Ab sapne nahin dekhungi

The episode starts from a very important and aesthetically shot scene, on one hand MJ is praying to Maa Durga and pouring the milk over her murti while on the other side Maya is getting rid of the dirt on her clothes and herself. For me it spoke about how MJ has done horrible things in the past and continues to do so if someone challenges him but on the front he is always trying to wash all that off from his name/image. And on the other side Maya till date is trying to wash all those memories off herself but still hasn't managed to do succeed. Like the saying goes 'people aren't always how you see them on the outside' and that is the truth in this story. Maya has to guard her soft side to be able to guard from the past demons while MJ always hides behind the mask of a great religious human-being. But now that is going to change because the his past deeds are coming back to get back at him for every ounce of pain.

Maya's conversation with lord krishna have always been very open. It broke my heart when she says that last night when she let her guard down with Rudra, there was a small hope of light in her heart, which is something we all saw that she did wish for him to come back to her but while she was hoping for the light, she failed to see the darkness...Ankit attacking her. For her it was a like a reminder that she cannot fall in the pit of 'love' again which almost completely ruined her last time!! Now consciously she doesn't want to even step in that direction at all but can anyone really blame her? It takes a lot to mend broken trust but it must take a lot more to mend a broken person...Maya has seen the worst phase in a very early phase of her life when she was the happiest therefore the scars are deeper. The way she hugged her mother today and held her tight was yet again showing us her vulnerability. She is very scared of losing the battle or anyone close to her anymore...therefore she has even decided to not dream any longer about maybe a happy ending at all.

Rishi and Maya's conversation for the first time didn't make me cringe. Maybe I'm also starting to like Rishi a little these days, it does seem like he is growing up. Maya asked him to go and reveal to his dad about him wanting a marry a girl whose ten years older to him in age and her condition was that you will tell him my name only if he agrees...which I believe she had already known the answer which is why she was packing the bag in advance. But I must say the way Rishi stood up to his father today for the respect of the girl he is in love with won my heart. Also I totally understand his frustration whenever he is again and again reminded about being a kid...because he isn't taken seriously which is ridiculous.

Now I did agree with all that MJ had to say to Rishi about marrying someone below your status or above your status brings in all kinds of issues...either you will bring the person down or they will bring you down. And MJ it seems you're the only person in the house whose brain cells do work. The fact he can read his sons brain/state of mind is quite impressing. He can tell that Rishi has been convinced to raise the topic of marriage and Rudra's decision is also something he can pinpoint isn't very concrete. Whereas the rest in the family seem to be completely delusional...no one is bothered about how unhappy Rudra looks which again he isn't even trying to cover up and I like that about him.

When Maya hears about Rudra's decision of proposing to Ananya and he says that he won't change his decision...Maya says that you have changed the route...I'm not quite sure how to feel about it but was she expecting something else? Anyhow but then she was one the who decided to invite him and the minute he saw her text...there was some hope in his heart too. He arrives outside her door and is rehearsing how he will ask her about if she was feeling the same emotions as him last night...I was like wow he actually still is wanting to ask her about her feelings. On the other side Maya was standing exactly where in the initial episodes, she used to write her diary about her revenge but after last night that spot also has a new sweet memory!!

While she is standing there and gets to know about Rudra's arrival, she is ready to keep her focus on her revenge plan and let last night be declared as a mistake but as she comes down there is a change in her body language. Maya and Rudra both have been affected by last night's closeness however they're both at different junctures...she is here trying to keep her focus on her mission and he is trying to know her feelings so that he can revaluate his choice.

The whole conversation between Mayra was very well-executed. I really liked how Rudra didnt't stop himself from speaking about what was going in his head although he was interrupted by Maya many times. And just like Maya had decided she declared last night as a mistake and in mere words 'kuch nahin hua'. The shift in both their emotions and expressions said everything that the words failed to do so. The main dialogue of this episode for me was surely Maya's dialogue about 'how you meet the wrong people at the right time and the right people at the wrong time'. Mayra would have been something else had these two meet each other 10 years back but the time decided something else for them. Maya probably believes Rudra is the right person for her as she had spoken about hope but at this point she cannot and will not allow herself to cherish these new found emotions which can bring her momentarily happiness.

Rishi and MJ's argument just got more heated on the other side and for the first time I feel Rishi has seen his father losing control of his emotions. He felt that all of a sudden my father is praising his elder brother who has issues with him so does that mean he doesn't love me? I honestly don't want to comment on the new promo but I can say this for sure that no matter what Maya is in pain also while giving Rishi pain...she isn't getting any sadistic pleasure. I personally don't want Rishi to die but this is not my story....I will wait for the episode. However I really wish that Maya does find her peace which I don't see her getting if she just continues to tread on this path...yes she should seek justice in her way but also be at peace in the end.

Every characters has turned a blind eye to Rudra so writers can drag this ridiculous plot. Mj noticed something is wrong but he is too occupied with rishi at the moment.

Despite the promises maya makes to herself, the truth is that she has fallen for rudra. Now even though she will shun him, the sudden news of his proposal to ananya hurt her because she is human and she feels something for rudra. Maya is still fierce in her pursuit of Justice and revenge but as we've seen yesterday, she will stumble when she stands front of rudra.

That is so true, everyone has turned blinded when it's about Rudra. MJ noticed it but of course like everytime I find him doing so for his own benefit and controlling nature.

Maya definitely melts in front of Rudra no matter how hard she tries, but again she is also a normal person...the naive loving maya hasn't completely diminished and these two just connect on a another level for various reasons. And now it's about for long will these two be able to go on like this...I do support Maya in her revenge agaisnt MJ but the end should be about her happiness....don't want the revenge leaving her all the more broken.