Why do I have to suffer this anguish?

It's been months since you left me. It's been weeks since you left this big scar inside me. It's been days since you left a big hole here in my heart. I know I should be thankful for the 3 years of you loving me, but leaving me in pain, leaving me not knowing what your reason was is like dying for a thousand times. Why do I have to suffer this anguish? Why do I have to experience this torment? Please explain. I need your reasons and explanations. I still need you. I still love you and will always do. Please come back. Please...