Originally posted by: ilovepyaar
This is going to turn into an essay 🤣
I have rewatched the whole Manorama track recently and I noticed so many nuances.
- In the beginning of the track, when he met Manorama for the first time... he had seen her in a lot of mirrors, at the same time in parallel Bondita was asking the village women prem mai paagal kaise hota hai? His paagalpan was shown towards Bondita in that track, not for Manorama. Manorama was just the tool to show this paagalpan about Bondita.
- When he made the outside washroom for Bondita, one of the villagers said wow you did this for your wife, you love her a lot! And Anirudh said no, she is just my zimmedari. The villager had said but zimmedari is also a form of love.
This was Anirudh's dialogue: Mera maana hai ki dono mai antar hai, zimmedari hamein hamare laksh ki or lejate hai, niyantran mein rakhte hai humme... aur pyaar kabhi kisiko niyantran mein rehna deta hai kyan?
He didn't stay in his niyantran because of Bondita. Not because of Mano. Again Manorama was just a tool.- There was Kabir's poem who Anirudh misinterpreted badly, but the real meaning of the poem is about a DIVINE love between a God and their Devotee. ❤️ Again foreshadowing.
- When Ani fake married Manorama, he was in front of Durga Maa and crying, he said "Jab tak aap mujhe meri pehle wali Bondita nahi lota deti, mai Bondita se dur rehne ke zeher haste haste peeta rahunga" ... so it's zeher to stay away from Bondita.
- His meri Bondita and apni Bondita jaap was most frequent during the Mano track.
- In the Manorama track after the cliff scene, the way he used to be around Bondita was different. He stopped calling her his zimmedari. He would talk to Manorama and gush about Bondita to her.
He used to feel just as hurt for breaking her heart.
- I have already posted about the cliff scene already, but it was the first time that it hit him that Bondita was not a mere zimmedari (even though he knew from way before but hadn't accepted it). That night the heartbeats background music was NOT a coincidence. He was about to do the greatest paagalpan for his love (i.e Bondita), which had been hinted at so many times in this track that love is paagalpan. The next day he fake-married Mano to bring her back on the right track.
- There were many moments in the post marriage Manorama track where he used to watch her and smile from a distance.
- One time when Bondita made a cake for the queen and Manorama took credit, while Ani supported Manorama, she went to her room and started throwing things 🤣Ani came there and was legitimately smiling watching her throw things around. He found her cute. 🤣
- Manorama had so many dialogues about Anirudh's feelings for Bondita too. After she got accepted to Dalhousie and Anirudh thought that she would leave the next day, he had literally gone crazy and was on the verge of breakdown.
He told Manorama the sun might be there, but I won't feel its rays without her. He had said more things in this monologue but it's not coming to mind. But a huge monologue about how he will lose the purpose of his life without her. Oh yes he also said the road will be there, but there will be no destination. 😭- Manorama's letter -- the way she praised their relationship, the understanding, and the devotion these two have was beautiful. She said that you two will be an example to all husbands-wives out there. ❤️ She said that her Pati Babu is only hers, and some other deep dialogues about his feelings for her.
- Oh yes in the anniversary episode, after he yelled at Bondita, in his introspection scene he was trying to distract himself that he loved Manorama. Why would he do that when he just yelled at Bondita? Doesn't he care how she feels? Actually, it's because he was avoiding this whole topic and it had become psychological for him. Manorama had been a psychological rebound. Otherwise the man who always put Bondita and her feelings first was running away from her because he was scared to confront his feelings about her.
- There are more instances but they're not coming to mind right now. 😭
- But yes, I believe that he was truly distracted by Manorama to divert his attention from Bondita because accepting Bondita like a wife was too much of a guilty process for him at that time, and he did feel that he was beginning to fall (again, in a completely pure way), so to overcome that guilt, he found a rebound in Manorama.
- However, when he almost lost her by the cliff it hit him like a tonne of bricks that she is his jeene ki vajah and he had lost his heart already. This has turned long but ... I'm sure there's more but I will cut it here for now.🤣
Nice analysis👏
I agree most of ur points , I want to add some of my also .
I feel hiramandi track is d turning point of their relationship coz thou ani send bon away still he was finding it difficult to cope up with her absence & reason by she dint told him complete truth which he keep asking himself.
After he brought her back he somewhere he accepted her as his wife/companion in true sense so he dint objected people referring them husband wife during this time phrase his feelings for her gradually developing but when TRC forced him to consummate with bon who was a child at that time he got a major jolt of his feelings & reality , is u remember he visualise bon as his bride in his room which irk him so much that he ask bon not to enter his room not do anything for him, he realised him seeing bon as his bride means somewhere he is falling for her, which was against his principles that he can love bon coz she was same kid whom he saved from d society & working 4 her betterment , so he start fighting his those feelings .
If u see after getting drugged by TRC & thakur still ani was somewhere fighting with his own feelings when he entered d SR room he was mumbering No bondita no nondita it was like he was trying to control his feelings when he was sitting on d chair in his semi consious state & bon was talking to him about their new life u can see his feelings for her in his eyes , he even smirk on starting a new life .
He found mano's mission like his only only difference mano was contributing in country's independence & he was working on bon's independence, he used mano think to divert his mind from bon , by this not only bon can be brought back on correct path but he himself will be keep himself in control.
After mano track when TRC said that while bringing bon back to right path u pushed her away from urself & today ur both hands r empty as mano 2 left , for him it was like did bon really went far away from him which made him break down.
In annulment track he stopped hiding his feelings .
I don't agree on only one thing that is pyar paagalpan hota , pyar definitely paagalpan nhi hota , pyar ka matalab dena hota vo bhi selflessly jo ani ne bon ko diya or bon ne usse .
He used to feel just as hurt for breaking her heart.