Some of you are upset with Sai and some with Virat. I would like to leave the question of why Virat wanted Sai to befriend Pakhi to another post or thread which is probably already created.
I am here with something that is more or like a flashback and an enlightenment of Virat's part in their relationship. I have written many posts about Sai and from her perspective as well but this is also something one should not ignore.
There was a time when I really enjoyed how Virat had started to grow close to Sai. How he used to observe her and was getting pulled by her. Really cute and sweet moments.
Like how he says "jaise tum geele baalon mein ghuma karti ho" or "chup rehthi ho toh aur bhi zyaada acchi lagti ho" or "tum hi ne toh kaha Virat sir ek minute rukiye" or even "bhoolo mat Sai Usha Maushi ke kamre mein chipkali hai".
Was fun to watch him enjoying his time with his wife, it all started on the day she managed to make everyone eat Shrikhand and poori served by her as part of a rasam.
He used to enjoy her style of dealing with things, started to look forward to spend time with her and get to know her through some meaningful conversations too.
Just as a child who is all excited to have found a good friend or partner in crime, while sharing his childhood story of throwing stones in the river with his cousin and uncle, asked her in a flow if she would like to go to the river with him.
He used to make calculated moves, been very careful because he knows Sai can trip any moment, he felt she dislikes him but even then never stopped to try his luck.
Just like how after she refused to go to see Naag Nadi with him, the first chance he gets, he jumps at it and says "ab tumhe pata chal gaya hai ki main itna bhi boora nahi hoon chalogi mere saath"?.
Oh god kitna cute aur sweet hai uska efforts. Jagda hua, teek hai but he kept making amends too throughout.
Even at the end of the fight on the day she saves Bua from those ladies, he stops near the door looking at the food tray and said "donon saath me toh dinner nahi kar paye, tum toh kha lo" and leaves. Yes she was about to ask him to have too but he leaves even before she could say.
The day Amay gets arrested, yes they had an ugly fight in the morning, both had their own reasons to be angry. But when he returned home he completely ignored water and food offered by someone and gets into his room and acts like a puppy boy when he sees his wife still awake at her desk.
He was angry the previous night, that morning and totally unaware of what he had done, how he had hurt someone (his wife), was in a mood to have a conversation with his wife. Starts telling what he had done and how he controlled himself to not do anything to that guy Amay.
Her mock anger, ignoring him to let him know that his behavior from that morning will not be let go off easily by giving him a silent treatment turned out to be ugly.
How did her cute mock anger, his excitement to talk to her, turned that ugly?
So be it, it was an interesting fight to watch, all the emotions that was bottled up in him were let out by him with no hesitation, he didn't hold himself back that night. His hurt, his feelings, his expectations were out that night.
"Pooch lo ki din kaisa gaya ya phir apne hi din ke baare me bata do", "kitni baar yaad dialaogi ki tumne yeh shaadi mazboori mein ki thi and tum mujhse pyar nahi karti thi", all these just threw a light on how he felt the entire time and what he wanted from this marriage.
Her hurt, complaints, his complaints, both wanting the same, each other's attention and care; both expressed it all.
Right at the moment when both claimed their position as husband and wife "patni hu main aapki" "pati hoon main tumhara" there was an intruder.
Their last words pati and patni were used and their marriage was questioned, challenged and ridiculed by the intruder.
The intruder was not aware of the storm brewing inside him and that the answer to all the questions directed towards him was something she would not be able to hear.
What will she know ki usey iss shaadi mein kya mila? All he wanted was this marriage to work and his wife Sai and she thought he wasn't happy and he made a mistake by marrying her. Their happy moments are their private moments and others don't even have a clue.
He was in no mood to answer her questions, his eyes was only on his wife. Some of the questions he himself wanted answers from his wife "why do you hate me, why do you always keep saying you will leave me, why don't you like me, can't we not spend some quality time together, will you really leave, won't you live with me".
Leaving aside a few inaction from his side with respect to his family and Pakhi which again is due to his nature, his way of tackling things and also the environment he grew up in, we cannot ignore the efforts he has always put in the relationship of him and Sai.
His care for Sai was always evident amidst fights too.
The way he looked at Sai's hand after the chilli grinding scene, talking to her through eyes, feeling her pain, and the way she was communicating to him, as though she would tell her Aaba. He felt her pain like how her Aaba would have, he was the one who raised her hands and checked them.
Yes, his dil ke acche parivaar waale were responsible for that state of hers, but he ensured she was dropped at college on her first day. He took up a responsibility and was fulfilling it without fail. Also dropping her not before healing her wounds with an ice pack.
Sai ka toh kya hai, she would have left by bus if our hero had not locked the car doors.
Holding her hand to stop her from leaving his room is one thing but this was another level, it was like now what will you do, you only do what you want but now you have to listen to me, let me attend to your wounded hands.
Did he just stop with ice pack, "mujhe meetha bahut pasand hai", how can he forget that. Mooh meetha karake with a chocolate and woh bhi "apne haathon se khilakar" he let her attend the first day in college.
Time and again he hears from her that she will leave his house after her studies and that day ofcourse after all she went through she just wanted to leave his house as soon as possible, one can't blame her but Virat who had absolutely no clue to what he was feeling or why he hated it whenever she says she will leave him tries as much as he can to make her stay.
He was subconsciously making her stay with him, not as how he thinks (wants to be a part of her journey in achieving her dreams) but instead was always trying to make her part of his life.
The very same person who told her that she was only his responsibility and he cannot become her husband and who also gave her an option of leaving him once she becomes a doctor was actually trying to hold on to the marriage, save his marriage from the very minute he got married to her.
It is very true "tumhara haath maine chodney ke liye nahi pakda Sai", he means it. He doesn't want to leave her, would never leave her.
The same person left her hand out of guilt and shame, because he held it by force and recalling her words "ab aap baat baat pe haath pakdenge aur zyaada gussa aa gaya toh kisi din haath thod hi de".
She sensed it, and gives her hands in his hands and gives him the haq and confidence to hold it and he held it silently thanking her and with joy.
A similar scenario when he tries to feed her but stops himself thinking he had crossed his line and that her tears were because he hurt her and withdraws his hand and she holds his hands and guides it to her mouth and let's him feed her.
Is it not true that he can also hold only if she let's him hold be it the hand or their relationship?
He will move close to her emotionally and physically only if he has her consent, will withdraw himself if he finds that his move is not welcomed or it is hurting her. That also only shows his love, care and concern for her.
Love cannot be forced on anyone, has to be willingly accepted even if cannot be reciprocated.
Expecting it to be reciprocated is a human tendency, very natural. Virat will be happy even if she just accepts him. He might try to win her love in the future, he might get disappointed and hurt if she is not able to love him but that will not stop him from loving her.
"Mujhse bhi nahi?" a question or his need to be loved. The way he smiles and accepts her reply "aapke sapnon mein" as if saying okay you are not there yet but atleast you are okay for it to be true in my dreams and I will wait for it to become true.
His constant need to check if she has reached atleast the stage of liking him if not loving him.
"Toh tumhe Kaunsa Virat pasand hai 1 ya 2" and when she replies koi nahi, his disappointment and then his question "Arey kyun".
When both are in good mood, when he finds that she is nice to him, not indifferent with him, he has always been able to ask her, probe her about him, about what he feels for him and tries to make her realise what this relationship means to him.
All this is when he has not even realised his feelings for her.
His jealousy, insecurity "aakhir aisa kya hoga uss ladke mein" arising due to the fact that he was never paid attention to, because he was once hated by her, his company was not seeked, looked forward to and due to lack of recognition.
Though that is not true, he was not made aware of it, it was all within the confines of her wall which he is not able to break. How true is his words "uss dewar ko kabhi paar nahi kar paayenge".
To him it looks like her ego and arrogance, more than ego it is self defense and in the process, she acts ruthless and adds another layer of wall between them.
Wall can be tried to be broken but only when the other person is in a state to do it.
When you break a person, break him not just by acting indifferent but through harsh words, by using words that cuts like a knife "mujhe aapse dosti karni hi nahi hai", "mujhe nahi lagta kabhi bhi aisa din aayega" to the statement "ek din hum bhi dost ban jaaye" what can be expected from him.
He accepted defeat not because he cannot pursue her but because he was broken "ab isse zyaada mein aur kuch nahi boloonga aur na hi bola jaayega".
A person who is already broken will not be in a position to break the walls. Guards have to be lowered by her, even if she doesn't lower her guards, she can ensure she doesn't hurt him or insult him, she doesn't break him whatever be the reasons she has.
All this is right after how he tried to have a conversation with her.
I am amused with Virat's antics day by day. He wants to hold her, likes the touch, doesn't want to lose contact with her and then wants to continue talking to her.
Ab agar sawaal ka jawaab patha tha toh poocha hi kyun Virat ne. "Tumhe kya lagta hai ki unki shaadi kaise karni chahiye" excited for his sister, happiness thinking about her future and at the same time excited to engage in this conversation with his wife. Likes to plan it with his wife whom he knows would like to do because of her love for his sister.
Similar to how he liked to plan his trip with her, packing clothes in the same bag "mere kapde apne bag mein daal dena". He always tries to bring that oneness in them.
He had a plan about his sister's wedding in his mind and how should it all be done; in a simple way not like how Sai suggested "dhoom dham se", but he still liked to ask her opinion, to involve her in this, to plan together.
It gives him pleasure to become a team and act as a team. Now that he got an opportunity to plan a wedding for his sister with his wife, he was very excited. He would have been excited to plan his sister's wedding anyway but when we have a partner with whom we can share and plan, is it not more exciting?
He was taken by surprise when she had applied alta for his well being or when she had got him food at the hospital, he thought he didn't mean anything to her.
His admission "aai ke alava aise kisi ne bhi nahi khilaya". Well that would not have been the case if he had let someone feed him, his friend tried to feed him and he walked away saying he doesn't feel like having food and asked her not to force him.
Aai ke alava someone did want to feed him but he didn't let her. The same "mann nahi kar raha" wouldn't have been the case if it was his wife Sai trying to feed him.
So it meant a lot to him and cherished the feeling of getting fed by his wife Sai. Sai surprised him by bringing him food after somehow finding his whereabouts at the middle of the night. She also gave him an emotional support that he was in need of.
He was curious as how she found where he was in the middle of the night. He was shocked to know she got the information from his superior "DIG sir ne bataya", "tumne seedhe DIG sir ko call kar diya?". But then he started to smile, felt very happy. He knows she can go to any lengths for people whom she likes or cares for and was very happy to now be in that radar.
Such care and support lent to him was something that he didn't even expect. He has expected her to acknowledge his actions or to give him some attention but has never expected her to do anything for him. Is it not a big thing that he does many things for her but has not expected anything in return for himself?
His expectations from her with respect to his family members is only so that she can settle down in the house peacefully and they can all live together happily.
Yes, he has failed many times, failed to understand or know the truth a couple of times, failed to know who was at fault actually but whenever the whole picture was in front of him, he could see it himself or when he witnessed it, he has never failed to stand by her or support her.
He understood that she was denied food. Even when others were trying to lie, he looked at her. When Kaku claimed something and her mouthing "jooth", not even telling out loud, he noticed that and understood that his Kaku was lying. He fought for her and also reprimanded his family for their actions.
The same thing happened with his brother, saw his wife fighting for his brother and stood with her was justifying his wife to his family members. How he adored his wife when she was feeding his brother.
He did stand up to his family members, fought with them during the trip fiasco too. He even tells them "itni kadwahat mat rakhiye apne dil mein uske liye". This is the same person bua once pointed out that he never speaks to his Baba like that. Was fighting for his wife and requesting them to not hate her when his wife was not even present there.
When everyone objects to the idea of Sai joining him and Pakhi to Ladakh, he even asks his Kaku, you feel bad for Pakhi that she is all alone and is very sad "yahi cheez aap Sai ke liye kyun nahi sochthi" , why doesn't no one think about her happiness.
He is well aware of the state of Sai, how she is also very sad and depressed from the time she lost her Dad "tab se leke aaj tak Sai ke zindagi mein sirf dukh hi dukh hai". This shows how he was always aware of this fact, how he always knew and understood her position even though he kept asking her to adjust with his family members.
Amidst all the chaos and indifferences, he has never ignored her condition. It can be seen how considerate he has been when he asked them "Kya Sai bhi uss thodi si khushi ki, aaram ki haqdar nahi hai".
These are not things Sai shared with him. These can only come from a person who thinks about the other person, who thinks about their welfare, their happiness and who can also sense their pain even without being shared.
Yes, he did act a victim a little later by asking both the ladies to cut his neck, he again failed in some way, couldn't understand how to tackle the issues in front of him, all he wanted was to reach the airport on time and nothing else mattered to him at that point of time.
But his mistakes cannot overshadow what he feels for Sai and how caring and thoughtful he has been that he felt she deserves happiness.
The very recent development - from I won't leave this house that was told on the day of Sai's admission it has come to I will also leave the house if Sai cannot stay here. "Aapne mere saamne koi raasta hi nahi choda hai". It shows that he does not want to accept anything else as a solution to their problem. If I am your "eklautha beta" she is your "eklauthi bahu". Strong statement, doesn't it say she is only one for me or will ever be in my life.
He is talking about the same person to whom he had once said I had promised to someone else that I won't give anyone else her place". He has now said everyone that he will never be able to give anyone else the place of Sai.
This takes me back to the talks of wedding and GC days.
How can we forget that he made the journey of Sairat interesting and forthcoming. Their past was very interesting due to many reasons.
We have seen how Virat gets annoyed or disturbed at the mere mention of her leaving him.
Right when he gives her an option of leaving him once she becomes a doctor in the car (without a thought on the consequences), he gets disturbed when he hears her accepting the offer rather than her getting disturbed by it.
"Tum mujhe chodke jaa sakthi ho" and he smiles at her while giving her this offer. The offer was something he never meant and also was told in the spur of the moment to make her feel at ease when she was going through hardships.
He had told her that he was marrying her because he had promised her Dad and also told her that it was not a normal marriage and he had promised someone else and can only take her responsibility.
While telling all this he knew how difficult and how cruel it would be to a girl who had just lost her Dad and who was forced to get married.
How difficult and painful it would be for Sai to get married to him who had set so many conditions and also because he has a past. So he thought that he will make her feel better by giving her an option of moving out of this relationship if she wants to.
Little did he know that he was a digging a grave for himself by doing so. He was brought out of his thoughts the very next minute when she says "aap chahe toh abhi bhi U turn sakthe ho" and he hits the brakes in hurt, annoyance, anger and helplessness which creeped in him unknowingly.
He didn't know what he was doing and what he was getting into, she was very clear with what she wanted which was something that really bothered him.
Him being an emotional person, it was very appealing that she was so head strong and never wavered or let anyone affect her. Her facade was so strong that it was almost invisible always, even now.
He never got a clue of what she was thinking and what she wished for and that she was even hurt by his revelation and conditions.
Their journey was made beautiful by push and push from both the sides.
He pushes, she puts up a strong face and accepts the push and pushes him further, that's how their journey has been since the beginning.
Her push actually pulled him towards her, he felt a pull, it made him hold onto her and his hold is getting tighter day by day but yes as he once said there would be a time where he might break like the rubber band if the push is too severe.
Her push, his hold has to somehow get balanced only if she eventually stops the push and if she also tries to hold it from her end.
Yes, he has some loose ends to fix but when that is done, both should work on their marriage, should respect and value each other.
Sorry guys, a very very long post, didn't plan to but couldn't help it.
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