RaghVi OS: Monster
I looked at her sleeping figure. She had her family photo clutched in her hands. It was difficult to remove it from from her hold. I removed it carefully. She scrunched her face as the thing was removed from her.
I looked at her face , she looked unhappy and dead inside. Eventhough she stood up against me every time. I knew that on the inside, she is dead the moment her family disowned her.
And I knew that I was the reason for it. I was the monster who destroyed her life. I forced her to leave everyone and come to me. I wanted her to suffer like my family did. I forgot every reasoning as it was about my family. I didn't even listen to her. I knew she wasn't that cruel but still my anger clouded my judgement. I went on with my revenge and destroyed her reputation and her family.
I with my hands dragged her to this hell. I enjoyed tormenting her , her pain was like my console, her tears were soothing me. Whenever I saw her , I could only remember the painful cries of Keerthi who was innocent and my amma's despair. I destroyed all her dreams . I even destroyed her store which she worked hard for .
I made her own family hate her. They even refuse to see her now. I know i isolated her from everyone. She has noone to rely on.
I got all I wanted. But reality shattered everything I did. Everything was plotted and done by her aunt Bada bindi. But I punished Pallavi for Bada Bindi's crimes. I destroyed that Bada bindi for her crimes. She would never dream to get near me and my family.
But still , I can't let Saree ka Dukhan know that I know everything. She was here just to save her kaku from the crimes she did. If she knows that everything is know then..
I feared that now that everything is known. If I reveal the truth, Saree ka Dukhan will leave me. I m just a monster in her eyes. She wouldn't let her chance to run away from me . I can't let her do that.
I can't do that. Eventhough she will be broken and become lifeless staying here. I can't let her go. The thought of her leaving me suffocates. Even in my imagination it makes me breathless. I can't let her go.
It's too late to reform myself. Even if I stay like a monster in eyes forever. I m ready for that. Even though I hate seeing her in pain, I love that she is with me.
Everyday I hear her crying, her crying hurts my heart but yet her breathing sounds console me that she is here with me. Even though, she doesn't concern abt me, her hate is enough for me to live in this dark world.
I yearn for her smile but I can't bring it back as I was the destroyer of it. I m just waiting for the one day, even as a monster I earn my place in her heart.
I know that I m truly a monster who just knows destruction. But still I want her to remember me forever. I want my name to be engraved in her heart forever. I can bring the whole world down for her but can't let her leave me for the world.
I looked at family photo. I knew that if her aai and Baba still stay here . If she knows the truth, she will escape to them. I can't let them stay here. I need to get them away from saree ka dukhan forever. So that she has noone to look for. She can only turn to me. She will only look at me.
Even if she falls , only I will be there to hold her. Even if she extends her hands for help, only I will be there to help her. Her everything will be just mine.
I took her to bed and stayed beside her. I caressed her face. Looking at her smile in sleep, I felt a ray of light coming in the dark world of mine. I traced her lips which were curved and bent down and gave her a kiss.
The kiss startled her and she pushed me away and said "kya kar rahe ho tum, Raghav. Mujhse dur raho. Mai tumhe dekhna tak nahi chathi"
As she said those words in anger, the monster inside me started rising. I said " saree ka dukhan, apni akhen kholo aur dekho. Yehan sirf mujhe hi dekhogi tum. Puri zindagi bar sirf mujhe"
Pallavi fell on her bed and cried "nahi. Iss acha tum mujhe truck se mar dethe , mai kut rahi hoon yehan"
Hearing that she wanted to die instead of living with me, my monster took over me.
I pinned her on the bed and said "Tumhe jeena hoga. Wo bhi mere saath puri zindagi .Ardham aiyendha "
Pallavi struggled under me, cried and shouted at him. But my monster didn't listen to her cries and pleas. I just hugged her and slept beside her while she cried to her sleep.
The last coherent thought in my mind was she is here with me today and will be with me forever. And I will make her my captive forever
The end~
P.s. I just had a random thought how would Raghav react after everything bad is done and he has destroyed Pallavi thinking that she is culprit and then he finds out his truth. I was listening to the exo song and got this inspiration.
Plz no chappals for this one!! No hate on our cutie Raghav too!!
Song inspiration :
Exo's monster :
With subs just for understanding of other who want to look into it
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