Episode 34
Before I write, I want to say that this episode was unexpectedly very sad, infact I had tears in my eyes at the way the portrayed the helplessness of the characters, it felt like that loving someone so much is such a horrible crime that neither you can live or die, I felt really sad watching this episode, and it gives me the vibe of a classic old school romance, where love is blind, people will die in love but still not stop loving each other ðŸ˜
Mahi-Sahiba-Peerni
For the first time, first time Mahi actually talked about Farhad and him only, the way she showed her fear that 'I know they will hurt him ammi, please do not hurt him, he did not even do anything'. My heart broke for her, she knows how useless and heartless her family is and that is why her fear of losing Farhad is getting worse. I absolutely loved how she talked to her mother that till today whatever I did, I did only for family reputation indicating that her marrying T and her rejecting Farhad, everything was rooted from the fact that they would never approve Farhad for her.
I liked how peerni asked Sahiba that 'Does Mahi even love Farhad'? That was such a small detail but again a mother's concern, a mother trying to make sure that whether her daughter actually loves someone as is still colorless like a widow is. And as expected, Sahiba revealed that how Mahi started this and she never came clean with her feelings but she loved Farhad even before marrying T but realized later. So, Ash and Moni, this is us, the way we three believed in Farhad's instincts and the way we were so sure that mohabbat hai, this seems like Hashim Nadeem should give us an award for delving into Farhad's psychology and seeing Mahi's love, when people actually thought this was one sided and Farhad is just stubborn. LMAO, I do not know whether to laugh or just be happy, that Farhad was neither stubborn, nor deranged, not even someone who could not take a no, he was trying to fight for a TWO SIDED LOVE where yes he knew that he belonged to a lower class, but he thought that love is there, so he would risk everything to free his Mahi from the shackles of imprisonment and the fairy tallish ending of living a simple life together, now it is clear cut, Farhad and Mahi loved each other, Farhad knew that she was only denying out of fear, he rebelled, she rejected, that is what happened. Can we just applaud Farhad now, that he had the guts and spine to at least try and fight for his life? Instead of name calling him and calling him delusional, can we just say that he valued Mahi so much that for him, he would take any risk but not let Mahi compromise with her feelings? That is why, that is why he insisted on a second meeting, he begged Fakira that ask her to convince me that she does not love me, he knew that she loved him, he was not convinced of anything knowing this jagirdari is stopping her and hence he did not wnat their love to die down and get sacrificed, that was the pre-library Farhad. Anyone who thinks he is problematic or stalker, did not understand him, he is flawed, but mohabbat and jung mein sab jayez hai, and ye Farhad ki shadeed mohabbat ki hi kahaani hai, jahape bagawat hona tha toh usne kiya, I am so glad they clarified everything, and everything which I had always said has come true, I knew that Mahi's character was not given death but since Farhad is the central lead, this is his story, whatever he said and felt is real, definitely real, not his delusion, not even his instinct.
Farhad-Mahi
I cried, especially when they cried for each other and the OST, ohh boy that hurt felt real. Mahi remembering Farhad's words like 'I will leave if you are happy', she could not believe, that her Farhad was so selfless, that just because her happiness was at stake he would leave, she could not believe despite suffering so much, he chose to value her guilt and suffering above hers, she remembers the Lahore door scene when she insulted him, and now she cannot forgive herself that how he just wanted one moment, only one moment with her and she did not even give him that, the regret on Mahi's face, the tragedy of losing the love of her life this mercilessly, the grief of not valuing the man who risked everything for her was just so painful to watch ðŸ˜. I want to say something, every girl in their life wants to be loved by someone the way Farhad loves Mahi, no matter what we say or believe, we all want to be someone's desire and someone who could love us above their own existence, but such kind of love is impossible to even handle, it is so obvious that Mahi cannot deal with Farhad's love, she loves him a lot, but the way he loves her has made her so insanely helpless, that the fact that she is center of his existence is killing her slowly, she cannot comprehend that why is he so selfless, why is he so ruined, why is his love like this? Mahi just needs an answer which she does not have.
Now coming to Farhad, what should I say, the suffering suffocates me, it suffocates me to a point that I feel this is the most cruel treatment any character has ever got for just being in love with someone.🥺. The way he remembers Mahi's confession and then her tears, and starts crying, it seemed like it is his physical pain more than a heart break. Did you guys notice, that he starts crying only when he remembers her tears, the timing was so perfect, her tears just makes him so restless, it is the 3rd episode now where Farhad's heart break seemed to take the route of physical ache and it shows on his face, he looks severely traumatized with all that has been happening, and it seems like whatever peace he had found is just gone and the suffering started againðŸ˜. The worst thing is that he had accepted that he was rejected, he had accepted that people like him should not dream of achieving stuff that is not in their reach, he had accepted everything and wanted to live in solitude but after all this, Mahi's confession happened and now everything is a mess again, neither he can be happy that she loves him and he was not a delusional fool, nor he can even deny her or disbelieve her, this is Farhad, he will always believe his Mahi, but he cannot ever find peace that they loved each other and even after turning the world upside down, she is going through shit and he is going through a loveless life (helplessly and willingly). Once he said Mahi that 'Agar iss qayanat mei meri jeet huyi toh won hogi tum', but today Farhad realized that the jeet also did not make him happy, the jeet is so valueless because Mahi was unhappy, he could see her love, but he could also see that her love is making her suffer the way he is suffering and Farhad cannot willingly swallow that thought, thus all the helpless tears and all the restlessness.
Farhad-Baba sai
Well this scene freaked me out and made me scared. There is a say that when someone is about to die they hallucinate stuff which they want to see, they hallucinate their 'naseeb ka banda' who changes the course of their life. Farhad hallucinating Baba sai was such a blow, even he for a moment froze and looked up towards God and felt that weird but a satisfying feeling that he vented out in front of someone. This scene did not give me a good vibe, Farhad probably is alive for only few more days. However, the thing that broke me the most was the way he was so helpless and said that Mahi is so innocent and delicate, how can I leave her in this mess all alone? They will treat her bad. Ohh Farhad, itni mohabbat kaun karta hai, aisa kaun karta hai? 🥺. He literally got a death threat, he literally knows that Mahi will never be his, but all he wants was to not see her in trouble, not see her reputation get malignedðŸ˜. Once Mahi said 'Tumhari mohabbat iss duniya ki sabse azeem hai', she was so right, aisa mohabbat koi kaise kare, it is just unfair, it is unreal. And, what hurts the most is that in all this mess and helplessness, he wanted to vent out to Baba sai, and even Baba sai left him alone. I still do not understand that if Baba sai was his mentor and he was protecting Farhad from going to a lifeless state then why did he leave him alone to die a cruel death? I really hope there is a catch, and he returns, saves Farhad, please Baba sai come back and save your boy
Farhad-Nazim shah
What an absolute piece of shit NS is? He is calling Farhad namaak haraam? Kon gaddar and ungrateful hai ye toh we all are seeing. This boy risked his own life and saved this annoying man and he is namaak haraam?🤣. Also, this annoying piece of shit is blaming Farhad of ruining izzat? He is yelling Mahi's name in front of all the body guards and Farhad is the one who till now never even took Mahi's name ever, this is what NS needed to learn, educate yourself instead of thinking of ganda khoon jo NS ke andar hi hai. I am glad that Farhad said 'I am still giving you izzat', that is what Farhad is, he has some principles which he will never unfollow because being good comes naturally to him. There was a very nice small detail here, when the NS men leave after threatening Farhad, Farhad takes a breadth indicating that even he is delicate and innocent and even he has no courage to see so much mess but he still stood strong there, and then the other mazaar guy comes and consoles Farhad seeing his misery, it was such a nice scene to see that even from far someone patted Farhad's back when he is completely alone now.
Romana-Amma sai
One thing is clear, Hashim Nadeem made no mistake in writing Romana as the character who we all wanted to see as a female lead instead, and the idea was to make Romana the female version of Farhad, which became successful indeed. Romana is just as kind and empathetic as Farhad is, the same power in her demeanor when she knows that I am right and I will speak for the right, the same attitude while talking about love, the same pride in her eyes for her love which Farhad always had. Farhad could never go and talk about his love to anyone because he feared about Mahi's reputation, but Romana did it, finally she showed the mirror to the hypocrisy of the fake jagirdari. And I am so glad, the way she said that go and see Mahi, you will see that her eyes behold the love of her mohabbat ka bhikhari, I was like yesss baby, go my lady, kill it 🤪🤣. Romana was like, even the bhikhari who gave her dua is a bhikhari for your daughter Mahi, I was like, Romana baby, take a chill pill, you deserve a crown now 😎🤣. And what the hell is Sikka, he is hiding behind door and listening to everything? LMAO, Sikka is the most useless and spineless of all the naqam aashiqs in this show, I wonder why and what did Romana see in him, Romana is taking a stand for Farhad and Mahi whereas Sikka cannot even show his face, WTH is this 🤣
Jokes aside, Amma sai as much as she loves Mahi, the way she treats Romana who is also a woman is so pathetic, seems like insaan kaha paida hota hai ye bhi uski hi galti hai. Nazim shah calling Farhad ganda khoon because he is born in a simple family and amma sai treating Roma like a trash because probably Roma was homeless and became bazaaru, such bad and inhumane mindset, I cannot take it that too against people like Farhad and Romana who are just so pure and beautiful from their heart . One thing is clear, Hashim Nadeem's entire idea was to show the class difference and how poor and neglected people has no right to love someone above their class, this is so sad, it is the truth I know, still makes me very sad
At the end of my review, I just wnat to say that next week Dilawar arrives and I never thought that I would be scared to see FeeDil reunite, the story is heading towards honor killing (I hope I am wrong), I hope they are tricking the audience and Dilawar will indeed save Farhad, I hope Farhad will die out of sickness (if he dies) and not mercilessly killed, I hope so many things now that, any thing is better than seeing Dilawar kill Farhad, neither Farhad nor Dilawar deserve this brutality, I do not want Farhad Mahi unite and all, just keep Farhad alive, please makers, please ðŸ˜