personal and professional lives are at odds with each other, he struggles to strike a balance. He's learning but the progress is v e r y slow so he often behaves the same way. It's stupid and irrational and impulsive but it makes sense. [Also, I don't mean to generalize and no offense to menfolk in general; guys often hold a grudge over a heartbreak longer than girls, and they do many self-destructive, irrational things to show they're hurt even if they realize it's causing them harm. Unka wiring kuch alag types hain
] Again, this is not me defending Raghav, at all. At this point, I really wonder how did he become a businessman? He is so impulsive, irrational. You can hold your heartbreak for any amount of time, that's your personal problem, but, but when you are married, you can't make decisions based on heartbreak. You have to support two people whose life revolves around you. As for the learning progress, it is always one step forward and seven steps backward for Raghav.
- Silver lining: Keerti dislikes Esha so I should like Keerti because of that
but then she went ahead and said Pallavi and her were bEsT fRiEnDs now aur mujhe itni hasee aagayi
That whole conversation could've gone better and been way more impactful if Amma had it with Raghav BUT. My guess is that both the siblings know Esha from college, and it's very likely Amma had/has no clue about her son's first love (college mein padhne ke liye bheja and all that). Thank God meine episode nahi dekha. Keerthi advising Raghav 
Sorry I have absolutely no good words that can be said in public to explain this sh**. Like seriously, how Keerthi will teach Raghav what he should do and not do. Oh please, pehle khud ki akkal aur pati ko sambhal fir aapni vishesh tippaniyan baat. Arggh😡, I hate that woman. How could she even be whitewashed? Doesnot she not deserve any punishment for her ghatiya harkat?
- The writers did a good job where Raghav made it clear that this pain wasn't because of his long lost love but rather the betrayal that it left in its wake. BUT ALSO. His dialogue "Woh meri zindagi ka worst day tha" is very confusing--I'm assuming he means it was the worst day before the Krishna Rao incident? Because it makes no sense for him to consider his heartbreak a bigger tragedy than his dad and brother dying. Kuch bhi mat dikhaao bhai
Exactly what is exactly the timing of this "baspan ka pyaar" coz the guy doesnot even reflect an iota of trauma to me. He seems to be happy in love. Not an iota of guilt, missing or trauma for his past. Don't give me the BS that he hid everything cleverly. Or did he lie to Esha too
And, and I thought he said one of his worst days was when he character assassinated Pallavi
That changed? Wow 
- Pallavi showed so much patience today, like going to talk to the Dasani's about the deal when Raghav is being unreasonable, and not snapping back at Raghav (a very fine thing to do IMO, IDK how she didn't react
) for screaming at her. The precap is in stark contrast to the Pallavi we know. IDK if this precap is like the promos that never come true
but it sure seems to be a TRP-bait. Pallavi is not supposed to go all Nirupa Roy seeing Raghav with his ex. She is confident of herself, her Raghav and the love they share. I don't buy this BS even for a millisecond. Pallavi should have created a scene not be patient. Why should she be patient? Was he at the time of Mandaar? Wtf 😒 He needs reassurance all the damn time and Pallavi has to be the cool headed girl all the time? Khud ki pyaar par bharosa nahi hai kya Raghav ko? For once let him man up and assure her. Doesn't Pallavi deserve his reassurances for once? I will be really disappointed if Pallavi gets jealous over the stupid Esha. I mean, she doesn't even compare. - Raghav's monologue in the precap: I'm guessing he's saying all this about Pallavi and not Esha (because he says "Ghamandi Rao"). So maybe he's letting go because Pallavi said so and sharing this pain with her has somehow made it easy for him? He did say in the previous episodes that even though she gave (Esha) the pain, Pallavi has given him happiness that erased that pain, or something to this effect. I don't remember the exact words coz as you know 🤷🏻♀️
Again, please excuse me, I adopted a kaafi thanda perspective while watching today's episode because I didn't want to get a high bp or a headache. Mental sukoon comes first
I stopped watching because I need to preserve my mental sanity😑😌
Still haven't gone through your posts, Ren, Fria and all you guys who shared your take on today's epi. Not feeling well so will get back to it later hopefully
Take care Ru ❤️❤️