It's early morning 4am and it's again the dawn of a new day and a new beginning yet again. It's been three years passed and everything seems doomed yet virtuous. Time flies away just like a sand slipping from our firm grip, we can't hold it back. With the passage of time everything changes relationships, appearance, someone's affection level, but what remains constant is our destiny which is written well in advance. Once we smile through our teeth, now it has fallen to just a wave of hand. But all through this twist and turns, only memories remain. Sweet and heartwarming memories with a pinch of bitterness. Time flies away, moments turn memories, expectations fade away but life moves forward. I stood up from the bed by gently caressing Aditi's forehead, who is sleeping next to me. I went near the window, where the clear sky with no stars looks gloomy but the cool morning breeze awestruck me with the ray of hope that it's going to rise soon.. I stood in trance viewing lonely birds flying high in the sky.
"Zindagi ki Ek raat dil ne dimag se pucha, jo Badal raha kya wo 'waqt' hai? waqt to Aaj bhi waisa he hai jaisa pehele hota tha wohi savera wahi sham aur baki cheezein tamam. Par tab naa jhaagnese lagta tha darr aur naa sone se, aur wo apno ki shrarate tamam Jinki yaad bhar se aa jati hai hothon pe muskan. Par ab aisa kya hua jeevan ki iss Dagar mein kahan bhatak gaye inn jhuthe reet riwazo mein?. Kaise jeevan ke Arth badalte gaye waqt ke reet ke saath saath. Hawa ke jharokon se kashti hilti gayi aur waqt k sath mein bhi badlti gayi aur yeh zindagi chalti rahi. Pal pal nayi hasratein, har pal naye khawab boonti gayi apno ke liye aur yeh zindagi chalti gayi. Raah mein manzar toh bahut aaye,bulate rahe mujhe mere saaye, mein toh ek pal ke liye ruk si gayi,par yeh zindagi chalti gayi. Yaadon ke saaye mein zinda *** abhi, lagta hai tham sa gaya main *** mein kahin. Par zindagi bewafa safar si nikli, mein toh rukhi reh gayi aur yeh chalti gayi. Zindagi har pal apne arth badalti rahi hum hanste rahe chahein rote rahe. Par woh apni raftaar se bas behati rahi. kabhi ban ke sawal ,kabhi ban ke uttar, woh hamein har mod par milti rahi. Hum toot teh rahe,bikharate rahe, Fir khud hi ghirr ke sambhalte rahe, aur zindagi yuhn hi jalti bhujti rahi. Ghum mile kuch is tarah ki ghum hi ghum na lage, khushiyon ki aarz bhi hamein ghum ban ke milti rahi. Kya kare kisi se shikwa, kya kare kisi se shikayat, Apne hi kismat jab Ruth thi rahe. Toh saans meri har pal ghutati rahi, Bas zindagi yuhn hi chalti rahi. Har pal apne arth badalati rahi aur yeh zindagi meri bas chalti rahi", I affirmed to myself seeing the family picture on the wall.
I went and sat on the bed beside Aditi taking up my precious locket embedded with my parents pictures,"Kya khoya kya paaya fir, jab jeevan madhur umang nahi, Jisse pag-pag chalna sikha, unka hi jab sang nahi. Kya khoya kya paya fir, Ek roz ek kiran dikhakar, aankho ko roshan tha kiya, Rang birangi chandni se fir, mantramugdh mann bhi tha kiya, Socha raat kabhi na hogi, na hoga kabhi sunaapan, Chandni ka to pata nahi par, Chandni ka to pata nahi par, Ab to saans bhi sang nahi. Kya khoya kya paaya fir, jab jeevan madhur umang nahi, Jisse pag-pag chalna sikha, unka hi jab sang nahi. Kya khoya kya paya fir, Ek sunehri shaakh dekhkar, upwan saara saja baithe, Apne armano ki khatir, sabke armaa jala baithe, Dheere dheere rahi utarti, swarn parat fir shaakh ki, Waqt guzarta raha to jaana, waqt guzarta raha to jaana, usme apna rang nahi. Kya khoya kya paaya fir, jab jeevan madhur umang nahi, Jisse pag-pag chalna sikha, unka hi jab sang nahi. Kya khoya kya paya fir, Laga samay par jaan gaye ab, is jeevan ka raaj bhi hum, Jo seedha seedha dikhta hai, Hai uljha aur bhare hain kham, Jo uljha uljha dikhta hai, Hai vishaal aur tang nahi. Kya khoya kya paaya fir, jab jeevan madhur umang nahi, Jisse pag-pag chalna sikha, unka hi jab sang nahi, Kya khoya kya paya fir", I gently shed some tears wandering of loneliness.around and remembered Anmol Ji's words
"Udhaas lamhon ki na koi yaad rakhna..
Toofan mein bhi wajood apna sambhal ke rakhna..
Kisi ki zindagi khushi ho tum Pooja..
Bas yehi soch ke tum apna khayal rakhna"...!
Soon, after reminiscing his words, I wiped out my hears. I went to get ready and within a few minutes, I took a bath and dressed up for the day. But, some sort of displeasure wrenched my heart as I filled my maang with vermilion. After that, I woke up Aditi to get ready. And we both rushed downstairs where Bua was already waiting for us with a smile. Quickly, I went to Kitchen and sent tea to mens of the house with Vimla Maasi's hand.
It's time for morning prayers as now everyone is used to my morning bhajan. After finishing when I turned towards the back, the whole family was there. I offered aarti and prasad to Bua and sought her blessings. I fed Prasad to Aditi and gave one to her to hand it over to his Papa.
Before Abir Ji leaves for his Office, he imperated me to come to the office by 9. Yess, now I'm a working woman and a homemaker too. Working as a draft supervisor in Abir ji's company. I quickly went to Kitchen to prepare breakfast and got things ready for lunch as Bua ji will be alone in the home. " Acha! Bua ji maine aapke liye aur Aditi naashta laga diya hai. Aap log kha lijiye. Main office ke liye tayar hojati hoon", I affirmed Bua ji and went to my room.
After getting ready, I went downstairs. "Bua ji, maine Dopeher ka khana bana diya hai. Maine Vimla maasi se keh diye. Agar Kisi bhi cheez ki zarurat ho toh mujhe bula lijiye. Main Aditi ko chodh kar seedha office chali jaungi. Aur haan sham ko thodi der ho jayegi woh court jaa rahi hoon, Woh Anmol Ji…par main jaldi aa jaungi. Aap fikar mat kijiye. Chalo Aditi", holding Aditi's hand, I rushed to drop Aditi to school "Dhyaan se jaana Aditi aur shaam ko ghar jaake Dadi Bua ko pareshaan mat karna, theek hai, I gave her a tight hug and paved my way to office directly from there…
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