SaiRat SS : Ghum Hai Tere Pyaar Mein - Update page 144 - Page 61

Hellooow GHKKPMians,

SPECIAL NOTE
When I started writing this SS (Not more than 10 chapters) I had the idea of Virat not telling Sai about the vaada made to Pakhi before their wedding because that's what was required for the story I was going to write. He just tells her that their marriage would be a deal one and he would never love her without telling her why. She guesses immediately that it's because of Pakhi but she doesn't tell him that she knows he had a past with Pakhi. That's why Virat doesn't understand why his friendship with Pakhi bothers Sai so much. I don't know if you remember but during SamSai's first conversation, Sai tells Samrat that she has guessed everything and that's why she has made up her mind that she will leave in five years. As this story is not ending anytime soon, thought about reminding you that in this story Virat didn't tell Sai about his vaada and he also doesn't know that Sai is aware of his past.

« Are you out of your mind ? », Virat questioned angrily.
« I have made up my mind. », Sai replied trying hard not to collapse.
A man passed by Virat and walked towards Sai and Saurabh, « Sai Joshi. »
« Mr. Wagh. », Sai replied.
« I am so thankful to you for not taking any action against my son. », Mr. Wagh said.

Virat raised his eyebrows. Obviously she knew his father too.

« I am sorry for all the trouble he caused you. », Mr. Wagh added.
« If you were a good father he wouldn't have done something like this. You are a terrible father, Mr. Wagh, and you have created a monster in Saurabh's heart. », Sai lashed out at him.
« I know... », he tried to reply but got interrupted.
« This is your last chance to rectify all your mistakes, Mr. Wagh. Only because of you, we both were separated and he got his dream of becoming a dancer shattered. You are an insult to the human race but at least try to be a good father. », Sai added.

Virat saw the firecracker Sai back but the situation didn't allow him to be happy. She told Mr. Wagh to take care of his son and seek the help he needed.

« Can you please keep your wife away from Saurabh ? She has ruined his life. Don't let her kill him. », she begged him.

Mr. Wagh kept looking at her in shock then nodded. He knew she was right. Saurabh came out from the lock-up. The way she saved his life and how she escaped from the hospital to free him, he realized how wrong he was all this while. She didn't forget him nor stopped caring about him.

« For the sake of our mothers who are watching us from up there, you have to take care of yourself and get back to the Sauru I know not the Saurabh you have become. For your mother you have to find a new purpose to live and enjoy this beautiful life she has gifted you. », she reasoned with him.

He promised that he will. Both looked at each other and let the tears run down their faces. They said their goodbyes and parted ways.

She got in the car joined by Virat after informing his mother that they were coming home. He started the car and didn't say a word. Sai could sense that he was angry. She wanted to clear everything but emotionally she wasn't fit. She was trying to make her heart accept that Saurabh was now a closed chapter and that she has lost the only friend she ever had. She let the tears roll down and closed her eyes grasping her cloth.

As soon as they entered the Chavan Niwas, Ashwini came with an Aarti plate. She did the Aarti of both her children and got emotional seeing Sai's bandaged arm and Virat's blood stained shirt. She didn't respond and for the first time she walked away without taking her mother-in-law's blessings. Ashwini gave a worried look at her son who reassured her through his eye expressions that she was fine.

Sai came out freshened up and changed to a comfortable outfit. Virat took a shower and came out from the bathroom. He found her sitting on the floor leaned against the bed, hugging her knees and the tears streaming down her face. He went to the kitchen and got food for both of them then came back to the room. He put the food tray next to her and very coldly asked her to eat.

« I know that you want to know about Saurabh. », she said stopping him on his way to the bed.
« Please Sai, eat your food and take some rest. What I want doesn't matter. », he said coldly.
« Your tone suggests that you are mad at me so it does matter to you. », she replied.
« So you can do whatever is in your mind or whatever your heart says but I can't even get angry ? You didn't share anything with me while I continuously begged you. You took a bullet for him and then you blackmailed me that you will hurt yourself if I didn't take you to him. Cherry on the cake if this wasn't enough, you also refused to take any action against him. And you expect me to react like nothing happened ? », he snarled at her.
« You should have known by now that I can go to any extent for the people I love and care. », she defended herself.
« That's the problem. You drive me crazy whenever I see you give him so much importance ? », he admitted.
« Can you please get me my bag ? », she asked.

He rolled his eyes and then irritably obeyed. She took out the pictures and handed them to him. He questioningly looked at her but when she insisted he looked at the pictures.

« These are a few memories of the birthdays, festivities, dance competitions and regular daily life pictures but I have thousands of such memories in my head. How do I ignore them after his one mistake forgetting what he went through in his life ? », she explained.

Sai's explanation was like a punch in the face but he kept the anger aside and sat down on the floor next to her, curious to know about the whole story. She didn't face him and looked in front of her nostalgically.

« Without a mother's love and Aaba's job that required to move from one city to another every other day, I made my life revolve around my Aaba. My personality was such that I could easily socialize with people but I had no one I could call special in my life. I was pretty much scared to make friends and then leave them because of Aaba's transfers. Why give someone a special place in your heart when you can't keep them ? », she said.

Virat looked at her and the loner in her made him feel bad for her.

« But I don't know how I ended up befriending Saurabh even though it started with a fight. We used to dislike each other so much. But as we say a common pain can bring two people close, he was also unaware of a mother's love just like me. We started sharing our pain, understand it and overcome with it. I was extremely lucky to have a father who loved me like anything but he didn't even have that. He was tortured by a stepmother and a father who was so ignorant. », she said then looked at him, « We shared everything, Virat Sir. We have faced the best moments like the worst. We have shared the festivities, the competitions, the passion, dance, fun, anger, fights. Even Bappa liked our friendship because Aaba's posting in Satara lasted for five years. But there is a saying, every good thing comes to an end. Aaba found out about his father's criminal activities and he ordered me to stay away from him. Could I ever go against my Aaba ? », she asked as if she wanted an answer from him and after he moved his head in no she continued, « I obeyed. Mr. Wagh didn't like Aaba to go behind him and he ordered his son to stay away from me. Saurabh always loved to go against his father. He ran away to meet me and met with an accident. It ruined his entire life. We got separated and his passion came to an end. He always dreamed of becoming a dancer but now he can't even dance. »

Virat watched her cry but gave her the space she needed to calm down.

« Why didn't you confide in me Sai ? », he asked upset.
« You think I didn't try ? That day I wanted to tell you everything but Pakhi didi came and she needed you so I left as she is your priority. », she said looking away and crying silently.
« Why would she be my priority, Sai ? She is just a friend and you are my wife. I would choose you over her. », he explained confused.
« I am just a deal wife and she is your real friend. », she reminded him.
« Are you trying to convince yourself or me ? Anyway, why didn't you tell me later ? », he asked.
« That night I had a dream similar to what happened when you found me but in my dream you shot him because he didn't want to let me go so I got scared. », she explained.
« That night you were not having a headache but you were having an emotional breakdown, weren't you ? I can't believe it Sai. Damn it. Not only did you lie to me but now you are making me feel like I have failed as a husband and as an IPS officer. », he clenched his fist in anger.
« I was afraid that you won't understand me and my decision. », she confessed.

She somehow felt better after telling him the reasons why she couldn't share anything with him. But there was still that pain of losing a friend she was unable to reduce. Since the time she wanted to cry in Virat's arms, she finally rested her head on his shoulder and intertwined her arm with his. At first surprised then happy, this act of hers made his anger disappear. He intertwined his fingers with hers.

« I always tried to understand you but you never wanted me to understand you. », he said once he felt she was feeling better.
« I did what I thought was the best for him. Wouldn't you do the same for your friend... Sunny Bhai for example ? », she asked still resting her head on his shoulder.
« I am sorry for what he went through but he stalked you and abducted you. How can you forgive him ? », he asked.
« I can forgive him but not forget what he did. », she said removing her head from his shoulder. «Today I have lost a friend, the only friend I have ever had. He was the only person I loved just after my Aaba », she added with her eyes welling up.

Virat was jealous that she loved only two people in her life and he was none of them, unknown to the fact that she was talking about the past.

« When you were in Satara, didn't you realize he was obsessed with you ? », he questioned.
« No Virat Sir, we were friends. This obsession is not real. It's in his head because he stopped taking his medicines. That's why I wanted to handle this on my own. This is not the real Saurabh. », she explained.
« But obsession doesn't show up like this if one doesn't have hidden feelings inside. Maybe you didn't notice it. », he said.
« Maybe he did have feelings for me but he never let it come out. To be honest having feeelings for someone is not a bad thing but imposing it on someone is. », she replied.
« Did you ever have any feelings for him ? », he finally asked.
« NO. », she cried out taken aback and disgusted.

She leaped up and winced in pain. He immediately got up to help her but she gestured him to stay away.

« You made friendship a joke but don't even dare to insult my definition of friendship. », she said furious.
« What joke ? Why do you always talk in such a disgusting way whenever you talk about my friendship ? And I am just asking because you both looked pretty close. I just wanted to know. », he said.
« Don't Virat Sir, DON'T. », she shouted at him. « Saurabh may have some mental issues but don't insult my friendly feelings for him. I rather see him as a brother and even that I don't want to because I don't like to mix up relationships. How could you even think that I would have feelings for him ? », she asked shocked.
« I don't know. The way I saw you two care about each other I just needed some clearance. », he said.
« Not because you hide some other kind of feelings behind friendship means I do the same. », she snarled at him.
« SAI. What are you talking about ? », Virat questioned her.
She closed her eyes and bit her lip then reopened them and let her tears stream down, « I am sorry, I am talking rubbish in anger. »
He cupped her face, « For God's sake tell me. This is not the first time you are accusing me of misusing friendship so speak up, Sai. »
She wiped away her tears, « I say stupid things when I am angry. Please, don't pay attention to my nonsense. »

She stepped back and walked to the bed. He sighed that she was again going back to her secretive self. He picked up the food tray and walked to the bed. He sat down in front of her. He fed her and waited Mohit to come with the medicines she was prescribed.

I am currently enjoying my days off so couldn't write a better chapter. It's quite a short one and I couldn't write it the way I wanted. I definitely wanted to write better goodbyes between Saurabh and Sai because both deserved that but that would have meant no update before a week. So I just wrote what I could. Sorry for the delay.

I hope you are satisfied with SaiRat's conversation. She tried to explain why she cared so much for her friend and he tried to know if she had feelings for him. He got his answers but ended up making her angry again. It amazes me how Virat is such a caring husband even though he is super pissed at her. And Sai after fighting with him will shamelessly accept to get fed by him.