I agree he never really thought much about it. Before the crush track he seemed genuinely accepting of her as a wife(not romantically) . It seemed like he had accepted her for his entire life and then with the option to break her free from the marriage. It was like a choice between what he stood for morally and what he wanted irl.Originally posted by: bhshre95
I think its just that he himself never introspected much about his feelings for Bondita. Though he would have never seen her romantically but his love and care for her was very deep. She was the only one he connected with so much and was ready to go to any lengths to make sure she gets a good and happy life. He did everything for her selflessly without expecting anything in return. Itna koi kisi ke liye tabhi kar sakta hai when you love a person to that extent. But I guess he never thought about it as love or anything because the marriage itself was like a sin to him. He is a very principled and upright man, So it must be very conflicting for him.
But in these 8 years without Bondita being in from of him he may have reflected back on his feelings and what she really meant for him. And distance always makes heart grow fonder. He may have missed her immensely all these years and realised how empty his life is without her presence
This is one of the things I really appreciate about the show. It's not black and white. People have their vices, weaknesses and strengths.