Kaira:An open letter

Hi,Hope you guys remember me.How are you all?

It's a very big big chappy.Read your own risk.Actually i write this to divert my mind.You can relate to this as we have same feelings.

Pardon me for the unwanted mistakes.

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"I always wanted to be a daughter of the house.But all of you wanted me a perfect daughter in law in me.Belief me I will try my best level to become a perfect daughter in law.But I failed miserably.

Alas!I neither become a perfect daughter of the house nor a perfect daughter in law.

I wondered what's my position in this big house.Who I am to you????

In this long ten years I couldn't secure a permanent position in this house.I was being used like a doormat.

Hmmm.Noo...Nobody tried to even protest or disagree or deny.First ask yourself who i am to you??

If you could consider me a daughter then I couldn't be ousted from this house several time whatever the situation was.

Aren't you love me????

Nowadays I think my position of this house like a servent.I had to do my job i.e. to look after the family.If I had done a good job I got the licence to stay but when I had done mistake you didn't take one second to fire me from the job;from family.

From the day of the marriage I struggled to find a place in this house.

All of you tried to imposed your rules,thought and expectations on me.Have you ever been tried to know what I wanted or expected from you?

Of course no.All of you were always busy to fulfill your own demand and expectations on me;Be it kartik or mauuma-papa or dadi.

Before marriage I couldn't dream about my new life.How could I think?Maa took promise to unite her broken family.And my husband who now loves his family most then he hates his family let alone stay in one roof.

I spoilt my marriage function like sangeet,mehindi and haldi.Without his permission I invited his parents as I knew they loved him.I tolerated his narajigiri.

I couldn't silent when aditya gi exploited and misbehaved with kirti di.I couldn't remain silent.In return what did I get?

Dadi tried to cut my wings on my marriage day.In the name of shuv muhorat she proceed the bidayee farewell time.She asked me to stay in a limit.

Sometimes to satisfy dadi's wish I spoilt Our relations.

I tried my best to please her.What not I had done.Still I failed.I tried to balance my work and home.But dadi always intentionally create a hurdle for me.Even my work didn't appreciated.

Kartik didn't want to join family businesses or live with family.But blamed imposed on me.But have you forgotten from the starting he avoided family his own stupid reason?

To unite him with his family i do every thing possible.I do drama to stay goenka hose.I tolerated his naraji...

He was so furious when he came to know maa's mental problem.He even left d house in anger on my first teej day.But later when he got the proof he make up with me giving me a surprise.

That's my reward.

I was happy to think that I got a family.Alas!It was never my family.I wish I could understand it long before.

I still Could remember the death of subham.When he was death,everybody pointed on me without knowing anything.Maa refused to look at me same as my so called husband.He asked me to leave.He even didn't look at back in two years...

When destiny bring us Mumbai and we meet I think everything gonna perfect.I can sense the spark.

But i was so worng.When maa met accident he said i am nothing but a mere student and nothing is between us.So I decided to let him free and took the initiative of divorce and without saying anything he singed those papers.

Have he ever tried to know my situation???

I could remember the day when papa called a mere ladki from beta.If he ever been thought my situation he couldn't utter those word.Didn't he know why I left the house??????

Akil uncle-surekha chichi claimed me love me...but to safe her son chachi proved me liar and to hide uncle illegal affair he hide about my existence.

Who cares for me...??May be nobody...

When I was not there they didn't take time to give my place to vedika.Even in my present my family send teej platter for her.

After all I am EX wife of kartik goenka.

How fluently he could utter those word in hospital...?He claimed he loved me most.Then why did he fail to detected my present.I was nearby him.He got so many hints.Even when aditya gi kept telling I was alive he even didn't search me.

When I came back to stop marriage i heard he was ready to get married and so I didn't stop d marriage.

But accusation goes to me...But what did he say that night?He had doubted on my loyality.How could he think like that???

Didn't he love me???Then what type of love is this?Where every time he doubted on me,accused on me for everything.No matter what is happened always I mean to be blamed.

And the cruel reality is that it's kartik who first pointed his finger on me

He claimed he love me most but when its comes about family he forgot me.He forgot his big big claimed, promised,vowed etc.

I could still remember the day when I first left the house on kirti di's farewell day.He even didn't stop me.He thought I let di to a unwanted marriage with my vai.

This was just the beginning.In our ten years of marriage life I was out of this house 7 years.And sad to say in these three years i have to adjust everyday in ever manner.Be it about my dress,education, dance,work, thought etc.Even they didn't think twice to determine about my child sex identity.

But still I thought he loved me.But I was worng.He never loved me.And that's why his anger, ego always triumph over his love and i have to leave this house once again.

He accused me for his papa's mental state.But what i really want to know what will he do if I weren't that position..

He said whether i felt guilty or not???Didn't he know me?He wants his papa back? But everybody forgot about my mumma.

He accused me that everything is happened only because of me.Papa had gone outside for my dance Academy.

But didn't he know I don't know about that.I gave them my mumma's last sign but in return i got this.

May be this is my punishment.I deserved this.I snatched my papa's right to punish the offender of mumm's death.To maintain family peace i forgave mansi.May be that's why God punished me.

They refused to think it's an unintentional accident.How can they think on favour me?????I was just a mere object for them.

Everybody was silent there when he draged me,accused me and asked me to leave.

It's vai took only stand FOR me. But sad to say family gets divided and engaged fight amongst each other.

This is my position.

Picture was perfect when I was only blamed.This word blame only made for me and thati why

Ma can be forgiven though she hide about shubaham's birth

And i can't be forgiven though i learn about shuban's addiction case one day before his death.

Kartik can be forgiven though he accused me unreasonably be it my loyaity.Nobody dared to ask or blame him why did he do this?How could he think like this?Why did he hide the allegations matter to family and what lead me to take this drastic step.

Mansi can be forgiven but I can't.

Never ever you claim you love me.You don't love me.How can be you love me where you don't belief me,trust me,understand me and most importantly love me.You don't love me.If love me you support me,trust me,belief me,try to understand my situation and most importantly don't accuse me.

You don't love me...Don't ever dare to claim you love me.

We are like the platform of station.We aren't mean to be together.

According to you I am a run away girl.Once again u make me run.But this time I ain't broken.I know who am i to you and my position in my family..no my family.. It will be your family.

In childhood i left the house as i was insecure about my parents love and misunderstood them but this time I leave this house as i know nobody isn't here for me.I am just a mere object here who meant to be for blame only.

Right now can anyone say he/she truly loves me or who I am to them or where is my position in their life...Is there anyone?????

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Hope you like it....I stopped watching this toxic show.It becomes crap.Kartik Goenka,a horrible person.Credit goes to writer.Vyasbhavna can't write anything except a multiple number of marriage and divorce scene.There is no development in any character.There is no creativity in writing.There is no positivity in the show.