Originally posted by: laksh
Looks like Virat doesn’t know it himself. I have always disagreed that he has feelings for Pakhi but have realised it recently, that he cares for Pakhi a lot. He has high regards for her and definitely cares for her, much more than Sai. He is emotionally attached to Pakhi and that is why fails to stop Pakhi from insulting his mom and now even Devi Tai. He also stops people from insulting Pakhi for the same reason.
The way he has been, it has made me conclude that he is a person who would do what he thinks is right and if he believes that it is right, Sai shouldn’t have issues with it. He will always be blaming Sai and also be acting clueless whenever Sai will have issues with Pakhi. He keeps giving a name of friendship may be because it doesn’t make him feel guilty and he wants to make himself believe that he loves only Sai. He wouldn’t even want to accept that he is more attached to Pakhi emotionally or that what he feels for Sai has just been an attraction. It took such a long time for him to even realise that what he felt for Pakhi was just an infatuation.
The problem is with the definition of love that Pakhi and Virat has. They are both self centred people and they term the strong feelings, attraction, wants and craving affection from a person as love.
If you look at it, Virat felt a pull towards Sai since she was pushing him away. When she said she can’t be his wife or that she would walk out of his marriage, it affected him. If I now think of it, it looks like it was not because it mattered to him that she won’t be there with him but more as how can she not feel for him. He probably was always intrigued, found her challenging and interesting and started to move towards her. He was yearning for her attention, was habituated to her. All of a sudden, one day, he started to term it as love and that too when his friend started to call it love once again. He couldn’t name what he felt, so he took what his friend suggested probably. He felt that it has to be love and started to do everything to show his love. He acted as a guardian, as a person who took her responsibility at the beginning but after he started to get attracted to her, started to crave for her to accept him, as and when they started to face ups and downs, he started to falter. I have a feeling that once Sai confesses her feelings for him, he will start to take her for granted because he has got that attention that he wanted from her and that would be it. He will crave for her only when she pushes him away and not probably when she starts to move with him in a nice way or when she starts to crave for his attention.
He would always want an upper hand in his relationship. Whatever decisions he takes must be respected and she should be okay with anything he thinks is right. We have already discussed how he seems to related to Pakhi, but in addition to that, it looks like he seems to be liking the fact that Pakhi holds him in high regards. He likes that about her and so doesn’t go against her even if he himself doesn’t like a few things she talks. He wants to maintain an image in front of her and not get ugly with her the way he does with Sai. He doesn’t want to spoil whatever Pakhi feels for him in a way I guess. I think this is all happening subconsciously. Pakhi is being nice to him and if he feels she is wrong, he would voice it out but would excuse her or forgive her since she likes him.
It always feels nice when someone likes us right? Just that if the person wrongs someone else, we wouldn’t support them and we would raise our voice against them but Virat doesn’t act or think that way.
Whatever leeway he gives to Pakhi, how much ever he cares for Pakhi, there are not justifications to it. He himself can’t name whatever he has with her and likes to keep it as friendship. He doesn’t have any romantic feelings for her, which makes him firmly believe that what he has with her is only friendship and that Sai is the one who doesn’t believe him. It is this belief of his which makes him act clueless to Sai’s issues. He doesn’t see anything wrong in what he shares with Pakhi since he keeps justifying to himself, whatever he shares with Pakhi is just friendship and he feels nothing more than that for her.
He is not failing to realise that Sai is affected by his closeness with Pakhi but instead he doesn’t want her to get affected. It is his defence that doesn’t let him to even think that what he is doing is wrong and that Sai is getting affected. It makes it easier for him to not think about why he is the way he is with Pakhi.
Didn’t he act similar after his and Pakhi’s confrontation? When Pakhi was crying and shouting to him, he always acted clueless as why she was behaving that way. I guess that he pushes away any thoughts that holds him accountable.
Let’s look at how he didn’t want to be reminded of what he did by Sai after the ousting and even after the Ajinkya thing, he behaved in a similar way by asking Sai why did she run like that. He didn’t like when his mom compared him with his Dad during the Pd lunch incident and was shocked to hear that from her. He doesn’t like to be shown mirror. He doesn’t like to even think that he has made a mistake. He gets away from his guilt by blaming himself, by showing that he is feeling ashamed, asking him to be punished but goes back to his old ways. So, it shows that he doesn’t like to be reminded of what he did, be it by Sai or by Pakhi.
I think this is another reason why he is acting this crazy now. He has not liked to be reminded of or be shamed when he makes a mistake, then how will he even tolerate when he was accused that he has feelings for Pakhi. He just doesn’t like to be called bad or shown bad by anyone. Devi did the same recently, Samrat too did and he didn’t like them doing it. It wasn’t just because they were supporting Sai, it was also because they thought of him that way. He doesn’t want people to think bad of him or hold him accountable for anything.
I might be wrong, but this is how it looks now.
Anupamaa
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