It all started after the cat mouse task. You could see a change in Sid's body language thereon. Unfortunately Sana realised she loves Sid after that. And started expressing when she realised she is losing him. But by this time Sid has seriously developed mistrust about her. But he stayed cordial and judged every move of her without showing that he loves her too. Sana kept on trying for month now, but sid didn't budge. He used to make remarks about her being disloyal and untrustworthy since that incident, but they were in lighter vein and sana used to laugh it off. Like the one he said "Sana hi bigg boss hai, usko entertainment chahiye, sar ke upar sabko ek room de degi when she said ki main tujhe apne sar pe baitha ke rakhna chahti hu". We might take it lightly but such things kept on building in Sana's head. They both understand clearly what the other is trying to say.(that's a diff story that the audience kept on finding other meanings and thought sana is a gadhi). Then She went all explicit with her love confessions and physical display of affection. Still Sid didn't budge. Reason- his serious trust issues on Sana. It went on loop for 4 weeks now. Sana kept on trying and he kept on judging every word/action of hers.
Then during nomination task when he saved arti. Sana felt "ki wo darwaza mere muh pe pada ek baar phir". She felt Paras used to say i like u but kept on saving mahira. I know there is a difference in both the scenarios and sana should understand the difference between sid and paras's intentions but the thing here is what sana 'felt'. The emotion of abandonment once again, which has been her problem since childhood.
Then came the garden convo when he said ki "gaanth band le ki bahar nahi milunga". It was a very strong statement and sana knew he is dead serious. It's not about guessing anymore if they love eachother or not (they know they both do). But the decisions has been made. Sid doesn't trust her and he made it clear on her face. "Ki tu maa baap ki sagi nahi toh kisi aur ki kya hogi". Past 2 days were deciding factor for Sana. She got all her answers why Sid was not reciprocating her love. So she lost it during yesterday's task.
I have followed their journey since the beginning and has read almost every page on Sidnaaz DT since the first day. People here has been so hopeful and happy. I have been in depression since 2 years coming out of a very intense rlsnhp myself and finally since last 3 months i was able to take my mind off all the things that were happening in my life coz of sidnaaz. They gave me immense happiness and a distraction which worked well for me. Seeing two complete opposite individuals falling in love on a show like this for the first time on tv, they were kind of restoring my faith in true love and destiny once again. But yesterday was heartbreaking. Love is all about trust and not giving up when going gets tough. Sadly that is the problem with today's generation. There will be one who will give up even when the other don't. And the one who don't give up will be broken beyond repair when reality finally slaps them. It kind of makes them question their belief system for life. I can see that happening with Sana.
I am sure Sid is in pain too and has been hurt in his past (that's why trust issues) but then the way he handled his equation with sana after all the experiences is immature on his part. Sana, on the other hand felt all things that she went through in her life being confirmed again. She will be abandoned again and again even after how hard she tries. My heart goes out to her. Sid has said "tere jaisi self centered ladki ko kya farak padega wild cards se" (in usud), "tera tere alawa aur kissey pyar hai". Sid always knew she keeps herself first and still fell for her. Then why the hell you are giving up now, you idiot. Please don't. It breaks my heart seeing someone giving up on the person they love knowing very well what they got themselves into. He instead should have hugged her and asked her why her "vyahvar" is like that. What all happened in your life, tell me. I will soothe your pain. Let me heal you and in return she could have healed him. Sid never shared anything about his life as sana said. So she doesn't know what all happened with him but still she embraced him knowing about his drug addiction (even when her ex was a drug addict and she had a disturbed rlsnhp with him). Imagine the girl again fell in love with a man with similar problems and still didn't judge and was ready to embrace him without knowing anything about him. On the other hand, sid knew many things about her life and he judged her on the basis of that. He knew she keeps herself above anyone else. He still fell for her, then keep upto that dude. This is what has hurt me personally. Doesn't matter what taunting and jealousy games they played. What nasty words they uttered. Both were equally hurt by the other. So scores get equal.
But it was about not giving up on the other when the time came. And they gave up.
It's good for them, that it happened early on. But as a girl who has loved someone for 10 years without giving up and get abandoned in the end, I feel let down once again in my life.
To all the people here, whenever you fall in love, please don't give up when the going gets tough. Instead try healing the other.
P.S: sorry for my rant but i needed to get it out of my system. Like sid, I also invested my time and emotions in them
Edited by soulstarspirit - 6 years ago